The Day It All Went to Hell
BREAKING NEWS: Rock singer Octavia Blake confirms her and Clarke Griffin’s new relationship status on Twitter. How does America’s sweetheart Lexa Woods feel about this new love so soon after her and Griffin’s breakup? Could this be the real reason behind Clexa’s downfall? Visit our homepage for more details.
Lexa glances at her phone in between scenes for her new action film ‘Fear the Reapers.’ She plays the lead character, a deadly undercover cop who’s been working a dangerous drug cartel. The film is expected to be a big hit, which makes her manager Titus all the happier.
Yet another update on Clarke’s love life graces her phone, instantly souring Lexa’s mood. Lexa knows she fucked up with Clarke. If the blonde singer were to find love again with someone who deserved her, she wouldn’t be so disconcerted right now. But Octavia Blake. The girl spells out trouble. That girl is always in the tabloids. She is a hardcore partyer and the exact opposite of what a recovering addict should be around. Lexa hates that someone else gets to hold Clarke at night, but more than that, she’s terrified to her very being that Clarke is going to relapse.
“Alright everyone get back to your marks. We are starting again from the last scene.”
Lexa hands her phone back to her assistant Echo and goes back to filming, trying desperately to focus on her lines and not a certain blue eyed blonde.
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“Clarke baby come back to bed.”
Clarke smiles back at the very naked rock singer in her bed before grabbing two bottles of water and returning to the warm embrace of her new girlfriend. Octavia is wild and spontaneous, everything Lexa isn’t. She’s reckless and a rebel. She has no filter and is unnecessarily vulgar. And shit, that girl can fuck like no other. Octavia Blake is a fix that Clarke Griffin can’t get enough of.
(But secretly she misses those gentle touches and gentle murmurs of ‘I love you’ in the heat of passion. She misses Lexa’s soft hands and their quiet nights in. She misses Lexa’s good morning kisses and late night back massages. She misses seeing the sweet awkward side of Lexa Woods that the media never got to witness. She misses their debates on postmodernism literature and their in depth discussion on obscure poetry that nobody else ever seemed to have heard of. Clarke misses Lexa Woods, the woman she thought she would spend the rest of her life with. Her first kiss. First fuck. First Love.. and the woman she thought would be her last of all of the above. A woman she thought could never hurt her. Oh how wrong she was.)
“So listen, I was thinking we could go to that club opening with the band in celebration of your EP release tonight. We can party till the sun comes up.”
Octavia pulls Clarke in for a searing hot kiss, sucking her bottom swollen lip until the blonde moans into her mouth causing the sweetest of vibrations down to her core. The Arker lead singer releases her girlfriend’s lip with a loud popping sound, smirking at how dark Clarke’s gaze has transitioned with just one kiss.
“Uh y-yeah. That sounds good babe.”
“You know what else sounds good right about now?”
“Mm what?”
“This.”
Octavia undoes the belt of Clarke’s satin blue robe, revealing nothing under. The rock singer slowly kisses and nips her way down the blonde’s chest, taking of Clarke’s large perky breasts into her mouth. Clarke moans at the contact and guides one of Octavia’s hands to where she desperately needs it. Octavia wastes no time, eagerly exploring Clarke’s wet folds and plunging two fingers into her tight hot entrance.
“Shit yes! Right there. Oh my god that’s so good.” Clarke all but mewls, squirming and writhing in her lover’s arms.
“You like that?” Octavia whispers into her ear, lightly nibbling on the blonde’s earlobe in the process. Octavia quickly adds another finger, curling her fingers to hit Clarke’s g spot every time. The brunette girl’s thumb moves in up and down motions, rubbing Clarke’s clit in the most delicious of ways.
“Ahh fuck! I’m - I’m gonna -” Clarke’s back arches as her whole body stills, her mouth agape in a ‘O’ form. She comes hard and fast around her new girlfriend’s fingers.
Octavia sucks of Clarke’s essence from her fingers and starts lazily kissing Clarke as she comes down from her post orgasm bliss, allowing the indie singer to taste herself on Octavia’s tongue. A minute or so later, Clarke grabs Octavia and swiftly switches their positions.
“Your turn.”
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Lexa finishes up for the day early. Nathan Miller, her love interest for the film, and her have great onscreen chemistry so they rarely need to shoot more than one or two retakes. Miller is also an old friend of hers. They’ve been in a few films with each other since Lexa’s early career.
“Hey Lexa! Wait up!”
Always with a smile on his face, Nate runs up to her.
“Hey Nate. What’s up?”
“I was just wondering if you had plans for tonight? I want you to finally meet Bryan. He’s a great guy Lex. I really like him.”
Lexa smiles at her friend. Bryan is Miller’s new boy toy. Nate tends to be a player but apparently this Bryan guy has really done a number on her friend. She can see it in the way his eyes twinkle when he talks about him. She knows that look all too well because she’s seen it in her own reflection when thinking or speaking about Clarke. Lexa’s smile dissipates a little at the thought of her ex lover. She quickly shakes herself from her thoughts and excitedly responds.
