Gone
POV Carmilla
''I'm so sorry.'' I cry while holding her cold hand. She is gone she is gone she is gone ... The doctors words keep echoing in my head. ''Please come back to me.'' I whisper. I keep holding her hand and I reach my other hand to cup her face. I caress her pale cheek with my thumb. ''I'm sorry.'' I cry again.
She is gone she is gone she is gone ... This is my fault. ''Come on just move your thumb.'' I squeeze her hand. ''Just like you did last time.'' But last time she had a heartbeat.
''Laura I don't want to live without you.'' I press her hand against my own cheek. Ice cold. ''I want to feel your warmth against my skin again.'' She is gone she is gone she is gone ...
I slide my hand down her cheek and along her neck. I rest my hand on top of her chest where her heart used to be beating. ''I want to feel your heartbeat.''
I kiss her hand. Her skin used to feel so warm against my lips. ''Come back to me.'' I cry. She is not coming back to me. She is gone she is gone she is gone ... ''Don't leave me cupcake.'' My tears roll down my cheek and on top of her hand.
''I love you.'' I press another kiss against her hand. ''You're the love of my life.'' I keep my lips pressed against her hand. ''I want to be with you. Please come back to me.''
I move my hand back to her cheek. ''Open your eyes sweetheart.'' I cry. ''Please open your eyes!'' She is gone she is gone she is gone ...
''I'm not ready to say goodbye.'' I whisper. ''Stay with me. We can live a happy life together.''
I smile weakly at the idea of her and me having a life together. ''We can move in with each other.'' I caress her cheek softly. ''We can get married.'' My smile grows wider. ''You can be my wife.'' My lips press in a smile against her hand. ''We can have kids. But only if you carry them. Because then they will have your beauty.''
She is gone she is gone she is gone ... We will never have a future together. This dream will never come true.
I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look up to see LaFontaine. ''It's time to go.'' They say and squeezes my shoulder softly.
My eyes widen. ''What? No! She has not woken up yet! We have to wait!'' I turn back to look at Laura. I get up to hover above her face. ''Hey sweetheart. It's time for you to open your eyes now.'' I whisper. ''Come on love.'' I caress my hand through her hair.
''Carm-''
''No!'' I shout at LaFontaine. ''I can't leave her! We have to wait!'' I cry. My tears fall down on her face. ''Laura please. Please please please come back to me.'' She is gone she is gone she is gone ...
''It's time to say goodbye.'' LaFontaine says.
''No.'' I cry. I press my forehead against hers. ''I love you.'' I kiss her cheek. ''I love you so much.'' I kiss her forehead. ''Please my sweet cupcake.'' I beg her. ''Please come back to me.'' I kiss her lips. Ice cold.
LaFontaine pulls at my hand. I turn to look at them. ''You are going to be okay.'' They say. ''Everything will be okay.''
I turn back to look at Laura. One last time. I look at her face for the last time. Her eyes, her nose, her lips, her cheeks ... One last time.
I turn and start to walk away.
I will never see those beautiful honey brown eyes again.
I will never feel her warm soft lips against mine again.
I will never caress her soft blond hair again.
I will never hear her voice again.
I will never feel her love again.
She is gone.