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**Wednesday Morning**

**Clarkes POV**

She decided to wait for Lexa outside of the classroom that morning, she missed her terribly but she didn’t want to push her. She hadn’t texted her anything since her text explaining the sketchbook, she just hoped she liked it. She isn’t sure if she had ever felt this nervous about seeing Lexa, she just wanted to earn her back.

She kept switching her weight from foot to foot looking down the hall but she didn’t see Lexa, what if she didn’t show again?

“Clarke?”

She spun around to find Lexa standing behind her, she had come from the opposite way. “You never come in this way.”

Lexa just shrugged lifting her cup, “I needed coffee and I had time so I stopped by the café.” Clarke just nodded and Lexa began walking away from her into the classroom. The room was pretty packed, but they found seats at the back of the room. Clarke just wanted to grab Lexas hand once they were settled in but she refrained herself and just watched her.

“You are staring.”

She blinked but kept looking, “You look very beautiful Lex.”

Lexa turned her head slightly to look at her and just shook her head,” Clarke don’t. Not now.”

Clarke blushed, “Sorry, I just, I miss you so much Lexa.”

Lexa ignored what she said and went back to paying attention the teacher.

Class ended pretty fast and Lexa seemed to be in a rush to get out of there but Clarke moved just as quickly catching up to her in the hall.

“Wait hold on.” Lexa stopped walking took a deep breath in and turned to her expectantly.

“I umm had a little trouble concentrating and didn’t really take notes, can I borrow your note book?” Lexa rolled her eyes but Clarke saw the little smirk on her lips as she opened her bag to grab her book, it made her heart beat faster, she missed that smile. Lexa handed her the book. “Thanks.”

Lexa nodded and began walking away, Clarke watched her walk away, Lexa paused for a moment seeming to contemplate something, she looked over her shoulder. Clarke began walking towards her but before she got really close to her Lexas words made her freeze.

“I miss you too.” Lexa didn’t give her a chance to react because by the time she was able to close her mouth from shock Lexa was gone. She just smiled to herself letting the words course through her. She had a chance.

**Thursday Afternoon**

Lexa laid on the field trying to catch her breath, Indra made their last practice of the year ten times harder than usual and she had previously thought that was impossible. She closed her eyes trying to block out the sun, it was too fucking hot.

Her eyes snapped open when there was thud next to her, she looked over to find none other than Octavia next to her, she sighed and closed her eyes again.

“Lexa?”

“Yes Blake?”

“I’m sorry about keeping the Finn thing a secret, I didn’t ever think it would have escalated to what it did.”

Lexa glanced over at her quickly trying to gauge her sincerity, she thinks she meant it. “It wasn’t your secret to tell….. I’m glad you and Lincoln are okay.”

Octavia sighed loudly, “So am I, I was so scared I lost him that night and then Clarke was mess in our room when I got there, I have never seen her like that.”

Lexa didn’t know what to say to that so she stood silent. She didn’t want to hurt Clarke she really didn’t but she couldn’t just jump back into things.

“Are you guys going to get back together?”

She felt a rush of annoyance. “Octavia, you should stop now.”

“Look she’s my friend, and she misses you, she loves you. Just don’t give up yet, give her a chance.”

Lexa didn’t say anything but she had listened, if everyone had their way she and Clarke would have been back together already. She missed her too, she just did her best to stay busy and not let it consume her. It was always hardest at night, she missed having someone to sleep next to her.

Octavia stood up then and began walking towards the locker rooms, Lexa sat up and began running her hands through the grass. She wanted to see Clarke, she sighed, she would wait until tomorrows class, she could hold off until then.

**Friday Morning**

It was her turn to wait outside of the classroom, she got there especially early to beat Clarke, she felt a weird nervousness about seeing her. She didn’t know if she was doing the right thing or not but she didn’t really care right now.

She tried to not smile when she saw her walking towards the room, the hall was a little crowded so Clarke didn’t see her right away. She was wearing shorts with a loose t-shirt and a pair of converse, she had her hair down. She looked hot. Lexa tried not to stare but she couldn’t help it.

