Things You Can't Outrun
To say things in his life hadn't changed would be a complete lie. Working with wells has helped him control his powers as well as keep a eye on his vitals. He had been able to jump back into his work with no problem, which was surprising considering he hadn't done it in almost 10 months. He and Eddie had been getting back into the groove of things, no he hasn't said anything about his feelings. Give him a break its a work in progress. Sadly speed doesn't cure fear, or at least this kind.
And he and Cisco had grown a lot closer, every since he and Cisco had that talk on the roof he found that he could confide in Cisco about almost anything. Most of his time at star labs was spent with Cisco in his work room laughing, joking or listening to new music Barry missed out on, or they spent a few nights hanging out and watching some of Cisco's favorite movies. According to Cisco this had to be done, Barry wasn't much of a TV person which hurt Cisco's soul, so movie nights were a must. But Barry enjoyed them, plus it was always fun to hang with Cisco.
Barry took a deep breath, he was halfway through he work day and he was already tired and exhausted. Late nights catching criminals was affecting his day to day life and he had to figure out a way to manage them both.
"According to a few of the guys downstairs they caught a pretty good amount of criminals last night" Joe says walking into the lab holding a box smirking.
Barry smiled and leaned back in his car. “Wasn’t even him last night. It was me" Barry says.
"I figured. I just didn't realize you were helping people for the glory" Joe said.
"It's not like I want a museum built in my name. Keeping what I can do a secret from Iris, Eddie and everyone, it's harder than I thought" Barry tells Joe.
"I know, but it is safer that way. Besides, You and I got work to do" placing the box in his hands on the desk.
"The evidence from my mom's case" Barry frowns.
"I had it brought up from storage. I've been through this box 1,000 times. Before, your story about what really happened that night... the lightning storm, the man in the middle of it... I thought that was a kid trying to protect his father from prison. But now that I know it's true, we're going to go through every scrap of evidence until we find something that helps us" Joe says.
"It took the jury 52 minutes to come back with a verdict of guilty" Barry sighs, this was honestly pointless, they needed something strong and concrete if they were going to free his dad.
"They moved too fast, which is why we got to take our time" Joe assured dropping the conversation the minute he saw Cisco walk into the room.
"This lab is freaking awesome" Cisco says spinning around and giving the room a good once over. "Its every man's dream".
Barry laughed at that, not noticing Joe giving him a suspecting look before smiling at Cisco." Cisco right? From star labs what are you doing here".
"That's me" Cisco says pointing to himself. "Barry and I are going to lunch, what are you up for? I honestly can do any place that serves a good cup of coffee. I need a serious caffine boost, fighting crime all night becomes exhausting".
Joe raises his eyebrows. "Oh my gosh, you read my mind. Me too, I've been dying all day. There is a awesome sandwich place not far from here, that has great coffee and food".
"Yes, I'm down" Cisco says giving Barry a high five.
"Can you give me like 5 minutes to finish up things with Joe" Barry asked standing and grabbing his jacket.
"Sure" Cisco says smiling at Joe before leaving the room.
Joe watched him until he was out of the room, then looked at Barry with a smirk and raised eyebrow. "What was that?"
Barry shrugs, grabbing the box from his desk and moving it some place no one can find it. Joe follows with the hugest smile on his face. "Ugh, don't think I didn't notice that".
"Notice what Joe?" Barry rolls his eyes.
"You like him" He says crossing his arms.
Barry steps back with wide eyes. " What?" he says laughing. "I do not, Cisco and I are just friends, you know I'm in love with Eddie. I have been since I was a kid".
Barry walks back to his desk and starts fidgeting with a stack of papers. "Cisco has been a really great friend and support system since all this has happened. Plus he is fun to hang out with...".
"and adorable" Joe interrupts.
Barry tilts his head back and chuckles. "He is, but I love Eddie".
"hmmmmm...." Joe shrugs.
