Chapter 30
Lexas POV
She put her bag into the trunk of the car along with Clarkes and closed it turning back to watch as Clarke hugged both of her parents goodbye. She was doing her best to give them some privacy but then her father was standing right in front of her and pulling her into a hug.
She quickly wrapped her arms around him and hugged him back. Clarke was a daddys girl and it showed in every possible way, with all the time she has spent with the two of them she noticed how they talked and even moved in similar ways.
“Thanks for helping Clarke through all of this.”
He let go and pulled away, she offered him a smile in return, “Thanks for you know having her and raising her?”
He laughed loudly and looked over at Clarke who was watching them with a smile. Lexa offered her hand to Clarke who walked over to her quickly after pressing a kiss to her moms cheek.
“Call you when we get there, and remember you promised to come visit soon.”
Lexa couldn’t help but laugh when Clarkes mom replied with, “We promised to see Lexa again not you.”
The small pout on Clarkes lips was the cutest thing she had ever seen she was pretty sure. She pulled Clarke closer and pressed a kiss to her cheek and pulled away. “If I’m feeling nice I will let you see them too.”’
Clarke pushed her off and walked around to the other side of the car getting into the passenger seat.
She waved goodbye and got into the car, pulling away.
“So we are leaving now.” She looked quickly over to Clarke who had a huge grin on her face.
“Yeah?”
“Sooooo not to rush or anything, but can I take you on a date?”
“No.”
She looked at Clarke who was now frowning and took one of her hands off of the wheel and took Clarkes in hers bringing it to her lips and pressing a series of kisses.
“No?”
She nodded her head. “I want to take you out on our first date.”
Clarkes face broke out into a grin and she lightly shoved Lexas shoulder. “You scared me! I thought you changed your mind.”
She didn’t say anything to that for a moment, thinking about all the times in the time shes known Clarke that must have been confusing for her. Lexa was already bad t expressing her emotions and she had been trying (and failing) to hide her feelings for Clarke not just from everyone around her but herself included. How many times had she pulled Clarke closer and then pushed her away just as fast?
“I’m sorry.”
“For what?”
“Everything I have put you through.”
“Lex..”
“No, really I am Clarke, I took you for granted, that you wouldn’t leave me, get tired of my pushing away and give up. You have been here when I needed you and you…. You’ve showed me what this,” She motioned between herself and Clarke while keeping her eyes on the road, “ should feel like again, when you feel something so strong for someone that it takes over everything. I can’t get you out of my head, and trust me I tried but it never worked. I don’t want to try anymore because I think this is how it should be. You are in my head and heart Clarke and I wouldn’t want it any other way and I plan on proving that to you.”
She wanted to see Clarkes face, the silence caused her heart to pick up its pace making her nervous. Did she go too far?
“Clarke?”
“Pull over.”
She glanced over but Clarke was facing away from her.
“Pull over Lexa.”
**Clarkes POV**
“Please.”
Lexa didn’t say another word and pulled over, Clarke waited until the hazard lights were on before she opened the passenger door and walked out to the grassy area and stood staring as the trees on the side of the highway blew in the wind.
Everything Lexa just said to her were the things she didn’t know she had needed to hear because she felt like she had been crazy that entire time. She thought it had all been in her head but it wasn’t. Now this was it, they were doing it, going to take the leap together.
She wiped her eyes as she felt tears stream down her face. She heard footsteps behind her but didn’t turn. But then Lexa was standing in front of her with a worried expression.
“Clarke?”
She looked into the green eyes that were her favorite color in the world, a color she didn’t think she would ever be able be able to recreate. She took a step forward cupping Lexas cheek. Lexa tried to take a step back but she pulled her closer.
“Don’t move.”
Her heart was beating erratically, it was like she was feeling everything all at once and it was too much she needed to do something. Lexa listened and stood as still as possible staring back into her eyes. Her own eyes flickered down to Lexas lips and she didn’t think about it, she moved impossibly closer until they were hip to hip chest to chest foreheads pressed together.
“Is this okay?”
Lexa nodded her head. Clarke closed her eyes and moved so their noses brushed with every breathe they took.
“Clarke.”
Lexa said her name like a prayer like she was begging for something and she knew what it was because she wanted the same thing too. But before she could close the distance between their lips Lexas hand wrapped around the back of her neck and closed the distance.