When Clarke saw her she smiled so bright Lexa couldn’t help but smile back and offer a small wave. Clarke half jogged to her which made her stomach flip.

“You waiting for me?”

“Yes.”

Clarke smiled and opened the door ushering her in, they sat in the back again. Clarke handed Lexa her book and they waited for Kane to start. Lexa couldn’t help but glance at Clarke every now and then and Clarke caught her more than a few times making her blush and look down quickly.

“Lex are you okay?”

“You look sexy.” Her eyes widened and she looked around quickly, did that really come from her? From Clarkes hanging jaw she knew it was. God she hated herself so much in this moment. She covered her face with her palms putting both elbows on her desk.

A couple of seconds later Professor Kane began talking so she did her best to focus on that but then Clarke passed her a note.

“So you think I’m sexy?”

She glanced over but Clarke was pretending to listen to the lecture.

“It just slipped out.”

Lexa didn’t get to put the paper down before Clarke grabbed it and read.

“But is it true?”

Lexa thought about this situation a moment, flirting with Clarke probably wasn’t a good idea when she was trying to control her own feelings but damn this felt so right.

“Always.”

She held on to the note awhile before passing it to her trying to decide if it was a good idea but then Clarke snatched the paper away before she made her decision. Lexa almost jumped up to snatch it from her but it was too late.

“;) Are we meeting later to start our final papers?”

Lexa completely forgot about the papers which was so unlike her. Of course she kind of flirted with Clarke the day they would have to be alone working together.

“My place after class?”

She passed the note back to Clarke and swore she fucking squeaked with excitement before turning red and looking down. Lexa just shook her head trying not to smile.

**Clarkes POV**

The walk to Lexas room took forever and it was driving her crazy, she wanted to get there as soon as possible, Lexa was even walking too slow for her liking. When they finally reached the apartment she went straight to Lexas room throwing herself on the bed and grabbing a pillow.

“I miss this bed soo much.” She looked up and saw Lexa watching her arms crossed eyebrow raised. Clarke just realized what she did and she scrambled off the bed as fast she could.

“Sorry, umm habit, plus your bed is way better than mine.”

Lexa just gave her a little smile and sat on the bed patting next to her for Clarke to sit. Her heart started beating faster from just the thought of being on the bed with Lexa but she sat anyway. Lexa grabbed the pillow she had earlier and passed it back to her. “It is way better than yours.”

They began talking about their paper. It came so natural being with Lexa and she hoped that she just felt the same way. They settled on what they were going to do and began writing. Clarke didn’t realize how fast time was flying until her stomach growled ridiculously loud. She looked up embarrassed but Lexa just gave her that little smile again, stood up and motioned for her to follow.

Clarke went to the kitchen where Lexa began pulling things out of cupboards and fridge. “You’re cooking for me?”

“I’m hungry too, but yeah figured it would be rude not to feed you.” Clarke just smiled at her and if she wasn’t crazy then Lexa just blushed.

Lexa made them grilled cheese with tomato soup, it was Clarkes favorite, Lexa knew that. She couldn’t help but think the way Lexa was acting today meant they were going to be okay. But how could she find out?

The answer came when Lexa walked around the table and swiped her thumb across Clarkes bottom lip where she was about wipe soup off. Lexa looked her in the eyes and stuck her thumb in her mouth sucking her thumb with a pop.

“Mm delicious.” With that she winked and walk over to the sink and began cleaning. Clarke thought she was going to die, Lexa was messing with her bad. She could play that game too.

**Lexas POV**

She was horny, she was so fucking horny she was losing her mind, all she wanted was Clarke touching her, tasting her, filling her. She wet her hands in the sink and tried to focus on cleaning, that was an impossible task. She had gone months without sex why was it so difficult right now?

Clarke was Clarke and from the first moment she had touched her Lexa had been addicted to the feelings that her touch caused. She couldn’t just act like nothing had happened and jump in to bed with her, or could she?

Next thing she knew she felt the heat of a body behind her, she glanced over her shoulder to see Clarke standing behind her. “What?”

