Self destructive
Addison rolls onto her back and laughs to herself.
‘Meredith can never find out about this.’ She says looking at Mark.
‘You think I want her to know we slept together?’ Mark asks.
‘No, but it can’t happen again. I don’t wanna hurt her.’
‘Neither do I but there’s a reason this happened.’ He said smirking at her.
‘No, Mark. Not again.’ she says. Mark ignores her and goes in for a kiss and before she can stop him the door slams shut. Mark jumps up and she sees Meredith at the door, she crying and Addison hates herself for it. Mark gathers his clothes together and pulls them on quickly before darting out of the room. Meredith picks up Addison’s scrub top and throws it at her before pacing the room. Addison pulls her shirt on and gets the rest of her clothes together.
‘I’m so-’
‘DON’T!!’ Meredith snaps. She continues pacing the room and then she stops and slaps her hand against the wall.
‘You don’t get to be sorry right now. Wha-, why?...why would you do this?’ Meredith said, tears streaming down her face.
‘I don’t know. Meredith...I love you and I’m sorry please forgive me.’
‘You don’t love me. If you loved me you wouldn’t have slept with my best friend.’
‘I do love you, you know that. I don’t know why I slept with him, probably because I’m self destructive.’ Addison said scoffing. Meredith slaps her then.
‘Self destructive? So you destroy me too while you're at it?’ Meredith asks incredulously. Addison holds her face. She stands in front of Meredith and tries to pull her into her arms.
‘I love you. I love you. I love you.’ Addison says as she kisses Meredith. Meredith pulls away form her embrace.
‘NO! We’re done. I love you but this is too much Addie, I can’t be with you. It’s over.’ Meredith says as she slowly backs out of the room. Addison sits on the floor and cries into her hands. Meredith runs of to the residents lounge and cries too.