Chapter 6
Lexa feels invigorated. She pulls Clarke in impossibly closer and molds their lips together once more. Clarke clutches at her ex lover’s back and Lexa pushes Clarke against her truck. The kiss grows heated and so emotional. The exes are trying to pour every ‘I’m sorry,’ every ‘I love you,’ every ‘I miss you’ in their kisses. They’re crying into the kisses but they aren’t stopping, if anything their tears are fueling their passion more.
Lexa wishes she could grab Clarke by the thighs and carry her up to their bedroom once more, but she can’t. The only thing stopping her from doing so is their fast asleep son in the next room. They’ve already messed their kids enough. They don’t need for Aden to hear them ‘making up.’
“We should stop before this gets too heated.” Clarke mumbles against her lips and Lexa chuckles, while wiping away the blonde’s tears.
“Baby, I think that ship has sailed.” Lexa’s breath is hot against Clarke’s lips.
“Say that again.” Clarke closes her eyes and rests her forehead against Lexa’s.
“Baby?” Lexa smiles and closes her eyes too. This feels too good to be true. She’s waiting to wake up in a empty bed again just like she always does whenever she has a dream like this.
“I missed hearing that.” Clarke croaks out.
“I missed saying it.” Lexa opens her eyes and is met with the most vibrant blue of her life.
“We still have a lot to talk about.” Clarke says and Lexa nods.
“Absolutely. I want to do it right this time. I promise I’ll listen better. I promise I’ll tell you how I feel. I’ll go to that counselor if you still want to. I can’t lose you again Clarke. I’m here to fight for us.” Lexa sweetly kisses Clarke’s lips for a second before embracing her again. Clarke runs her hands up and down Lexa’s back and nuzzles into Lexa’s neck. After enjoying the silence and physical closeness, they eventually break apart.
“I want all those things Lex. I promise to fight for us too. I just need to go straighten something out first. I should have done it before we kissed but I couldn’t resist you.” Clarke traces Lexa’s jaw.
“You’re talking about Niylah?..” Lexa says defeatedly. For a split second, it felt like they never were apart. They were just Lexa and Clarke. Not Clarke and Lexa, divorced. Clarke, living with another woman. And Lexa, sleeping casually with another woman. It’s not suppose to be this way. They are suppose to live with eachother and sleep with eachother.
“Yes. It’s not fair to either of you. I need to end things with her before we can ever really begin.” Clarke sadly smiles.
“I understand.” Lexa smiles, but it’s still very hard for her. She hates thinking about her Clarke with other people. She knows they will have to have a more in depth discussion about everything, potentially including that, but not now. “Will you be living there still or..do you want to maybe come back home?” Lexa sounds vulnerable and insecure asking the question, like she knows Clarke’s answer will be no.
“I wish I could. I don’t want to rush us though. The kids will be confused. We need to be sure before I come back.” Clarke sounds sad that she can’t say yes. Everything in her is telling her to move back in and never leave again but she can’t..not yet at least. Moving too fast would be there first mistake. They need to take this one step at a time. Everything is moving too fast.
Lexa’s looks sad but understanding.
“But when I do come back, and trust me one day I will, it will be for good.” Clarke cups Lexa’s cheeks and Lexa stares into her blue eyes. “You can’t get rid of me Lexa Woods.”
Lexa releases a watery laugh and pulls Clarke in close so that there lips are almost touching, but not quite. “And I’d never want to.” Lexa kisses Clarke with her all once more before they break apart and Clarke gets in her car.
“If Aden needs me, I’m just a call away.” Clarke softly says and Lexa nods. She puts the car in reverse and is about to pull of the driveway when Lexa calls out to her.
“I love you.” Lexa gently says and Clarke smiles wide, a light back in both of their eyes after a deep dark slumber.
“I love you too.”
Lexa watches Clarke’s car drive away and goes into her house. She goes into Aden’s room and lays down next to her boy on his big bed. She lightly pushes the blonde hair he got from his other mother out of his eyes. She watches him sleep for a little bit. His eye is still swollen and he has a few cuts but he will be okay. Their family will be okay. And for the first time in awhile, Lexa believes that. Lexa falls asleep next her son dreaming of how it used to be and how it will soon be once again.
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Clarke is in shock as she drives home. Her and Lexa just kissed...many many times. If their teenage son wasn’t home, they might have done much more too. Clarke can’t believe how much time they lost being foolish. Now they finally have their second chance and she doesn’t intend to waste it. She’s going to do this right though. And that means ending things with Niylah. The younger girl is sweet to her when she wants to be. She’s ambitious and passionate and fiery. Her body is to die for. But she’s not her Lexa.
Clarke dials Niylah on her car’s bluetooth speaker. It rings for a bit before Niylah answers.
“Hey hon. I’m thinking since Aden is staying with your ex tonight, we can spend the night doing very bad things. I bought a sexy new lace bustier I’m going to slip into.” Niylah says seductively and Clarke winces.
“Actually Ny, I think we need to-Shit!” Clarke is cut off by tires screeching, cars honking, and a loud crash. It’s followed by the most heart stopping of silences before her phone cuts off.