Epoch
The drive home was agonizingly slow. She hit every red light and somehow ended up on a road with a stop sign every few feet.
A few cars passed by and the luster of their head lights illuminated Clarke’s face. Her hair long fallen out of its bun was messy but shined golden and twinkled in the lights.
She banged her head upon the steering wheel a few times before she began driving again once the red light turned green.
When she finally reached her house she pulled up into the driveway and walked into her lonely house.
Her shadow stalking close behind as she made her way inside.
She removed her heels, dropped her purse on the floor and fell into the couch.
She grabbed the remote, turned the TV on, and lowered the volume to almost nothing.
Interesting TV shows was something she forgot about she kept the TV on for comfort, it made her feel less alone.
She stayed still and silent for ten minutes before it became too much.
She stretched her arm out and pulled a marble notebook out from her bag.
She closed her eyes and flipped to a random page then opened them again to gaze upon what was written.
You asked the question of whether we would choose to be good or evil today in class. Almost everybody except Ontari raised their hands and said good. While most people would scoff and ask why you would even ask this question, I found it rather difficult. The reason this question puzzled me so much was because I simply do not know what good and evil truly are.
Think about it Miss. Griffin, if you were to split the room up into two sides with one side being good and my side being evil, to me the other side would be the evil one. While that side would say that my side is the evil one.
We say that it is the darkness that is evil for blinding us while it was actually the light’s fault for not showing up.
We blame death for taking our loved ones but it was life that let them be stolen. It was life that did not put up a hard enough fight.
There are always two sides to the same story, always two conflicting views.
Another thing that seems to puzzle me is why are people so scared of death?
Once you’re dead its peaceful all the hardships of life are over. No more bills, no exams or broken hearts.
You see while others mourn for the dead while I mourn for the living. The dead are gone Clarke Miss. Griffin, the living are hungry. The living are left weeping and stay grieving till it’s their time to go.
Death is death, but life—it’s full of hunger, war and heartache, it just never seems to end.
I’m sorry, it seems as if I have gotten slightly of topic.
Back to your question on good and evil. What would I choose? Which side would I pick? When you ask a crowd one that is larger than our classroom he answers you will receive will be different depending on who is answering them.
Now with this, things get a little more complicated than just a simple answer of good or evil.
The text book definition of good is that which is morally right; righteousness.
And the text book definition of bad is profoundly immoral and malevolent.
It should be as simple as this correct? But it’s not, instead it is yet another comparison and everything gets thrown out of whack.
Bear with me I’m going to go off topic for just a second.
Night and day surrender to each other willingly and bleed into one another. Now it’s not just the absence of heat is cold, or the absence of light is darkness. No, now cold has its own definition same with darkness. If bad is not the simple absence of good, then what is it?
It is no longer the comparison of one another. It’s no longer being cold being no heat and darkness being no light because who is to say that evil is the absence of good and not good being the absence of evil?
I guess you could say it’s both or you could say that without good there is no evil and without evil there is no good.
That for people to live, people must die and for there to be peace there must be war.
So when it comes to good and evil, is one light and the other cold? One heat and the other cold? One war, one peace? Or is it that they must live together and that they depend on one another. In which for one to thrive and be presence thane the other must be absence.
For you to have spring, you must be willing to have winter. For me to love you I must be willing to lose you.
Now were back at the beginning, which is which?
Evil would say that there is no such thing as good only the absence of evil, and good would say that there is no such thing as bad only the absence of good.
It all depends on what you think is good and what you think is evil. My evil could be your good, we could both be talking about the same thing yet have two completely different emotional responses to it.
Now ponder this:
Is nothing, nothing? Everything? The absence of everything? Or necessary for there to be everything?
And if you were to choose the last option- that for you to have nothing you must have something then the nothing you have is actually everything which was the second option and indirectly the first one also.
I hope now you understand why this question puzzled me and why even after all of this I still do not have an answer to the question of whether I would want to be good or evil. And truth be told I will never have an answer because neither me nor you even know what good and evil are.
So in conclusion Miss. Griffin Clarke,
Some will say that loving you is a sin and wrong. This means that loving you is bad and bad is evil and evil is indirectly good then by default loving you is good. Being good is being a saint, and so I am a saint. I am a saint by committing the sin of loving you.
And so…
By being a sinner I am a saint
Winter will soon be spring
Finales will soon be approaching
I'll be off to college soon
And I love you
And so, life goes on