Give your heart a break
Natasha had been through so much. She acted like it never hurt. Like some nights after nightmares she wouldn’t wake up and feel a pain in her chest. She acted like she never felt lonely or scared. She acted as if nothing affected her. It wasn’t that she wanted to. Years of hurt and pain and shit she couldn’t bring herself to say it out loud.
You were something that Natasha found entirely confusing. You were kind and gentle, you treated her like just another person. Were a breath of fresh air. But you scared her. She liked you, and that gave you the power to hurt her again. That was something she didn’t want to risk.
She watched you at the bar of one of Starks parties. She could see you were uncomfortable about something. That’s when she saw you leave to go outside. “She doesn’t like being in large groups of people” Wanda said from behind her.
“What she does is none of my business” Natasha said as she sipped her drink.
“You like her, she likes you” Wanda shrugged before she leaned against the bar, “I think you want it to be your business”.
Natasha was about to say something when Clint rescued her, “Wanda, Vision was asking for you, you should probably check it out”. With a sigh Wanda left, Clint taking her place at Natasha’s side.
“Thanks for that Clint” Natasha said.
“Its no problem Nat” Clint said as he looked at her, “But Wanda’s right”.
Natasha sighed, placing her glass back on the bar “Clint, we’ve been over this” she said, her voice barely audible.
“I know Nat but all I’m saying is, you’ve been alone for so long, dealing with everything by yourself, I don’t want your heart to break, just give yourself a chance to be happy I just wanna see you give your heart a break”. Natasha gave him a curt nod before he left.
She had turned to Clint for advice for a long time now and he had always seen her right. It helped that he was encouraging her to do something that she wanted to do. With that Natasha downed the rest of her drink and went to find you.
You were sat on the roof away from the rest of the party goers. Natasha stood by the door, watching you for a moment, she watched the way your hair move in the breeze, she watched the peaceful look on your face. Then she took in a deep breath and walked over to you, “Mind if I take a seat?” She asked as she approached you.
“Not at all” you said, a soft smile gracing your lips as Natasha sat down next to you.
“It’s a lovely view up here” Natasha said as she gazed out over the city.
“Yes it is” you said, though your eyes were fixed on her. Natasha caught you just before you looked away.
“This view is far better” she said, looking at you. She could feel her heart rate increase.
Then it all fell away, the nerves the fear. Her senses were overloaded with you. She could smell your perfume and she could feel your hands as she took them in hers. She could feel your lips pressed up against hers. She pulled you in closer, feeling your warmth against her skin. In her head echoed Clint’s words as she lost her self in this moment, “give your heart a break”.