Periwinkle Recollection
That year, Clarke and Lexa continued exchanging emails still. Clarke realized that it's no longer a crush. She liked Lexa very much. Clarke can tell Lexa everything about her day, about school, plays, her petty fights with Bellamy and Raven or the night out dates of her parents. She can tell her about her dogs Ruffles and Xena. Everything, except her feeling for her. She knew Lexa's going to college and there were talks they be moving to Scotland.
Lexa's mother came from Scotland and they wanted them to envive the rich history and cultural diversity of the place. Lexa had her interview and exam in University of Edinburgh. Clarke knew Lexa will pass it due to her academic excellence.
End of May and vacation time, Clarke thought about visiting Lexa. She saved enough money she got from assisting her parents from taking care of the ranch every weekend. She wanted to see Lexa before the family moved to Scotland. She felt that it'll be a long time till they meet again.
She went online and emailed Lexa
Hi Lexa,
How are you? I haven't received any reply from for days. Everything okay? If and when you're free, do tell me if I can call you.
Schools out, you don't need to worry about me having homeworks.
cares,
Clarke
She turned off her computer and looked at her bag. Chocolates bars sticking out at the side pocket. Three boys from school were courting her. One proposed of his love for her while the other two were trying so hard and looking like jerks. She entertained and talked to them but she can't shake off her feelings for Lexa.
Abby came to her room.
"Clarke, are you listening to music again? I was calling your name!"
"Lexa, Anya and Lincoln are here, they're visiting us. Change your clothes and go down immediately."
Clarke snapped herself from the surprise and directly went to the bathroom. She pulled her towel and clothes from the cabinet. She had to take a quick shower.
After half an hour,Clarke went down to find her mom, Anya and Lexa
"Oh my Lord Clarke, you're very much a lady!" Anya rose from the sofa and met to embrace her first.
Clarke wasn't wearing any jeans or shirt. She was on a skirt and blouse. She wasn't wearing trainers either. She's wearing flat shoes. Her hair was in neatly twisted crown braid. Her clear face accentuates her blue eyes.
"And you look taller" Anya smiled looking at her
"Thank you. Are you accompanying your parents in town?" Clarke asked politely
"They are, but we're leaving now with your dad, we'll have early dinner with them. You guys shall stay here." Abby grabbed her bag and went out the door.
Anya and Lexa said goodbye to Abby, as her parents were already waiting for the Griffins.
Lexa was still glued to her seat. She was mesmerized by Clarke's appearance. Clarke was about to sit down when Lexa rose from her seat and embraced Clarke.
The smell of Clarke intoxicated her. She kissed Clarke's.cheek and carassed her arms.
"Yes, you looked taller" Lexa can't take her eyes off Clarke
Clarke felt the warm blood rising and could feel her face getting red.
A loud noise came from outside as Bellamy, Octavia and Raven welcomed and hugged Lincoln.
"He wanted to wait for them outside. Your mom said they'll be arriving soon. And they did." Anya again got up from her seat to meet them.
Clarke and Lexa remained in the living room.
"I just saw your email, we were already outside your garage. I wanted to surprise you. We could have been here yesterday but mom went to another town nearby so we spent the night there. I didn't reply to your other mails so you won't suspect anything" Lexa looking at Clarke's eyes
"It's okay, you're here now." Clarke catching her breath as she couldn't contain her emotions. Lexa cared about her. She really planned to see her.
"Clarke, I ..passed!"
"I know.."
"You do? How?"
"Lexa, you're smart. I knew you'd pass any university exam there is"
"I'm sure going to miss you. I.. I..never want us to stop communicating okay? Promise me you WON'T stop communicating with me?" Lexa looked serious again
"I promise I won't stop" Clarke felt like crying
They embraced and Clarke puts her head on Lexa's shoulder. She sobbed and Lexa heard it and embraced her tightly.
"Shhh.. I will go home every year just to visit you. I will go here to have vacation so prepare your room for me."
Lexa's voice, Clarke wanted to catch them and place them in a bottle.
After awhile, Clarke disengaged from the embrace and she puts her hand to her cheeks but Lexa grabbed her hands, Lexa wiped her tears with her handkerchief.
"Don't cry when we're leaving, it's not like were not going to see each other again."
"I ...will ..try" Clarke sobbed
The guys from the outside came in and the living room got filled with laughter and stories.
"Aunt told me she made a barbeque marinade. I will heat up the grill outside" Bellamy went to the kitchen and started.
Anya asked for aprons, she puts the other one over Lexa
"You and I shall bake them some apple pies" Anya asked Lexa to peel off some apples in the table.
The group enjoyed the evening as Bellamy and Lincoln took care of grilling pork barbeque, burgers and sausages. Anya and Lexa baked two apple pies. While Raven and Octavia prepared the salad and the table.
Everything went well that evening as the Woods dropped of the Griffins and fetched their 3 children.
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A week before July ends, the Woods invited Clarke, her cousins and Raven to their home. Again, they flew using Tony's charter plane. It was their first time to visit and soon they arrived at the Woods' estate. They were in awe of the landscape and the architecture of the mansion
Once they entered the foyer, they can see two marbled stairs on both sides of the large living room. The chandeliers hanging gracefully and well sculpted Corinthian pillars towering over high ceilings.
Titus and two helpers went to assist them to the guest rooms. Clarke wondered where Lexa is. She was about to ask when someone grabbed her wrist. She turned around and saw it was Lexa. They both smiled.
"Please give me her bags, she will stay at my room" Lexa extended her arm for the helper to give Clarke's bags
The afternoon went great as they enjoyed swimming at the pool.
