HanaMatsu
Seeing people showing so much affection, not hiding it and not trying to keep it low key was frustrating. Especially when you yourself wasn't able to show affection to the person you are currently with. That is why valentines day was on Hanamaki's list of days that he dislikes. It wasn't just that he couldn't be affectionate with his boyfriend. It was also the amount of arguing he had to listen to between his two friends, Oikawa and Iwaizumi.
Now, those two. They had it difficult. Due to Oikawa's popularity with the girls, the two boys weren't able to show any form of affection until they were at home. Every other time Oikawa had his group of fangirls following him around. They would follow him everywhere. Literally, everywhere. Well, not literally everywhere. They wouldn't follow him right to his house, but they did know where he lived. And there was occassions where the girls had things that were more important to do. Like on Wednesdays, they all attended an after school club that lasted until nine in the evening. It was a club that people weren't very familiar with. It wasn't a sports club, nor was it a games club. All people knew was that it was a writing club.
Hanamaki and Matsukawa, his boyfriend, were stood at the school gate, watching people walk in, hands holding hands, fingers around fingers. It was irritatingly cute. But still, it was unfair.
The two boys were stood at very close proxemics, not that anyone would notice considering today was valentines day. They're hands were between them, held together and out of sight. They just talked. Talked about everything yet nothing. Talked about possibly coming out as a couple. And the thing that was stopping them from coming out. What was the thing that was stopping them in the first place? They were out to the volley ball team so what exactly was stopping them? Fear. The fear of getting rejected by everyone. The fear of possibly being mocked. The fear of being seperated. For now, they'd stay hidden if they had to.
As they carried on talking, Hanamaki noticed a hedge hog haired figure walking inthrough the gates. He nudged his boyfriend to get him to look at the boy and the two of them nodded at each other.
They quickly seperated and walked to the boy, both of them putting one of their arms around the boys' shoulder.
"And where do you think you're going?" Asked Hanamaki from Iwaizumi's right.
Iwaizumi also looked up at him with an annoyed look. Hanamaki looked over at Matsukawa and smiled. Iwaizumi also turned to his left to see Matsukawa flashing a smug smile at him. Well, the smile was facing more toward Hanamaki. Not that it mattered.
"I was just about to go home. But I'm guessing I'm staying at school." Iwaizumi said with a loud sigh.
Matsukawa nodded, "You sure are. Today is valentines day,"
"Valentines day," Hanamaki replied in a way that was meant to sound like an echo, but instead sounded like a creepy high school girl whispering to her best friend about the hot new teacher.
"And we all know what that means," Matsukawa said looking ahead of himself. Hanamaki nodded his head and copied the boys action.
"It means sex. Iwaizumi, if you go home now, Oikawa will think you are poorly and you will not get laid."
"Just when I thought you guys were being serious," Iwaizumi said sighing again. He seemed to be doing that often with the two of the boys around. Hanamaki could recall every sigh he had ever heard from his friend Iwaizumi. If he were to count them all, he wouldn't have enough body parts for that.
"What do you mean? We're always serious. It's just that our serious subjects aren't very serious to you." Hanamaki said looking at Iwaizumi then back ahead.
"Okay, if that's what you think," Iwaizumi said rolling his eyes at Hanamaki and Matsukawa. They always liked annoying the boy. Well, actually, they enjoyed annoying most of their friends. They just like Iwaizumi's reactions the most. They were the most fun to look at. Especially when it was Oikawa that annoyed him. Iwaizumi's expression then was just priceless. He always looked like he was ready for murder.
But that's not the only reason they enjoyed annoying him. That may have been one of the main reasons, but there were many ithers. Like the fact that it was a good way to bond with Oikawa. Not that they didn't have one. So thinking about it now, they really did only do it for their own enjoyment.
As the boys neared the school building, Matsukawa brushed his hand against Hanamaki's arm. He gently tickled the boys arm, slowly, yet surely, wrapping his finger around the boys arm. This gave Hanamaki goose bumps. The touch, as innocent as it was, left Hanamaki wanting to feel Matsukawa's fingers on his skin all the time.
--
"- An't believe she actually got me a new phone and all. One of the girls said she bought me a puppy but couldn't bring it into school. I don't blame her, I mean you can't exactly bring puppies in to school. Another girl gave me this huge teddy that was about," Oikawa put his hand at the height of his hips, "About this big. It was so adorable," Oikawa began smiling widely, "She started blushing and then ran to me, wrapping her arms around me in a really tight embrace. Another girl, well she bought me this shirt-"
"This shirt with an alien on it that had fan art of you in the back ground in the UFO taking pictures of everything around you. Yes, we know. You have told us this twelve time already. I don't think any more are necessary unless you want to put us all to sleep." Iwaizumi said as he sat up from where he was laying with his feet up on the table.
