Chapter 5
Where the hell did she go this time? After leaving Sue's office and seeing Rachel runaway I went to look for her. It turns out that she is really good at hiding. I'm starting to get frustrated not being able to find her. All I want to do is talk to her. I've only been here for one day and I have already become infatuated with a beautiful girl and become head cheerleader.
"Kurt!" I see the boy who always seems to be near or know where Rachel is.
"Yes Quinn?"
"Where's Rachel? I want to talk to her but every time she sees me she runs off."
"Have you thought about why she runs off? You joined the group of people who have made it their mission to make her life a living hell and not only did you join, you became co-captain? Seriously Quinn? Did you not think that would be a problem?" I had no idea that they made her life hell. I knew they bullied her but I didn't know how bad it was.
"I'm her friend Kurt. Being a cheerio won't change that. If it was up to me I wouldn't be a cheerio. At my old school, cheerleading was hell, I only did it to make my parents proud but when we moved here they said it didn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I'm happy. But I need to be on the cheerios, Kurt. I need the protection." Where did that come from? It's true but I barely know the boy, why am I being so honest with him?
"Why do you need protection? What happened at your old school? That's the only reason Sue would offer protection, if something horrible happened before you came here."
"I I can't tell you Kurt. I would if I could but I can't."
"You didn't kill anyone, right?"
"God no." I say through laughter, feeling the atmosphere shift from heavy to a lighter one.
"Yo Q. Coach wants us in her office. Better to not keep her waiting." Santana yells from across the hall, pinky linked with Brittany's. Is Sue always like this? Making us see her multiple times a day? I hope not.
"I better go. See you later Kurt."
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"Sit." She says it with no emotion, in the coldest voice I've ever heard.
We've been here 5 minutes and still have no explanation as to why we are here.
"Will Schuester has decided to take over the glee club. If he does it successfully he will get 50% of my cheerios budget. I can't let that happen so you three are going to destroy it from the inside. You will leave this office and join the glee club. I will give you further instructions tomorrow."
"With all due respect coach, I don't think that is a good idea. The glee club is a place people go to feel safe, a place they can be themselves without being judged, a place where everyone is friends and no one is better than anyone else. In there everyone is equal." I tell her, remembering how Rachel described it earlier when she was trying to get me to join.
"Q, you seem to have forgotten who you are talking to. I could make your life in this school worse than it ever was at Walnut Hills."
"Yes Coach."
"I'll say it again. You three will join glee club and await further instruction. Capiche?"
"Yes coach" The three of us say simultaneously.
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We decided to audition separately so it would seem less suspicious. I would join during free period and San and Britt would join after school so it looked like I had convinced them to join. Speaking of, my free period has just started so I better find the choir room. I know Rachel asked me to join earlier but will she still want me there now? She spoke about glee club so passionately. Joining with the intent to ruin it? The thought alone makes me feel sick. I'm so selfish. Ruining other people happiness in order to keep my secret just that. A secret.
Looking into the choir room, I see a rather small group of people. 6 or 7 at most. What was Sue worried about? There's no way this small group could win a national championship. It would be too much work and they can't have that much time. Sectionals are usually held in October, whether it be for cheer, glee, gymnastics or other events that revolve around the arts. Were in September now so there is no way this group will be ready in time.
I take a deep breath and push open the door. Here goes nothing.
"Mr Schue, I'd like to audition for glee club, if that's okay."
"Are you going to take it seriously, unlike that performance in spanish earlier."
"I'm sorry about that Mr Schuester, I really am, I just needed people to know that I'm not afraid of anyone or anything. Of course I will take this seriously."
"Take it away then Quinn." He says as he goes to sit down on one of the red chairs.
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show
It's time to let you know
to let you know
This is real
This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me
It might not exactly be true. This isn't me. Not fully anyway. I do love to sing and can see myself enjoying glee but it not who I want to be.
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is real
This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
This is real
This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me
"Welcome to the glee club Quinn. That was great."
"Thanks Mr Schue."
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The rest of glee went great. The club really is like one big family. No one was judging anyone, no one was trying to be at the top, it was peaceful. I never thought that I would be in a glee club. The one at walnut was very exclusive. They won nationals both years I attended and there probably going to win again this year but I never wanted to join. They were always out to get each other, they all wanted the spotlight, fought for solos, fought for song choice. Heck, they even fought about who sang the first line in the group number. It was more competitive than the football team.
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I hope Britt and Santana don't mess up there audition. I need them in there with me because there is no way I am destroying the glee club on my own.
"What song are you guys going to sing for your glee club audition?"
"You'll find out in glee."
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A/N Sorry this took awhile to be updated but life kind of got in the way. I'm back though and should actually update regularly now. Also, I had writers block for a few weeks but my girlfriend helped me plan the next 4 or 5 chapters so I have some idea of the next few chapters. A few questions though.
1. What song should Santana and Brittany sing?
2. What should the Walnut Hills glee club be called?
3. Is there any characters you want to see more of?
I don't own the song. It is called this is me and is by Demi Levato