Out of Time
Eddie and Barry walked hand in hand into the central city bowling alley, Iris meant a new guy and wanted Barry to check him out and since he and Eddie have hardly spent much time together in the last couple weeks he figured he and Eddie could use a date night so why not a date night with the girl he considered his sister.
“ This is so going to be so much fun” Eddie says smiling up at Barry, he and Barry had barely spent more than 15 minutes alone in the last two weeks and Barry seemed really distant all of a sudden so he was pretty excited when Barry suggested a date night. He had to admit he would have preferred it alone but he will take any time spent with Barry, plus he loves hanging out with Iris so it won’t be so bad.
Barry looked down at Eddie and smiled giving his hand a small squeeze and lowering his head to give him a kiss. “Yes, it is”.
Eddie smiled into the kiss, this is what he missed about his boyfriend. He didn’t know what was wrong with Barry, or what had been on his mind the last couple of weeks but hopefully it would so past soon.
Barry and Eddie spotted Iris standing outside of the bowling alley alone. Eddie and Barry thought nothing of it at first, maybe her date was a little late. Which in Barry’s eyes was never a good sign for a date, but who is he to judge he’s never on time for anything.
“Hey Iris” Eddie says pulling her in for a hug Barry following right behind.
“So where is this mystery man running late? Not a good look for a date with the family” Barry frowns looking around to see if he could spot him.
“He actually cancelled right before you guys got here” Iris says with a small hint of disappointment in her voice. “So you guys can enjoy a night out without me”.
Iris smiles at the pair and moves to head home when Barry grabs her hand. “No Iris! Come on, your already here why not just make the best of it”.
Eddie shakes his head. “Yea, we will eat, drink and kick your ass at bowling. It will be fun”.
Iris laughs and nods. “Ok”.
Well laughs at the flick he is watching, Cisco insisted on a movie night and demanded that they have one once a week since Wells had only seen probably about 5 movies in his time. Which to Cisco was completely unacceptable. Wells concentration is pulled from the movie when he notices that Cisco is once again laughing at something on the phone in his hand.
“Ronnie?” Wells asks not taking his eyes off the movie and grabbing a handful of popcorn.
“Uhhhhhh, you’re missing the movie” Cisco says pointing to the screen and going back to his phone.
Wells smirked and silently ate his popcorn as Cisco toyed with his phone before placing it in his lap. “Ahhh, look who has back come to join the movie night”.
Cisco glared at Wells digging into his popcorn and stuffing his mouth with a handful. “I’ve seen this movie 100 times, it’s all about you getting your movie cherry popped”.
Wells raised an eye at Cisco, causing a blush to spread across his face. Cisco his eyes embarrassed and tried to fix that comment. “I so didn’t meant for that to come out like that”.
Wells laughed. “Its ok Cisco”.
“How is Ronnie?” Wells asked deciding to revisit the previous question he asked.
“He’s good, bored, and already tired of Stein and ready to head back home” Cisco said smiling and toying with his phone again when he noticed a text message.
“Is that safe?” Wells asked looking at the phone.
“Yes, with a little help from Felicity it is untraceable, but sadly he can only call one number off the phone……mine” Cisco says waving his phone.
"I'm sure to Ronnie that's not a bad thing" Wells says directing his attention back to the movie.
"Kinda wish he was here, it’s weird starting off our relationship as a long distance relationship" Cisco says placing the phone back in his lap.
"Sometimes those are the strongest ones" Well says glancing back at Cisco.
“I guess so, would have been nice though to take him to my brothers birthday party" Cisco rolled his eyes.
“Things aren't any better with your family" Wells asks.
Cisco points to the screen. " You’re missing the movie".
Wells smiles and looks back at the movie, Cisco dropping the subject for 38 seconds exact before...... “Ok things have gotten better………since I decided to stop seeing them so much”.
The conversation was instantly put to a stop when the alarms starting going crazy. Cisco slide his chair over to one of the computer to see what was causing the commotion. “Someone broke into the central city morgue”.
Wells face twisted in confusion. “Who would want to rob a morgue?”
“Can’t believe that jerk stood you up” Barry says gathering up all the bowling shoes, as they changed into their regular shoes.
“It’s not the end of the world Barry” Iris says to calm down Barry. “It was a first date nothing special”.
“Actually Iris the first date is the most special one” Eddie throws in. “Kind of sets the tone for the rest of the relationship if you ask me”.
Iris smiles at that. “It that what happened with you and Barry?”
