Oh Baby

"Don't even say it, I'm leaving." Callie says when she looks up to see Addison and Amelia entering the doctor's lounge. She starts picking up her things and shoving them into her bag.

"Callie, wait, I just wanted to say something." Addison says moving towards her and placing a hand on her shoulder.

"I realize that this whole situation is out there, even for this place, I mean we've had some crazy shit go down here. But this? I haven't had a chance to discuss it with Richard, but I have no clue how this happened. What on earth were they thinking to place that young resident here of all places? How can she be expected to learn when she's surrounded by people affected by her mistakes? As for your relationship with her, look, I know that you have a huge heart and I love that about you but you have to realize not everyone does especially when a Derek took part of it with him." Addison softly explains.

"Don't you think that I have those same feelings? I can barely look at her when she's wearing scrubs without thinking of him. He was my friend. I loved him, I am a better surgeon for having known him and worked alongside him, but I care for her. We all made mistakes as residents and some of us even made mistakes that cost people their lives, her mistake just happened to be someone that we know." Callie replies tearfully.

Amelia watches her go and sits down on the couch. "Damn, it was easier to be angry at her before I knew how much she loved Derek." She remarks.

"Well, she has a point. But I still don't agree with the placement." Addison replies turning to Amelia. "What did Richard say when Meredith asked him why she was here?"

"You should ask her about that. She was so pissed when she told me, I can't really explain it." Amelia replies. "Hey don't you have a consult over in the OB wing?"

"Yeah, I do. Look, I'll catch up with you later. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I was supposed to stay with Callie this weekend, but well, I don't know if either of us want to do that now." Addison admits.

"Let me know, I'd offer you a place to crash, but I'm living at Meredith's now. And if you wanted an awkwardly uncomfortable weekend, you could just stay with Torres." Amelia points out.

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Arizona quickly slips off her clothes, then takes a minute to examine her body. Her breasts are definitely fuller and she thinks that she's getting thicker around the middle, even her ass is filling out. There's not quite a baby bump yet, but she can tell that it's only a matter of time. Pulling on the gown, she readies herself and then steps into the treatment room.

"Are you ready?" Addison asks as she watches her cross the room nervously and lay on the table.

"Yes, go ahead." Arizona replies glancing over at April, who takes the cue to come over and take her hand.

"Dr Miller," Addison says nodding at the OB to begin the exam, while Addison stands behind her observing the two women. She knows that they've both been through a lot and it's remarkable that either of them is here right now, but hopefully a successful pregnancy for Arizona will give Kepner the push she needs to try again.

"Hey baby," Addison says when the fetus comes into view.

Arizona takes a deep breath when she sees the baby. "How does he look Addison?" She asks.

"Dr Miller?" Addison prompts the OB to answer the question.

"Arizona, everything looks perfect." She replies then takes a moment to point out the important things to note at 8 weeks. Then she reaches over and turns up the volume on the speaker so they can hear the heartbeat.

"Okay, so now we talk about Prenatal testing. I am recommending the Nuchal Fold Scan in two weeks." Addison says moving to the blonde's side.

"What about CVS?" Arizona asks.

"I don't think you should risk it, besides we did genetic profiles on you and the donor prior to insemination, greatly reducing the need for amniocentesis testing." Addison reminds her. "Now let's bring your parents in here and let them see the baby, okay?" Addison nods to Kepner who steps out to get them.

"Mr and Mrs Robbins, I'd like you meet your grandbaby." Addison says as Dr Miller moves the ultrasound wand across Arizona's abdomen again to show them.

"Well, these things sure have changed. Look at that honey," Daniel replies leaning in to look at the baby on the screen. 'Wait, is that the heartbeat?" He asks surprised.

"Yes, Dad the heart isn't fully formed yet, but that is the heartbeat." Arizona replies.

"You do surgery on babies like this?" Barbara asks.

"No, there's not a lot we can do at 8 weeks." Addison replies stepping in and changing the subject, "So the next text will be in two weeks, Dr Miller will perform it and I'll join in via the weblink to observe."

"When will we find out if it's a boy or a girl?" Barbara asks.

"That's going to be a few more weeks and it depends on whether Arizona wants to know." Addison replies looking over at her patient.

"We want to know, we don't care which, but we do want to know." Arizona replies looking happily at her parents.

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"How did it go?" Melanie asks that night when they get a chance to talk on the phone.

"It went great. Everything is fine. I think I'm finally starting to believe that this is actually happening." Arizona replies.

"It's your first, so I think that's understandable." Melanie replies hoping to help.

"Well, actually. It's not my first. I had a miscarriage a few years ago." Arizona admits.

"Oh god, I didn't know." Melanie exclaims, "so that's why you've been so anxious, I just thought you were nervous."

"Yes, last time everything was different. Callie and I were together and we were so happy, but it didn't feel right and now I understand why, this pregnancy feels completely different to me. It's affecting my body differently too. I just hope that it means that this is normal and good." Arizona explains.

"I'm sure that it does. You should trust yourself Arizona." Melanie replies.

"It's different though when it's your body. Have you ever thought of having kids?" She asks.

"I love kids, but I don't think that I need to have one." Melanie says, "my sisters both have three now, so we have plenty of kids in our family. Not that my family would be upset if I did, it just takes the pressure off, you know?"

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Callie is still trying to wrap her head around Arizona's parents moving here and Arizona having a baby. It would help if she could talk to someone about it. Maybe she should call her dad or Aria, but then they'll just tell her that Arizona having a baby is some big scam to get her back and she doesn't want to hear that, mostly because it's obviously not true.

"Are you okay? You've been really distracted lately." Penny says sitting down on the bed beside her.