Barry shakes his head. "Your annoying" he says walking around him to head out the door. He is quickly cut off by Eddie making his way in.
“Barry, Joe, we got multiple homicides. Do you know the Darbinyan crime family?”
After checking the crime scene, Barry made his way over to star labs. He and Cisco didn't get a chance to get lunch, so he grabbed some on the way over.
"Fascinating, a meta-human that can manipulate poison gas" Dr. Wells says moving to the computer to see if he can get more insight on the matter.
“Is it just poisonous gas, or can he control all aerated substances?" Cisco wonders taking a sip of the coffee Barry brought for him.
“And how is he able to formulate the connection? Is it physiological or psychological?" Caitlin says joining in on the conversation.
“This individual can create a mental nexus using gaseous substances" says Dr. Wells
“You mean connect with gases on a molecular level? That is ridiculously cool" Cisco says full of excitement he was beyond ready to take down this metahuman and give him a name.
"They get really excited about this stuff" Barry said.
"The only thing I'm excited about is putting criminals behind bars. Except Iron Heights isn't exactly equipped to handle meta-humans" Joe said.
"Then I guess it's fortunate the ones you've encountered so far are no longer with us" Dr. Wells said to Joe
"Well, unless we're planning on executing every super criminal we stop, you geniuses are going to have to come up with someplace else to hold them" says Joe.
"A meta-human prison. Sweet!"
"Until we figure a way to remove their powers" Wells started.
Cisco came up with a great idea, but wasn’t exactly sure he should throw it out considering it cause so much damage and hurt in their lives. He decided to try it anyway. “There is one place here that might hold them"
Caitlin automatically knew where he was going with that and was against it right away. "You can't be serious. I mean, we haven't been down there since... it's cordoned off".
"Cisco is right. It could be modified to act as a makeshift prison" Wells says.
“What could?" Barry asked.
"The particle accelerator".
Tonight, the future begins. The work my team and I will do here will change our understanding of physics, will bring about advancements in power, advancements in medicine. And trust me that future will be here faster than you think
“Dr. Wells, we just got the latest weather report. A big thunderstorm is rolling in" Cisco says to Dr. Wells making him aware.
"We're not launching a space shuttle. We'll be fine" Dr. Wells says assuring Cisco. Cisco smiles and walks into Caitlin's lab spotting her and Ronnie talking in secret. Cisco decided to ignore that thinking it is mostly likely family business.
“So are you ready for a weekend of full filled Comic Con fun?" Cisco says to Ronnie. “This is literally about to be the best weekend of your life".
Ronnie chuckled. “Anytime spent with you Cisco is the best of my life".
Cisco smiled, raising his hands in excitement and walked out of the lab, Ronnie took that time to let out the breath he was holding. “Oh god what's wrong with me? Why am I so nervous? It’s not like I’m proposing Marriage".
Ronnie starts pacing the room. “I mean its Cisco, even if he rejects me it won’t make things weird will it? Though if it doesn’t how do I move on from being in love with my best friend if he is always around? Oh god is the room spinning?"
Caitlin stopped Ronnie grabbing his arms in both her hands and looking him in his eyes. “Calm down Everything will be fine Ronnie, Cisco would never want to lose his best friend, and something tells me things will go the way you want. Just keep those positive thoughts".
Ronnie takes a deep breath closing his eyes. Caitlin handed Ronnie the folder containing the plane and comic con tickets. “Here you go, plane, hotel, car and comic con tickets are all here".
Ronnie hugs Caitlin. “I love you Cait I couldn’t have asked for a better sister than you".
Ronnie and Caitlin both turned to the sound of Cisco's voice. “Now let’s go and celebrate all our hard work".
“Dr. Wells, the accelerator is primed and ready for particle injection" Cisco says smiling.
"Well, I feel I should say something profound like “one small step for man,” but all I can think of to say is, I feel like I've waited for this day for centuries" Wells said. Taking a deep breath he stepped up to the computer hitting the button to turn on the particle accelerator.