Barry chuckled and leaned down to give Eddie a kiss of the cheek before walking over to give back their shoes. Eddie blushed and the gesture and looked back at Iris. “Even though Barry and I have been friends for years, our first date was pretty special”.
Iris smiles at Eddie daydreaming, mostly likely about their first date. “Do you see you and Barry together forever?”
“I hope so, but you never know what the future holds” Eddie says looking Iris in the eyes.
Iris nods. “I hear that”.
Eddie sighs and looks around to see were Barry is, when he spots him standing in line waiting he turns back to Iris. “Can I ask you a question?”
“Sure”.
Eddie takes a deep breath. “Have you noticed anything different about Barry?”
Iris face twist in one of confusion. “No. Why do you ask?”
Eddie shrugs. “It’s just he has been different lately, really distant. I can tell his mind is somewhere else and I was just wondering if I was the only one noticing it”.
Iris smiled and rubbed Eddie’s hand. “I’m sure it’s nothing. But if you really want to know maybe you should just ask”.
Eddie nodded and looked to see Barry making his way back over. “You guys ready to go?”
Before anyone could make a move Eddie was reaching in his pocket for his phone. “I got to go. Emergency at the morgue”.
Barry quickly grabbed his and Eddie’s jacket. “I should go too. They're going to need someone from the crime lab, do you want us to drop you off on our way Iris?”
“Uhhhh, no I think I’ll walk I could use the fresh air” she says grabbing her jacket and giving a quick smile as she made her way to the exit.
Barry didn’t exactly agree with that idea but he didn’t have a chance to really object to it seeing as he and Eddie were in a hurry.
Barry sighed deeply pacing the room and running his fingers through his hair. “So what are we going to do? Joe seems confident that he can take down Mardon, me on the other hand…..”
“Don’t worry Barry, we will find a way” Wells assured Barry as he made his way out of the room.
Caitlin smiled at Barry. “Wells is right Barry we always find a way to take down the metahumans, this time is no different”.
“I know……I know I guess this one just hits harder because it’s Joe” Barry says leaning on the desk. Caitlin gives Barry’s shoulder a small rub before leaving the room.
Cisco stood up from where he was sitting and walked over to Barry, he had to admit this was a little awkward for him, one because his feelings for Barry were still somewhat there and two because Ronnie told him he thinks Barry likes him. He knows that number two not true but he would be lying if a small part of him didn’t want to know. But then there was a even bigger part that decided maybe it was best to leave it alone.
“You ok?” Cisco started.
Hearing Cisco’s voice brought Barry out of his thoughts. “Yea…..yea I’m fine” Barry smiles.
Cisco raised an eyebrow, causing Barry to laugh. “I guess I have a lot on my mind”.
Cisco pulls up a chair and pats for Barry to have a seat while going to grab the chair he was previously sitting in. Barry looks at the chair before turning it around so the back was against his chest. “I’m all ears”.
“What makes you think I want to talk about it?” Barry asks.
“Well, you seemed pretty distracted the whole time we were talking about Mardon, as well as just now when Caitlin left. Something’s bugging you” Cisco says.
“I don’t know…..I just feel like lately something in my life just doesn’t feel quite right” Barry starts. “A couple weeks ago everything seemed so perfect and now…….” Barry stops and looks at Cisco.
“Now….?” Cisco tries.
“I don’t know” he all but whispered. “Something feels missing”.
“What feels missing?” he asked.
Barry shakes his head. “I don’t know, maybe it could be something with my dad, or work. I’m sure it will pass in a few weeks”.
Cisco smiled and gave Barry’s back a pat. “I hope so, hate to see you in a funk dude”.
Barry laughed and ignore the feelings that went through his body when Cisco touched him. Barry knew actually what was wrong. Cisco ever since he woke up and laid eyes on him, spent time with him, he had felt a connection to him in a way he has never felt with anybody. Maybe he the thing he was feeling was fear. The feeling didn’t come until Ronnie came around, maybe he was afraid he was going to lose his friend. YEA! That was it!
Barry took a deep breath and looked at Cisco whose focus was now on his computer. “Soooooooo, how are you and Ronnie?”
Cisco looked at Barry who couldn’t helped but noticed the smile and blush creep across his face. “Great under the circumstances. I’ve never done a long distance relationship before….or any relationship for that matter….” Cisco quickly cut himself off and closed his eyes.
“Did I just say that out loud”?
Barry chuckled and asked. “You’ve never been in a relationship?”
Cisco was pretty sure his face was cherry red by now. “No, this would be my first”.
“Wow, that’s surprising” Barry said shocked that Cisco has never been with anyone.
