Chapter 5
It had been quite some time since Tobin had kissed anyone like that. Actually, it had been quite some time since Tobin had kissed anyone.
She preferred to be alone within the safety of her home; loneliness was her best friend, the one thing who would never leave her. Loneliness would definitely never leave Tobin on one knee holding a velvet box in the middle of a park which she can't even bare to look at now.
Okay, so maybe Tobin had trust issues, but she had a good reason to have those, people were shit.
Her kiss with Alex had triggered something deep within her, which was probably just two years of built up sexual tension, Tobin reasoned. Pornhub could only go so far ...
Tobin wasn't quite sure she was ready to let anyone in after what had happened all those years ago. Sure she had friends, but that was about the extent of her extra familiar relationships, friends.
Or perhaps, she was over analyzing this whole thing, seeing as if she hadn't done things like kissing and living with someone in a while.
Sighing to herself, Tobin got up from her stone seat positioned in her garden and walked back inside towards the warmth of her home.
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She found Alex busying herself in the kitchen. Washing dishes Tobin presumed.
"Hey." Tobin greeted to an unsuspecting Alex.
Alex visibly jumped at Tobin's voice, but quickly recovered.
"Hey" she said offering Tobin a small smile.
"Do you need any help?"
"Uhh ... I think I'm good." Alex dismissed, and then dropped a whole set of steel pans on the ground.
"Yeah right, let me help you." Tobin said moving to pick up said pans, she didn't see Alex moving to pick up the same pans and when their fingers brushed up against each other, Alex jumped again.
"You sure you're okay?" Tobin asked again.
After a few moments a knowing look crossed Tobin's features.
"Ohhh, about earlier, I'm sorry we got so ... Carried away, I didn't know what I was thinking." Tobin said avoiding Alex's gaze.
"Don't worry about it. You were just looking out for me. It was kind of sweet." Alex said, visibly relaxing.
Tobin, feeling slightly better about the whole situation was now more inclined to be in Alex's presence, making a seat on the kitchen counter.
Tobin keenly watched Alex maneuver around the kitchen; Almost forgetting what it was like to have someone do things around the house. Alex looked damn good doing those things too, then again, Alex looked good doing anything.
"Like what you see?" Alex asked playfully, effectively breaking Tobin's stare down.
"Uhh, Yea- No .... You have very nice, umm arms." Tobin said stuttering.
"Well, I do workout sometimes ..." Alex said with a blush. "You have very nice legs." Alex said returning the compliment.
"I used to play soccer, I was gonna go pro, but then .." Tobin trailed off.
"What happened?"
"My girlfriend happened. I sorta lost my passion for it, or at least I thought I did, because my girlfriend became my passion, which was a bad choice to be honest. She also made me feel guilty because of all the traveling I did because of soccer, she just .. wasn't a good person." Tobin finished taking a deep sigh.
"What happened to her?" Alex asked softly, taking a seat next to Tobin on the marble counter.
"She left. A few years ago." Tobin breathed, leaving out the part about Tobin proposing.
"Well .. In my opinion. She didn't deserve you." Alex said, wiping a tiny tear from the corner of Tobin's eye.
This moment, on top of Tobin's kitchen counter was oddly intimate. Stark light poured in from the outside as the rain lightly tapped against the windows of the kitchen. The house was silent, apart from the quiet din of the television that someone had left on in the living room.
"You're nice, and sweet and caring, and probably a lot of other things, which I'll have to learn about." Alex said, tilting Tobin's chin up so she was forced to make eye contact with her.
"I can't believe I actually hated you. I guess it was just more of me not knowing you. Even in this short amount of time, I've realized that there's no possible way, me or anyone else in this world could hate you, you're too good of a soul."
"Thanks, Alex that means a lot to me." Tobin said offering Alex a hug.
Pulling away from the hug, Alex noted two important things.
1. Tobin smelt a lot like fresh picked flowers and rain, which was like something out of a basic ya novel.
2. She really wouldn't mind kissing Tobin again.