"That's it? You'd think there'd be, like, a loud bang" Cisco says.
"If there was a loud bang, we'd all be in big trouble" Ronnie says coming to stand beside Cisco.
"Take it from the guy who helped build it" Cisco says bumping Ronnie’s shoulder.
"Ladies and gentlemen, we did it" Wells says grabbing a bottle of champagne. The room is filled with cheers and claps, everyone excited all their hard work finally completed. Wells popped the cork on and champagne immediately noticing the champagne floating. Everyone in the room paused and as soon as the champagne dropped there was a loud bang.
"Was that... “Cisco started.
"A loud bang" Ronnie finished
Caitlin.
Caitlin.
Caitlin came back to at the sound of Dr. Wells voice. "Did you hear me? We're going down to the accelerator ring".
Barry could see the panic in Caitlin’s face. “Actually, Dr. Wells, I could use Caitlin's help identifying the poison gas, if that's okay with you?".
Taking a deep breath. "Let's go" she said.
"The copper in the tube is arranged to form cavities, and we can use those cavities as containment cells. Of course, we'll have to design them to counteract meta-human abilities, but... might just work" Wells explained. "First, we have to decouple the main injection system on the gantry level. I'll be right back.
Cisco thought he could handle being down their again but actually being inside the accelerator just brought back old memories and feelings and he didn’t think he could handle it. "Why don't I do that?”
Wells stopped him. "I need the exercise"
"There's an anomaly in the core chamber" says Cisco
“The ring's structural integrity is holding".
"It's started a chain reaction".
"The system is collapsing. We need to shut it down" Wells explains.
"We can't ramp down the accelerator from here. We need to do it manually" Cisco says heading out of the room.
"I'll come with" Ronnie says moving to follow Cisco.
“Ronnie, no" Caitlin's says to him grabbing his arm.
“I’m the lead engineer. I know how to operate the shutdown valve. Don’t worry Cait I’ll be fine" he says running out of the room behind Cisco.
Ronnie and Cisco make it to the Cortex doors, Ronnie instantly grabbing Cisco arm to stop him. "Okay, you stay here. We've only got a few minutes before this thing blows, and if I'm not back in time, you need to initiate lock down".
"No way. I am not closing this door. I won't be able to open it again" Cisco says to Ronnie against the idea 100%.
"Cisco, if you don't seal off the blast, everyone in this building will die, including Caitlin...........including you" Ronnie pulls Cisco in for a hug and places a Cisco on the side of his head. "Okay, now promise me.
Set your watch. Two minutes".
Cisco takes a deep breath and sets his watch “You’re coming back, we have a plane to catch" Cisco said smiling at him. Ronnie smiled back and took off running.
Cisco
Cisco
Cisco blinks away the memory and begins to walk out of the cortex “Must be hard, coming back down here. A lot happened that night. If you feel the need to talk... ".
Cisco instantly cut him off. "I was just thinking, we need to nail those voltage calculations. One fault, and the helium blowback could damage the mountings".
The last thing Cisco wanted to do was talk about this, even still to this day the memory of that night still hurt.
Wells just stared at him for a sec before speaking. “Smart".
"Can I ask you something that you don't have to answer?" Barry asked Caitlin wanting to break the silence between the two. Caitlin hadn’t really said much to him since they started investing the gas, but it’s not like that was anything new. Caitlin rarely held a conversation with him with when they were alone.
“My least favorite kind of question" she said not taking her eyes off the microscope. "Shoot".
“Ronnie" Barry started noticing her tense up. "What was he like? You just never talk about him that much".
Caitlin slowly dropped the vial and took a deep breath. This was a hard subject for her but maybe talking was what she needed.
“He....he was my baby brother. Many people aren’t close with their sibling but me and my brother were closer than anything. He was the structural engineer at star labs. He liked to joke that he was basically a very high-priced plumber. We were very different, you might have noticed I can be a bit... Guarded" she said smiling.