Cisco frowned and placed his hands on his hip. “Why is that surprising”?”
Barry noticed Cisco’s posture change, and realized that he must have offended him. He couldn’t help but laugh at how cute he looked right now. He made sure to choose his next words wisely. “It’s just…….you’re really attractive Cisco, and you have an amazing personality with a heart the size of central city. I’m just surprised no one has ever taken the time to appreciate that”.
Its official Cisco was completely red and there was no way he could hide it, and Barry’s smile made it obvious that his face was completely red. “I hope Ronnie doesn’t take that for granted”.
“I’m sure he won’t” Cisco assured.
Barry took a deep breath and looked down. “He didn’t seem to like me very much. Is he jealous of how close of a friendship we have?”
Cisco frowned. “No…he……”
“He what?” Barry asked noticing how nervous Cisco suddenly became.
Cisco sighed and leaned against the counter, crossing his arms. “He thinks you like me”.
Barry laughed, causing Cisco to laugh with him.
“I know it sounds weird even suggesting it” Cisco says covering his face with his hands, peaking between too to see Barry’s reaction.
Barry smiled faded. "Why would he think that?"
Cisco shrugged. "I don’t know honestly".
Barry didn't honestly know what to say to that, he had been feeling so off lately and it mainly started when Ronnie came back, even with Eddie the connection he once thought was strong as ever just didn't feel like was there.
Barry was brought out of his thoughts when he felt a hand on his shoulder, he hasn't even noticed that Cisco even moved forward. “You, ok Bar?"
Barry looked Cisco in the eye's and for some reason he felt like that one thing that was missing in his life, that void had finally been filled. He didn't know what took over him when he reached forward and grabbed Cisco waist pulling him forward and connecting their lips. Barry could feel Cisco tensed up, hands pressed against Barry chest the moment he pulled him forward.
Barry waited for Cisco to pull away and punch him in the face, yelling at him to never talk to him again. It was when Barry felt Cisco hands moving up his chest to around his neck that he decided to deepen the kiss. Barry wrapped his other arm around Cisco, gripping Cisco waist as tight as he could. He did want this to end, he didn't want to let me go.
I’m cheating on my boyfriend, this isn't right. I should stop, I have to stop but I can't because this actually does feel right, he feels right.
Cisco moans into the kiss.
Oh god those sounds, his voice, the feel of his body against mine. Why can't I control myself?
Barry slowly moves his hands from Cisco waist, down to his ass giving it a small squeeze causing Cisco to moan loudly. Barry smiled and moved his hands down gripping Cisco's thighs and lifting him into his arms. Before things could go any further Barry could hear the sound of Caitlin’s heels coming close as well as Well's voice. Cisco motioned for Barry to put him down, and both straightened themselves up.
Soon as Caitlin and Wells rounded the corner, Barry started to make his way to the door. “Hey guys I'm going to head out and check on Joe".
Barry speeded out of the room as quick as possible, he needed to talk to someone about this.
It took Barry a matter of seconds to arrive at his childhood home and he was so thankful when Iris was there sitting on the couch writing her blog. As soon as she heard the door she turned around and greeted Barry with a smile. "Hey, Bar!”
"Hey, he says looking around the house making sure they are the only two.
Iris faced twisted in confusion closing her laptop and watching Barry take a sit next to her. "What's wrong?"
"I did something bad Iris".
Iris tried not to let Barry see how worried she all of a sudden became, if it was something super bad she wanted to make sure she was strong for him. "Ok, tell me what happened".
Barry sighed running his hands through his hair, talking a long pause before he could find the words to get started. "I haven't been feeling like myself for a few weeks now".
Iris shifted on the couch, placing her hand on Barry's arm for him to continue. "I’ve been feeling like something in my life is missing, like there is this void that I can't seem to fill".
“What do you think is causing it?" she asks.
"At first I thought maybe it was just me and I was overwhelmed with all that has happened to me in the last year. With the accelerator, star labs, and finally being with Eddie. Or maybe a side effect of me being in the coma" Barry stops to catch his breath.
"Ok, well Barry when did this all start?" she tries.
Barry sighs, not sure if he wants to tell Iris this. "When Caitlin’s Cousin Sam came into town, do you remember Cisco Ramon?"
"Yes, that cutie from Star labs" she says smiling.
"Well Sam....." Such a ridiculous cover-up. "Likes Cisco, well he is in love with him".
Its official Iris has no idea what going on. “Ok Barry I’m lost and confused why do you care?"
