Hold my hands
"Alex..."
"Kelley I know I'm horrible"
"You can't do this to Tobin"
"Kelley I just need another-"
"No Alex what you need is to leave Tobin alone"
"Kelley I know she has still has feelings for me"
"Alex you're engaged to Serv!! You can't do this to him or Tobin. What you need to do is live your perfect life. You'll go on to be a super star with a perfect husband and a perfect child and a perfect house living your perfect life. Ignore your feelings for Tobin. You messed up and now you have to pay the price. You're lucky that I'm not telling Tobin about Serv and Orlando"
Kelley retorts angrily.
"Kelley I can't do that. You know I can't" Alex replies sadly.
"Yes you can. You're Alex fucking Morgan" Kelley says clearly pissed off now.
"I'll think about it, but right now I'm going to go to Syd and Pinoe's room. I'm sure they have boozes there."
"Tobin!! Did you fall again??" Christen laughs as she looks at a frustrated Tobin Heath covered in ice sitting on her ass in the middle of the rink.
"There was a chip in the ice!!" Tobin says to excuse her ridiculous fall.
"Sure there was Toby" Christen giggles making Tobin cringe at the nickname Alex used to call her.
"I swear there was. I'm never this uncoordinated" Tobin says, wondering why she just can't get the hang of this ice skating thing.
"Here hold my hands" Christen says now facing Tobin as she holds out her hands for the midfielder to take them.
Tobin takes Christen's hands in hers and she feels warmth spread from her hands up her arms and all throughout the rest of her body.
She looks at their hand and notices how they fit perfectly together. Everything about holding her hands feels perfect. She looks up and her brown eyes meet emerald green eyes.
"Here just like this"Christen releases one of Tobin's hands so they're side by side. She begins to skate forward pulling Tobin along beside her.
"That wasn't so hard was it?" Christen teases the older girl.
"Now I want you to grab onto my waist. So just get behind me and put both hands on either side of waist" The forward tells Tobin.
She gets behind her and puts one hand on Christen's left hip and one hand on her right hip.
Even through her clothes Christen feels Tobin's hands burn into here skin.
"A-a-alright Tobin now just watch how I move and I want you to just copy my movements okay?"
Christen begins to move again and Tobin copies her movements like she was told. It went well for all of 2 minutes. Soon enough Tobin hit another "chip" in the ice and toppled over onto Christen.
"Ahhhh!! Toby what the heck!!"
"Sorry Chris I hit another chip in the ice. Damn this ice is really uneven huh?" Tobin told an unamused looking Christen Press.
"Sometimes you're such a dork I hate you" Christen teases as she slaps Tobin on the arm.
"Hey maybe if I didn't have such a cute girl trying to teach me I would've better!!" Tobin says defending herself, catching the forward off guard, but she quickly recovers.
"Maybe if the girl I was trying to teach wasn't so cute I'd be a better teacher" she replies smoothly.
At this point Tobin and Christen were so close to each other that Tobin could lick Christen's nose, so she did.
Sticking her tongue out she jabbed christen on the tip of her nose, earning a yelp from the forward.
"What was that for Tobs?!?!?"
"Nothing just felt like licking your nose"
"Oh my god you're such a dork"
"But I'm a cute dork"
"Touché"
Alex downs yet another shot as Pinoe and Sydney look at her worriedly.
"Alex you know we have training tomorrow? Jill is going to be pissed if you have a hang over" Syd says, concerned for her best friend.
"Yeah you should really slow down baby horse. And this is coming from the queen of alcohol herself" Pinoe adds looking worried.
"I'm fine guys. Just a bit troubled is all" Alex says as she pours another round of shots.
"Is this about Serv? Did you guys get into a fight or something?" Syd questions.
"Something like that" Alex answers before she downs the next shot.
"Alex drinking away your problems is not going to help. You need to talk about them" Syd says looking over at Pinoe for confirmation.
"She's right Alex. This is only making things worse" Pinoe states.
"You guys I'm fine...its not like Tobin cares anyways"
Alex say as she scrolls through her Instagram. Suddenly a picture of Tobin and christen catches her eye.
"@tobinheath: ice skating with this cute one!! Don't ever ask her for lessons, she's a horrible teacher!! #cutie #iceskating #;)"
"Oh great yeah all she cares about is that Barbie doll forward Christen Press" Alex says to Pinoe and Syd in as she shows them the picture.
"Uh no offense Alex, but why do you care about Tobin so much? You're the one that broke up with her." Syd asks carefully.
"I don't I just. I guess I miss her is all"
"You can't do this to yourself. You can't beat yourself up. Go tell her how you feel. You can't keep living a lie" Pinoe sympathizes with the girl.
"I don't have feelings for her I swear you guys. You can miss someone and not have feelings for them. Plus I have Servando and he's perfect for me. We're engaged and we're gonna live happily ever after." Alex replies holding out the hand that has h her ring showing it off to them.
"Alex are you sure? It's okay to still have feelings for her. We won't judge you." Pinoe presses Alex again.
