Oh Baby

Sitting in the waiting room, Arizona is nervously checking her phone every few minutes. She’s not really expecting a call or text, but she wouldn’t be opposed to the distraction. She made this appoint two weeks ago after the dinner party from hell. It seemed like a good way for her to move on since she’s not really interested in dating right now. But now sitting here alone, she can’t help but think of a hundred reasons that this is not a good idea. But then all she has to do is close her eyes and think about it and she knows in heart that it’s the what she wants more than anything else.

“Arizona Robbins,” the nurse calls out.

The blonde stands up and slips her phone into her bag and follows her through the door.

“Arizona, it’s been two years since we last saw you.” Dr Samson says glancing through the file.

“Yes,” she squeaks out. Then clearing her throat she repeats, “Yes, Dr Samson.”

“You’re single now. A Fetal Medicine Specialist? I didn’t realize we had one here in Seattle. That’s fantastic.” Dr Samson says smiling at the blonde.

“I am certified now in Pediatrics and Fetal Medicine,” Arizona clarifies nervously.

“I see that you’ve been seeing Dr Dawson and I have her letter of recommendation that she agrees that you’re ready to try again.” Dr Samson continues as she goes through the file. “It looks like everything is in order, have you picked out a donor?”

“I have narrowed it down to five, just like last time. And I’d like you to review them and help determine the best match.” Arizona replies.

“Of course.” Dr Samson says, then looking up she smiles and adds, “Arizona I think it’s great that you’ve decided to try again. Now, I’ll get back to you in the next few days. The nurse is going to give you the kit and prescription. I suggest that you start the injections as soon as possible, there’s no reason to wait. Do you have any questions?” Dr Sampson asks.

“Uh, no.” Arizona replies hesitantly.

“Are you sure?” Dr Samson asks.

“Yes, I’m sure. I just, it’s good. I don’t want to wait. Uh, thank you Dr Samson.” Arizona says standing to leave.

“Call me if you have any questions or concerns, okay?” Dr Samson says as she leaves.

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Sitting in her office, Arizona looks through everything and then takes it and sets it up in her bathroom. She isn’t ready to tell anyone yet, although she really wants to tell April, she’s nervous about telling anyone at the hospital. So far the only person that she’s spoken with about this besides Dr Dawson is her Mom.

Barbara isn’t used to keeping secrets from her husband, but Arizona was adamant that she wasn’t ready to tell her Dad that she’s trying to get pregnant on her own. He was so disappointed with her after the divorce, that she can’t bear to disappoint him again. Nothing she could say to her daughter could convince her that she’s not disappointed him, he’s just worried about her.
How could either of them be disappointed by this child that they raised, who is now a brilliant surgeon, double board certified in two challenging fields? And the irony isn’t lost on Barbara that she begged her daughter not to go into the military to be a doctor. “Stay here, work in a hospital where you can be safe and save lives.” She begged her during her first year of med school.
And Barbara remembers how thrilled she was when Arizona announced her Pediatric Fellowship, Peds surgeons don’t go to war, she reminded Daniel. And he had to admit that he too was relieved when she moved to Seattle and got her own department so young. “She’s going to be safe and happy there.” They told themselves proudly.

“Honey?” Daniel says concerned when he sees his wife sitting at the table with the phone in front of her looking off into the yard.

“Oh, I was just thinking of calling Arizona.” She admits to him.

“It’s lunchtime there, is she expecting you to call?” He asks carefully. He’s pretty sure that something is up between the two women. He’s noticed that his wife has been distracted lately and dropping hints about wanting to visit Arizona to see her new place.

“Not really. But I know she had a meeting this morning that she was worried about, so I just wanted to call and see how it went.” She carefully explains to him.

“Are you going to tell me what’s going on or do I have to wait to find out?” He asks abruptly sitting down at the table and taking her hand.

“She’s not ready for you to know. But it’s good. Potentially really good news,” Barbara replies.

“Then why do you look so worried about it?” Daniel asks.

“It’s big news, so I’m a little worried.” She admits.

“Maybe it’s time that we sell this place and just move out there. There’s a base out there, I can get consulting work there as easily as here.” He points out.

“Daniel, let’s call a realtor and find out what we need to do to put the house on the market.” Barbara replies quickly latching onto his suggestion.

Now Daniel knows that something big is up and he can only guess what would make his wife this eager to sell the house and move, grandkids.

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Arizona reads the email from her Mom and Dad again. They’re talking about selling the house and moving to Seattle. She’s surprised but actually relieved that they are considering it. It would be much easier to do this if they were here to help. She can’t help but wonder if this means her Mom told her Dad what she’s trying to do. She had hoped to wait until she was pregnant to tell him.

Sighing, she gets up and heads into the bathroom. She’s eager to begin the injections, but that seems to have thrown her cycle off and now she’s still waiting for her period to begin so she begin the injections. The first time she tried this, she took the Clomid pills, but now that she’s almost 40, Dr Samson suggested that they use FSH. The blonde is a little nervous about having to inject herself for 7 days but she’s willing to do it, if it means she can get pregnant.

