Spiraling Somewhere
Emily's POV:
Ali invited me over! I'm driving over to her house right now. Shit. I better wipe this overly enthusiastic look off my face. It's cheesy. I parked my car in front of her house and walked to the door. I may have skipped. I rang the doorbell and smiled hardly. I've got to stop smiling like an idiot! I straightened myself out. Checking my hair, straightening my outfit, I think I was fine. I was wearing a red and gray baseball jacket with a number 21 shirt on and some black jeans with white converse. I looked presentable, right? Well, I looked what I would call is presentable which is Emily presentable. I looked fine.
I heard laughing and shouting and Ali flung the door open. Noel was by her side with a sharpie mustache. I don't think he was aware of it. Ali held her pointer finger in front of her mouth and whispered shhh while laughing hardly. I stepped into her house to see a bunch of beer. Just a bunch of beer. I needed to help her.
"Come on, Ali." I directed her towards the kitchen to get her some water and make some coffee. I needed to get her sober.
"Hey! Noel, Beyonce is here!" Ali slurred. I think she was talking about me. She practically fell into her seat at the kitchen table.
"Tell her she got me so crazy in love!" Noel shouted. They both giggled. Ali started swaying back and forth in her seat like a little kid. I rolled my eyes and demanded her to drink the coffee. She crossed her arms and said no. She was such a child. The best thing I could do right now was get her to sleep. If she's drunk enough, she'll fall asleep easily. I picked her up and she stretched her arms like a cat. I rested her on the couch and she looked up at me.
"Night, Beyonce," Ali slurred. As her eyes were closing, I whispered into her ear.
"Night, Princess." I kissed her forehead. Noel was running around the house laughing with only his underwear on. That kid was crazy. I sat down next to Ali and watched whatever movie Ali and Noel were watching. They were watching Clueless. I don't know why Noel would agree to watch that but I'm not going to judge. Noel ran in screaming with whipped cream on his face. I think he may have mixed drugs and alcohol. He seemed...feral. I picked Ali up and brought her in her room. Hopefully Noel wouldn't bother her in here. As soon as I rested her body on her mattress, she woke up.
"What?" She asked, her voice raspy.
"Sh, sh, go back to sleep," She did as I said. I walked over to the window and just stared. That's when I noticed Hanna charging up to the front door. The doorbell rang. I sprinted down before Noel could answer. I was afraid he might attack Hanna. Caleb was waiting by Hanna's car. Why was he here? I opened the door slightly so she couldn't see too much.
"Uh...hey, Hanna." She just stared at me.
"Whatcha doin' at Ali's, Em?" She questioned me. I had to be honest.
"She invited me over." Hanna rolled her eyes and pushed the door open, hitting me.
"Wow, what's with all the beer?" She looked amused.
"Yeah, Noel is here," I confessed.
"So, where's Ali?" I started to walking up the steps to Ali's bedroom and Hanna followed. When I entered the room I was shocked. It looks like Noel attacked Ali with whipped cream. It was scattered all over her body.
"I swear she was not like this when I left her!" Hanna nodded her head; she seemed to believe me.
“I’m just going to say it,” Hanna blurted out.
“I want to spend more time with you guys. We haven’t really talked or communicated in 3 days! I need my friends!” She cried. I hugged Hanna. I was almost sure the other girls were hanging out together. I wonder what Aria and Spencer are doing? That’s when I realized that we had basically lost touch. I had no idea what or where Aria and Spencer were.
I heard someone groaning. Ali was starting to wake up. She scrunched up her face and blocked the light.
“Can someone turn the sun off?” She whined. I walked over to the window and closed the blinds. Caleb was gone when I got to the window. I rushed downstairs to make a new coffee and get her some water. When I turned to shut the door I noticed that Hanna had sat on the bed and was starting to talk to Ali. I turned the coffee machine on and grab another water bottle from the fridge. I walked upstairs to see Ali in only her white bra and underwear. Hanna rolled her eyes after seeing the shocked expression on my face.
"She puked on me and herself so I had to change her," Hanna pointed to the balled up clothes which smelled awful. Ali arched an eyebrow after seeing me stare intently.
"You like?" Ali strutted up an down her bedroom-occasionally wobbling. I was drooling. Hanna quickly got Ali into a bathrobe and Hanna went into the bathroom to change into some of Ali's clothes. I sighed and sat on Ali's bed.
