Maybe

Clarke pulled away as fast as she could from Finns arms, looking at him, wondering if this could really be the same boy she heard yelling the hallway minutes before. He looked so care free, like nothing had happened.

“Hey, you okay?” He grabbed her hand and started playing with her fingers, she looked behind him and saw a girl shaking her head with tears in her eyes making her way to the bedrooms. She had a limp and Clarke realized she was wearing a brace on one of her legs.

“Where have you been?” Her eyes were still following the girl, she had her hair dark hair in a ponytail and red jacket on. She went straight to the room Clarke had been in, knocking first before, Clarke saw the girl, Lexa, she remembered open the door to let the girl Raven in.

“Oh, all the dancing got me tired, I just needed some fresh air so I went on a little walk.”

How was he doing this? How many times had he lied to her before? Clarke thought she knew Finn, then again it had only been three months, and according to what she had just heard, the first two he had another girlfriend.

“I need to go to the bathroom, be right back.” She started walking towards the bathroom near Lexas room, but thought better of it and went to the other side of the house.

She locked herself in and just sat on the floor. What was she supposed to do? She felt wrong, but not like, how she knew should feel. It should hurt like physically? Or was that just things people made up in stories? She liked Finn, she know she did, but maybe not as much as she was supposed to. She stood up and looked at herself in the mirror, concentrating. Blue eyes, Blonde hair, pink lips. She stared into her eyes waiting for something, but nothing happened, so she walked out of the bathroom like nothing ever happened.

The party lasted awhile longer, but Clarke just couldn’t get into it. She pulled Octavia over to the side.

“Hey, I’m not feeling too well, you mind If I head back to the room, I mean I know you wanted me so you would feel better around Lincoln, but you’re doing fine honestly. He looks half in love with already.”

Octavia looked back at Lincoln who was watching her and waiting for her return. She threw her arms around Clarkes shoulders, “Thank you Clarke,” she whispered.

Clarke took that as an okay and started heading to the door without telling Finn, who jumped up from his seat next to Lincoln and started to follow her out.

“Trying to run out on me babe?”

Clarke grimaced at the sentimental word. “No I’m just exhausted, I’m going to head back to my room and call it a night.”

“Want some company,” Finn said in a flirty tone, while they walked towards Clarkes room.

Clarke felt her stomach churn at the thought of Finn touching her sexually ever again. Which is weird considering that is how they met, one drunk party with Octavia, which ended with random sex in someone’s bathroom. That was the one thing Finn had going for him, Clarke loved sex and he was pretty good at it.

But now that she knew, their first time and probably a couple more times after that, she had been unknowingly hurting that girl did not sit well with her. And still she noticed she felt worse for Raven than she did for herself.

“I’m just really tired Finn. Go home I will speak to you tomorrow.”

She could see the hurt in his eyes, she let him quickly press his lips to hers, but pulled away just as fast.

“Ok…. Goodnight, text me when you wake up so we can meet up.”

Clarke nodded and opened her door, closing it quickly behind herself. She could see Finns shadow standing on the other side of the door. She waited until she heard his footsteps walk away before she stepped away from the door.

Lexa POV

She slammed her door shut rubbing her head.

Stupid fucking party, she didn’t know why she agreed to let Anya have it at their place anymore, all she got out of it was a fight with her brother, and what seemed to be a growing knot on her head.
She was so tired of college, of this in between stage in her life, she wasn’t a kid anymore, even though she honestly never felt like one anyway, but she was also not where she wanted to be in her life, stable, and left alone.

You’ll love being twenty one everyone said, it will be a great time they told her, yeah no. Everyone was wrong, only thing new was that she could buy her own alcohol without Anyas help.

She laid down on her bed, looking over at the picture frame she kept close to her. Costia looked beautiful with her caramel skin and curls going everywhere, her hazel eyes shining. Lexa picked up the picture and put it face down. She hadn’t spoken to Costia for almost a week now. Sadly that wasn’t anything new, this long distance relationship wasn’t easy. Hell Lexa didn’t even feel like she was in a relationship anymore.

She picked up her phone, nope still nothing, not a text, a phone call, or even one those stupid emojis anymore.

A knock on her door brought her out of her thoughts. She stood up and opened the door ready to yell at whatever drunk person was bothering her, instead she opened it to a very upset looking Raven. She stepped back allowing the girl room to enter in.

Lexa sat on her bed while Raven took the floor, neither of them saying anything, knowing each other enough to wait until the other was ready. Raven sniffled and wiped her face, Lexa ignored it knowing Raven wouldn’t want to bring attention to her tears.

About ten minutes of silence and then Raven climbed up onto the bed and laid down next to Lexa. Lexa turned her head to look at her friend really for the first time since entered her room. Raven eyes widened in surprise.

“What the hell is growing on your forehead?”

Lexa just stared back, glaring at her friend, while she slowly brought her hand to touch where she felt the pain. Yup there was definitely a bump. Stupid drunk people she thought.

