Why?
You stood in the Avengers training room just after you got back from a mission. You were whipping blood off a few cuts on your side. That was when Natasha walked in, her mouth fell open as she laid her eyes on you. You didn’t acknowledge her presence in her room, it hurt too much. You concentrated on whipping the blood, until you felt her hand over yours as she took the gauze from your hand and whipped up the blood. “You need to be more careful” she said her voice was low and soft.
It hurt, how could she be like this with you whilst you were still falling apart, “Nat, why are you doing this, why do you care? It’s not like we’re dating anymore” you said. Pain was evident in your voice. You closed your eyes to try and stop the tears from falling.
You felt a hand on your face as Natasha gently turned your head so you looked her in the eyes, “No. I’m not okay! I’m not. Is that what you wanted to hear?” She took a deep breath as she felt hot tears form in her eyes. “I’m a mess and it’s all down to you”.
You looked at her in confusion as you said, “Then why did you do it Nat, why did you end it, us?”
Natasha lent against the lockers next to you. “Truthfully?” she said her shoulders slumped. “Truthfully” you replied your voice soft. “You deserve better. You deserve someone who isn’t going to put you in more danger, you deserve someone who can be there with you when you need them, someone who you can have a family with, someone who can give you a bit of normality, who you can bring home to your parents without them thinking about all the horrible things they’ve done”.You could see a solitary tear fall down the red heads cheek. You pulled her into you wrapping your arms around her, you could feel her resting her head on your shoulder, a position very familiar to the both of you.
“Natasha, I love you. I have never felt more safe than when I was with you, you were always there when I needed you, my parents love you, and they go on about you all the time.” You pulled away from her slightly to look her in the eyes, “Normal to me are the nights in we have, watching movies and talking, laughing, it’s the only time I’ve ever felt normal.” Her mouth was open, “Nat if we wanted a family, we could figure something out”.
She rested her forehead against yours, her arms wound around your neck as she let out a sigh, “So what now” she said. You could feel her breath on your lips.
“What do you want to happen?” you asked, as your arms found their way around her waist.
Natasha stayed silent for a minute, “Would you want me back?” she asked her eyes pouring into yours.
“Yes” you said before you felt her lips pressed against yours. You kissed back, relief and love flowing through you. You felt Natasha’s hands trail down to your sides.
You felt her pull away quickly, “You’re still bleeding” She said as she picked up a fresh bandage from the first aid kit next to you.
“You need to be more careful” she said as she wrapped the bandage around you, “I don’t want to lose you again”