Passioned Outbreak
Joan sucked in a heavy breath that was filled with pain hearing the words that escaped Vera's mouth, taking it all in and understanding It too. All she could say was “I know..” softly before loosening her grip on Vera's wrists, rubbing over the spots she held so tightly a second ago with tenderness.
Vera sighed softly, not taking a step back nor forward and allowed the tender rubbing to go on upon her wrists, needing to feel Joan's touch in any way despite the hatred she had for her, feeling betrayed and not knowing what to do. “I--” Vera tried to speak but, words just couldn't come out. She was broken and at the same time felt relieved that truths on both sides had been finally revealed of the love both women shared for each other only on Vera's end, hatred was mixed into that ball park that she so desperately wanted to leave.
Joan trembled a little, nervous on how to act or what to say. She had declared her love for her deputy, given the same response but also told she was hated and knew it was within reason. If only Vera could see the light in the tunnel, know it wasn't entirely Joan's fault and knew what she did wasn't done to be malicious or deceiving. She watched as Vera attempted to speak and watch it fail, knowing she would do no better. The tall black haired beauty stood still, watching over her beautiful mouse, taking in everything, taking in the feel of her skin under her thumbs. “Maybe someday you won't” Joan said softly, pain detected of course while saying so, searching for some type of hope within the brunettes eyes. “I will do anything to...to make it right” Joan spoke once more, a little hesitantly being scared of showing such a side of her that only Vera would ever gain access to.
Vera stood there, lost in a pool of hate and love. Their love was a bed of nails to sum it up. But, despite the hatred, the small brunette had waited so long to hear The Governor tell her that she loved her, she couldn't help but have a small sparkle inside her because of hearing it. Her eyes locked with the governors intensely, listening. “I don't know what you could do, Joan” The deputy retorted flatly, sighing. “But...” as she began, she took a step back that caused Joan's hands to remove themselves off her wrists “I feel as though things....are....far too late” she admitted, wiping the side of her eye as a tear formed. “I'm infected. And I, am no longer capable of being a safe haven. Especially for you. “ she trailed off sadly.
Joan tried to protest, taking a big step “No Ver--” she was stopped as Vera's hand lifted itself in place, holding in the center so Joan would stop in her tracks and In her words.
“I'm only toxic now, unwillingly a toxic danger to you and everyone around me” Vera explained, exhaling sharply at such stinging words, biting her own lower lip at the thought. “Even though I hate you, I wouldn't want that for you. So, I think its best we as adults..draw a barrier here and now. Never forget tonight and what we said, but never peruse and keep yourself safe” Vera told, firmly, trying to hold back a sob.
Joan huffed, licking the corner of her mouth feeling utter disagreement and guilt. She held herself strong, her head tilted slightly “Bennett, don't you dare give up and be a coward.” Joan demanded, nostrils flaring. “If you were a danger, you think I'd be in this situation right now!” She scoffed after yelling out her statement seeing the deputy flinch slightly. “I could care less about the hep c even if it was toxic more than through JUST BLOOD” she continued, emphasizing 'just blood' making it clear that its very hard to catch and she was fearless to it when it came to Vera.
Vera shook her head slightly trying to fight against Joan so she wouldn't get hurt “No...No...No” she began, coughing slightly taking another step back “Just no. It's not being a coward Joan, its being smart. It's not...its just can't!” she spoke loudly, almost letting that sob break through. “I'm doing what is best for us both. I just-- you're smart Ferguson, you know.” Vera said once more, fearful, confused and just plain lost. Wanting Joan so badly, knowing she could have her now but, it wouldn't do. She wouldn't put her in danger even though she hated The Governor who she partially blamed for her being infected to begin with. Something in Vera was pushing her desire and wants back, maybe fear overbearing her but, she wasn't good with things like this and this was the most emotional thing she'd experienced. The deputy coughed to cover up the small cry about to come out and turned around quickly “I'll—I'll be going now. Thank you for dinner” she quickly began to walk towards the door, even forgetting her jacket. She had to leave, otherwise she would break and she had to put a wall between them so neither one would be harmed in the end. The door opened and she felt motioned air form behind her as the door slammed harshly shut by the hand of Joan. The echo of the door being slammed going throughout the room. '
Joan was catching her breath, emotions filling her inside and out. “No, Vera. I will not allow you to do this to us” she demanded. “Not when such things had been said” she said, taking in a big breath as Vera's eyes beamed up at her, watery and red.
Vera went to grab at the door handle “No, Joan! Just, no!” she tried to pull the door as it was forcefully slammed again by the hand of Joan slamming against the center, restricting it to be opened so Vera couldn't leave.
Words weren't getting both women anywhere. It seemed the more they talked, the more everything fell apart and they were horrible at it. So, with instinct and letting go Joan did the only thing she had left in her. Which was grabbing Vera by the arm, yanking her quickly into her own frame, grabbing her face with both hands as she arched down to level with the small brunette and kissed her lips deeply full of passion, showing her how much she didn't want Vera to give up. Joan grabbed Vera's small body into her own as she kissed her and with delight, feeling that kiss being returned.
Vera was caught completely off guard by the actions being placed, and couldn't help but collapse into Joan's verbal and physical protesting. She was about to say no or stop, hell she wasn't even sure what she was going to say but as soon as those lips hit her very own so deeply and passionate, she was taken. Vera instead of protesting, she gripped Joan's body back, both bodies of the women becoming one as their lips ravished each others.
Joan let out a soft groan that tickled up her throat as she devoured Vera's soft lips with her own, tasting her, placing her tongue against the edges of her deputy's lips.
Vera couldn't help, but to slightly gasp in-between the heated kiss as she made it deeper within instinct, her own tongue exploring Joan's lips and tasting them before both their tongues, and at the same time entered each others mouth dancing together, almost every move of theirs syncing together.
Joan gripped Vera tighter, not wanting to let her go, kissing her more as their tongues danced together. Heavy breathing began, one of Joan's hands trailing up to the back of Vera's head grabbing it as she viciously kissed her deputy, showing just how much she loved and wanted her, feeling the exact emotion be delightfully reciprocated.
The deputy's heart pounded against her chest, her hands exploring the long beautiful body of her boss, allowing her to be controlled, knowing this was Joan showing her love and restriction from leaving out the door. A small moan came out when their mouths parted so both could get air, their faces red from such heat and hard kissing, as they went back to continue without one word.
Joan lifted Vera up this time, so her legs could wrap around her tall broad frame, not letting her lips slip from her own, kissing Vera ever so passionately as she tasted every inch of her mouth outside and in with their tongues viciously attacking each other. She quickly dropped Vera onto the red velvet couch that stay in the living room, letting out a gasp for air mixed with a moan looking into the eyes of Vera, lust and love filled.
Vera couldn't get enough, she ached for Joan in so many ways and she couldn't help but be thankful, for Joan doing this. She allowed her tongue to collide with Joans ever so harshly, taste every inch of it to the very tip along with her lips, legs squeezing her sides as her hot center got pressed against from Joan's beautiful long torso. Being dropped onto the couch, Vera's heavy breathing increased looking back into Ferguson's eyes with just the same amount of love and lust but also deep inside lingered that hate, but the love she had honestly over rid it. A nod of the head was the only thing Miss Bennett did, slightly grinning with her reddened face, swollen lips from being devoured. A nod of approval for whatever was to come next, knowing Joan was aching just as much as she was.