Chapter 7
Aubrey woke with sore muscles and a content sigh, reaching across her bed with her eyes closed to pull the familiar body closer to her before her smile slipped into a frown when her hand came into contact with only cold sheets. Sitting up in her bed and looking around her room she seen Beca facing away from her and pulling her pants on
"Where are you going?" Aubrey asked
"Home" Beca replied, pulling her shirt over her head
"Why? I thought…" Aubrey trailed off
"You thought that after all the shit you said and put me through that I'd forgive you just like that?" Beca laughed, "Oh honey, no"
"But-"
"Last night was fun, that's it. You don't want a relationship? That's fine, I don't want one anymore either. You think I'm a phase? Also fine because I know that when you're boring lawyer husband fucks you, you'll think of me" Beca smirked
"I was wrong, Becs, I'm so sorry" Aubrey said, "I was scared. I want you, I want us"
"Poor baby" Beca pouted, "What is it that you said to me? You're just a decent fuck"
Aubrey knew she deserved it and she couldn't blame Beca for being angry at her but that didn't stop her chest from hurting when Beca left her room or her eyes fill with tears when she thought back to Beca's words. It didn't stop her from sending Beca countless texts apologizing and begging for her to come around so they could talk. It didn't stop her from climbing into Chloe's beg at night, crying her heart out and letting her best friend try to comfort her. It didn't stop her feelings for Beca.
"Becs" Aubrey breathed when she opened the door, "What are you doing here?"
"I really fucking hate you" Beca spat, storming past Aubrey
"Oh" Aubrey shut the door and waited a minute to face Beca
"All I wanted was to hurt you like you hurt me. That's all I wanted. I wanted to fuck you and give you hope and then take it away and never speak to you again. But you're stuck in my fucking mind and I can't rid of you" Beca's hands were gesturing wildly, "I want to hate you. I want to hate you so badly. But I can't because even when you drive me fucking crazy I still miss you when you're gone"
"I'm… A little confused right now"
"When I left here my chest hurt even more than it did when you called me a phase. When I got your texts I wanted nothing more than to come here and tell you its okay even when it isn't. I tried to fuck other people but I couldn't because they weren't you and I hate you for it because I don't hate you at all even though I want to" Beca's chest was heaving with desperate breaths, "You hurt me and I still want you and I hate myself for it"
"Becs" Aubrey whispered
"You don't get to speak" Beca said weakly, "Because if you do then I'll believe every word you say and I can't let you hurt me again"
"I won't" Aubrey took a step closer to Beca, "I regret nothing more than treating you the way I did"
"Then why did you?" Beca's eyes were filling with tears, "I fucking trusted you and you hurt me"
"I was scared. I still am. I'm terrified. I'm terrified because I've never had such strong feelings for anyone before. I'm terrified because if we don't work out it would kill me. I'm terrified because if my father finds out he will hate me. I'm terrified because if any of my family found out they would hate me. I'm terrified because even with knowing that, I still need you." Aubrey kept walking closer until she was right in front of Beca and laced their fingers together, "I'm terrified because I don't even love you yet and I'm willing to give most everything up. What happens when I fall in love with you?"
"You can't say that" Beca whispered, "You can't make me want to be with you"
"Becs, you have to know how sorry I am" Aubrey's voice dropped to match Beca's, "I've never made a bigger mistake than treating you like I did. I will never regret anything more"
"Bree"
"I'm not saying we should get together right now, even though I want nothing more. I want to prove to you how sorry I am, I want to prove to you that I want us" Aubrey cupped Beca's cheek, "Go on a date with me, Becs"
"Okay" Beca said it so quietly Aubrey had to strain to hear her
"Okay?"
"Don't make me regret it, Bree"
"I won't" Aubrey smiled and kissed Beca's cheek
"Whoa, hey there smiley" Chloe greeted Aubrey when she seen the large smile stretched across her face, "You okay?"
"Beca agreed to go on a date with me" Aubrey was practically vibrating with excitement
"What? Okay, start from the beginning" Chloe sat down next to Aubrey
"She came storming in cursing and saying she hates me and then asked me why and I told her and she told me I couldn't say that because I wasn't allowed to make her want me again so I apologized and asked her to go on a date with me and she said okay" Aubrey said it all in one breath, hitting Chloe's arm in her excitement
"Is this what you want? Because if it isn't, Bree, you need to tell her. You're my best friend and I love you more than anything but if you hurt Beca again I will shove your head up your ass"
"I want this more than anything, Chlo"
"What about your dad?" Chloe watched the smile falter on Aubrey's face and a small frown form
"I'll figure that part out later" Aubrey shook her head, "I mean, Becs knows the whole situation with him so if we work out. It's not like he would disown me or anything, right? Probably just… I don't know, I'll figure it out"
"I hope you know what you're doing, Bree" Chloe said before smiling, "Tell me what you have planned for the date"
"What do you mean you're going on a date with Aubrey?" Stacie asked, "Dude, she ruined you"
"I know" Beca groaned, "But, I don't know. If it doesn't work out at least I'll have closure, right?"
"If it doesn't work out I don't know if I'll be able to stop myself from beating a bitch down. Even if she does power spew all over me"
"Gross. I just… I'm not saying I love her because I don't but I feel like I could. I could love her in time and I haven't felt like that before. It has to mean something"
"Big bad Beca is going soft" Stacie teased, poking Beca's side "Just be careful, dude"