Chapter 4
In the days that followed a routine was created and maintained. Allie would spend every waking moment at Bea’s bedside, tending to her every need. Holding her hand and stroking her face when times got tough. The pain was all consuming for Bea and sometimes she felt she couldn’t stand it anymore, it was at those moments with her teeth gritted together she would focus her tear filled eyes on Allie and together they would ride out the waves of pain within her. For Allie it was also a difficult time, watching Bea in such pain and being unable to physically help felt like a knife to her own heart. She took to holding her hand tightly and stroking her face whilst whispering stories in to her ear to keep her focused on anything other than the pain. She told jokes and regaled stories of her life before prison, anything to take Bea’s mind off her stomach. She even took to singing to Bea when all else seemed to fail, and even though Bea laughed at first and called her a dork, it did seem to settle her and more often than not she would fall into a deep sleep listening to Allie singing the latest Justin Bieber song.
“You’ll never get a career as a singer you know,” Bea laughed as Allie finished her latest rendition of “I’m sexy and I know it.” She was mesmerised by the woman who was sat next to her on the bed, her arms wrapped around her. She lay her head against her shoulder and let out a small sigh. “Thank you.”
Allie looked down at her, “For what?”
“For this, for being you. For being amazing. For opening my eyes to what love feels like.” Bea felt her own cheeks redden with embarrassment but Allies didn’t. Instead she held her stare, brushing a stray piece of Beas faded hair from her pale cheek.
“Love? I heard right didn’t I? What are you trying to tell me Bea Smith?” She leant forward and placed her lips gently on to Bea's. “Are you telling me you love me?” she whispered breaking contact for a second before bringing their lips together again in a bruising kiss.
Bea pulled away breathless, “Yeah, I guess I am. I do love you. I realised it a while ago, but I was scared, I didn’t want to admit it to myself. But when I thought I had lost you, I couldn’t deny it any longer. I have never felt this way about anyone and it feels amazing. You’ve made me lose my mind and I like it. Before…Just before the Freak attacked you, when we were you know… together… It was amazing. I never knew it could be like that.”
Allie gave Bea a delicious smile, “I love you too. And you don’t know how much hearing you say it to me means. I’ve never really had anyone to love me. Only Kaz and as nice as that is, it’s not this kind of love. It’s not the love where I can’t get you out of my head, from first thing of a morning till last thing at night and then even in my dreams you’re there. I want to be with you and touching you and feeling you every second of every day… and not always in a sexual way… Although that is pretty amazing by the way and I can’t wait till we get out of here and I can have my wicked way with you again.”
Bea let out a small laugh and the two women linked their right hands together.
“So you have to promise me now, no more heroics, no more trying to fight the world. You have to run everything you want to do past me now okay?” Allie smiled as she spoke, “I'm like your secretary now, if I don’t know about it, it’s not happening. Okay?”
Bea nodded her head, “Sure, if you’re my secretary though does that mean I get to see you dressed up in a short…short skirt?” As she spoke she ran her free hand up and down Allie’s thigh, loving the far away expression this created on Allies face.
“Sure it does,” Allie breathed out, “Only if you put a suit on and then I get to take it off… with my teeth!”
Bea laughed harder than she meant to and caused a sharp pain across her midriff.
“You okay?” Allie asked sitting up to face Bea, a worried expression on her face.
“Yeah I’m fine, You’re bad for my health Novak!”
“And you mine, now if you’re okay, enough of this chatting, kiss me and don’t stop.” She leant forward and placed her lips heavily on to Beas and in that moment, Bea felt truly alive and finally she knew what it felt like to be happy.