Maybe

Clarke was walking to her class the next morning with her head phones in bobbing to the song that was playing.

Can’t keep my hands to myself

No matter how hard I’m trying to

She had woken up so excited to see Lexa. She felt her cheeks flush from thinking about her. They had spent the early afternoon together just lying in bed and watching television until Lexa had to leave to go meet with a group for another class. Clarke had gone back to her room and had tried to focus on studying for a physics test but she only had Lexa on the brain.

They hadn’t talked since they had separated. She was a little nervous about how they would act towards each other out in public. What did being more than friends actually mean?

Clarke walked into the room eyes automatically finding Lexa. She had her hair loose with some braids in it, She smiled she loved when Lexa wore her hair that way. Her nerves hit her full force, she wanted to turn and run. What if Lexa didn’t want her? Her heart began pounding in her chest and she felt like she was going to be sick. The door opened behind her bumping into her. She took off a headphone to apologize the person. When she turned back Lexa was watching her, she had a confused face. But when she saw Clarke saw she gave a little smile and gestured for Clarke to come sit.

Clarke returned the smile feeling relief flood through her. She began walking towards Lexa who didn’t stop watching her. It made her nervous again. She sat and put her bag down, turning to Lexa to say hello.

“Hey Lex.”

“ClarKe.” Clarkes eyes widened at the red that rose Lexas cheeks and ears when she said her name. She wanted to comment and tease her but Mr. Kane chose that time  to start class.

Clarke tried her best to concentrate but having Lexa so close and not touching her was driving her crazy. She tried not to stare at her, she really did but it felt impossible. She knew Lexa felt her staring because she was smirking.

Class had twenty minutes left when Lexa must have been tired of her staring because Clarke was shocked out of it when Lexa shoved her shoulder and pointed towards Mr.Kane. She felt herself blush. She had to concentrate on something else. She opened her notebook and began doodling, it only took her like five minutes.

It came out kind of just looking like a gear, she thought it was trash, she ripped it out of her book and went to crumple it but knew Lexa would still want to see it. She placed it on Lexas desk. Lexa looked down at it and traced each line with her fingers, she picked it up and placed in a folder.

She glanced at Clarke, reached out and squeezed her hand. Just that touch had Clarkes heart hammering. When Lexa went to pull away Clarke squeezed her hand, Lexa studied her face for a moment and nodded focusing in back on what Mr. Kane was saying, but she didn’t move her hand from Clarkes grip.

Clarke felt relieved, she knew Lexa had let her done this before they had sex but it calmed her to know she wasn’t pulling away. She turned Lexas hand over and began tracing the lines of her palm. She must have lost track of time because next thing she knew people around them were packing up and Lexa was watching her.

She pulled her hand away from Clarkes gasp and began rubbing her own palm off.

“That tickled the entire time.”

Clarke looked down, “You could have told me to stop Lex.”

She looked up to see Lexa watching her and shrug. “I didn’t want you to.”

Clarke got up and began putting her stuff away. That response making her freeze and her heart skip a moment.

“Ms. Griffin may I speak to you real quick?”

Clarke looked up to see Mr. Kane looking at her.

“Yes ser.” She finished putting her stuff away and turned to Lexa.

“Ohhhh you’re in trouble Clarke.”

“Shut it. Wait for me?”

Lexa nodded putting her bag over her shoulder and making her way out of the classroom. Clarke took a deep breath and walked over to where the professor was waiting.

“Yes professor Kane?”

“Are you alright?”

Clarke was confused by his question. “Yes?”

“You seemed a bit distracted today.”

Clarke felt herself blush and look away, “Sorry, it won’t happen again.”

“Miss Alexandria should not be your focus.” Clarke thought she was going to die of embarrassment. She literally had no chill, even the damn professor could see how enamored she was with Lexa.

She just nodded her head, she wanted to get out of there as soon as possible. “Is that all sir?”

“Yes Ms. Griffin, see you after break.”

She nodded and walked towards the door, turning back to see that he was still watching her with a smirk on his face now. She shook her head and opened the door to see Lexa on her phone waiting for her.

She looked up when she approached putting her phone away.

“What did he want?”

Clarke looked down and shuffled her feet a bit. “I need to concentrate on class instead of concentrating on you.” She looked up to see Lexa smiling at her.

“Well he is right you know.” Clarke rolled her eyes.

“Shut up Lexa. When do you leave for break?

“A couple of hours, you?”

