It started as an inner joke when Taehyung told herself she likes girls.
When she thought it was normal that she likes boobs as much as men do.
When she thought it was normal to harbor crush towards girls and admit that they are pretty and pass them off as 'girl crushes'.
When she thought it was completely normal that she follows her gaze towards a walking beauty, eyeing her body well.
When she thought it was—well a bit weird and not completely normal—to have read a few mangas wherein the tags usually have the words 'smut' and 'yuri'.
When she thought—well fuck, confused as hell as her sexuality.
Everything has started to change when she realized what has become of her. Taehyung has become more kept and standoffish.
Afraid that talking too much will cause a slip of tongue about her that she is not as straight as the flagpole could be and that people would judge her.
Afraid that people will question her sexuality and that as to why she is so weird and not normal to not like guys? And that maybe she is still in puberty and that maybe it is just a phase.
Because first of all, she still likes guys... A lot. And maybe, just maybe, it is a bit weird that she likes feminine looking guys. Guys who look so pretty with a nice fluffy hair and a frail-looking physique.
After a long session of consulting the internet with her computer screen shouting at her that 'YES YOU IGNORANT FOOL YOU ARE BISEXUAL WHEN YOU FEEL SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO BOTH THE MALE AND FEMALE SEX'
And that was how Taehyung concluded that she is bisexual. But a closet one. She probably has no intentions of ever coming out in the general public or her family. As indirectly stated earlier, to keep away from the judging eyes.
If anyone knows, it's her journal notebook—coz diary sounds so girly—and a few friends not more than the fingers in two hands.
She's lucky she ended up in a group of people who are absolutely not homophobe at all. They accepted her well despite what she really is, along with Yoongi and Jeongguk who are also bisexual.
Really, in their three-boys-four-girls group, three girls ended up being bisexual. Great.
She first came out to her most trusted friend—Yoongi. A very pale, bitch-faced, introverted person. She has been Taehyung's bestfriend for quite a few years. Trusted friend, bestfriend. But keeps a few secrets from each other still. Respecting each other's privacies. They're both secretive. Both introverts. And many more BOTHs.
When Taehyung was chatting with her one ass o'clock of a day, topic slipped off to sexuality and both admitted to be bisexual. The next time they saw each other personally, no one brought up the topic. As if it was an unspoken deal. They both carried on normally.
Except Taehyung has been noticing Yoongi more. How awfully pale the other is. How her dark circles are quite noticeable under her permanent sleepy-looking but sharp eyes. Her nice, pink plush lips. How her boobs swell just right—not too flat, not too fat. How her thin waist and her slender thighs accentuates her perky ass—ugh
It's giving her thoughts. Deep, dark thoughts she shouldn't be thinking of. She's your bestfriend, Tae, don't scare her off.
And now, inside an apartment room filled with seven half-drunk people playing never have I ever, what could be worse? Nothing. Nothing at all.
"Never have I ever..." Jeongguk starts, eyeing everyone in the room. "kissed Yoongi."
No words were spoken for good five seconds. No one pulled down a finger. Everyone's just looking at each other. The air reeks so much of alcohol and awkwardness. That's when Taehyung realized she hasn't kissed Yoongi, even once, even just to pass it off as platonic or drunk kiss.
When Namjoon said "never have i ever kissed Taehyung." earlier, three pulled down a finger—Hoseok, Jeongguk, and Seokjin. Everyone knew about that though. It was not a surprise. It was just mentioned for the sake of someone pulling down a finger. A sacrifice, you could say.
This though got Taehyung thinking. She locked eyes with Yoongi whose lying on the bed, while Taehyung is on the other corner of the room seated on a chair. They just gazed at each other for a while until Taehyung broke the eerie silence.
"Mmm now that I think about it." She says, tapping her knees hunched up close to her chest. "We haven't kissed, no?"
The words are directed to Yoongi herself. It's a bit normal in their group; drunk kisses. No more than that. Yoongi replied with a hum, and Taehyung with a "Maybe next time."
They continued the game despite the sudden obvious tension between Taehyung and Yoongi.
Taehyung feels her chest tighten, her jaws clenching, and she lets out a deep sigh. Maybe next time.