Chapter 5
You will never know how strong your heart is until you forgive the one who broke it.
~Unknown
The BAU was on a small vacation. Emily had recently left and JJ needed to talk to her. JJ needed to know why her friend and past lover left with out saying a word to her. JJ hadn't gone to London alone Spencer had accompanied her. Once they both enter the hotel room both of them put their bag down.
"JJ wanna tell me what's bugging you so much about the fact that she left." Spencer had been analyzing the blonde the whole flight and since the second she found out Emily left. JJ had been uneasy the same way that she was when Emily first joined the team. "Jennifer talk to me please."
"Spence she left with out saying goodbye to me not a single word or a hug after everything we've been threw after our-" JJ stopped herself before admitting what she's been trying so hard to keep from the team.
"After what?" Spencer question. "JJ there's no point in lying to me I know there's some kind of past between you and Emily but I don't know what." The young doctor explained. "What I do know is my friend is hurting because of it please JJ let me into whatever this is. Please?" JJ decided she need to let it out and talk to Spencer.
"It hurts because I love her." JJ still loved Emily regardless of everything that had happened. She wasn't lying when she said she'll always love Emily. She cared for Will but if she compared her love for Will and Emily. Emily would win in a second.
"You guys were in love?" Spencer needed to be sure. JJ gave a small nod and walked out. Spencer didn't bother to walk out after her because he knew very well where JJ was going. JJ walking in the raining London streets looking for Emily's apartment. Once she finally found it she was soaked and wet. The rain had covered JJ's tears. Taking a deep breath JJ knocked on the door but no one answered. JJ knocked one more time a bit louder but still no answer. JJ turned around ready to leave and go back to home to Will and her kids.
"JJ" she herd from behind and turned around to see Emily standing in her apartment. "What are you doing here?Come in." Emily led the younger woman inside. Emily left JJ standing there as she looked for clothes.
"I'm sorry I shouldn't be here." JJ said trying to walk out but Emily stopped her.
"Don't you'll get sick. Here change out of these clothes." Emily led JJ to her room and JJ began to undress. Emily walked out of the room wanting to give JJ privacy but JJ followed her. JJ was in only bra and underwear. Emily turned around and realized how JJ was standing behind her. She couldn't help, but look at JJ's body.
"Emily I'm sorry." JJ let out the words with a sob at the end. "Please come back to us, to me." Emily knew this wasn't an apology for now but for their past. For their daughter. For what she did years ago.
"JJ I have nothing to forgive you for. We both delt with it the best way we could. Please honey don't blame yourself, I left because I needed a fresh start, and honestly with you being around it isn't a fresh start." Emily explained to the crying woman. JJ walked over to Emily and wrapped her arm around her. She needed Emily in more ways than one. Emily's hands were on JJ's waist. Emily wanted to take JJ's pain and make every bad thing that happened to her go away. Emily slowly leaned in and placed a kiss on JJ's lips. Emily let her hands roam JJ's body. Emily loved the small noises that JJ made and the way how she could still make JJ come undone like she use to. JJ's hands did their own exploring and found their way to grope Emily's ass. JJ moved her kisses along JJ's neck. Sucking on her necks skin leaving a mark on her neck.
"Please." JJ begged. She needed to feel Emily one last time. Emily pulled away. She wanted JJ more than anything but she could not allow herself to go there again.
"Let's get you to your hotel." Emily says as she took off her sweater and put it on JJ. JJ frowned and went to get the sweats Emily let her borrow. The rain had stopped and the drive to the hotel was short.
"Em?" JJ asked barely above a whisper. "Do you hate me for you know leaving." Emily let her guard down she needed to if she wanted to have a real conversation with JJ.
"I won't lie Jennifer I did at first." Emily explain honestly. "You left with out saying goodbye you just left a letter; this was my way of saying now we're even. I haven't forgiven you but someday I will because you are my child's mother." JJ nod and got out of the car.
"I love you Emily Prentiss always have and always will." JJ said.
"I love you too JJ never doubt that." With that both women were satisfied and Emily drove away. JJ went up to the hotel room she and Spencer are sharing. That night she hugged Spencer and cried all night. She gave him the explanation he had been searching for. Spencer promised he'd never say a word to the team or anyone there knew.
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Blake woke up to a surprise of two extra people in her room. Blake stayed quite not wanting to wake a sleeping Emily and JJ. Emily didn't open her eyes but noticed a familiar smell of vanilla and coffee. A smell she knew too well. Slowly adjusting her eyes to the light and fully opening her eyes. She looked up and saw that she was in JJ's arms. Emily felt safe like if nothing could go wrong. She had a home and her home was JJ. JJ was her safe place and home since the day she spilled coffee on her. Emily tried to get up but that caused JJ's grip to tighten around her. Emily knew that in this position there was only one thing she could do. She pulled harder.
"Five more minutes babe she not awake yet." JJ whine. She must be dreaming or it's a memory. Emily told herself. There was no way JJ could remember everything that quick. JJ opened her eyes and looked down at the beautiful brunette on her lap, still she refused to let go or loosen her grip around Emily's waist.
"Morning J." Emily said. These simple words had cause JJ's heart to pound faster. "Sorry about last night."
"Don't be" JJ didn't want and apology she was just happy that Emily was able to get whatever was hurting her out. "How are you feeling this morning?" Both woman looked into each others eyes they felt what once was there before like if time had stopped and in that moment no one existed except them. Blake watch quietly as this played out. Blake didn't know what love was, she was had read about it in books but Jordan had always told her love would be the death of most people. In that moment though Blake understood how real love work, she had seen Agent Prentiss so sad and unhappy but right love Agent Prentiss looked nothing but happy. Realizing that the other girl in the room was awake. Emily fully pulled away from JJ and walked over to Blake. She looked at the girl with complete love. Emily's eyes began to tear up. She was finally whole again after so may years.
"Anything I could help you with agent?" Blacked asked wondering why an agent would be in her room once again. The tears had flown free and wouldn't stop coming out of Emily's eyes.
"I'm sorry" Emily sobbed out. "Can I hug you?" Blake didn't answer Emily's question and just pull Emily into an embrace. Emily didn't hold onto her daughter to hard because Blake had here baby with her. Then Emily realized she wasn't just a mother but also a grandmother.
"Can I ask you something?" Blake asked bringing Emily back to reality. Emily gave a small nod. "This lady came by last night and told me that I had a mother." Blake explained. "Do you think my mom will love me after not being with me for so long?" Blake's words brought Emily to cry more.
"Blake she love you, I can assure you there wasn't a day that went by that your mother didn't live you or miss you." Emily wanted to make this situation easier but there's no way to make this least for either of them. "Blake I never stopped loving you." Blake looked up as Emily with her eye asked the questions she couldn't. Emily gave as small nod as once again they hugged. JJ watch what happened in front of her. JJ left knowing that right now those two needed some privacy.