Chapter 9
Back at Murphy's cabin, Bellamy is essentially getting his ass kicked and it is seriously pissing him off. No matter what he does his fireballs still fizzle out before hitting their target. Roan kept saying he needed to let go of what was holding him back but he had no clue what that was. It was impossible and as if sensing his despair over it, Roan called it quits for a while.
"We'll pick this back up after you've had lunch and rested a bit. Maybe try another technique next time and see if that gets different results."
"What difference does it make? No matter what I do, I can't do it. Maybe Octavia was right when she said just because I have the power to do it doesn't mean I can."
"Having the power to do it is virtually the same as being able to do it. You have so much power hidden inside of you, Bellamy and all you have to do is unlock it."
"Bullshit! I can't unlock what I don't know anything about." Bellamy snaps angrily before storming out of the cabin.
Roan sighs and Lincoln follows Bellamy outside to try comforting his friend.
"What's gotten into you lately? I understand you're worried about Octavia but this is something else. I've never known you to quit something just because it was hard. What's going on?" Lincoln asks with genuine concern for his friend.
"I don't know. I feel like there's this anger inside me that wasn't there before and then at times there's this feeling of being worthless. I have no clue where they're coming from but I think they started around the same time as the dreams about Murphy began." Bellamy confesses putting his head in his hands.
"So the blue eyed boy in your dreams was him. Could it have something to do with you being a dream walker?"
"Maybe but we never even knew they existed until we met Murphy and Roan. Hell we didn't even know anything about shadow magic until she came. They never prepared us for what was really out there and I kinda wanna know why. Why they lied to us about shadow magic being gone? It makes you wonder what else they kept from us."
"They lied to you to protect you or at least that's what they thought they were doing but in reality they only made you more vulnerable." Roan says from behind them before Lincoln can answer Bellamy.
"That's still just an excuse. There has to be a reason why they stopped teaching us about it. I know they used to because Murphy said his father taught him some things about shadow magic and his mother was a dream walker which apparently was supposed to be a perfect match. Whatever the hell that meant."
"They stopped teaching it and acknowledging it's presence because it was dangerous. You know the dangers of shadow magic but being a dream walker carries it's own set of dangers." Murphy says coming up beside Roan.
"Like what exactly?" Lincoln asks curiously.
"Well there's the obvious one being that they can die from the shadows produced by shadow warriors. Some have also been known to get stuck in a person's nightmare and never be able to get back out which throws them into a coma like state before eventually killing them. Because what happens to a dream walker while in someone's dream, happens to their body outside the dream as well." Murphy informs them.
"There's also the fact that prefect matches between shadow warrior and dream walker form a certain bond with each other that can be dangerous. If the bond is strong enough, when one dies, the other does too but even if the bond isn't strong enough there are consequences. The one that lives is forever changed and in most cases no longer resembles the person they were before." Roan interrupts.
"Which is why they deemed it necessary to forbid teaching or even mentioning anything about it."
"They even went as far as purging all those with the gifts from all records." Roan adds.
"When you say purge, it doesn't mean what I think it means, does it?" Lincoln asking hoping that his line of thinking was way off but something was telling him he was spot on.
"They executed them. All of the adults with shadow magic were disposed of and all the children that showed signs of possessing the ability were..."
"Sent away in the hopes that the magic would fade from disuse." Bellamy finishes for Roan.
"Basically. There was a bit more to it than that but that was the gist of it. We in Azgeda heard about the purge because many parents came there seeking refugee for themselves and their children. My mother was skeptical at first until she got confirmation from one of her spies inside Polis."
"Did they kill dream walkers too?" Bellamy asks anxiously.
"Most dream walkers who didn't die because of the bond with a shadow warrior who was killed went crazy and eventually died or tried to live as much of a normal life as possible."
"But? I know there's a but coming." Bellamy says when Roan doesn't continue.
"We should practice some more and we can discuss this later." Roan suggests.
"I want to know about it now and not later. You started this discussion and you're gonna finish it." Bellamy demands which earns him being pinned to the wall once again.
"Roan, enough! Go cool off before you piss me off which I know no one wants right now." Murphy says firmly and to both Lincoln's and Bellamy's surprise, Roan does what Murphy says.
"The shadow warrior/dream walker bond is a touchy subject for him and when he's ready to talk about it in depth, he will but until then wait. Let him discuss it on his terms otherwise he may very well kill you."
Bellamy nods reluctantly deciding that Murphy was right and he couldn't help Octavia or the others if he was dead. Murphy heads back into the house to check and make sure Roan isn't destroying anything while Lincoln and Bellamy stay outside a bit longer.