“You seem tense, let me help you.” Before she could say anything Clarke began to massage her shoulders, she tensed even more at the contct but relaxed into as Clarke continued. Clarke moved all of her hair to one shoulder but continued her movements.

She stepped forward as much as possible causing Lexas hips to hit the counter and her ass to push against Clarkes front, she held in a moan at the contact. Lexa was losing right now and she knew it.

She fought to keep her eyes open but then she felt Clarkes breath on her neck, followed by very light kiss to the spot that made her weakest, she let out a little moan, moving her head to give Clarke better access.

“Is this okay baby?” Lexas eyes snapped open and she pushed back making Clarke step back from her as well. She turned to look at Clarke and started pacing. What should she do?

“Lexa?”

“Shut it a minute will ya?” She looked at her, fuck she wanted her, but she was supposed to let her go. She was failing at that miserably. She looked at her again, damn it she loved her. She loved her with everything inside of her, seeing her smile, spending time with her today had proved it. But there had to be a but right?

“Lexa I’m sorry, I just thought, I mean you were flirting with me right?’ She was, she definitely was. She shouldn’t have but she did.

“Clarke can you go home?” She saw Clarkes eyes widen and saw the hurt flash in her eyes. Shit that came out wrong. She went to take a step towards here but Clarke just nodded tears forming in her eyes and she half ran to Lexas room. Lexa just stood there she couldn’t move, she needed to think with her mind and not her hormones and with Clarke around she only focused on her hormones.

Clarke walked just as quickly to the door glancing at Lexa as tears ran down her face, yet still she couldn’t move. She didn’t realize she was holding her breathe until the door closed behind Clarke.

She sat at the kitchen table for about ten minutes rotating a mug in her hand. What was she supposed to do? What was she supposed to do? What was she supposed to do? She pictured Clarkes face right before she left.

“FUCK!” She threw the mug against the wall shattering it.

**Saturday Morning**

**Clarkes POV**

Clarke had spent the rest of the day in bed, she fell asleep so early but still managed to sleep in. She rolled over pulling the blankets back over her head, she never felt this alone and empty. She thought her and Lexa were making progress but Lexas rejection was heard loud and clear.

Her mind wouldn’t let her go back to sleep. She went to grab her phone, she needed to talk to someone anyone so she could understand what to do next. She grabbed her phone but it was dead, ofcourse it was. She plugged it in and went decided to go take a shower.

She stood in the shower way longer than usual. How was she supposed to let Lexa go when she is all she ever thought about? She was always the person she wanted to spend her time with. Could she ever feel this way for anyone else?

She stepped out the shower wrapping a towel around her self. She walked to her bed and sat down. She looked around her room trying to figure out what to do. She remembered she was going to calls Wells so she grabbed her phone.

What she wasn’t expecting was all the messages that were there.

Lexa: I’m sorry I handled that wrong.

Lexa: I’m trying.

Lexa: Can you please come back?

Lexa: Clarke?

Lexa: I called your phone…

Lexa: Please.

Her last message had been around midnight. Why the fuck hadn’t she paid attention to her fucking phone? She was always on her phone! Lexa seriously probably thought she was ignoring her.

Clarke tried to call her back but there was no answer, it was ten, Lexa didn’t sleep in. She got dressed as fast as she could and headed straight for Lexas.

She knocked on the door but there was no answer. She wasn’t going to give up she must have been knocking for a good five minutes when the door finally opened.

“What the fuck blondie?” Anya looked very mad, but Clarke didn’t have time for it.

“Sorry!” She half ran to Lexas room, thankfully her door was unlocked. Clarke stepped into the dark room and was able to make out Lexas sleeping form, which confused her.

She walked towards her bending down to try and wake her up. Lexas hair almost covered her whole face, Clarke smiled she didn’t understand how she could sleep like that. She brushed the hair away taking in how beautiful Lexa looked in that moment.

“Lexa….Lex.” She began running her hand up and down Lexas arm to try and get her to wake up. She knew it was starting to work when Lexas peaceful face began looking more grumpy.