It was currently lunch time and the four friends were sat together in one of the third year class rooms. The room was pretty empty and there was no girls that obsessed over Oikawa around. It was kind of suspicious in Hanamaki's mind. That was until he saw a couple of heads bopping up and down from the other side of the closed door. They all heard about the presents before. And to be honest with you, they all couldn't care less about what the order of each present was and the exact description of the girls that gave Oikawa the presents. One of them being a little first year that had blonde hair pulled into pig tails, no taller than 149cm tall. According to Oikawa, she was the cutest thing he ever saw. It was all frustratingly pointless. Why would they need to hear any of this?
"It must be nice having all these girls going after you," Said a voice. It was Kindaichi, "Even if you won't date any of them because you are taken. It still sucks that you get all the girls." He said sighing, dropping into a seat beside them all.
"Maybe if you changed your hairstyle you'd get a chance." Kunimi said sitting in a seat next to Kindaichi.
Kindaichi gasped, shocked by his friends rudeness.
"Okay, guys, is there any particular reason you came here?" Iwaizumi asked. It was obvious he was tring to sound kind. Iit was a shame he failed, though. But no one could blame him. He was listening to his boyfriend go on about how he had so many girls obsessing over him.
The two boys, Kindaichi and Kunimi, looked at each other then raised their hands in the, 'I don't know, do you know?' way.
"Nope. No particular reason, just wanted to talk to out senpai's." Kunimi said.
Iwaizumi nodded then blocked them all out again.
"Wait," Hanamaki said, "Why are you, first years, in a third year class room?" Hanamaki's eyebrow raised.
"Uh," The two first years hesitated, "We just though it'd be cool to hang out with our senpai's" Kunimi answered with wide eyes.
"E-e-exactly what he said!" Kindaichi said in a loud voice, nodding his head furiously.
Hanamaki, although skeptical, nodded his head. He didn't believe the boys one bit, but he decided it was best to just leave it.
Out of the corner of Hanamaki's eyes, he could see something going on with Oikawa and Iwaizumi. He couldn't quite hear what Oikawa was saying but he could guess it was something serious. Oikawa had a serious look on his face. Like when playing a strong team.
The only thing Hanamaki heard was a, "Go away already." From a bored sounding Iwaizumi.
He could tell something was up.
"Yo," He called out snapping Iwaizumi back into the real world.
"What?" Iwaizumi asked putting on a confident face.
"Is everything all right? You seem pretty down today." Hanamaki asked.
Iwaizumi opened his mouth to answer but didn't get the chance to as he got interupted by Kindaichi, "Of course he's not. How would you feel if your boyfriend had a group of desperate fangirls following him like he was some celebrity, asking him out everyday and giving him gifts, expecting some sort of relationship out of it?"
"It's nice knowing you know more about me than I do myself." Iwaizumi said sarcastically. Once again his eyes closing.
"And I wouldn't call them desperate. More like, obsessive. And even if I am upset, it's not because of that. It's more the fact that today is valentines day and it's one of the days of the year that I hate the most."
"Oh." Hanamaki said. Kindaichi and the other two boys agreeing with him.
--
When it was practice time, Oikawa still hadn't gotten bored of bragging about his presents from all the girls. In fact, he had more presents to brag about making all the boys want to scratch his vocal chords out.
When the boy was done dressing Iwaizumi opened his bad whipping out the box of chocolates he was only just reminded of as Oikawa proceeded to talk about what he got.
Hanamaki saw the logo of a famous chocolate company he wasn't very keen on.
"A couple of the girls got me some chocolates. They were really good. I ate some during lessons and I had a problem with stopping. Would any of you li--" Before he could finish, Iwaizumi threw his box of chocolates at Oikawa's face.
"Oh my God! Just shut up about all the things you were given! Can you not tell none of us care?! Just shut the fuck up!" With that Iwaizumi shut his bag and stormed off out of the club room.
"Ow!! That hurt me so much!" Oikawa called out.
"Who would have thought that I'd come to like that brand of chocolate?" Hanamaki said snorting.
Matsukawa and the other lads also laughed causing Oikawa to glare at them. He then ran out of the club room to follow after Iwaizumi.
The rest of the boys stayed inside for a bit longer until they all heard a high pitched word that sounded like, "Date." Hanamaki and Matsukawa looked at each other with a knowing look and decided to leave the room.
"Where are you guys going so fast!" Kindaichi called after them.
"Spy on Oikawa and Iwaizumi on their date." They both said simultaneously.
--
As the boys kept their distance in order to not get caught by their friends, they entertwined their fingers. Obviously it was as to not lose one another. Obviously.
It was nice. Walking around together and not worrying about what others think of them. Strangers are just strangers obviously. It's not like they can control them or anything.
Once Iwaizumi led Oikawa into a coffee shop, the two boys waited a while before entering. Making sure to not get noticed by anyone. They hid behind a small wall that was there for no particular reason. Behind that wall was another, larger wall. They were in a corner, pressed together. They had to hold onto each other to fit in.