“People used to say we were like fire and ice. He was the funny, outgoing, always new how to make people smile.....but he was also a bit of a playboy. Never stayed with ANYBODY for more than a week. Always said he never felt a connection with anybody......that is till Cisco came along".
Barry shifted nervously in his seat at that bit of information. " I didn't know Cisco and Ronnie were together".
Caitlin chuckled. “They weren't.......Cisco and Ronnie were best friends but Ronnie fell in love with Cisco the moment he laid eyes on him. The day of the explosion Ronnie was taking Cisco away for the week to Comic con, he was going to tell him how he felt".
“Does Cisco know?" Barry asked.
Caitlin shook her head. “No....and I haven’t told him".
Caitlin was cut off by the sound of the printer.
"This says that there was no residue of gas in the tissue, poisonous or otherwise."
"It must have evaporated. We'll need to get a fresh sample" Barry says.
"Wait, this can't be right. This says that there are two distinct strands of DNA inside the tissue" Caitlin says with confusion.
"How did someone else's DNA get inside the victim's lungs?”
Barry jumps on the computer to see if he can find a match to the DNA sample. "There's no DNA match in the database".
“I don't understand" Caitlin said walking up to the computer. "Why would a chemical attack leave behind another person's DNA inside the victim?”
It took Barry all of 10 seconds to come to the realization that "What if the meta-human we're looking for doesn't control gas? What if he becomes it?”
As soon as the words left Barry’s mouth a police call came through the ready, not even giving it a second thought Barry was out of his car and ready to suit up.
All available units, we have a report of a toxic gas attack in the central city shopping mall.
"Barry, don't. We don't know enough about what we're facing yet" Caitlin tried. "It's not safe".
"Caitlin, I have to go" and with that Barry was gone.
Cisco and Wells were currently looking at Barry's vitals, they hadn't heard anything from Barry in the last 10 minutes and Wells was getting exactly worried.
"Barry. Barry, can you hear me?" Harrison yells into the mic.
“His vitals are weak, but he's alive, Dr. Wells. I'm sure he's fine" Cisco tried to convince himself. If he was being honest he was starting to get really worried. He and Barry had developed a pretty close relationship over the last month, so the more Barry went into Danger the more Cisco worried about him, and this small crush he was developing also wasn’t helping. Before Cisco had the chance to get another word in, Barry was in between he and Wells barely able to breathe.
“I can't breathe" he said wheezing and just barely keeping focus.
“He needs oxygen. Get the crash cart! “Wells yelled at Cisco. Caitlin ran over instantly helping Barry to his feet.
"Barry! Barry" Caitlin said trying to get his attention.
"Cut me open. The poison's still in me" Barry said barely getting a word out.
"He brought us a sample. Caitlin, we need to do a pulmonary biopsy, extract an active portion of that gas" said Wells.
"I can't give you any anesthetic. Your metabolism will burn right through it" Caitlin warned.
"I heal quick, remember? Do it".
Caitlin looked to Cisco who was feeling a small wave of panic. "Cisco, give me the syringe. This is going to hurt a lot".
“It’s a small needle. You probably won't even feel it" Cisco said trying to get ease the thought of pain.
“You’re definitely going to feel it" without hesitation she slammed the needle into Barry chest causing him to gasp for air.
Monitor beeping
That’s the noise Barry heard when he came too, almost complete Deja vu if he was being honest. Just like the day that he woke up from the coma. He opened his eyes and saw Cisco standing there toying with his phone. Barry didn't say or do anything for a moment he just starred at Cisco taking him in. Cisco had become an amazing friend in the last few weeks they had known each other. He was funny, cute, smart and always a blast to be around, honestly they were perfect for each other. They are complete dorks, but Barry couldn't get past his love for Eddie. He has love the man since, he was a kid and he couldn't imagine his life without Eddie, a future without Eddie. Plus Cisco was just a friend, that's all he could see him as really. Barry moves his hands to get Cisco's attention and Cisco instantly looks and Barry and smiles. A smile that for some reason he couldn't explain always made him blush.