“Lexa come on its time to wake up, I came back.” There was a groan and Lexa turned onto her side facing away from Clarke.

“Come on don’t be stubborn.”

“Clarke shut up!!” Clarkes eyes widened at the outburst but then Lexa threw herself up into a sitting position so fast she actually squeaked the movement was so fast it scared her.

“Clarke!?” Clarke stood back up as Lexa stared at her with wide eyes and her mouth hanging open, she didn’t know what to do so she just waved in response.

Lexa grabbed her waving hand and pulled her down towards the bed and on top of her into the most painful hug ever, she loved it completely.

“You came back.” Clarke did her best to hug her back just as tightly. But then Lexa pushed her away and sat up ,her face turning serious.

“What took you so long?”

“My phone died yesterday, I didn’t notice until I woke up this morning.”

Lexa just nodded and stood up, walking to the bathroom without another word.

“Okay?” That was weird right? She got up and  stood there awkwardly waiting for Lexa to get back, she heard the water running. She didn’t know if she should sit or what so she just stood their awkwardly.

** Lexas POV**

She finished brushing her teeth and looked at herself in the mirror. It was now or never, she walked back into the room to see Clarke was standing. She sat on the bed and motioned for Clarke to sit, she started talking before Clarke could.

“So you love me?’ Clarke seemed confused by the question but answered anyway.

“Of course I do.” Lexa nodded trying to take it in.

“Say it Clarke.” She needed to hear it.

“I love you Lexa.” She nodded again feeling for the first time what those words truly meant, for the first time actually believing that Clarke meant them.

“Do you want to be with me? Like in a relationship again?” Clarke still looked confused.

“More than anything.” Lexa nodded her head again, looking at Clarkes confused face and smiling for the first time since she got there.

“Okay.”

“Okay?” Lexas smile grew wider, she moved so she was sitting on top of Clarke facing her and straddling her lap. She moved Clarkes hair away from her face and lightly pressed her lips to Clarkes who gasped at the contact. Lexa pulled away smiling. She went to kiss her again but Clarke pulled back.

Lexa frowned at the movement.

“Wait, I need to clarify for my own sake, you’re mine again? Like my girlfriend?”

Lexa smiled feeling relieved, “I was still yours even when we weren’t together but yes you are my girlfriend… again.” She was surprised when Clarke jumped up making her fall to her back and putting her on the bottom.

“Oh thank god.” She started laughing but it was cut short when Clarke pressed her lips to hers again, this kiss wasn’t fast at all. Lexa sucked Clarkes bottom lip into her mouth and bit it causing Clarke to moan. She soothed the bite by running her tongue along it. Clarke pressed down into her more sliding her tongue into Lexas mouth who welcomed it greedily.

They fought for dominance in the kiss the entire time, Lexa didn’t want to relent, but then Clarke growled into the kiss, and she found it to be the sexiest thing ever. She could release some control if it is what got Clarke so riled up, she wanted to see what she would do.

Clarke began running one of her hands up and down Lexas side, moving it to cup a breast through her tank top, she squeezed hard making Lexa whimper in pain and pleasure. When Clarke pulled away from the kiss Lexa gasped for air she didn’t realize she needed.

But then Clarke was on her neck, kissing, sucking and biting, each and every one made her shiver beneath her, she knew Clarke was marking her but she couldn’t find it in herself to care. Clarke had never been this dominant before and it was driving her crazy.

Clarke pulled back, pulling her up with her, She grabbed the bottom of Lexas shirt and tugged it over her head so fast Lexa was sure she had whip lash. Clarke shoved her to lay back down, and Lexa was just shocked at how this was playing out and so turned on by it at the same time.

Clarke wasted no time, Lexa jumped a little she wasn’t prepared for Clarke to take a nipple into her mouth so fast, but the way her tongue swirled around it had her pulling Clarkes head in closer. She moaned as she felt teeth graze it. “Fuck Clarke.”

She thrusted her hips up trying to a find some kind of contact but Clarke refused, moving her body so that she couldn’t get what she needed most. “Clarke please.”