"Man, we should have pool at the ranch soon." Bellamy panting as he made several laps
"This house is so beautiful" Octavia certainly is still amazed by the mansion.
Anya being part of her school's swim team taught Octavia and Raven some awesome moves and tips on swimming.
That evening, Clarke was having an anxiety attack. She can't help but think about Lexa and her sleeping in the same bed again.
She can't think of anything but having Lexa kissing her and her doing the same. She read from the book that she already is beyond puberty stage and what she's in right now is the early adolescent age. That it's quite normal to experiment about sexuality.
Her thoughts were interrupted when Lexa came out of the bathroom. She spent almost an hour inside. Clarke felt she must have dozed off during her bath.
Lexa was a bit quiet, she wasn't looking at Clarke at all. It made Clarke uncomfortable for the first time.
"Is there something wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong Clarke, just remembering the things we need to pack for our flight next week"
There was silence for almost 5 minutes. Lexa was brushing her hair while Clarke checked her laptop. Lexa sat at the edge of the bed and slowly dropped down her head on the pillow. Clarke closed her laptop and puts it on the side table. She was looking at Lexa, she realized how it must be hard for her to leave and start things in another country. And here she is, thinking about love making.
Clarke extended her right arm, and without words, Lexa placed her head in Clarke's arm.
"You can cry to me, you know that right?"
"I know, but I'm not gonna cry, I'm just going to miss this house, my friend, and you..." Lexa looked at Clarke's eyes.
Clarke knew she be a goner soon as Lexa moved her head and raise it to kiss her lips for the first time. It was not only their first kiss on the lips, but first for Clarke. She was told by her dad that the first kiss are usually magical so she better give it to the best person she feels right for that moment.
Clarke partly opened her lips, Lexa was guiding Clarke and Clarke was breathing so fast, she felt her whole body's on fire.
Lexa moved her lips to Clarke's ear
"Breathe Clarke, breathe.." Lexa wisphered to her ears
Clarke puts her hand on Lexa's nape, she obeyed Lexa and her breathing started to go back to normal
Lexa moved her lips to Clarke's cheeks, then she slowly kissed her lips.
Clarke was ready this time, she affectionately kissed Lexa back. Their movements were on rhythm. Clarke escaped a moan when Lexa gently played her tongue inside her mouth. For minutes, Lexa seemed to memorize every part on Clarke's lips. She moved to her face down to her neck and continued to kiss Clarke's nape. Clarke carressed the back of Lexa's head, her hands burried in her hair.
Lexa moved down further as she found Clarke's right hand. They locked fingers and Clarke felt her body wanting more..
"Lexa, please.."
Lexa slid down and pushed her lips on Clarke's breast, she opened her mouth to suck her left breast with her shirt still on. Regardless of the clothes, Clarke feels like she's burning. She pushed Lexa's face away and she sat down, pulls out her shirt above her head. Lexa's lips were trembling at the sight of Clarke's breast, her nipples are pink and Lexa stared at it for few seconds, then she puts her lips on Clarke's nipple. She started to kiss it and suck it gently. Clarke was moaning as she gently kissed Lexa's head. Lexa moved her hands at Clarke's back embracing while she moved to her other breast. Clarke pulled up Lexa's nightgown, in front of her is Lexa's tanned body, her breast is perfect. Their eyes met again and this time, Clarke was the one who initiated the kiss. Their hands all over each other. Clarke felt Lexa's thighs, it found its way to her inner thighs.
Clarke was moaning at every Lexa's touch..and in between her moans, she uttered "I love you... Lexa's.."
Lexa froze, she then moved her head above and gazed at Clarke who has her eyes closed. She carressed Clarke's cheeks. Clarke opened her eyes and looked at Lexa.
She was staring for awhile, wondering why Lexa stopped.
"What's wrong Lexa?" as she lovingly ran her fingers on her hair
Lexa moved to kiss her lips. Clarke was trying to read Lexa's gaze. Has she done something wrong? Lexa's touching her skin and then she uttered something..
"I want you all to myself, and it would be selfish since I be leaving soon." Lexa talked slowly
"Can we have this moment and we talk about what will happen next?" Clarke holding Lexa's cheeks
"We can't, cause what will happen once I leave? We will have this memory and what if you want me here to hold you and I can't be here?" I will not blame you for having another one, but I can't live knowing that I can't be here for you when you need me"
"Lexa, you worry to much...we can make this work"
"Clarke...you're still young. You will go and move on and love someone soon."
"Why are we talking about this Lexa? You're just relocating and we can talk everyday"
"I'm sorry Clarke" Lexa moved herself away from Clarke and sat on the bed
There was a long silence. Clarke pulled the blanket up as her body starts to cool down. She doesn't know what to say. She wasn't sure what's going on. She sat down and embraced Lexa from behind. Lexa touched her hands. They were both quiet.
"Lexa, ....... whatever it is... I will trust you. I know I'm still young and you wanted to protect me. I'm thankful for that. Dad always warns me of guys who take advantage...and mom once told me, that those who can't wait often doesn't think."
Lexa kissed Clarke's hands and turned around to embrace her.
" I don't want to think about anything else but you.
I wish that you can wait for me, my sweet Clarke."
Lexa and Clarke embraced in their sleep.
The next morning, came the shock in Clarke's life. She saw Lexa in Anya's room. A half naked girl all over her. That night became the last time they really talked civil. She avoided Lexa from then on. Her pain was the worst she ever been in her teenage years.