"The Streak lives" he says.
"You'd be dead if your lung cells didn't regenerate so quickly" Caitlin made known.
"My chest feels like that one time I had a cigarette" Barry says causing Caitlin to frown. ”Yeah, teen me lived for danger".
“This isn't funny. You could've... “Barry instantly cut Caitlin off.
"I didn't" Barry assured Caitlin.
"Now that we have a sample, we'll get to work analyzing it, figure out the makeup of the poison, maybe get a clue as to his human identity" Wells said from the computing already trying to find a match.
“Or at least a way to stop him from turning into a mist. The Mist. Okay, that's his name. End of discussion" Cisco says proudly.
“I have to get to the station. You should be resting" Wells tried know very well Barry wasn’t going to listen
“I have to talk to Joe" and with that Barry left.
Barry sighed deeply as he watched Joe walk out of his lab, it seemed like no matter what he did, he just could never win. He spent most of his life trying to find a way to bring his dad home and no matter what he did even with all the new information and his powers he still had nothing good or bad that he could use in the case.
“Alright Allen" Eddie said walking into Barry's lab taking off his jacket and placing his briefcase on Barry's desk. “Today has literally been the longest day of my life, you are treating me to a round".
Eddie hoped on Barry's desk, grabbing a piece of Candy out of Barry's binge Jar. “Or an ice cream sundae at this point either or would brighten up this god awful day........"
Eddie noticed Barry was super distracted and not even paying attention to a thing he was saying. “I guess it will be a drink, looks like we could both use one".
Eddie placed his hand under Barry chin and lightly lifted it to look in his face. “Bar, you ok?" he asked softly.
Barry just starred at Eddie for a minute, everything in his life was a complete mess and here was the man he loved more than anything starring him right in his face. Why is he so afraid to just tell him how he feels? What the worst that can happen.....other than he rejects him, never talks to him again.
“Hey" Eddie says placing the other hand on Barry's face. “Talk to me".
“I was just thinking about my dad, and how I miss him. He has been in that place for the last 14 years and no matter what I do, what I come up with. Its never going to be good enough to save him".
“Barry, your dad wouldn’t want this for you" Eddie started.
“My dad would want to be home with me" Barry says standing up pacing.
" I'm sure you dad wants more than anything to be here with you Barry, but your dad would not want you hear wasting your life trying to find a way to get him home. He would want you to live and enjoy your life Barry" Eddie said standing and taking Barry’s hands in his own. “Look Barry I never knew your dad very well, but I know if he loves you the way he says he does. He would want his son to be happy".
Barry didn't even notice the tears that filled his eyes until Eddie took one hand and wiped them away. “Thanks Eddie".
Eddie smiled at Barry. “Your welcome, it’s what I'm here for".
“Now" Eddie moved to grab his jacket and briefcase. " I say we head to that taco place on 5th street, they have the best tacos and margarita’s and I personally think we need both".
Barry smiled grabbing his jacket and following Eddie out the door. Only to be stopped when Cisco was making his way in.
"Cisco, hey what are you doing here?" Barry smiled.
"Hey, I remember you, your the guy from Star labs, and Barry's new friend. I'm kind of jealous of you, he talks about you all the time" Eddie smiles giving Cisco a wink. "I'm Eddie".
Cisco sighs nervously and gives a small smile. "Yea, I remember you too, he talks about you all the time as well. All good things...trust me".
He is so freaking gorgeous, Cisco thinks....
Cisco clears his throat and looked at Barry. " I just came to check on you, that's all".