“Arizona, what’s that?” April asks noticing the bandaid on her abdomen. They met for coffee and now they are changing in the locker room together.

“Ah, nothing.” Arizona says quickly pulling her scrub top down hoping to end the conversation.

“What’s going on? Are you sick?” April asks going over to her and pulling the top back up so that she can look at it. “That’s a blood blister from an injection.” She says firmly.

Meredith enters the locker room and glances at the two women. Arizona quickly pulls down top down and brushes April’s hands away. She knows that Meredith went through these same injections and she doesn’t want her to see it or she’ll know what’s going on and tell Callie.
“There’s an open on-call room across the hall ladies,” she says sarcastically.

“Funny, I was just looking at her…” April begins to explain.

“Weird mole, I have a weird mole and she was just looking at it for me.” Arizona replies. “You’re right April, I should totally have this checked out. I’ll make an appointment with Dermatology.” The blonde grabs her things and bolts from the locker room.

Now April is really suspicious. She follows the blonde out of the locker room and takes her arm. “What the hell was that about?” She asks, concern and worry all over her face.

Arizona looks up and down the hall, then pulls April into the supply room and then looks around before she blurts out. “You cannot talk about this with anyone but me. Not even Jackson. Especially not Jackson.” Arizona says firmly.

“Okay, well Jackson and I are barely talking Arizona, so that won’t be a problem.” April points out.

“I just started FSH injections. I’m trying to get pregnant.” She confesses.

“Oh my God! Oh my God! That’s fantastic.” April exclaims excitedly. “Oh but…” she adds.

“Do not go there. There is about me and what I want, there is no ‘but’.” Arizona says firmly.

“Okay. Wow, you’ve decided to do this on your own? I can’t believe that you haven’t told me until now. Wait, is this why you went back to Dr Dawson?” April asks.

“Part of the reason, yes. I realized that I have spent the last two years struggling to accept the loss of my leg, the baby and Callie. And finally I just got to the point where I wanted to put it all behind me and really move on. That’s when I admitted that having a baby is more important to me than having girlfriend. I just turned 38 years old, so if I’m going to do it, I need to do it now, April.” She explains.

“Okay, well you don’t have to do this alone. I’ll help any way that I can. Okay?” April offers slipping an arm around her friend and hugging her.

Callie is walking out of the locker room checking her phone when she looks up and notices Arizona and April exiting the supply room together. Wondering what’s up, she walks over to where Meredith is standing waiting for her interns. “What’s that about?” She asks nodding towards them.

“I don’t know. I interrupted something in the locker room, Arizona said April was checking a mole on her stomach. Do you think she’s converted Kepner?” Meredith jokes.

“Uh, that is so not funny.” Callie says walking off.

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Alex walks up beside Meredith, “How was class this morning?”

“It was fine. Hey I need you to tell me when you’re ready to give the Peds presentation. Arizona said that she only had time to do one on Fetal medicine.” Meredith reminds him.

“Yeah, I know. She gave me her notes and slides. I just haven’t had time to go through them yet.” He grumbles.

“Okay, then meet me in the lab at lunch and we’ll go through them together.” Meredith suggests.

“I don’t know if that will work today, but we can try tomorrow.” He says glancing at his pager. “Um, I need to go, apparently Robbins is rounding on Peds today.”

Arizona and Jo are heading into the next patient’s room when Alex exits the stairwell. “Dr Robbins!” He calls out and she stops and turns.

“Hey Karev, you’re late.” She replies.

Jo hides a smile, she texted Alex as soon as Robbins showed up and began reviewing charts.

“I’m not late, because these are my patients. Rounds begin when I begin them. What are you doing?” He says pulling her aside.

“Look, I have a little time this morning and I just want to know what’s going on in this department. You may be head of peds, but I’m Chief of Fetal and Maternal medicine, so technically they are my patients too.” She reminds him.

“What’s going on with you? Lately you’re being all emotional and weird and this isn’t you.” He points out. Glancing at Jo for back up. Wilson shrugs, she’s not going to get in the middle of this.

Ignoring him, she turns to Jo, “Wilson, next patient.” And she head into the patient’s room.

As the finish rounds, Arizona asks Jo to join her for rounds on her patients and Alex looks up confused, but nods to Jo to go ahead.

“Wilson, have you considered what your specialty is going to be? “ Arizona asks.

“It’s between Ortho and Peds. I really like Ortho, but I’m not sure Dr Torres wants me on her service. I asked her about the fellowship and she was really encouraging, but then I haven’t been able to get back on her service.” Wilson explains.

“If you want back on her service, then I suggest you tell her. I think she’s under the impression that you’ve decided on Peds.” Arizona points out to her.

“I love Peds, but here I’m worried that I’m just seen as Alex’s girlfriend and I don’t want to be that person.” Jo explains.

“Then don’t be that person Wilson.” Arizona replies as they stop at the nurses’ station and she takes the tablet from the charger.