“Some drunk girl fell onto me and banged her head into mine during the fall.”

“Wow that’s the most action you have had in months.” She said with a light smile filled with sadness.

Lexa smacked the girls shoulder. “Shut up it hasn’t been that long since Costia visited.” Thinking about it, it has actually been that long, about three months, not since last term. Lexa sighed, and then tried to act like she didn’t.

She just looked at Raven expectantly waiting for the girl to talk, she knows Raven felt her watching because the girl reddened, sat up starting mess with her leg brace.

“So I saw Finn a couple of minutes ago.” Lexas eyes widened waiting for her to go on.

“He is with a new girl, apparently they have been together for a couple of months, as in more than the amount that we have officially been broken up. I didn't get a good look at her though, just saw him grinding on a girl while dancing.”

Lexa felt the rage deep inside of her. “Where did you see him,” she growled.

“Here, actually.” At that Lexa jumped up and started stomping towards her door, Raven grabbed her arm before she could reach the door.

“Let go of me Raven, he will not get away with this. Not in my home will he hurt my best friend and get away with it. Jus drein jus daun.” Raven rolled her eyes at that.

“Okay first off, you need to stop watching that show, it isn’t real Lexa. Second no, I don’t want to cause a scene he isn’t worth it. He can have his whore.” Lexa shrugged at the first comment, and then stood taller to make her point come across.

“He is worth nothing, he is lower than dirt, the scum of this earth, if he was on fire in front of me I’d take my water and give it to a dead plant before I tried to help him. But he needs to pay, he can’t just leave you the way he did and get off with no consequences. You deserve better.” She said the last part softly seeing the hurt in Ravens eyes.

She sighed and laid back down pulling Raven down with her. Raven who was so strong both physically, and mentally. She did deserve better than this, and Lexa knew one day Raven would find what she deserved.

“Can I stay here tonight?” Raven practically whispered.

Lexa grabbed the extra pillow and passed to Raven, “if you tell anyone about me being nice I will deny it till the end.”

“We have known each other since seventh grade it’s about time you start being nice to me. I’m awesome.”

Lexa rolled her eyes at that. “If you kick me in your sleep, just know you will never wake up.”

Clarkes POV

She woke up the next morning with the worst possible headache, which made no sense since she didn’t touch a drop of alcohol last night. She kept her eyes closed and touched her where she felt a lump. Well that explained the headache.

She looked over and saw that Octavia never seemed to make it home last night. She picked up her phone and saw it was already eleven-thirty. She had a text from Finn she ignored while she looked for Octavia’s number and pressed call.

It rang three times. Then a very grumpy Octavia picked up the phone “Omg please stop yelling at me.” Clarke giggled in response.

“Where did you sleep last night missy?”

“I’m grabbing breakfast with Lincoln right now. Talk to you when I get home later.”

“I see how it is Blake, had a little too much fun last night, maybe it went on until morning even. You just can’t wait, can you?”

“Goodbye now Clarke.” And the phone went dead. Clarke smiled to herself, at least someone had a good night.

Clarke went to her messages to see what Finn wanted.

Finn: Good morning beautiful, hope you slept well, want to grab breakfast?

Clarke didn’t understand how Finn was so good at pretending. Pretending to be someone he wasn’t. Pretending that he cared. She couldn’t do that.

Clarke: I’m not feeling good today, might be coming down with something. Gonna stay in.

Finn: Want me to come over and keep you company? I could bring soup :)

Clarke: No thanks, I will talk to you 2mm.

Clarke turned her phone off, not wanting to have to read another text from Finn, or have to explain why she was really avoiding him. She just wanted a day to herself and that’s what she was going to do.

She grabbed her laptop and snuggled under covers, going straight to Netflix, needing to binge watch something. That’s how she spent the rest of her day.

******* Next Day*******
Clarke woke to her alarm going crazy, and then Octavia throwing a pillow at her when she didn’t turn it off fast enough. Today started her eight week course, which sucked because it was at eight on a Monday morning. Clarke was not a morning person.

She tried to get ready as fast as she could, she really did, at least that’s what she told herself when she was standing outside of the classroom ten minutes late. It was a big class though, a lecture with about a hundred other students.

The problem was that Clarke seemed to be the last to arrive, she looked through the window trying to find an empty seat before she entered. She spotted one around the middle row, and made a straight beeline for it.

Except.. Crap, she looked all around and couldn’t find not one single seat. She was tempted to sit on the floor between the aisles when she looked up and noticed that the Professor had stopped talking and was pointing her in the direction of the one empty seat.

The one empty seat that happened to be right next to Lexa, the girl Clarke fell on at the party, she had the bruised head to prove it.

With her head down, hoping Lexa wouldn’t recognize her Clarke headed in her direction. When she glanced to the side, once seated, she was getting that same death glare from the night of the party, except it was much scarier now, with Lexa sporting an identical bruise to Clarkes.

Clarke just prayed in her head to God that Lexa wouldn’t kill her before she had a chance to run, when class was over.