Clarke let her nipple go with a pop and she couldn’t help but whine at the loss. Clarke moved higher and whispered in her ear “Shhh baby I’m going to take care of you.” She pressed a kiss right below her ear making her moan again.

Clarke made her way lower and began kissing her stomach, the lower she went the more Lexa couldn’t help but jump with each pulse it sent through her entire body. She could feel her pulse in her clit, and it was going crazy, she pressed her legs together as tight as possible to try and alleviate some of her need. Clarke just shook her head prying her legs open but doing nothing to appease her need there.

She just about cheered when Clarke began moving her shorts down her legs, but then she realized Clarke left her underwear on and she was ready to cry. She was soaked, she could feel it, she was so turned on but her fucking girlfriend decided to be a tease. She paused for a moment and smiled for a moment, Clarke was her girlfriend again.

Clarke settled herself between her legs and began to pay attention to her inner thighs she kissed and licked closer and closer to where she needed her most. The anticipation was driving her crazy. She was sure the moment Clarke did touch her she would finish embarrassingly fast.

Clarkes teeth were at the edge of her underwear nibbling so close, she thrusted her hips trying to make Clarke move but she just shook her head and held her down. Then Clarke brushed her nose against her clit through her underwear and Lexa moaned so loud she knew someone probably heard her. Clarke looked up and grinned at her before repeating the movement.

Lexa tried to hold in the next moan so it came out sounding like a hum. But then Clarke was crawling back up her body. “You have to be kidding me!!” Clarke just laughed pressing a quick kiss to her lips before going back down and removing her underwear very quickly and setting herself next to her.

Lexa gasped when Clarke ran her finger through her folds. Clarke moved closer to her, “I knew you would like this, you are so wet right now, I bet you are going to cum so hard.” Lexa just nodded what Clarke was doing felt good but it wasn’t going to get her anywhere and she knew Clarke knew this.

“Baby please, I need you, I can’t do this.” Clarke nodded and sat up pulling Lexa up by her arms too. But then Clarke laid down and pulled Lexa on top of her.

She was seriously tempted to kick her out to teach her a lesson about making her wait so long. Clarke kissed her as Lexa straddled her hips realizing for the first time that Clarke was fully dressed. She sat up and pulled Clarke with her making quick work of removing her shirt and bra. When she went to tug on her shorts Clarke stopped her.

This was seriously bullshit, but then Clarke laid back down and grabbed her ass pulling her forwards higher and higher on Clarkes body. When Lexa had gone high enough so that she was straddling Clarkes face Clarke held her in place by her hips.

When she felt the first tentative lick of Clarkes tongue she pressed her hands against the wall to keep herself from collapsing. Without any warning Clarke drove her tongue in as deep as she could go, her nose bumping her clit. Lexa felt her body begin to shake already.

Clarkes hands on her hips began raising her up and down so that she was literally riding her face. She couldn’t help but quicken the pace, she couldn’t contain her moans it was impossible. She thought Clarke had been amazing before but this was reaching new levels that she didn’t know even existed until right now. She felt her tongue go even deeper causing the pressure to her clit to increase and that was all she needed.

“Clarke oh shit.” The English language left her in that moment.

Her orgasm hit her harder than any she had ever felt in her life. Her entire body was going through wave after wave of pleasure. It also lasted longer than any she had before, it was too much to handle, she swore she was going to die like this.

It took every ounce of strength she had to not completely collapse onto Clarkes face, she barely managed it. She jumped as Clarke thrust her tongue in one more time, finding the strength to drag her body off of her and collapse next to her instead.

She lazily grabbed Clarkes face and kissed her as hard as she could trying to convey how amazing that was to her. She laid her head on Clarkes chest dragging her hand up and down the girls smooth stomach. She sat up suddenly putting her hair up, she smiled at Clarke, she had some work to do and she was going to enjoy it.

**Clarkes POV**

She had never felt so accomplished of anything in her life, she felt how hard and long Lexa had cum on her tongue, every pulse of it caused Lexas walls to clench around her. She could tell how exhausted she was from it and wanted to tease her about it but she was honestly exhausted herself.