"Because I think I have feelings for him....for Cisco “Barry admitted.
Barry couldn’t even look Iris in the eyes after that, he can already imagine what her face says. The shock that was probably written all over it, and sure enough when he looked over he shocked face was worse than he thought, but what was worse was that it all of a sudden turn into a smile. "How long have you had feelings for him?"
"I don’t know honestly" Barry shrugs.
Iris face went back to being serious. "Have you acted on those feelings?"
Barry couldn't look at her, and that was all it took for Iris to get the hint. "So you have, have you two had sex?"
Barry head snapped up quickly looking at Iris. “NO!".
Iris threw her hands up. "But I'm guessing you've kissed him"
Barry squeezed his eyes shut and nodded. "I couldn't control myself, when we’re talking it was just somebody about me that just wanted to touch him and when I kissed him I felt like that void that I’ve been feeling was finally filled".
Iris smiled, and Barry rolled his eyes. "This is amusing to you".
"It just a little weird you've always been so obsessed with Eddie, I never thought I’d ever see you be attracted to anybody else" she explained.
"But you know me Barry, I love Eddie but your happiness is what important to me. Which one do you want to be with?"
Barry shrugged feeling defeated. "Cisco has a boyfriend, and was caught off guard so I don’t know if he even feels anything for me".
"Talk to him Barry, and even if you decide that Cisco isn't who you want Eddie still needs to know" she says.
Barry nods. "Yea, thanks Iris".
Barry moves to leave, but Iris stops him before he can make it out. "Before you leave Barry, I need to talk to you about something........concerning Harrison Wells".
Barry face turns into one of confusion. "Ok, what about him?"
"My sort of advisor at the paper is always teaching me lessons, tricks of the trade, how to get good story, and one of the things he's repeatedly telling me is to follow your hunch, see where it leads" Iris says.
"Ok? Sounds like good advice" Barry says.
"Yeah, it is. Except in this instance, that hunch involves you. It's about Harrison Wells. I mean, a lot of strange things have been happening in Central City this past year. The Flash, the Burning Man people going missing. He was there at Stagg's office the night that Stagg went missing".
Barry had an idea where this was headed and he didn't like it one bit. "And you think that Doctor Wells is what, responsible?"
"Look, I don't really know him, but you and your friends do. Barry, in your heart of hearts, do you think it's possible that there's more to Harrison than people have been led to believe?" Iris was grateful for everything Harrison did for Barry but even she had to admit this all seemed a little fishy. "
"Harrison Wells is a good man. If you're looking for a story, then you're not gonna find one with him" Barry says ending the conversation by walking out the door, leaving Iris stunned.
Barry treads lightly walking into Star labs, he needed to talk to Cisco but he was afraid if he was left alone with him he would lose control again. He didn't know what it was about this boy but he drove him crazy, made him feel something he hasn't felt with anybody including Eddie. Barry finds it weird that he doesn't spot on person on his way in. He stops when he sees Cisco working on the wand, he doesn't know what to say or how to start. Would Cisco be mad or happy? Is this something that Cisco wanted or did he want to be with Ronnie. He needed answers. He was quickly brought out of his thoughts at the sound of Cisco's startled scream.
“What the hell Barry?" he asked holding his hand over his heart trying to steady his breathing.
"Sorry, I didn't......" Barry started.
“Gosh, well you did" Cisco says finishing his sentence turning away from Barry to place the wand back on the table. "What are you doing here?"
"Where is everybody?" Barry asked looking around the room.
"Caitlyn went home for a change of clothes and food, and Wells went for a coffee run. Which I insisted going with him but he was against it. Getting that wheelchair in and out of the van is a struggle picture doing it without working legs" he says causing Barry to laugh at the humor of it.
"So it’s just us" Barry asked.
Cisco tensed and starred at Barry. Barry walked over to him and leaned on the counter next to where Cisco was working, he could tell from the look on Cisco's face that he was nervous and a little bit uncomfortable.
"We need to talk" Barry starts.
"About the wizard’s wand or our make out session?" Cisco says.
Barry covers his face in his hands embarrassed. “Yea, Cisco I don't know what came over me, I just......"
Barry didn't know if he should tell Cisco the truth about what he was feeling.
"Its ok, it was a mistake. Don't worry about it, Eddie and Ronnie don't have to know" Cisco swallowed the lump in his throat and turned back to his work.
"What if I don't want it to be a mistake?" Barry asked closing his eye's tight. He couldn't look at Cisco, he couldn't see that look of disgust on his face.
"What do you mean?" Cisco asked.