“My dad is picking me up tonight.”

Lexa nodded her head, “Have you packed?” Clarke shook her head.

“Me either.” She seemed to think a moment before speaking again. “Want to keep me company while I pack?”

Clarke couldn’t help her smile and nodding enthusiastically. Lexa laughed at her and shook her head. She held her hand out for Clarke to take, she didn’t hesitate one moment before taking it.

Lexas POV

She was going through her drawers throwing things into her suitcase trying to pack fast so she could just relax before heading home with Raven and Lincoln. She could feel Clarkes eyes on her. It made it hard for her to concentrate knowing she was being watched.

She couldn’t do it, she turned to face Clarke who didn’t even look away. “You’re staring Clarke.”

The girl just shrugged at her not stopping. Lexa picked up a pillow and threw it at her. “Stop Clarke.”

She turned back to packing but stiffened when she felt Clarke wrap her arms around her waist and tried to pull her onto the bed. She relaxed into the hold but didn’t let herself be pulled. She turned around so she was facing the blonde.

Clarke began releasing her hold on Lexa with a sad look on her face, she must have taken it as a rejection. Lexa frowned a moment before putting her hand on Clarkes neck rubbing her thumb over the girls jaw. She leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to the girls lips feeling the warmth it ignited in her. She pulled away before she or Clarke could try and deepen it.

“Give me a couple of minutes to finish packing and then we can do whatever you want, ok?” She felt a throb between her own legs at her words, hoping she knew what Clarke would want. Clarke nodded and quickly placed a kiss to Lexas lips before shuffling back on the bed.

“Can I get your notebook so I can copy today’s notes?” Lexa nodded and pointed to where her bag was on the floor.

It only took Lexa a couple more minutes of packing before she was done. She put her bag down by the door, she looked at the time. She would have to leave in the next hour to make it to the bus stop on time.

She turned to the bed and watched as Clarke focused on copying her notes. She had her tongue sticking out slightly. She looked cute. She made her way to the bed and placed herself behind Clarke wrapping her hands around her waist. She put her face into her hair and breathed in. She heard Clarke breathe in relief at her touch which made her smile.

“Almost done?”

Clarke nodded and continued writing, faster than she had before. Lexa waited patiently, playing with Clarkes hair as she did. She began braiding parts of her hair to match her own. When she was finished she realized Clarke had already finished and had just been waiting for her to finish. She let the blonde hair drop from her fingers. Clarke lightly touched her hair and turned so they were facing each other.

“Thank you.”

Lexa just nodded, thinking about what to do next. “I have to leave in less than an hour.”

Clarke nodded, and looked down. “I’m going to miss you over break.”

Lexa lifted her head so that Clarkes blue eyes met her own, “I will miss you too, but we can text. Ok?”

Clarke gave a light smile at her, but Lexa was still focused on her eyes. She couldn’t tear her eyes away, mentally she was chastising herself because she stared as much as Clarke did if she was being honest.

“What are you going to do while you are home?”

“Hang out with Lincoln and Raven still, spend some time with the parentals. Nothing special.”

Lexa watched as Clarke seemed to contemplate on saying something else. “Are you going to see Costia?”

The question took her by surprise, but she should have known Clarke would worry. After all they still spoke, more in the past week that they have been broken up than they did in the past month.

She took Clarkes hand in hers, she would always tell her the truth. “She has asked to hang out over break and I said yes.” She could feel Clarke pulling away from her. She moved closer so that she had her hands on Clarkes face and her legs on top of Clarkes almost wrapped around her waist.

Clarke wouldn’t look at her. “Hey, look at me.” She waited for Clarke to open her eyes before she began speaking again. “We are just friends I promise, I don’t want to lose her friendship Clarke.” Clarke nodded but didn’t look convinced.

“I won’t…. we won’t…” She took in a deep breathe trying to say what she felt. She looked down, she was never good at explain what she was feeling. “I don’t want her as anything other than a friend……. I don’t want her the way I want you. Okay?”

She felt Clarke lifting her face up, the blonde was smiling at her as she nodded. “Okay.”

Lexa smiled and leaned forward pressing a kiss to Clarkes lips, she went to pull back but Clarke placed a hand on the back of her neck pulling her deeper into the kiss and Lexa let her enjoying every moment of it. The longer and deeper they kissed the more she wanted though.