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In her office bathroom, Arizona is having a problem giving herself the next injection. It’s the sixth one and she only has one more after this one, but her stomach is bruised and sore. A soft knock at the office door is followed by a soft knock at the bathroom door as April enters.

“Ouch, no wonder you’re having trouble.” She says looking at the bruising from the past injections. She turns the blonde around and finds a spot, then holds out her hand for the syringe and then quickly inserts the needle and injects her.

“Oh you’re good at this. I should have had you do them all.” Arizona says smiling at her. “Same time tomorrow, I have one more?” She asks.

“Of course, then when do you go to the doctor?” April asks.

“I go in Wednesday morning.” Arizona explains.

“Can I go with you?” April asks.

“Uh, you don’t have to do that. I’m fine doing this on my own.” Arizona replies as they exit the bathroom.

“Arizona, you’re my closest friend and you don’t have to do this alone. I really want to be there for you if you want me to that is.” April says taking her hand and gently squeezing it.

“If you’re sure. It would be great to have you there.” Arizona admits. “It’s at 9 am.”

“Okay, I’ll go put a block on my schedule.” April says turning to leave.

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“I don’t know what’s gotten into her Meredith, she’s being really weird lately. She’s hovering, I don’t know what she said to Jo yesterday, but today I found out that Jo’s off my service and transferring to Ortho for the next month. I’m getting a new transfer resident, Cory something.”

“Cori Jensen, she’s sharp. You’ll like her. She just transferred in from University hospital, she’s applying for the Peds fellowship, she’s a fourth year. I meet her earlier this week.” Meredith explains.

“If she’s so great, why is she transferring in the middle of the year?” Alex asks suspiciously.

“She transferred here because her mentor is about to go out on maternity leave. Bailey reached out to her and suggested that she come to our program, so she did. Between you and Arizona, we have the top program in the area.” Meredith reminds him.

“I know, so why is my girlfriend leaving my department?” He asks sulking.

“Maybe she wants to be more than just your girlfriend.” Meredith points out.

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“Okay Arizona, this will be cold.” Dr Samson is about to do the first ultrasound to check on egg production from the first round of injections. April is holding her friend’s hand and they both are pretty nervous.

“Oh, this looks great. I see a number of eggs here Arizona.” Dr Samson exclaims, “Then going back over to her laptop, she pulls up the blood work. I guess you are really ready for this, everything look great. I can schedule the egg retrieval on Friday, can you work that out?”

“Yes, she can.” April replies excitedly. “I mean, Arizona, you can, can’t you?”

“Can we schedule it late in the day?” Arizona asks. “I have surgery in the morning and a board meeting at lunch on Friday.”

“I’m sure we can work that out. Now you’ll need to take it easy Friday night and probably Saturday too, do you have someone who can stay with you?” Dr Samson asks looking at April.

“I’ll stay with her,” April replies.

“Okay great. I’ll have my assistant set up the appointment. And Arizona, this looks really promising.” She says before stepping out of the room.

“That’s awesome. Are you excited? You seem kind of shocked. Are you freaking out?” April asks rapidly.

“April, calm down. I’m fine. I just didn’t think it would happen this fast. I need some time to figure out a few things.” Arizona explains sitting up and pulling her pants back on.

“I’ll talk to Owen and take Friday afternoon off, so I can drive you here and take you home.” April offers.

“Are you sure? I can drive here and just cab home. You don’t have to do that.” Arizona reminds her.

“I want to do it and I know that you’d do it for me,” April counters.

Smiling Arizona realizes that she’s glad that April is there. It is nice to have someone to share this with especially someone who knows how difficult it’s been for her.

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After the board meeting on Friday, Callie pulls Arizona aside. “Hey is everything okay?” She asks concerned.

“Everything is fine.” Arizona replies, a little freaked out that Callie’s picking up on something so soon.
“It’s just I spoke with your parents and they’re talking about selling the house and moving out here. And then you’ve been taking time off, so I just wanted to check. You’d tell me if you were sick or something, right?” Callie asks.

“If it was serious, of course I’d tell you. But this isn’t anything for you to worry about Calliope. I’m fine and I’ve worked really hard to get the new department together and I’m just taking a little time off. I’ve earned it.” Arizona points out to her.

“Okay, I’m glad to hear that’s all it is. But I can take Sofia this weekend if you need me to. Penny’s on call so it’s not like I’m doing anything.” She offers.

“Actually, you know if you could keep her tonight, then I can start my week tomorrow that would be a big help.” Arizona admits.

“Uh, sure. No problem.” Callie says smiling at the blonde, still wondering what is going.

“Thanks, I’m sorry, but I need to get going. I’ll call you in the morning, okay?” Arizona asks as she heads out the door.

“What was that about?” Meredith asks watching the blonde leave the room.

“I’m not sure, maybe she’s having that mole removed and just doesn’t want to talk about it?” Callie suggests.

“Owen said that April took the afternoon off too, so maybe that’s it.” Meredith agrees.

“She said it’s nothing serious, but she did ask me to keep Sofia tonight. I guess I’ll know more when I see her tomorrow.” Callie points out.