May We Meet Again (Come Back To Me Please...)
Clarke returned to Elyza and the others in the middle of the day. It was one of the two resting days they took a week and Elyza and Alicia were still in the safety of their camp. As soon as Clarke returned Eylza was hit with a wave of need that brought her off her chair to her knees. She steadied herself with one hand and forced herself to take a few deep breaths.
“Jesus Clarke… Please…” She begged in a mutter. Clarke immediately backed off, having not meant to do that to her companion. Elyza moved back up into her chair, not looking at Alicia as she tried to collect herself again.
“You two ok?” Alicia asked concerned.
“Yeah. I think that was an accident.” Elyza nodded. Alicia raised an eyebrow.
“Don’t look at me like that. Lexa could totally get you lower than your knees if she really needed to. Clarke just really wants to speak to her. She promises to stay on this side of the fire to do so.” Elyza relayed verbally. Alicia sighed and Lexa was in control again.
“Clarke?” She asked softly.
“I slapped Titus… Like really hard…” Clarke began. She felt Elyza practically roar with laughter in the back of their mind. Lexas face went blanker than Clarke had ever seen it before she erupted in a fit of laughter.
“You… You really struck Titus? I’ve only ever dreamed of doing so…” Lexa sighed dreamily as she stopped laughing. Clarke grinned at her.
“He knew he deserved it. He said he’d make the brew but it’s going to take a few days.” Clarke continued shrugging.
“Good. He knows he has a debt to pay.” Lexa nodded becoming serious again.
“Ontari… She’s been acting… Weird…” Clarke tried to say. Lexa looked at her, interest growing.
“What do you mean?” Lexa asked.
“I just… I don’t know… She acts almost like you did sometimes but then it’s as if a wall goes back up… and she’s mean again. Or at least cold.” Clarke explained. Lexa was silent.
“Lex? What do you know?” Clarke demanded narrowing her eyes.
“I… The commander spirit, the flame, it is an object. From what Alicia has explained, it’s like a microchip? Or a computer? I don’t understand what those words mean but perhaps you do. It holds the memories of every commander who’s had it.” Lexa began slowly, watching Clarke for a reaction.
“Go on.” Clarke urged. Lexa sighed.
“It has my memories as well. From what I now understand thanks to Alicia, it’s possible that it may also have a copy of each commander’s consciousness as a whole. Which means she has a part of me that exists the way you and I do with Elyza and Alicia. But it’s a copy, a falsehood. She may easily think I exist there. Be warry of that.” Lexa explained.
“When I asked her why she wouldn’t kill me… She said something odd… Ontari said she wished she could kill me… But couldn’t because ‘she’ wouldn’t let her. Did she mean you? Or what’s left of you on the flame?” Clarke asked softly. Lexa nodded.
“It’s possible. You need to be careful… That me might try to stop Titus for the sake of protecting you.” Lexa warned. Clarke nodded and the two relaxed, allowing Elyza and Alicia to regain control. Both were silent at what they’d just heard.
“This is getting intense…” Elyza grumbled. Alicia could only nod. Both felt disease from their mental partners. Clarke and Lexa were silent for the rest of the day and Elyza couldn’t help but worry. She felt so strongly for Clarke.
As the sun began to set, Elyza set off on a brief perimeter check, which was beginning to seem pointless, as they hadn’t been bothered by anyone living in days. Really, at the moment she worried for her companion and wished to speak with her privately.
“Clarke?” Elyza asked. She felt the other’s consciousness more as she got her attention.
“What’s up?” Came the telepathic reply.
“You and Lexa… What you’re is dangerous…. Isn’t it..?” Elyza asked slowly. She felt the mental nudge and sighed.
“Just… Please be careful… I… You’re not half bad to have around is all.” Elyza huffed, feeling vulnerable.
“I will be. You’re pretty ok too.” Elyza heard as a smile over took her face for a few seconds. She nodded and continued on her way, returning to the fire where Alicia sat silently. She sipped at her warmed can of soup contently.
“You ok?” Elyza asked as she sat back down.
“Yeah. We’re just worried… Both of us.” Alicia told her, green eyes meeting blue across the flames. Elyza was glad the darkness and the light of the fire hid the blush that painted her face. She heard Clarke chuckle softly in the back of their shared mind space.
Clarke continued to pass back and forth between Polis and Ontari, and the other apocalypse and Lexa. She passed Lexa’s warning about the flame onto Titus who actually took the information like a champ and began to work around it. Finally, the brew was ready.
“Go say your goodbyes to her for now. Hopefully your spirit will choose wisely like Lexa’s did. I will be ready when you return to us.” Titus told her gently, letting Clarke pass willingly back once more.
“Elyza please… Today is the day… This might be the last time I see her… See Alicia… See you… Please just let me have this…” Clarke begged softly. Elyza felt the tears forming in her eyes and nodded.
“Alicia, please let Lexa out for a bit… This is it… Today is the day… Let them say goodbye.” Elyza murmured softly. Alicia sighed but nodded. She was just as worried as Elyza and Lexa.
“Clarke…” Lexa’s voice rumbled. Clarke was defenseless and burst into tears, wrapping herself tightly around the commander.
“I’m scared Lexa… What if I don’t come back here? What about you… And E-Elyza and Ali-li-licia..?” Clarke sobbed, her words coming apart under her tears. Lexa held her tightly. Little did Clarke know, the other three had been wondering the same things.
“We’re strong… Elyza and I can protect Alicia… And Elyza Has Alicia and I… You’ll come back to me Clarke… We’re soul mates… Even if not this time, we’ll always find each other… If Elyza and Alicia are anything to go by, the universe ships us too.” Lexa soothed them all, kissing Clarke’s hair. The night was spent in a group cuddle, Lexa and Alicia switching back and forth to hold Clarke and try to alleviate her fears. As odd as it seemed, Alicia had grown rather fond of both sides of the blonde too. The sun finally rose again and they stood. As she had before, Lexa extended her arm to Clarke, who took it and they shared the warriors grip.
“May we meet again, ai niron…” My love. Lexa nodded, letting her go after a few seconds. To their surprise, Alicia retook the grip, only softer.
“Ye gonplei nou ste odon.” Alicia said firmly. Clarke looked at her shocked.
“I picked up trig from Lexa’s memories. You’ll come back to us… It’ll be ok. I’ll look after them for you until you do.” Alicia nodded, stepping away. Clarke sat back and let Elyza return to herself again.
“You’ll come back. And we’ll be right here waiting. Don’t fret Clarke. You’ll see us soon.” Elyza promised with a determined nod. She felt the nudge as Clarke nodded and then the sky girl was gone.
“Well well well. What do we have here?” a voice asked from behind them.
When Clarke woke again in Polis, she was given a small flask full of a muddy looking liquid.
“You must drink it all. This won’t be a pleasant experience, Wanheda.” Titus warned her. Clarke nodded and knocked the concoction down like a shot. It was horribly bitter and ice cold. As it slithered down her throat, she felt as if ice was spreading through her veins. She nearly collapsed back down onto the couch as the doors to the room burst open with a loud bang.
“Titus no! What have you done?!” She heard Ontari roar as everything faded to darkness.