Eddie watched the interaction between the two, honestly he can't say that he wasn't curious about Cisco. Barry had been spending alot of time with him the last few weeks, and for some reason it made him a little jealous. Honestly it's not bad that Barry is making new friends, he and Iris had been his only friend since they were kids. But it was something about Cisco that made him curious and uncomfortable.
"I'm good....thanks" Barry says sensing how uncomfortable everybody was in the room. It almost felt like the ex and new boyfriend were meeting for the first time Weird..
"Ok, well I guess Ill talk....." Cisco starts.
Eddie instantly cuts him off. "Why don't you join us, we are headed out for taco's".
"Oh, I dont.....".
"Come on, it will be fun. Plus I want to get to know you better" Eddie pushes.
Cisco looks to Barry who gives him a nod. "Ok" he says plastering a fake smile on his face, motioning for Eddie to lead the way. This should be fun.....
Surprisingly Taco night was a lot of fun, Eddie and Cisco seemed to have a lot more in common then he thought and gotten along great.
Barry decided to head into Star Labs early the next day, hoping to talk to Caitlin about the other day. He instantly spotted her sitting outside the opening to the cortex, knowing she was thinking about Ronnie and that night.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you, leaving like that" Barry said sitting beside Caitlin.
"It's okay. I get it. You had to go. It's just... that's the last thing that Ronnie said to me that night" Caitlin said with a small smile.
"My mother died 14 years ago. I used to think that the further away I got from it, the less it would hurt. But some days, the pain, it's worse than the day that it happened. Some things you can't fight".
Caitlin nodded in agreement. "For so long, I've been terrified of going into that hole".
"What if I went with you?" Barry suggested. Caitlin closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Might as well get it over with she thought. Helping her to her feet Barry followed behind as they headed to the cortex.
Alarms going crazy
“Where’s Ronnie? Cisco, where is he? “Caitlin asked walking spotting Cisco.
"He's still inside" Cisco said
"What? Open the door".
"I can't. We're in lockdown mode" Cisco said tears threatening to spills from his eyes.
"Cisco, we have to get him out of there or he'll die" Caitlin tried again.
"Cisco, can you hear me?" Ronnie said over the walkie talkie.
"Ronnie, it's me" Caitlin panics. They can both her the background, it’s full of Electricity crackling, and small explosions from the accelerator malfunctioning.
"Caitlin. Is Cisco there?" Ronnie asked.
“Yeah, Ronnie, I'm here. I'm listening" Cisco said trying to get his emotions under control.
"I adjusted the magnets to redirect the beam to try and vent the system so the blast goes up and not out" He explained.
"I'll need to reset the particle parameters to compensate" Cisco says giving the walkie talkie to Caitlin.
“Cisco’s doing it. What the hell were you thinking Ronnie? There has to be another way out of there. You have to find it" Caitlin said her voice breaking as she spoke.
“Cait, the chain reaction, I can't reverse it. The doors need to stay shut to protect everyone" Ronnie explained. “You still there?"
“I’m here" Caitlin says voice full of tears.
"Caitlin, I love you sis" Ronnie said. “Cisco?"
Cisco ran over to Caitlin grabbing the walkie, face full of tears. “Yea, I'm here buddy".
“Whatever happens just know that... “And then there’s nothing but an explosion
Ronnie!
“He saved so many lives that day, and no one will ever know what he did" Caitlin says to Barry clearly full of hurt.
“I do. He was a hero" Barry said to Caitlin, pulling her into a hug. “And you may not want to hear this but Cisco should know about Ronnie".
“Ronnie would kill me if I told Cisco" Caitlin said laughing but also wiping away her tears.
“Ronnie would want Cisco to know, what better person to tell Cisco than the one of the most important people in his life" Barry says giving her a small smile.
Caitlin smiled back. “Thanks Barry.....for everything. I needed this more than I thought".
"Your welcome" he smiled.
"Barry, Caitlin, you down there? You got to come look at this" Cisco said over the com system.
“Let’s go catch us a Meta" Barry smiled.