Barry opened his eyes and noticed that Cisco was now looking at him with his arms crossed, but instead of disgust, Cisco face read curiosity.
"I haven't been feeling like myself these last few weeks, something has been off and Eddie has noticed it he hasn't said anything but I can see the concern in his eyes" Barry took a moment to look Cisco in the eyes.
"Ok....?" Cisco says trying to get to get to the point.
"It all started when Ronnie came back" Barry says.
"When Ronnie came back?" Cisco repeated crossing and uncrossing his arms, what does Ronnie have to do with the fact that Barry basically molested him earlier not that he didn't enjoy it but Cisco was in a relationship now and what they did was considered cheating. A few weeks ago Cisco would have had no problem with what happened, but now he didn't know what to think of it, other than it felt good and right.
"Seeing how much Ronnie loves you, how much he wants to be with you brought out something in me.......jealously. I convinced myself that I was just being jealous because you’re my friend......my best friend and that I was being protective because I didn't know Ronnie" Barry says starting to pace putting together the pieces of everything as he was telling Cisco.
"Since I meant you there has always been something there, something I couldn't quite figure out" Barry stopped and look at Cisco who had a look of worry and confusion written all over his face.
"Barry, I'm confused I have no idea what's happening right now" Cisco says.
"I have feelings for you Cisco" Barry finally lets out. “I like you....like you".
Cisco was completely shocked and frozen in place, the shock didn't last long before it turned into hysterical laughter.
Barry couldn't help the smile that came with Cisco laughing. "What?"
"You like me.....Barry your obsessed with Eddie" Cisco says threw his laughter.
"I am not obsessed, I love him" Barry said with a small hint of frustration in his voice.
Cisco laughter stop and his face twisted into one of anger. "You love him but you have feelings for me? Does that make any sense?"
"Eddie's my best friend, of course I love him" Barry all but yells.
“No Eddie is your boyfriend, and the man you have wanted since you were a little kid, remember you told me everything about him and about how much and how long you've loved him, because we are best friends" Cisco says gesturing between the two of them. “I get it Barry you’re attracted to me but you love Eddie Barry and this will soon pass".
Barry frustration gets the better of him and he starts pacing running his fingers through his hair. Why was Cisco being like this? "That's the thing Cisco it hasn't passed, if given the chance earlier I would have probably made love to you with no regrets. I love Eddie, I do but the connection I have with you is something I have never felt with anybody him included".
Cisco needed a chair, any chair. The air in his lungs was no existent at this point, Barry liked him. What was he supposed to do with that, everybody knew about him having feelings for Barry and all of them told him to move on because Barry was so up Eddie's ass a chance of he and Barry was nonexistent.
Barry ran over to Cisco noticing his sudden loss of breath, rubbing his back to help calm his breathing. Cisco ran his fingers through his hair stopping halfway through to take in everything he was just told.
"How long have you liked me?" he finally asked not looking at Barry.
"At first I didn't know but know I guess I can say it was ever since poker face" Barry says shrugging.
Cisco instantly looks Barry in the face confused. "Poker face?"
Barry chuckled nervously. "It’s the song you were singing the day I came out of my coma. It’s the first time I heard your voice".
Cisco chuckled at that. "I can't believe you remember that".
Barry laughed with Cisco. "It’s something I can’t forget".
Both starred nervously at anything at each other. "So what happens now"?
Barry grabbed Cisco's hand and pull him up from the chair, wrapping his arm around his waist. "I don’t know, but........" Barry cupped Cisco cheek running his fingers over his bottom lip.
"I'm sure we will figure it out" Barry says moving in for a kiss, this time it wasn't tense or awkward as the first one. Cisco was ready, pulling at Barry's shirt to bring him in closer.
OMG this is no happening! This is not happening! I'm kissing the flash, I'm kissing Barry Allen!
Cisco wrapped his arms around Barry neck pulling him in closer, trying to get as much of him as he could get. He didn't want this to end his never wanted this moment to end, the man he has basically been in love with since they day they wheeled him into star labs, has feelings for him. Cisco was instantly brought out of his thoughts when Barry slide his button up off his shoulders. Cisco took the hint and pulled at Barry's shirt, lifting it over his head.
Before Cisco could register what was happening next, he felt a quick gust of wind and a sudden coldness on his skin. Looking down he noticed he was naked and now on a cleaned desk with plenty of space to do anything.
Barry had his arms wrapped around him ready to make his move at any minute. "Tell me now if you don’t want this".