Lexa felt the heat between her legs, but all she could think about was touching and tasting the girl before her. She began pushing at Clarke’s shirt, until she got the cue to take it off, breaking their kiss. Lexa didn’t waste a moment, she had Clarkes bra off seconds after. She went straight for her nipples putting one in her mouth while rolling the other with her fingers. Her moans were driving her crazy, she needed something.

Lexa let go of the nipple in her mouth. “We need to be fast baby.” Clarke opened her eyes and nodded. Laying herself back and pulling her to lay on top of her.

Lexa gasped when she felt Clarke begin rubbing her through her pants. She went straight for the blondes pants button and pulled her pant and underwear down at once.

“Wait.” Lexa froze, stopping herself from touching her.

“I’m sorry, I thought you wanted it.”

Clarke smiled pressing a kiss to her lips.

“We have to be fast, I want us to cum together. You are entirely too dressed for that.” Lexa smiled relieved, she thought she had done something wrong. She nodded her head and allowed Clarke to undress her. Once they were both undressed Lexa pressed Clarkes shoulder for her to lay back down.

She wanted to feel her around her fingers, but Clarke beat her to it causing Lexa to moan at the sudden intrusion of Clarkes fingers inside of her.

She didn’t hesitate before entering Clarke with the same suddenness that Clarke had entered her. She felt so warm and wet. It amazed her how fast Clarke could get wet for her. She began thrusting her fingers in and out meeting Clarkes pace. They were both at the perfect angles both hitting each other’s clits with each thrust.

Lexa grabbed her face pulling her into a kiss where they mostly moaned into each other.
The sounds of their moans combined, the feeling of Clarke around her fingers, and the feeling of Clarke hitting her spot had her so close to coming undone. Every thrust increased in pleasure, she began to feel it all over her entire body. She wanted Clarke to feel the same way, she focused all of her energy on hitting the spot she had learned would bring the other girl undone.

“Lexa right now.” Lexa nodded refusing to slow down.

“Me too.”

At that Clarke increased her pace and pressure bringing her over the edge. She began moaning and thrusting herself onto her fingers unable to hold back any moan or movement. She felt Clarkes tightening around her fingers and coming undone right along with her. Even as she rode out her own high onto Clarkes fingers she refused to slow down her own movements making sure the other girls orgasm lasted as long as possible.

They both stopped thrusting onto and into each other at the same time, neither removing their fingers for a moment, Lexa needed a moment to catch her breathe before any movement seemed possible.

After a couple of minutes when she could breathe normally she removed her fingers from inside of her running them through her folds for a moment to collect some of her wetness.

“That was amazing Clarke.” She pressed a kiss to her lips before putting her fingers that were coated in Clarkes wetness into her mouth so she could enjoy the girls taste. She closed her eyes to enjoy it, the most amazing thing she had ever tasted.

Her eyes popped open when she felt Clarke remove her fingers to see the girl bringing her own fingers to her lips to taste her. Lexa swore she would never see something as sexy for the rest of her life.

****Six Days Later****

Lexas POV

She was sitting on her couch with Raven on the floor and Lincoln sitting next to her. All of their parents were busy at work so they were trying to keep busy with a movies day.

Lexa was trying to tune out their bickering over what to watch next, focused on her phone.

Costia: Are they still fighting?

Lexa: Yeah, how do I make it stop?

Costia: I will be there in like 10, and will take care of it lol

Lexa: Sounds good.

She put her phone down, meeting with Costia earlier in the week hadn’t been too bad. She thought it would hurt to see the other girl so soon after their break up, even though they had talked, but she really only felt friendship. She had Clarke now, well for whatever it is that they were.

She tuned back into the bickering.

“No Lincoln I don’t want to watch a damn biker movie.”

Lexa couldn’t deal with these two much longer they were driving her crazy. “Will you two quit it?” She got up phone in hand and headed to her bedroom, she stopped on the stairs and turned back to the,” Costia will be here in a little let her in.” She finished walking up the stairs and to her room closing the door behind her.

Lexa felt at home in her room, it had been the guest bedroom when she first moved in but her adoptive mother Indra let her change it right away.

She threw herself onto her bed and stared at her phone screen for a while before deciding to call Clarke. She missed her, they texted a lot but it wasn’t the same. It rang a few times before an answer but when she heard her voice Lexa felt her stomach do a flip. It annoyed her how she had no control over her feelings.

“Lexa?”

“Hey, beautiful.” Her cheeks flushed at her own words, it was stupid of her to say that. She heard Clarke giggle a little and she stopped regretting it.