"Yes I'm sure. I just can't make our memories fade. I don't have feelings for her" Alex answers a little annoyed now.
"Alright Alex we should get you to bed now, but before we do that you need drink plenty of water" Syd reaches into her and Pinoe's mini fridge.
"Here" she hands Alex two water bottles. Alex takes them and immediately starts drinking one.
"Pinoe is gonna walk you back to your room. I want you to go straight to bed after you finished your water okay?" Syd tells Alex almost in a motherly tone.
She was concerned for her best friend. Alex nods her head and starts walking out the door. Before Pinoe follows her out Syd whispers something to her that Alex can't hear. Pinoe catches up to Alex and walks her the rest of the way to her and Kelley's room. Once there Alex immediately walks inside past Kelley and goes straight to the bathroom. Pinoe stands there and talks to Kelley in the doorway.
"Dude she drank like almost all of our inventory. Somethings up with her. She wouldn't shut up about Tobin." Pinoe tells Kelley in a hushed voice.
"Wait, ugggh. She was talking about Tobin?" Kelley asks frustrated.
"Yeah she said she misses her. She made it clear that she doesn't have feelings for her she just misses her." Pinoe says confused about why Kelley would be so frustrated.
"Alright Pinoe, thanks for bringing her here. I'll watch her and make sure she's okay" Kelleys says dismissing the subject of Tobin and Alex.
"Alright Kel goodnight"
"Yeah goodnight Pinoe" Kelley shuts the door and turns around to see Alex walking out of the bathroom.
"Okay tiger get changed and then get to bed we have practice tomorrow. We need our super star to be well rested."
Kelley teases as she hops into her own bed.
"Yeah yeah on it mom" Alex replies sarcastically. The forward flops into bed after changing into a t-shirt and shorts. As her eyelids get heavy and she starts to fall asleep she can't help thinking about a certain brown eyed midfielder.
*flashback 2013 NWSL championship game*
"Ahhhh Tobs!!! We won!!" Alex exclaims as she jumps into Tobin's arms.
"I know Lex!!! I'm so happy!!" The midfielder says as she catches Alex and spins her around.
They walk back hand in hand to the locker room after all the celebrations are over. Once inside the locker room they celebrate some more with champagne, music, and dancing. Tobin sat back watching her teammates enjoy themselves and dance horribly.
"Tobs dance with me" She sees Alex walking towards her asking her to dance.
"Oh come on lex you know I can't dance" Tobin reasons. She's never been the best dancer and Alex knew it.
"Just come out here and have fun Toby" Alex grabs Tobin's hand and pulls away from the wall.
Alex slings her arms on top of Tobin's shoulders and around her neck while Tobin places her hands Alex's waist. They start to sway together getting lost in the music. Soon they forget about everything else and all the space that was once between them is gone. Maybe it was liquid courage, but Alex leaned in and kissed Tobin. Tobin was almost too shocked to kiss back, but she did. Tobin Heath had fallen for Alex Morgan the moment she had laid eyes on her, and she was finally kissing her. Eventually they had to come up for air. Tobin looked into those ocean blue eyes that now looked almost electric.
"I think I like you" the midfielder breathed out.
"I think I like you too" Alex replied in a more raspy than usual voice. Everything else faded away again as Tobin leaned in to lock their lips again.
Christen and Tobin walked back into their room more exhausted than ever now. It was getting late, but neither of them wanted to go to bed yet. Secretly they were both enjoying each other's company a little too much.
"How about a movie?" Tobin suggests as they both start to change.
"Sounds great Tobs. You can choose the movie" Christen says excited that Tobin wants to spend more time with her.
Tobin picks despite Christen's protests
"Tobin those are scary!!" She squealed.
"I know Chris that's the point" Tobin says as christen slips into her bed.
Just as she's about to slip into her own Christen protests again.
"Tobs come here and cuddle with me. I hate scary movies" She says. Sure she hates scary movies, but not that much, she just needed a reason to cuddle with Tobin. Seeing this as an opportunity, she took it.
"Fine you big baby" Tobin teases as she slides into bed next to christen.
"I'm not a baby!!" Christen says as she curls into Tobin resting her head on the midfielders chest.
"Whatever you say Chris" Tobin replies as the movie starts.
They didn't get that far into the movie before christen falls asleep on Tobin's chest.
Looking at the sleeping forward Tobin noticed how peaceful she looked. When little snoring sounds came out of Christen's mouth Tobin decided it was time to go back to her own bed and get some sleep. As she was trying to remove herself from Christen, the forward stirred a little bit then readjusted herself and held on to Tobin even tighter than before.
"Tobyyy stay with me" the half awake girl said sleepily.
So Tobin stayed. It was the first time Tobin had cuddled or even shared a bed with anyone since Alex left. And honestly it felt pretty nice to Tobin. The forward melted perfectly into her body and her little snoring noises sounded like music to Tobin's ears. For the first night since her heart was broken Tobin went to bed without thinking of Alex.