Vivid

"You're what?" "I'm in love with Eren," Levi whispered softly. "I'm deeply in love with Eren." From the lovelorn expression on Levi's face. Armin stood there shocked by his words. Soon after Levi reaffirmed his confession. Armins body filled with envy, hatred and resentment. Not only for falling in love with Levi. But for his best friend Eren. "Eren..." he murmured. "It's always him... it's always Eren isn't it! Always the perfect son of a perfect doctor. Why can't it be me? Why can't you just love me? I'm sick of having him take away the things I want!" Armin screeched. He was tired of Eren, as much as he felt guilty for it. He felt entitled to more than Eren had. Now that he had this information, he was determined to change Levi's mind. "Forget him! Please, for my sake, just forget about Eren and be with me. I beg of you, I want this more than anything." He pleaded. Levi stood strong and didn't give into Armins tender calls. His desperation only pushed Levi further. Levi's silence hurt more than anything in this world. "If it doesn't work, I'll go away," Armin bargained. He was desperate to have Levi's affections. Levis commiseration almost tempted him to say something. But a firm, cold way was the only way to put Armin down. "Levi..." "Enough! Look at yourself, it's disgusting. My decision is final. It might not be your decision to stop loving me. But it's my decision to walk away from something I do not want." Levi's words sank in only a centimeter in Armin's denying heart. "Then that's it, you're really not going to give me a chance..." Armin sniffled. Armin dragged his feet over to his bed and plopped down on his mattress. Levi stayed just a few steps away from the door. He watched as Armin opened his cabinet. "He's going to smoke again?" Levi wondered, it made sense that he'd have drugs. But was this the appropriate time? Instead of a blunt Armin pulled a hand gun and pointed it to his head. With a smile and tears streaming down his face. He felt compelled to pull the trigger. "I guess there's no reason to live anymore," he hiccuped. A lot of thoughts ran through his head. Petras face placed itself over Armins. Levi was taken back to an incident he tried to banish from his mind. Now running on instinct, Levi dove for the gun. Armin kicked and screamed as they wrestled on the bed. Minutes of struggle for the weapon went on. Sounds of displeasure and struggle were forced from their mouths. The two slammed onto hardwood floor. Levi saw this as a chance to kick the gun away. Armin eyes widened as he crawled after it. Levi wrapped his arms around his skinny torso. The stronger male pulled him back and slammed Armins back onto the floor. "Are you some kind of stupid fuck?" Levi shouted in Armins face. His wrists were now bound by Levi's strong grip. As Levi sat on top on him. Armin began to weep and sob like a child that had just been scolded. "Just let me die already! If I'm nothing to you. I'm nothing to anybody!" He cried. "Just shut up! You aren't going to die for me. I'm not letting anyone else die for me in that way again!" When Levi raised his voice to Armin it instantaneously made him stop. "Again?" Armin asked. Levi let go of Armin and crawled off of his body. Armin sat up and stared as Levi slid off his jacket. He unbuttoned his white dress shirt and exposed his right shoulder. Armin was shocked to find a scar that littered his pale skin. It was pink and discolored. Armin covered his mouth with one hand. The other touched it hesitantly. His frail bony fingers slid over the circle and stems that stretched across his shoulder. "Back then, there was a woman who loved me like you. The only difference was that she was close to me. Her hair was a deep amber and her eyes reminded me of the sun. I loved her, but not in the way she wanted. When I cared for her she fell deeper in love. So much so, that when I chose another woman over her. She decided to keep this a secret from me. But when my lover died. She felt it was her chance. Unfortunately, love wasn't an option for me. When she confessed, I rejected her on the spot. Being kind to her was my mistake. You're only hurting them to the point where they get false hope. As cruel as it sounds, I couldn't feel love for the longest time. As much I wanted it to be someone else's. My heart didn't belong to anyone. She called me to her home one night and confessed once more. I didn't notice the gun after I rejected her. She pulled the trigger shooting me first. Guilt ridden and feeling unfit for this world. She should herself in the chest and bled out in my arms. I refuse to let that happen to anyone else. My love isn't worth this Armin. Please forget me." Armin sat there silently. In his mind he was debating on whether or not taking his life meant that much. Was Levi lying? Or was he telling the truth? Armin was confuse and cried in frustration. He beat his small fists on Levi's naked chest. He felt sick to his stomach. He wanted to be selfish and mean. His chance would never come. Levi made that clear. His mind was a soup of emotions in a giant never ending cauldron. Levi allowed Armin to cry to his hearts content. However, he maintained his distance. "I can't get over you today. So please just give me tonight and stay?" Levi looked at his phone and sighed in frustration. He could leave and never come back. It would be the best option. But the sorry look on Armins face reminded Levi of his own. In this fragile moment Levi sat in Armins desk chair and crossed his legs. Armin was delighted to see that Levi silently agreed. But Levi wasn't doing this for him. Any advances