“Well I was planning on binge watching Vice documentaries but I suppose I can fit you into my very busy schedule.” Lexa winks.
“Awesome! Okay so it’s going to be me, you, Bryan, and a couple of his friends. He wants to check out this bar his friends have been raving about. Does that sound good?”
“Yeah sure. Just text me the details.”
“Great. See you later!”
And with that Nate runs off, skipping and smiling. Lexa rarely goes to bars or drinks at all. When she realized Clarke had a problem and got sober, she drank less and less as well. She would occasionally go out and grab a few drinks with coworkers or some friends when Clarke was out of town, but that was once in a blue moon. The last time she was drinking though, she made the biggest mistake of her life.
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6 Months Ago
Lexa and her costars from the film ‘The Commander’s Admirer’ were out celebrating the final day of filming. The film is a sequel to the film the gave Lexa her first Oscar, ‘The Commander.’ Truthfully, she didn’t even want to take the role, but she signed a contract for two movies and couldn’t back out.
Costia Greene was her love interest in the film. Greene is a former child star who just had her second big break a couple years ago. Lexa was a huge fan of hers growing up and totally geeked out when they first met. Ever since then, Costia has found Lexa adorable and had her eyes on the green eyed actress, unbeknownst to Lexa.
Costia ordered the group another round of shots. All of their costars, aside from her and Lexa, were big muscular men with clearly bigger alcohol tolerances. As the night progressed, shot after shot after shot, Costia slowly got closer and touchier with Lexa. Lexa, who hadn’t been this drunk since her 21st birthday, found the contact comforting.
Her and Clarke have been on shaky ground the past few months. Lexa has been filming at home in New York for the past 6 months while Clarke is on the road. It has been rough on their relationship. It doesn’t help that Luna Rivers is constantly hovering around Clarke while they’re on tour.
Luna Rivers is a huge insanely popular pop indie singer. Luna contacted Clarke a couple months back and asked the blonde to be her headliner. The blonde excitedly accepted. This is her big break and Lexa is so proud of her. Problem is, Luna is always hitting on Clarke or so Lexa thinks. They have had many little spats over Luna Rivers. Clarke is constantly reminding her that Costia Green is the same way but Lexa balks at the accusation. Lexa is so oblivious it almost hurts.
One night, after a particularly nasty fight, Clarke went out with Luna and the rest of the band to a bar. The next day it was all over the media and Lexa was fuming. Clarke swore up and down that she didn’t have anything to drink. Lexa was pissed though. Not because of the whole Luna thing either, she was pissed because Clarke risked her sobriety. The blonde was just shy of a year clean.
The pair made up the next day but Lexa made Clarke promise her, she wouldn’t put herself in situations like that again. Lexa was there during the worst days of Clarke’s addiction. It was terrifying. Clarke almost died from an overdose once. Lexa was the one who found her. It was after that experience that Clarke agreed to go to rehab. Lexa is still haunted of the images of finding Clarke unconscious on their bathroom floor.
“Another round of shots for the table!” One of her males costars screams out and everyone jeers with him. Lexa downs hers and then chugs some of her beer.
“Whoa slow down there. You don’t want to be too drunk there. The night has just begun.” Costia slyly slides her arm around Lexa’s waist and whispers, slightly slurring, in her ear. The movement did not go unnoticed by their co stars who wiggle their eyebrows at the two.
“Are you two playing out that hot love scene from the film right here in the bar?” One of the guys jokingly calls out.
“Maybe later.” Costia jokes back, causing Lexa to whip her head in her direction.
“Cos-costia. I’m with Clarke, you know that.”
“I know babe. I’m just kidding. Relax sweetie.”
Lexa nods and lies her head on Costia’s shoulder. The alcohol is definitely catching up with her. Lexa decides to check her phone to see if Clarke texted her and that’s when she sees it. All over social media there is a picture of Clarke and Luna hugging, looking rather comfortable with another. Lexa goes from shocked to fuming to heartbroken in mere seconds. Clarke promised her she wouldn’t go out with Luna anymore but the picture is clear. They are embracing intimately and it looks as if they are a couple. Lexa feels like she’s suffocating.
“What’s wrong?”
“N-nothing. Excuse me I need to make a call.”
Slightly swaying, Lexa makes her way outside the bar and frantically calls Clarke 5 times. Clarke doesn’t pick up so she texted her. Lexa is not one to believe the media but the photo is proof. Luna is caressing Clarke’s cheek and her girlfriend has her eyes closed at the sensation. Luna's forehead is pressed against Clarke's and Lexa's heart breaks. Lexa feels hollow. The actress sits on the curb and starts to cry. She feels her heart shatter in her chest. All she ever had was Clarke and now what does she have? All her old insecurities flood to the surface. She feels completely and utterly alone in a world that only did her right when it let Clarke Griffin walk into her life.
“Lexa? Are you okay?”
Costia sits down next to her and opens her arms for Lexa to fall into her embrace. Lexa shows the picture of Clarke and Luna to Costia.