"What am I going to do with you?" I groaned. Ali didn't reply. She simply sat down on the bed next to me and put her hand on my thigh. She then changed positions and plopped her head down on my lap again.
"Prettyyyy," Ali slurred. She touched my face and I blushed. I noticed the bottle of bourbon in her room. She must of drank more.
"I get weird hallucinations when I'm drunk. I just saw Noel and he looked exactly like Santa Claus!" Ali giggled. I just stroked her hair.
"I'm talking to myself." Ali rolled off of me and onto the ground.
"Oof!" She grunted-lying on the ground-her eyes slowly closing. I lifted her up and dropped her on the bed. I grabbed some blankets and placed them over Ali. She was like sleeping beauty; even though her lips were slightly coated with vomit.
Alison's POV:
I was dreaming. It was a good dream from what I could tell. I was in a room. A hotel room. I walked over to a window to see a perfect view of the Eiffel Tower.
"Isn't it beautiful?" I turned to see Em in a bathrobe. I was too.
"Almost as beautiful as you." She came up behind me and kissed my neck.
"Is this for real?" I questioned.
"It's for real," She picked me up and dropped me on the bed. I could feel her plant a hungry kiss on my lips. I was in shock. This can't be real.
"Do you love me?" I was afraid to here her answer.
"Yes. I love you Alison Lauren DiLaurentis." I gasped slightly. It was a dream. I could say and do anything.
"Well, I love you too Emily Catherine Fields." She came down for another kiss and right when I opened my eyes I saw Emily. Her expression was a mixture of confusion and happiness.
"Yes?" I asked. She parted her lips as to say something but no words came out.
"What you said...do you really?" She trailed off.
"What did I say?" I nervously asked.
"N-Nothing." Emily turned to face away from me. I could tell she was a little sad but she was also a little happy. Weird. Hanna came barging into the room.
"Sorry I took so long! I took a shower while I was in there," Hanna's wet hair dripped onto my carpet. I didn't really care right now. All I cared about is what I said and why is Emily so confused, happy and sad about it.
"What happened in here? It looks like you guys saw a ghost," Hanna joked. We both shrugged and walked downstairs. My head pounded but Emily held my waist for support. I pulled Emily into the hallway while Hanna put some waffles in the toaster and got the syrup out.
"So,,,what did I say?" Emily's expression changed and her eyes widened. She hesitated before speaking.
"Y-You said that you...you lo..." She was cut off by Hanna announcing that the waffles were ready to eat. I waited for Emily to continue but she just walked over to the table and sat down to eat. I walked over to the table and whispered in Emily's ear.
"You didn't finish. What else did I say?" Hanna was too busy chowing down on her waffles to notice our side conversation.
"Loved me," Is all Emily said. Oh no. Do I talk in my sleep? I excused myself from breakfast and ran up into my room. I ripped a piece of notebook paper out and started writing-tears streaming out of my eyes.
Dear Emily,
I don't know what's going on but I think I might love you too. I don't know. I've been kind of dreaming about you and I wrote a poem about you and you probably think I'm a loser. I think ever since you came out, I've been feeling closer to you. I've been feeling closer to you than any of the other girls. You make me happy. You're my Killer. These feelings I have make me mad. I have trouble falling asleep at night because I'm thinking about you. I go nights without sleeping, afraid I'll have a dream about you. Alcohol takes the pressure off things so that's why I've been drinking a lot more lately. You ran into my party today but trust me, there have been many more parties before this one.
I thought being with Noel would make me remember that I like boys but I don't. I like you. Sure, I still find boys attractive but nothing will top you. There's just something about you. It may be your toned legs or your tanned skin-Or your beautiful face and bright smile. You're beautiful and kind but I'm not. And that's why I can't be with you. I'm not nice, kind, beautiful, strong. I'm the opposite of everything you are. Sure, I'm beautiful on the outside but not the inside. You're beautiful on your inside and out. You glow.
Emily Catherine Fields, I can't get you out of my head. One day, I'll be good enough for you but for now...let's just stay here-in the moment. In the end, Pip gets Estella. I'm going to get you Emily. One day. No matter what it takes. I'm making myself physically and mentally sick by pushing you away. I'm ready to accept everything. Well, almost everything. I'll wait for you. we can go to Paris together just like in my dream. I hope one day I'll be good enough for you.
-Ali
I stuck my letter into a blue envelope before sprinting downstairs and handing it to Emily. Before they could ask any questions, I was out the door.