In that moment she swore the world stopped spinning, every sound was gone as if everything else around them had frozen, everything was Lexa, her entire body screamed that name as if it was what she needed to stay alive. She had never felt a kiss so all encompassing. Lexa pulled away for a second a small smile on her lips before she bumped her nose and kissed her again while still smiling, she couldn’t help but return the smile so that they were smiling more than actual kissing.
Lexa pulled back slightly. “I was hoping we would wait until the end of our first date for that but Im pretty sure it couldn’t have been anymore perfect than that.
“Yeah?”
Lexa nodded her head and then lightly kissed her lips again. She couldn’t help but slightly run her tongue along Lexas pouty bottom lip. The hand that was against Lexas lower back felt the shiver that went through her body causing her to smile smugly.
She laughed when Lexa pulled back and glared at her playfully before pulling away completely. “Shut up.”
“I’m going to love making you do that.”
“It was a onetime thing so remember it to the best of your ability.”
“Oh I seriously doubt that.”
Lexa rolled her eyes and turned to walk away but she grabbed her by the arm making her turn back. Lexa held her glare for only a few more seconds before her face softened and she reached up wiping her hands across Clarkes cheeks. She had forgotten she had just been crying.
“Are you okay?”
She nodded her head.
“Are we okay?”
She moved forward pressing a quick kiss to Lexas lips before pulling back for a moment. “I hope we are more than okay.”
Lexa moved her head forward and took Clarkes bottom lip between hers and bit it lightly. Clarke quickly pulled Lexas body into hers but Lexa pulled back shaking her head. “Not so fast Griffin.”
She felt her cheeks turn red in embarrassment. “Sorry.”
Lexa grabbed her hand and pulled her back towards the car. “Come on we have a long drive ahead of us.”
**Lexas POV**
She unlocked her apartment door to see something she wished she could have erased from her mind. Raven and Roan only a total of three items of clothing away from having sex on her couch.
“My eyes, holy shit my eyes they burn. Kill me now!”
“Lex! Shit!”
She closed her eyes and tried to fumble her way towards her bedroom door but bumped into every item imaginable. Had they rearranged the furniture while she was gone or something?
“Lexa.” She winced at the sound of Ravens voice picturing that she was still straddling her brothers body. She physically gagged.
“Oh come on we are decent, uncover your eyes before you break something.
“No.”
“Why?”
“I think they might be bleeding.”
She felt a smack to the back of her head and opened one of her eyes slightly enough to see Raven with her arms crossed over her chest glaring at her.
“How old are you? Fifteen?”
“No when I was fifteen I caught him getting a blowjob by Echo behind the shed. Come to think of it since I survived that I think I will get through this with minimal trauma.”
Raven spun around and glared at Roan. “Echo huh? I want to see what she looks like. Who names their kid echo anyway? Bet she was some slut.”
“Raven.”
“What I’m just saying. You never mentioned her before.”
“Thank you Lexa, such mood ruiner.”
She picked up a water bottle from the kitchen table and threw it to him while he was pulling his shirt over his head. It him directly on top of his head as it popped out. “Well do me a favor and don’t get in the mood on my poor couch.”
Raven spun around and watched her with a smile. “Speaking of in the mood how was your drive back with Clarke huh?”
“What?”
Raven rolled her eyes, “It seems you put a certain blonde in the mood on your way back.”
“Babe please don’t have this conversation with me here, she is my sister.”
Raven flashed a middle finger Roans way. “Shut up Echo. Spill baby Woods.”
She rolled her eyes but couldn’t help the smile that came to her face when she said,
“We kissed and are sort of dating.”
“Dating as in like taking out on dates or dating like you guys are girlfriends?”
She scrunched her nose up, they hadn’t actually gone over if they were official official or just dating. Crap. She shrugged her shoulders.
“You might want to figure that out. You know communicate with eachother.” She nodded her head and picked up her bag bringing it to her room before walking right back out.
“No funny business, Raven has a bed you know.”
“Where are you going? You just got here.”
She opened the apartment door and looked over her shoulder. “To communicate.” She closed the door behind herself and heard Raven say, “They are so going to have sex.”
“Raven she’s my little sister!”
“So Echo huh, you didn’t mention her in your ex list.”
She heard Roan groan in frustration and laughed to herself before walking away.