“Beautiful huh?” She frowned, she could hear the slur in Clarkes words, she didn’t like it.

“Clarke have you been drinking? It’s three on a Thursday.” She could hear music in the background and Clarke shushing people.

“Yeah I’m at one of my high school friends houses, we are hanging out. What are you doing?” Lexa took a deep breathe in, she worried about Clarke.

“Movie day with Lincoln, Cos, and Raven.”

“Hm hanging out with Costia again huh?” Lexa rolled her eyes at the obvious disapproval in Clarkes voice, the girl had no reason to worry.

“ClarKe.” She heard a huff and did her best to hold in her own laugh.

“Alexandria.” Her eyebrows furrowed.

“Don’t call me that.”

She heard Clarke laughing and some mumbled words.

“Wells quit it will you?” Lexa didn’t like this.

“Clarke?”

“Yeah?” She closed her eyes trying to stay calm.

“Don’t do anything I wouldn’t okay?”

“That’s the thing Lex I don’t know what you wouldn’t do.” Drunk Clarke was annoying and impulsive Lexa knew this and it worried her. She could just picture her and Niylah in her head playing over and over again.

“I wouldn’t touch anyone or let anyone touch me who isn’t you.” She could hear Clarke breathing but she didn’t say anything.

“Clarke, I only want you, I told you this, I’m not just…. I don’t do what we have done with anyone, it means something to me.” She heard a sigh.

“Wells is my best friend, everyone here is like my family… they were just making fun of me for how happy I got when I saw it was you calling. Hold on.” She could hear the music and laughter dying down as Clarke must have been walking away from them.

“Lex?”

“Still here.”

“I won’t do anything with anyone but you. I only think about you that way. I only want you.” Lexas heart began beating faster at Clarkes words.

“Yeah?”

“Yes beautiful.” She laughed at Clarkes words.

“Beautiful huh?”

“Shut up Lexa.” She laughed again but stopped when her room door was opened. Costia was standing in the door way watching her suspiciously not saying anything.

“Lexa?” She snapped out of the staring contest and focused back in on Clarke.

“Yeah sorry.”

“You have to go?” She thought about it for a moment, she didn’t want to hang up, but from Costias face she could tell the girl had heard parts of this conversation that she shouldn’t have.

“Yes. Can you call me when you get home?” She moved to sit up on the bed.

“Like hearing my voice?” She could feel herself blushing and tried to turn away so Costia wouldn’t see.

“A lot actually.”

“I will, goodbye Lexa.”

“Goodbye.” Lexa hang up her phone and put it down next to her, she looked up to see Costia hadn’t moved from the doorway. “Are you going to come in or just glare from over there?”

Costia walked over and sat on the opposite side of the bed, she had stopped looking at her. The lack of eye contact made Lexa feel a light ache in her heart. She didn’t want to hurt her friend.

“Say what you need to Cos.” Costia looked at her with a blank face, one that mirrored her own when she was trying to hide her thought and feelings.

“You met someone?”

“Yes.”

“Are you guys officially together.”

She shrugged pulling her knees up to her chest and wrapping her arms around them. This wasn’t a conversation she wanted to have.  I don’t know, maybe, we haven’t spoken about it.”

Costia just nodded and stood from the bed, walking to the door.

“Costia?” She just shook her head without turning to look at her.

“We better get down there before those two kill each other.”

“Okay.” Lexa walked after her, she felt guilty, she didn’t have a reason to really, but no one wants to hurt their best friend.

They all settled back in on the couch and it only took them another twenty minutes to decide on watching The Heat.

Lexa thought the movie was funny, she was so zoned in that she jumped when she felt Costias hand on her leg. She was wearing one of her pair of shorts so Costia was touching her skin. She glanced to the side and saw that girl was laughing and seemed to be focused on the movie. But then she began rubbing circles with her thumb moving higher onto her leg.

All Lexa saw was Clarkes blue eyes in her mind, and she felt herself get nauseous at Costias touch. A touch she would have loved just three weeks earlier. She jumped up to her feet startling everyone around her. She just shook her head and sat herself on the floor as far from Costia as she could get.

She couldn’t calm herself down, she could feel how tense she was. She looked up to see Costia was watching her, she just shook her head at her and frowned. She felt her phone vibrate and looked to see that it was from no other than Clarke.

Clarke: I miss you.

Lexa took a deep breath in feeling herself relax at the message, she wished she could see her sooner.

Lexa: I miss you too.