Chapter 5
**Clarkes POV**
She turned over in her sleep, her legs seeking the heat that was already entangled with hers. But something was waking her and she couldn’t fight it.
“No, please don’t go!”
She sat up quickly the screams waking her, at the end of the couch Lexa began tossing and turning. She untangled their legs and crawled over to her. She was visibly sweating and was moving so much that she nearly tossed herself and Clarke off of the couch.
“Lexa, it’s just a dream. Lexa?”
She reached over Lexas head to turn on the lamp that was next to the couch on a side table.
She tried to wake her lightly by running her hands up and down her arms, it wasn’t working. She put her hand on her neck and ran her thumb over Lexas cheeks which were wet from tears that had escaped.
“Please don’t leave me.”
Clarke felt her heart clench at those words, what was happening to her?
“Shh Lexa, please wake up.”
She felt more tears running down Lexas face and had enough of it. She grabbed Lexa by both of her shoulders and began shaking her hard.
“Wake up.”
When green eyes snapped open, she shifted so she was laying on her side next Lexa, instead of half on top of her. Lexa sat up quickly clutching the blanket to her chest, the tears didn’t stop. She didn’t know what to do, what do you do for someone you don’t know when every instinct inside of you is telling you to protect them in any way you can. She looked away from Lexa quickly glancing at Lunas door, what do you do when it isn’t your place to feel that way?
Should she get Luna? Is that what Lexa would want? Clarke moved so she was sitting up too.
“Do you want me to get Luna?”
Lexa turned to face her eyes widening as if she forgot she was there. She shook her head quickly.
“Don’t.”
She nodded her head and began getting up, when she turned to walk away from the couch Lexa grabbed her arm before she could take a step.
“Don’t leave me.”
She turned and looked at the woman holding onto her, hearing the words she had cried out in her dream being used towards her this time. She took Lexas hand off of her arm and squeezed it lightly before letting go. “I’m just going to get you water.”
Clarke waited for her to nod before she went to the kitchen. She grabbed a glass and filled it trying to sort through her own thoughts. How had she gotten here? She splashed some water on her face before turning back towards the living room.
Lexa was sitting up with her feet on the ground staring at the blank television. The closer Clarke got she could see the goosebumps on Lexas arms. She put the water down and grabbed the blanket wrapping it around her. She sat on the coffee table and handed her the glass receiving a small smile that didn’t reach her eyes.
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“No.” Clarke looked around the room, she didn’t know what to do.
“I can’t believe I fell asleep.”
She looked at Lexa who was looking at the glass in her hands.
“You were tired, I knew you were going to fall asleep.”
She shook her head, “You don’t get it. Are you tired? I’m sorry I woke you.”
Clarke shook her head, “Hey it’s okay, I’m fine, barely even tired.”
Lexa watched her for a moment, “You are a terrible liar Clarke.”
She just smiled and shook her head. She got up and sat next to her, pulling on the blanket until it was wrapped around both of them, their shoulders brushing.
“Nope just cold.”
Lexa reached forward and grabbed the remote, “I don’t think I’m going to fall asleep again, do you want to keep watching?”
**Lexas POV**
“That would be a terrible first date.”
She looked to Clarke whose eyes were barely open. “You think you could do better?”
“I could definitely do better than doing laundry as a first date.”
Clarke had moved back to her earlier position laying down on side of the couch, Lexa stopped watching the television and watched her a moment.
Every time she closed her eyes they stood closed a little longer, and Lexa couldn’t look away. When Clarkes eyes stood closed Lexas attention went back to the show. When she saw that it was almost nine she stood up and tucked the blanket around the blonde.
She went to turn away but turned back and took her in once more, she looked so peaceful sleeping, almost childlike. Clarke didn’t and would probably never know what it meant to her that she stood with her after her dream or the fact that she was even able to fall asleep with her in the first place.
It gave her hope, maybe things were finally getting better, and maybe she could be better. Clarke had a piece of hair in her face, Lexa crouched down next to her and grabbed it by the pink end twisted it around her finger like Clarke had done to hers the night before. Remembering the moment brought a smile to her face, seemed like Clarke got her to go home with her in the end.
She moved the hair away from the sleeping girls face and stood up. She began walking to Lunas door, maybe being better could start right now. Before she opened the door she glanced over her shoulder to look at Clarke one more time.