When Hanamaki began listening in to the conversation between their friends, he noticed they were actually pretty boring.
"What's going on?" Matsukawa whispered in Hanamaki's ear making the boy shiver.
"Nothing much, so far they have been pretty quiet." The boy breathed out.
As the date progressed, the conversation between the boys hadn't gotten much more interesting other than the awkward silence and Oikawa's "Iwa-chan, are you my mum?" Moment which made them have to hold their laughter in.
During the boring pauses of silence and the rest of the boring coversation the to had, Mmatsukawa decided it was his turn to entertain them. He put his lips on Hanamaki's neck making him take in a deep breath.
"W-what are you doing?" Hanamaki asked quickly.
"Shhh. Just enjoy this," Matsukawa said laying his hand on Hanamaki's waist.
Hanamaki quickly put his hands on Matsukawa's face to lift it to his. He looked in his eyes and placed his lips on Matsukawa's. Although kissing was fun, Matsukawa decided it wasn't entertaining enough. He wanted to hear Hanamaki laugh. The only way he knew how to do that is to tickle him.
Matsukawa's hand slipped to Hanamaki's sides once more. His fingers began moving slowly and then, he began to tickle the boy. He knew he'd get a reaction from him, that was for sure.
"St-stop!" Hanamaki said trying to contain his laughter.
"No, this is fun too."
As Hanamaki began struggling, his laughter grew in noise.
"Shut up, they'll hear you!" Matsukawa whisper-yelled.
"Then stop tickling me!" Hanamaki said, still laughing.
"Hanamaki, Matsukawa. Why are you hiding and spying on us?" Iwaizumi called out to the two boys stood behind what seemed like a wall behind them.
"Oh shit, they heard you you loud shit!" Matsukawa whisper-yelled.
"No they didn't. If we pretend to not be here they'll forget about us." Hanamaki whisper-yelled back.
Hanamaki and Matsukawa were sat quietly once again, praying to not get caught.
"I don't think that's how life works, Hanamaki." Iwaizumi said.
"Shit. You got us caught!" Matsukawa said kicking at Hanamaki.
"Why were you spying on us anyway?" Oikawa asked laughing quietly.
"Seemes like a good idea to begin with." Matsukawa started.
"Turns out we aren't very good at camouflaging ourselves." Hanamaki ended.
"Any other reasons?" Iwaizumi asked after he let go of them.
"Thought maybe it'd be funny or something," The two boys said simultaneously.
"It was at the beginning," Hanamaki began saying.
"But then you became boring so we had to entertan ourselves," Matsukawa added.
"As it turns out, we're so funny that we got caught." Hanamaki finished.
Oikawa looked at Iwaizumi with an amused expression.
"You can sit with us if you like," Oikawa said not thinking at all.
"No you can't!" Iwaizumi said angrily.
"We weren't going to anyway." Matsukawa said sticking his tongue out at the black haired boy.
"Speak for yourself!" Hanamaki said, "I'm staying." The boy sat down next to Oikawa.
Matsukawa walked away from Iwaizumi. He grabbed hold of Hanamaki and dragged him away with him.
"We really need more fun friends," Matsukawa said as they made their way to his house, hand in hand.
"Meh, they're pretty cool if you think about it." Hanamaki responded.
"You think?" Matsukawa asked.
"Yeah, could be worse." Hanamaki said.
"Like who?"
"You."
Matsukawa gasped. Hanamaki kissed him, laughing and saying he was only kidding.
--
"You have no good music!" Hanamaki said as he went through Matsukawa's phone. The two were sat on Matsukawa's bed.
Hanamaki quickly put on a random song then pushed Matsukawa down on the bed, he layed down next to him, cuddling into his side.
As the song began, Matsukawa began cringing.
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
Hanamaki held onto Matsukawa's shirt tighter, wanting nothing more than to stay like this forever.
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
By the time the chorus began, Hanamaki began singing along.
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
"I didn't know you knew this song." Matsukawa said kissing the top of Hanaaki's head.
There's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
and in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
"Yeah, well."
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you
When the song ended, Hanamaki looked up at Matsukawa and recieved a kiss. The next song was Matsukawa's favourite.
Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you
Matsukawa began singing. He was singing for Hanamaki, about Hanamaki and to Hanamaki.
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
"You have a nice voice," Hanamaki said softly.
Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now
"Thank you." Matsukawa said, softly and quietly.
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
The two boys were together, And that's all that mattered.
There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
"You should sing more," Hanamaki said plaing with Matsukawa's shirt.
Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you
"Maybe one day." Matsukawa responded.
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
"I love you," Hanamaki said. The first time he ever said that. It made Matsukawa stop singing.
Just hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment
I'm hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment here with you
"I love you too, you dork," Matsukawa replied after a while.