In this moment with the girl she loved in her arms she could never ask for anything more, it terrified her how close she had come to losing her, she would do everything in her power to make sure that never happened again. She closed her eyes trying to enjoy the moment but Lexa sat up quickly surprising her.

She opened her eyes and watched as Lexa put her hair up, she gulped hard. She knew what that meant and the smile Lexa gave her only confirmed her thoughts.

The sight of it made Clarke focus in on how needy she was right now, she wanted this, she wanted Lexa so bad. “You see, I could go your way and tease the shit out of you or I could make you cum faster and harder than you ever have.” Clarke gasped as Lexa quickly shoved her hand into her pants, swiping once before pulling it out and looking at her fingers.

“Just as I thought, always so eager baby.” Clarke was speechless, Lexa was right there was no denying it and she needed her release right now, the faster Lexa pushed her over the edge the better.

Lexa wasted no time she pulled Clarkes pants down along with her underwear in one go. She paused quickly pressing a kiss to her lips, she moved down to her chest and began fondling her breast. “God I missed these.” Clarke let out a little laugh at that. But then Lexa pressed a leg between hers and that shut her up quickly.

Lexa let her grind into her a little before removing herself. She wanted to complain but then Lexa kissed her center. She kissed her lightly over and over again driving her crazy. Didn’t she just say she wouldn’t be a tease?!

“Lexa please.” Lexa tilted her head to the side and nodded.

“I just need to taste you really quick. Do you want that?”

She nodded but Lexa didn’t make a move, she was waiting. “Please taste me.” Lexa smiled and began pleasing her, alternating between thrusting her tongue inside of her and running it around her clit. Everything she did sent tingles down to her toes, she was so close.

When Lexa sucked her clit into her mouth she thought she was going to cum, she began grinding into Lexas face with all her strength, her body tensed but right before she took the plunge Lexa stopped out of nowhere.

She shot her head up and looked down to see Lexa grinning. “You are kidding right!? Please tell me you are kidding!”

Lexa smile just grew, “Shh baby I’m going to take care of you.” Clarke hated hearing her words thrown back at her in that moment, she was just about to tell Lexa that when Lexa flipped her onto her stomach. What the hell was she doing?

She tried to turn back over but Lexa held her. “Trust me.” Clarke nodded, and felt Lexas hand on her hip pulling them up so she was on her knees.

And then Lexa tongue was back inside of her, and she was grinding back into her tongue, this was so damn hot. She whimpered when Lexa removed her tongue, but then she felt finger enter her, Lexa was on her knees behind her using her body to ram her fingers into her as hard and fast as she could.

Lexa still found a way so that her thumb was rubbing against her clit, and she was soon at the edge again and just prayed that she wouldn’t stop again. Clarke began thrusting her ass back meeting her rhythm. Suddenly she felt a hard slap on her ass and at the same time Lexa did a little twist with her fingers that sent her tumbling.

She stopped her movements as she came but Lexa only sped up making sure the orgasm lasted. With one hand plunging in and out of her while the other kneaded her ass, Clarke Griffin felt her entire body convulse, ever nerve in her body was yelling, screaming, screeching. She couldn’t handle the amount of pleasure that hit her. She collapsed onto her stomach causing the fingers to be removed, and even then she still felt herself clenching and unclenching on nothing.

Lexa was kissing her shoulder blades as she came down, it took awhile if she was being honest. When she could she turned she lifted herself onto her elbows so she could look at the girl beside her.

“Hi.”

She smiled, “Hi Lex.”

“So that’s what all the fuss about make up sex is huh?” Clarke laughed and swatted at her. Lexa smiled but her face grew serious right after.

“Seriously though Clarke, I don’t ever want to let you go or lose you again.” She nodded pressing a kiss to her temple.

“You won’t, I promise, I’m here to stay.”

Lexa looked at her intently trying to see if she was telling the truth.

“Good.”

They lay there for bit, Clarke moving her head onto Lexas chest.

“Clarke?”

“Yes baby?” She heard Lexas heart begin beating faster.

“I love you.” She felt her own heart stop.