“Thank you.”
She opened the door and stepped in and smiled at the sight of Lunas sleeping form, the light from the window landing perfectly on her face. She sat on her knees on the bed leaned a forward and pressed a kiss to her forehead. Luna opened one eye quickly but closed it again from the sun, making her smile slightly.
“Lexa more sleep.” Luna moved so her head was in her lap and her arms were wrapped around her waist, Lexa began running her hands through Lunas hair. After a while she tapped Lunas shoulder to get her to move and laid down next to her. She laid an arm on Lunas hip and moved Lunas hair over her shoulder so she could place her nose on the back of her neck.
“Going back to sleep Lex?”
“Going to try.” Luna nodded her head snuggled more into her, Lexa closed her eyes and pressed a kiss to her neck before closing her eyes.
She was exhausted she knew she was, she looked over and saw that it was now ten thirty, she tried, she really did but sleep wouldn’t come, maybe if she would have stayed with Clarke she would have been able to fall back asleep. She shook her head at the thought.
She wanted to get up and go make breakfast or something but she knew if she did then she would just wake Clarke up and since she was part of the reason Clarke barely slept it felt wrong.
She shifted so she was laying on her back with her hands on her stomach closing her eyes when she heard a loud thump from the living room. She sat up quickly and got off the bed. She opened the door to see Clarkes head pop up from under the coffee table.
She covered her mouth so she wouldn’t laugh and closed the door behind herself before walking to the couch, Clarke just glared at her the whole time.
“What?”
“You left without telling me.” Lexa hoped her face showed her confusion at Clarkes apparent anger.
“You were sleeping, I didn’t want to wake you up, what does that have to do with you being on the floor?”
“I fell off the damn couch because I thought you were still here and didn’t want to kick you. I would have rather been in my bed than the couch if you weren’t with me.”
Lexa felt her own anger rising, she didn’t do anything wrong for Clarke to act like that with her.
“Next time you decide to climb back into bed with Luna let know.”
Her eyes widened, was she being serious right now? “Seriously Clarke go to bed then and maybe wake up a little less bitchy next time.”
Clarkes eyes widened in surprise but then she just stood up threw the blanket on the couch and went to her room slamming the door shut.
Lexa threw herself onto to couch in frustration, what was wrong with that girl, she was so much nicer the night before and earlier that morning. She was too tired for this, she went into Lunas room and got dressed.
She pressed a kiss to Lunas lips quickly whispering that she was going home and would call her later, when she opened the door to the apartment she heard a door open, she saw it was Clarkes and just shook her head closing the door behind herself quickly not wanting to see her.
**Clarkes POV**
When she slammed her door shut she stood on the other side breathing heavily. She threw herself on her bed. It took her less than three minutes to realize she was being an idiot.
What was wrong with her? When she woke up and realized that Lexa was gone she was angry, when she looked up to see her walking out of Lunas bedroom the anger flared and if she was honest she was jealous. Spending time with her that night had only made her like girl beyond her looks.
She needed to stay away from her, having a crush on Lexa would only end terribly, she was Lunas girlfriend. But when she heard movement from the living room she jumped up towards her door hoping it was Lexa. When she opened the door and saw Lexa leaving the apartment her heart dropped. She stood in her doorway looking at the door until Lunas bedroom door opened.
She turned to see Luna smiling at her. “Good morning Clarke. How did you sleep?”
She shrugged and walked over to the couch picking it up and bringing it to her face, it smelled like Lexa. She put it down and away from herself.
“Okay, you?”
“Great, sleeping with Lexa next to me is always amazing.”
Clarke didn’t say anything to that, did Luna really think Lexa was in bed with her all night long? How could she not realize Lexa had been with her instead, but then she remembered Lexa stopping her from getting Luna. Something was off here but it wasn’t her place to question it.
“Why did Lexa leave so early?”
Luna shrugged, “She didn’t say, she seemed fine earlier but then she just decided to leave, she sounded a little upset, I’m going to ask her later.”
“Okay.”
“Want to go grab some food from the diner down the block?”
“Yeah let me just get dressed.”
She got up and made her way to her room leaning her forward on the closed door. She needed to find a way to not like Lexa and soon.