Cisco responded by smiling and pulling Barry in for a kiss, Cisco barely even noticed that Barry was naked until he felt their cocks touching, rubbing the friction was enough to make Cisco cum untouched. Barry took the time to kiss, touch, and feel anywhere and everywhere he could, this felt so right. Barry pulled Cisco in for another kiss, gripping his hips and pulling him in.
Cisco was so distracted by the kiss, he could help the loud sound of pain/pleasure that escaped his lips when he felt Barry pushing inside him causing him to throw his head back, gripping onto the end of the table. Barry took the chance to kiss, and suck on Cisco's now exposed neck.
Once Barry could feel Cisco was adjusted he started at a very slow pace, quickening the louder Cisco got. Cisco wrapped his arms around Barry's neck trying to hold on as Barry pounded into him with everything he had.
"Oh god Barry" Cisco all but screamed.
Barry could feel it coming, and a lot sooner than he would have liked but he knew they didn't have much time and they could do this again later. He soon felt hot liquid hitting his stomach and felt cisco shaking from his orgasm, once he felt Cisco tightening around him as he had his orgasm it didn't take much for Barry to cum coating Cisco walls.
Both sat panting trying to catch their breath holding onto each other for dear life, Barry was the first to move pulling back a little bit too take a look at Cisco's flushed face running his fingers through his now wet hair.
"You’re beautiful".
Cisco laughed. "Just kiss me Allen".
Barry smiled and pulled Cisco in for a kiss, things were looking up.
Barry stood standing on the opposite side of Eddie’s door, he didn’t know how he was going to break up with him. This is something that he never thought he would do to Eddie, he had dreamed ever since he was a little kid of being with Eddie and now he was about to tell him he didn’t want this anymore. The door quickly opened and there stood and very pissed Eddie not even bothering to say hello. In that moment Barry realized he just cheated on his boyfriend, the man he has loved for years…….his best friend.
“Were the hell have you been Barry? I’ve been calling you for hours” he all but yelled.
“I’m sorry Eddie…” Barry says following Eddie into the apartment.
Eddie crosses his arms and frowns waiting to see what bullshit Barry can come up with this time. “Well…”
Barry sighs and runs he hands threw his hair, he doesn’t know what to do. He thought this would be easy, that he could come here end it and move forward but seeing Eddie and how upset he was he couldn’t hurt Eddie. He couldn’t hurt his best friend, he may have a connection with Cisco, something he doesn’t have with Eddie but he does love Eddie. Maybe Cisco was right and over time the disconnect would pass.
“I was at Star labs helping Dr. Wells and I left my phone in the car, I’m sorry Eddie” Barry lies moving forward to hug Eddie, who happily accepted the hug.
“You have me worried sick” Eddie replies pulling back and punching Barry in the chest.
“I’m sorry” Barry smiled leaning down to place a kiss on Eddie’s lips. “I love you”.
Eddie smiled “Love you too”.
“I promised I’ll start communicating better, and I’m sorry if I’ve been a little off lately. I just have a lot on my mind” Barry says wrapping his arms around Eddie’s shoulders.
“Its ok Barry, I understand. But before we were in a relationship we were best friends who told each other everything, I don’t want that to change just because we are in a relationship now” Eddie says pulling back from the embrace to look Barry in his eyes.
“I promise as soon as it the right time I’ll let you know what’s going on” Barry says smiling and pulling Eddie back into the embrace. One day I’ll tell him everything…..
Barry ran his fingers through his hair as he made his way into star labs, he had no idea what he wanted to do, Eddie was the man he loved and Cisco was the man that he felt connected to in a way that he never felt with anybody else. How did this happened? Especially to him? A year ago he was the science nerd pining after his best friend and couldn’t get a date even if he paid someone, now he the guy who was about to have to break someone heart. Barry stopped when he spotted Cisco in his workroom in deep concentration. He slowly moved forward trying to control his breathing, before he had a panic attack.
Cisco turned around and spotted Barry coming into the room, he smiled and quickly turned off his computer screen causing Barry to furrow his brow. “What’s that?” he asked.
“Huh” Cisco says looking back at the computer scratching his head. “It’s nothing important, what are you doing here?”
Cisco moves to get to put the finishing touches on the wand, so he could take it to go. “I thought you were heading to take a shower and change your clothes”.
“I talked to Eddie” Barry says without hesitation.
He could see Cisco tense up and he didn’t turn around to look at him, Barry had a feeling he already knew what he was going to say. “I couldn’t do it”.
Cisco stopped all movement and slowly placed the wand back on the table. “Why not?” he says still not bothering to turn around.
