Chapter 3
Lexa walked around her room in just her underwear and a sports bra as Clarke lay in her bed scrolling through her phone. "What do you want to do tonight?" Lexa asked.
"I don't know, nothing really. We've been doing a lot lately. I kind of just want to relax today." The blonde let her phone fall to the bed and looked over at her girlfriend, "What are you doing?"
"I'm just cleaning up the room a bit. I haven't been home much to clean." Lexa threw an armful of clothes in her hamper before going back for more.
"Do you ever stop?" Clarke asked.
"What do you mean?" Lexa pushed her hair behind her ears before bending to look under the bed for any stray clothing.
"You are always so focused on something. School, running, cleaning. Don't you ever just take a breath and relax?" Clarke asked.
"Babe, I'm not even wearing pants right now. It doesn't get any more relaxing than that." Lexa grumbled, "Besides, I have too much going on to relax. There's only twenty-four hours in a day."
"You can't spend every minute of every day doing something." The blonde sat up on the bed, leaning all of her weight on one arm, "Why can't you just sit with me for a while. I didn't come over here to watch you clean your room."
Lexa dropped the clothes in her arms and crawled into her bed. "There are you happy?" The brunette asked as she scooted closer to her girlfriend.
"Not yet." Clarke wrapped her arms around Lexa's waist pulling the girl closer to her. She grazed her fingers over the brunette's skin and let her head fall into the crook of her girlfriend's neck. She could smell the girl's shampoo. It smelled earthy and natural. Probably from a recent hair mask. The girl's skin smelled clean like soap with an undertone of coconut.
Lexa felt chills go down her spine as her girlfriend's hands explored her body. Her hands traveled down her abdomen, trailing over tanned thighs, and eventually found their way back up to Lexa's shoulders. "What are you doing?" The brunette breathed.
"Taking you in." Clarke whispered, "I want to remember ever inch of your body when you're gone. How you feel. How you smell. Everything." The blonde pushed Lexa down on the bed and crawled on top of the girl. She lay down between the girl's legs and lowered her body to rest her head down on Lexa's chest. She could hear her girlfriend's heart racing in her chest and it made the corners of her mouth turn up into a small smile. Clarke raised her head to see Lexa looking down at her with a sad look in her eyes and the blonde's smile quickly fell. "Lexa, what's wrong. I didn't mean to upset you."
"No, you didn't. I'm just going to miss this. Miss you. And I'm sorry if I've been preoccupied." Lexa moved a piece of blonde hair from Clarke's face, "I've just been thinking a lot about how little time we have left. I don't want to leave you. Not so soon."
"I know, but this is good. You're going to be amazing at Brown." Clarke reassured the girl.
Lexa turned on her side pulling Clarke with her. She untangled herself from underneath the blonde and scooted down the bed so they were on the same level. The brunette brought up her hand to gently stroke Clarke's cheek, "I know. I'm not worried about me. I'm worried about you." Lexa's hand slid down to rest in the curve of Clarke's side. "Your mom is forcing you to go to med school. It doesn't seem fair for me to just leave you alone to bear that burden."
"I'll be fine. It's not all bad. I don't hate the idea of med school. It's just something I have to do." The blonde replied with a shrug.
"But is that what you want to do?" Lexa asked.
"I want to make my mom happy. I want to have a good job. And I want to help people. I don't see the downfall of becoming a doctor." Clarke replied.
"Having no life for ten years," Lexa grumbled. "Never getting to visit your girlfriend."
"I'll find time to come visit. And I promised I'd be at your first meet." Clarke reassured the brunette. "Why are you so worried about this?"
"I'm just a little nervous. Long distance is hard." Lexa admitted, "And I'm going to miss this too. Just laying here like this. I know that when I get there the weight of all of this is going to hit me. And I feel like I need you more than you need me."
"What? Clarke's brow furrowed at the admission, "Lexa, you are so independent. How could you need me more?"
"I know I don't show it. But, when you're not around I feel less-just less. I went through my whole life focusing on school, and running, and just being perfect all the time. And then I met you. And I found this place where I don't have to be perfect track star Lexa. I can't just be. I need you to remind me that I don't need to be perfect all the time." Lexa sighed heavily and lay on her back, "I do need you more."
The blonde gave Lexa a sad look and scooted closer, she slid a leg between Lexa's and pushed herself up onto her elbow to look down at her girlfriend. "I'm still going to be here, Lexa. I'm still going to remind you that you already are perfect. I'm not leaving. Yes, we're going to different states, but I'm not leaving you. I would never leave you alone."
"I know, I'm just overthinking this." Lexa ran her fingers through her hair and groaned. "I just want this summer to last forever, but it's already going by so fast."
Clarke didn't have the words to fix this. She couldn't make the summer longer, and she couldn't change the fact that they were going to different schools. All she could do was be here now and make the most of it.
The blonde leaned down and gently placed her lips to Lexa's. She hesitated before kissing her again and again.
Lexa broke the kiss breathing heavily under Clarke, "What was that for?"
"I can't make the summer last forever, but every time I kiss you time stops for just a moment. If I can't make the summer last I can at least make time stop now."
Lexa smiled and pressed her lips to her girlfriend's once again. "The please, don't stop.