“Oh Lexa I’m so sorry. What do you need me to do?” Lexa sniffles and wipes her tears and runny makeup away.
“Can you just take me home please?”
Costia nods and calls them a cab. The cab ride is quiet with Lexa resting her head on Costia’s shoulder. They are both feeling the affects of the multiple shots. With the liquor coursing through her veins, Lexa isn’t thinking clearly. She convinces herself Clarke was cheating on her and is an emotional wreck.
Costia pays the cabbie and wobbles with Lexa to her and Clarke’s apartment. Lexa offers for Costia to stay in their guest bedroom for the night, seeing as the other actress is drunk as well. Costia enthusiastically accepts. Costia tries to convince Lexa to hang out a bit more but Lexa is just so tired and exhausted. She shows Costia the guest bedroom and gives her some clothes to sleep in, to which Costia enthusiastically accepts.
Lexa tries calling Clarke again and again. Leaving drunken voicemail after drunken voicemail. Lexa starts to cry again and continues sobbing until her mouth is severely dry from all the tears she shed. Lexa feels like her life just ended. She has only ever loved one person in her whole life. She never had family. Her mother was a horrible, horrible person. She was taken out of her care when she was just a small child. She never had the love of a mother's touch. She only had Clarke. And now Clarke is pressed up against Luna. Lexa tries to cry but there are no more tears, She feels dehydrated and dizzy from all the alcohol coursing through her veins. Lexa reluctantly uncurls herself from the fetal position she is situated in on her and Clarke’s bed and goes to the kitchen to get some water. Costia is already in the kitchen though, raiding her fridge. When Lexa clears her throat, the brunette jumps a little, presumably startled.
“Oh shit! You scared me.”
“I’m sorry. Were you hungry?”
“Yeah.” Costia sheepishly replies. “I’m sorry for going through your fridge like this. I crave junk food when I’m drunk. Do you have any?”
Lexa shakes her head.
“I don’t eat junk food. Clarke does. But uh she’s on the road so..”
Lexa’s face grows solemn again. Costia pulls her in for a hug.
“Hey hey it’s okay. She’s insane to even look at Luna when she has you. I mean look at you. God, Lexa you’re stunning.”
Lexa releases a watery nervous laugh.
“Cos stop.”
“No I really mean it Lexa. You’re gorgeous.”
Lexa slowly pulls herself from Costia’s grip and hesitantly looks into her eyes. All Lexa can see is pure lust and the brown eyed girl licks her lips. Lexa clears her throat and shakes her head. She doesn’t want this. No. She loves Clarke. But Clarke is probably sleeping with that Luna bitch. No. No. She doesn’t want this. She doesn’t want this. She doesn’t -
Her thoughts are interrupted when Costia’s lips crash violently into hers. For a minute, Lexa is stunned. Frozen. Is this actually happening? Costia presses her up against the counter, kissing Lexa hard. Lexa has yet to reciprocate though. She can feel one of Costia’s hands tugging at her shirt as she shoves the other beneath the waistband of Lexa’s pajama pants. Lexa moans at the contact and something snaps in her. She does want this. She wants this. She wants to feel something, anything except the unbearable agony she currently feels. She doesn’t want to imagine for one more moment what Luna might be doing to her Clarke.
Lexa kisses back with equal fervor, trying desperately to shut out images of Clarke and Luna together. She grabs at Costia’s thighs and carries her across the living room into the guest bedroom. Throughout the very brief encounter, Lexa can’t seem to get images of blue eyes and blonde hair out of her head as she desperately ruts into her moaning brown eyed costar.
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Lexa shakes her head furiously, pretending for a second that if she tries hard enough she can erase that night. She was fucking dumb. How could she think Clarke would ever cheat on her? Even if she did, what Lexa did wasn’t okay. What Lexa did was wrong on so many levels.
Lexa woke up confused and madly hungover. Clarke called her back first thing in the morning. The blonde fell asleep around 10 p.m. and her phone was on silent. Lexa had the worst hangover of her life. Clarke quickly explained to her that Luna was hugging her but not for the reasons Lexa so easily assumed. Clarke told Lexa that Luna asked her to come to a bar with her and the band but she politely refused. When Luna asked why, Clarke told her the truth and they got to talking about Clarke’s addiction. Luna told her about how her father died of an heroin overdose when she was 16. Luna hugged her and commended her for how strong she is. Clarke teared up and Luna wiped her few tears away. The media took a picture at that moment, and it looked like Luna was caressing her cheek like a girlfriend would. Clarke didn’t even know about the picture until this morning and started to apologize profusely to her girlfriend. Lexa started to cry hysterically and told her not to apologize.
Lexa flew to L.A. later that day to talk to Clarke in person. She confessed to sleeping with Costia and begged for the blonde’s forgiveness. Clarke broke down and freaked out, leaving a distraught deeply remorseful Lexa in her wake.
Lexa is distracted from thoughts about her breakup with her soulmate when she gets a text from Anya about Clarke’s new EP ‘White Powder’ which has just been released as well as a music video for one of her new songs ‘Betrayal.’ Fuck this definitely is not good.