Armin would make. Levi would knock down and out of the way. Armin took a bite out of the chocolate and offered the rest to Levi. "Let's start off on a good note. I can't get over you in an hour. But we can start off as friends." Armin said, innocently smiling. If it were any other situation. Levi would have rejected the offer. But he was under Erwin's orders to keep Armin happy. That, and he was Erens prized best friend. Levi took a bite of the chocolate and let it melt in his mouth. The awkward silence between them left Armin feeling guilty. " "You're always talkative with Eren. What's with that?" "He's interesting," Levi replied bluntly. "Sexually? Or..." "If you're wondering if Eren and I have had sex. My answer is no. I've been busy with work and Eren has his own agenda." "But if you could have him, what would you do?" "I don't think I want to share that with you," Levi replied. "Right, right, I get it. If it were me, I'd like to be done on this bed. Or maybe in the kitchen? Have a man who can dominate the heck out of me," Armin explained. "I'm sorry, why are you telling me this?" "Dunno, drugs make me talk about things im normally ashamed of saying." Armin giggled. "Good to know I guess," Levi sighed. "What drugs don't do anything to you?" "Things happen when I'm shit faced and drugged up the ass. Last time I did something like this. I ended up in South America with only a gun and pair of shorts." Levi replied truthfully. Armin whistled and wondered what crazy adventures Levi had gone on. "Must have been some drugs..." "Four eyed shit for brains told me it would only last an hour. I had to save her ass. The worst part is that we were undercover. Buy with a little convincing and some condoms it worked." Armin asked surprised by Levi's story. "You fuck guards but not me?" "I didn't fuck them, hanji did, I waited in the other room," Levi sighed. "Man... if I could have a thick one in me right now... is it hot right now? I really want to take off my clothes..." Armin blushed. The affects of the drug were clouding his better judgment. Levi began to feel strange as the room hazed up. For some reason he began to giggle and laugh with Armin. The conversation some how went to being about Erwin. Then about their desires and experiences. Soon Armin was on the bed next to Levi half naked. He had this giggle that wouldn't go away. Levi felt odd and didn't understand what was going on. All he knew was that Armin was staring at him like a piece of meat. "Come on, just try me, Eren won't know..." Armin whispered turning Levi's head with his hand. "Yeah the fuck right." "Pleaseeee. You and I both need to release. I can help you," he whined. "You wait, Let me go to the bathroom," Levi replied. "You're not fun!" He giggled. Levi then stood up and walked down the steps of his home towards the living room. He locked himself in the bathroom hoping Armin wouldn't follow. "Can't drive, can't call anyone or Erwin will ask, sure as he'll can't go back upstairs," Levi whispered. He paced in the bathroom and found an unusually over sized hoodie. It smelled familiar the closer he got to it. Looking at the tag on it Erens name was written in permanent marker. "Of course Erens things would be here..." Levi breathed. His heightened senses made him feel unusually hot and heavy. Erens jacket smelled deliciously sweet. Like a fish on a line, Levi was hooked. The nights events blacked out from there. When he woke up the next morning. He found himself in Erens jacket with his cock out. He looked around and sighed in relief seeing the door still locked. Levi washed himself up and shrugged off Erens jacket. He felt groggy and disgusting. Gentle snoring validated that Armin was still asleep. Thankfully he didn't wake up when Levi locked the door and drove away in his car. Since that day Levi didn't bother to see Armin again. "Had things gone south that night I'm not sure I could face Eren," Levi murmured to hanji as she made Levi some coffee. "Oh you! You're always getting all hearts~" hanji teased. She watched as Levi picked up the mug and stopped. "This isn't drugged up is it?" "No, I'm not as devious to do that. Or am I?" "Better not." He mumbled and placed the mug down. "So how is paradise by the way? You told Eren the big news?" "What big news? That the guy that's in love with him is a murderer and a thug? That sure gets everyone's pants dirty." "Point taken, but you have to tell him sometime~ here's an idea? Why don't you visit him?" "It'd have to be quick, we have to get going." "call shot gun~!" Hanji giggled as she nabbed Levi's car keys and skipped to the car. Levi followed after her as they drove to Erens home. Clearly restless and agitated Levi was unsure how to go about this. Hanji offered to take the wheel and waited in the car as they parked in Erens driveway. She took the drivers seat while Levi walked up to Erens door. He knocked and waited for an answer. But the minutes had gone by agonizingly slow. After the third time knocking Eren woke up from his nap and opened the door. "Hello?" He rubbed his eyes and sleepily mumbled. Levi was both annoyed and enamored with Erens state of confusion. He took this opportunity to pull him down into a long awaited passionate kiss. Eren soon realized it was Levi and felt his heart sing. He wrapped his arms around the smaller male and practically squeezed him to death. Lip locked and hungry for more Levi bit him softly before parting. Eren stood there confused and sad as Levi drove away. He then felt a surge of anger and shouted at Levi. "YOU JERK! AT LEAST STAY IF YOU'RE GOING TO KISS ME LIKE THAT!" Eren yelled.