"Me distracted? I can't believe you noticed. Grey has had you so busy we haven't seen each other in days." Callie scoffs.

"I'm a resident Callie, that's how it's going to be for two more years." Penny reminds her.

"I know, I was married to a resident when I was a first year attending," Callie replies obviously annoyed, then she abruptly leaves the room and heads into the bathroom, when she comes out brushing her hair, she is surprised to see Penny getting dressed. "I thought you were staying here tonight." Callie remarks.

"I would stay if you wanted me here, but I honestly I don't think that you do." Penny replies pulling her jeans back on.

"Penny, I'm sorry. Please stay. It's just been a really tough week having Arizona's parents around and then finding out that she's dating someone," Callie blurts out.

"Look, I understand that all of this is hitting you all at once, but Callie you guys haven't been together for over two years and you moved on, or at least you say you have." Penny replies standing up and walking over to her.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Callie asks angrily.

"It means that if you had really moved on, you wouldn't be so upset about what she's doing all the time. We've been seeing each other almost three months and I still haven't met your daughter. And you haven't even asked me about doing anything this weekend, I know you took it off and Arizona has Sofia." Penny counters.

"Addison is staying here this weekend." Callie explains.

"Who is Addison?" Penny asks.

"Addison Montgomery is one of my closest friends, she's visiting from LA. She is a OB and Fetal Surgeon, she's here for Arizona's baby," Callie replies, "and she is Derek Shepherd's ex-wife."

Brushing Callie's hand away Penny says loudly, "It's always going to come back to him, isn't it?" She yells. "I'm done. Obviously, you don't really want this or you'd try harder to make it work."

"Okay, did you seriously just say that?" Callie says storming across the room to get in her face. "You lied to me from the beginning. You told me you were a medical researcher. Then you tell me that you're matched with the surgical residency program at my hospital, then I find out that your last surgical case was the one that killed one of my closest friends and I've tried to get past all of that, but you know what? You're not worth it, Penny. Just leave, I'm not doing this." Callie says pointing at the door.

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The next morning Callie heads to work early. She wants to see Arizona this morning and see if she can talk with her.

Entering the locker room, she is pleased to see the blonde at her locker.

"Good morning," Arizona greets her. "Mom and Dad are taking Sofia to school today. I'm sorry, I should have told you."

"Your mom told me that yesterday, I wanted to know if we could talk." Callie replies nervously.

"Uh, sure I have some time this morning. Is everything okay Calliope?" Arizona asks concerned.

"Actually, I'm really confused about everything. I'm really unhappy right now and I want to know how you figured it out?" Callie asks.

"How I figured what out?" Arizona asks.

"How did you figure out what to do to be happy again? I thought I had it figured out, but now everything's a mess and whatever I do seems to make it worse." Callie replies trying to explain.

"Okay, tell you what. Let's go get some coffee and go talk in your office." Arizona suggests.

"You're drinking decaf tea? Who are you and what have you done with Arizona?" Callie teases her.

Walking back to Callie's office Arizona realizes that she feels okay with this and it surprises her.

"I went back to Dr Dawson last year after everything that happened with Nicole. That was a really hard time for me and I knew that I needed to really dig in and figure out what I wanted and needed. You see Nicole said something to me that really resonated. She woke up and we realized that she was blind and I was upset, you know that I pushed her to have the tumor removed and I thought that she would hate me, but she didn't. Callie she was thankful to be alive. She thanked me for being a huge pain in her ass and saving her life. Her life has changed forever, but she's happy to have it." Arizona says waiting for that to sink in.

"I didn't know that, wow, I can see how that would have affected you." Callie replies softly.

"Calliope, that's why when I found out that Alex had made the cut and not you, that's why it affected me so much. I was so sure that you had done it, and I couldn't understand how you did it, that I never even checked to see if you actually did it. Of course now I know that you were in surgery on Derek's hand and couldn't have done both procedures, but I never even considered that you didn't make the cut. But when I found out that you didn't I realized that I should have known all along that you didn't do it." Arizona explains, reaching over to touch Callie's arm. "Dr Dawson helped me get perspective on all of this and once we cleared through all of this I was left with one thing. She asked me, 'Arizona what is one thing that if you don't do right now, you will always regret it?' Callie, my mouth spoke before my brain even registered the question. 'I said that I wanted to have a baby'.

"Really?" Callie asks tears threatening to fall down her cheeks.

"I am as surprised as you are. But the more I considered it, the more I realized, that of everything I want for my life, this was the one thing that I wanted that had an expiration date. I had just turned 38, I couldn't afford to wait. Did I want to have a baby alone? No, I didn't it, but waiting to meet someone wasn't an option. So I called and talked it over with my Mom and she reminded me that I can do this and she would help. So I began working on a plan for how this would work, how could I make this work for both me and the baby. It was actually fairly easy to figure out once you free yourself of all the things that you think you need. I realized that all I needed was the support of my family and friends, a place to live and I knew that everything else would fall into place and it did." Arizona replies.

"You've gone through all of this in the past several months alone?" Callie asks. "Okay, so I should call Dawson and start figuring this out for myself, that's your advice?"

"Callie, that's what I did. I don't know what will work for you. But I think you're asking the right questions." Arizona replies taking a sip of her tea.

"Can I tell you what I'm stuck on right now?" She asks as they both check their phones to see how much time they have. "I love that you're having a baby, but I'm stuck because I'm nothing. You're my child's mother, but I'm nothing to yours and that bothers me, you have no idea how much that bothers me." Callie admits.

"Okay, so we'll figure that out. We have plenty of time to figure that out." Arizona replies squeezing her hand.