Barry wrapped his arms around himself. “Cisco, I love him and what we did earlier……”
Cisco finally turned around at that, and Barry really wished he hadn’t his face was covered in tears, and he could clearly see he was hurt and angry. “Cisco, please don’t…….”
“So everything you said earlier was a lie?” he asked yelling. “So what? You could have sex with me?”
“No Cisco I wasn’t lying……….” Barry was cut off again.
“Then what? You tell me you have a connection to me that you have with no one else, but you love Eddie. You can’t have it both ways Barry!” Cisco spits.
There was a pregnant pause in the room for several minutes.
“When I was 15, there was this boy who I had the biggest crush on. He was popular and Captain of the basketball team, Student Body president, Star quarterback, basically way out of my league. Usually the guys I’m attracted to…” Says slowly turning around to look at Barry.
“I had been in love with him since I could remember, but I always knew he wouldn’t give me the time of day….until one day he did” Cisco crossed his arms and starred off into space as if reliving the event.
“He said I was really beautiful and he wanted to know if I would go out on a date and me being the idiot I am I said yes. After a few dates, he asked me to homecoming and said to make sure I tell my parents that I would be spending the night with him, apparently he rented a room”.
Cisco took a breath as if trying not to start crying again. “So of course I did what he asked and we went to prom, then to the hotel room. We talked and laughed, and….for the first time in my life things started looking up for me. So I let him take my virginity, needless to say when I woke up the next morning he was gone, and when I got in school he acted like he didn’t even know who I was. So when I finally got the chance to talk to him, he said that it was all a bet and he really would have never given me the time of day”.
“Cisco……” Barry says trying to move to closer only to have Cisco stepped back.
“I never was able to trust anybody after that, and I told myself the next person I had sex with would be someone I loved, and trusted. Guess it turns out you can’t trust anybody” Cisco says walking around Barry to leave the room, Barry grabbed his wrist.
“Cisco please….”
Cisco pulled his wrist away. “No Barry, I don’t want to hear anything you have to say. Your no better than he was” and with that Cisco left the room.
Barry runs his fingers through his hair, letting Cisco’s word sink in. God this was a mess but he would fix it, he had to he didn’t want to lose his best friend.
“Wow, what a mess you’ve made” Caitlin says standing at the door with a scowl.
Barry looked at her wide eyed. “You heard that?”
“Every word” she says leaning on the door and crossing her arms.
Barry places he face in his hands. “Caitlin I don’t know what to do, I’m so confused”.
Caitlin rolls her eyes and sighs making her way over to Barry and pulling out a chair. “Here, have a seat, and tell me everything that’s happened”.
“It’s not much to tell, I told Cisco I liked him, we had sex” Barry says in a nut shell.
Caitlin pinches her nose. “Ok, so you both cheated on your boyfriends, now your confused because…..”
“I don’t know who I want to be with. I love Eddie, I always have” Barry sighs leaning down so his eyebrows are on the chair.
Caitlin’s gives a small smile. “But are you in love with him?” she asks.
Barry moves to answers but Caitlin stops him. “I get it Barry, he has been your friend since you were a kid, and he has always been there for you felt like you had nobody, he’s you safety blanket but how can you know you’re in love Eddie if you haven’t let someone else in”.
“I’ve dated other people Caitlin, I just never felt anything with them…….I never felt a connec…….” Barry stopped mid sentenced realizing what he was saying.
Caitlin raised her eyebrow. “A connection? Like you do with Cisco?”
Barry stood frozen and wide eyed as he came to the realization, swallowing the large lump in his throat. “What do I do?” he asked almost sounding broken.
“I don’t know Barry, either way someone’s going to get hurt” Caitlin’s says placing her hand on Barry’s arm giving it a squeeze before leaving the room.
After leaving Barry Caitlin was surprised to find Cisco still in the building, he seemed to be really into whatever he was doing but Caitlin needed to talk to her friend and make sure he was ok.
“Hey Cisco, I’m heading home and I wanted to know if you wanted to grab dinner and drinks tonight” she says trying to get his attention with no luck. Cisco moved from the computer to grab his tablet deep in concentration. Caitlin sighed placing her bag on the chair, stopping Cisco when he went to move again.
“We could watch the walking dead tonight, and I promise I will not cover my eyes this time” she says smiling at him.
Cisco sighed. “Caitlin I have something to ask you but I don’t want you to say anything to anybody else”.
“Ok” she says worried.
“What do you think of Dr. Wells?” he asked nervously. “Do you think he is capable of doing something bad?”