Cisco couldn't believe the containment cells actually worked.
“Will it hold?" Caitlin asked.
“The barrier is powered by an 8.3 Tesla superconducting electromagnet, which is about 100,000 times the strength of earth's magnetic field" Cisco over explained.
“In other words, yes" Wells said looking at angry metahuman "Hmm. He's mad".
“Well, good night" Wells said closing the door and beginning to make his way out.
"So we're just supposed to get used to working above a makeshift prison housing evil people with superpowers?" Caitlin asked.
“You’d be surprised what you can get used to, Caitlin" Wells said taking his leave. Cisco following right behind, Caitlin grabbed his hand. “Cisco can I talk to you for a second".
“Sure, what's up?" Cisco asked.
" It’s about Ronnie".
Cisco crossed his arms “What about Ronnie?" he asked.
“Do you remember the night of the explosion and him asking you speak with you on the walkie talkie?" Caitlin asked.
Cisco sighed but said. “Yea, he said Cisco what happens just know that......." Cisco dropped his head reliving the memory of that being the last thing Ronnie said to him.
“He was about to tell you that he loved you" Caitlin said.
“I know, and I loved him too" Cisco tilted his head not really knowing where this was headed.
“No Cisco, Ronnie was........... in love with you" Caitlin said.
Cisco's expression went blank then his eyes went wide. “What?! No.....Ronnie was not in love with me. He didn’t even know the definition of love, I mean he dated literally half of central city" he waved off.
Caitlin laughed at that. "He always said he couldn't find a connection with any of those people. Ronnie might have been a playboy but he always wanted to find a spouse and have kids".
"So what? Your saying he felt a connection with me? Why didn't he say anything to me" Cisco questioned. This was a little too much for him to take in.
“Your comic con trip....." Caitlin started. “Ronnie was taking you because it was all you talked about and he wanted to be the one who shared that experience with you. He hated Comic con but you loved it and that’s all that mattered to him".
Caitlin’s voice broke but she still managed to chuckle. “I still remember when he saw you for the first time, he said that’s the person I'm going to spend the rest of my life with".
Caitlin took a deep breath. “During the trip he had this special night planned, he was going to tell you".
Cisco closed his eyes, running his hands threw his hair. “Why are you telling me this now" Cisco whispered.
“You needed to know, Ronnie would have wanted you to know".
Cisco didn't know what to say, this was just way too much, having memory of his best friend now knowing he was in love with him was way too much for him to handle. Honestly it seemed like it made the pain a lot worse. Caitlin pulled Cisco in for a hug it was obvious he could use one. "Caitlin, I...."
"Its ok Cisco, you don't have to say anything" she smiled. "Come on. I need ice cream or a drink. Let's see which one we hit first" Caitlin said smiling at Cisco grabbing his hand.
Cisco fell down on Barry couch and took a deep breath, running his hand threw his hair. "Ok, I got popcorn, chocolate covered potato chips, and pizza pockets. All the essentials to make a great movie night" Barry says smiling down at Cisco, noticing he was a little on edge.
Barry knelled down in front of him. "Hey what's wrong?" he asked.
"Caitlin told me something today, about Ronnie" Cisco started. "and I don't know, it brought up a lot of old feelings, and made Ronnie's death hurt a lot more".
"What she say" he asked already knowing.
"That he was in love with me" Cisco says covering his face with his arm.
"He loved me" he laughed. "I don' know it makes this hurt so much worst".
Barry gulped down the lump in his throat and forced himself to ask the next question. "Do you think its because maybe you loved him back and didn't realize until she said something".
Cisco just stared at Barry. "I loved Ronnie, but I never saw him like that".
Not like I see you...
Barry moved to sit next to Cisco. "Ok, well maybe it hurts because it opens the question of what if..."
Cisco just sighed, that's the question he had been asking himself ever since he talked to Caitlin.
What if, he had known..........