“Bad?” Caitlin questioned.
“Cisco…where is this coming from?” she asked.
“Joe said that maybe Dr. Wells was somehow involved in of Barry's Mother's death and her murder” Cisco says giving a nervous shrug. He knew that telling Caitlin this would be hard because she had so much admiration and respect for Wells.
“Cisco, that’s absurd” she says adjusting the strap of her purse, Cisco places his hand on her arm guiding her to the nearby computer.
“Come here, look at this. The night we trapped the Reverse-Flash in the force-field, he escaped because the containment system failed, but I checked that data three times, and the super-capacitors were still fully charged when he got out. The numbers don't add up, Caitlin. There's no reason that the containment system should have failed” Cisco says looking Caitlin in her eyes.
“I’m sure, there is a good explanation” she suggests.
“Yea, like Wells messed with the trap”.
Cisco takes a deep breath and moves closer to Caitlin. “Can you keep him busy tomorrow morning, while I look into it”.
Caitlin sighs he could see the desperation in Cisco’s eyes for her to say yes, and honestly she didn’t know where this was coming from. Barry just basically told Cisco he used him, and Cisco was more worried about checking the trap. “Ok, Cisco”.
First thing in the morning Cisco made his way to the pipeline, in a matter of 1 hour he had taken apart and put together the system what felt like over a hundred times and he couldn’t find anything. Cisco moved to stand and start pacing running his hands through his hair.
I am not imaging this, I know Wells did something to the trap.
Cisco sighed leaning on the computer desk. Maybe I shouldn’t be doing this, my mind still isn’t clear from what happened with Barry, and I have to find a way to tell my boyfriend of 1 week I cheated already.
Cisco rolls his eyes at that statement, he should have never let Barry fills his head with all that bullshit. Cisco had a really great guy and he just ruined it. Cisco sighed and slammed his hand on the desk DAMMIT
Cisco burst out into laughter to keep the tears from running Get it together Cisco. Cisco took a deep breath, and moved around checking the machine to make sure every looked right, halfway through he noticed a loose wire. Carefully grabbing it trying not to knock anything else out of place, after a few twists and jiggles it was fixed.
“Doctor Wells we meet again at last” Cisco jumped up almost immediately, out of fear and shock at what he was seeing. Was that the man in yellow, walking closer he noticed something was a little off about him.
“My goals are beyond your understanding” it said, the same way Cisco remembered it that night.
“What the…..” Cisco moved over to the computer, putting in a few codes to see if he could control this thing on his own. It only took a few minutes before he had control.
First Barry used him, then Doctor Wells.
Cisco moved closer to get a back look. “Oh, I’m not like the flash at all”.
“Some would say I’m the reverse” Wells says clapping behind Cisco. Cisco turned to see an up and walking Wells. He didn’t know what exactly he should do, but fear had taken over his who body causing him to stand frozen and shocked.
"You're incredibly clever, Cisco. I've always said so" Wells says smirking and moving closer to Cisco.
Cisco couldn’t believe this, all this time. "You're him. The Reverse-Flash"
Wells bowed slowly and pointed at Cisco. “You and I have never been truly, properly introduced. I am Eobard Thawne”.
“Thawne? Like Eddie” ok now Cisco was confused.
Harrison nodded. “The night that we trapped the Reverse-Flash, you almost died. Mm-hmm. There were two of you, Joe was right. You were there that night, 15 years ago, in Barry's house. You killed Nora Allen?”
"It was never my intention to kill Nora. I was only there to kill Barry" Wells turns to face Cisco looking him deep in the eyes.
"Why? You're his friend. You've been teaching him how to... "
"Go faster, I know. A means to an end. And I'll tell you why. Because I have been stuck here, marooned here in this place for 15 long years. And The Flash and The Flash's speed is the key to my returning to my to my time…….and no one is going to prevent that from happening”
“I can help you” Cisco tried, he was fully aware of where this was going but he had to try.
Wells Chuckled. “You're smart, Cisco. But you're not that smart”.
“Do you know how hard it has been to keep all of this from you, especially from you? Because the truth is, I've grown quite fond of you. And in many ways, you have shown me what it's like to have a son” Well says sincerely.
Harrison laughs at that, and moves to stand in front of Cisco poking him in the stomach. “If I didn’t have to do this maybe, you would have gotten to meet your son Jacob”.
Wells raises his now vibrating hand, and Cisco knows this is it. He wishes he never even went as far as he did with this, but he never knew it would cost him his life. “Forgive me, but to me, you've been dead for centuries”