"Ms.Romanoff, with me please." Coulson's voice startled Natasha out of her daydream.
She jumped to her feet and followed him to an empty room in the Facility.
"Everything okay?" She asked, taking a seat opposite Phil.
"We need you to interrogate Y/N. He's giving us nothing, says he'll only talk to you." Phil started.
"Me?" Natasha asked nonchalantly.
Phil settled his hands on the desk before them, "We know about your relationship with him, Ms.Romanoff."
"It wasn't a relationship," Natasha spat, "and after what he's done it never will be. I have nothing to say to him."
"He has the answers we need but he'll only give them to you. I'm sorry, but there is no other way." Phil replied, his eyes softening in sympathy.
"I'm sorry he's not telling you anything but that really isn't my problem. I never want to see him again, not even to scare answers out of him." With that Natasha rose to her feet, but she was stopped by a hand on her arm.
"Natasha, please. There really is no other way." Phil looked up at Natasha pleadingly, still softly holding her arm.
She sighed. "Fine. I'll talk to him for 15 minutes. If he doesn't tell me anything in that time just know I'm not trying again."
"Understood. Thank you." Phil let go of Natasha's arm and she exited the room, heading for her bedroom.
*Flashback*
Natasha and Y/N lay tangled together in sheets, watching the sun set from the window.
"That is beautiful." Natasha murmured.
"Not as beautiful as you." Y/N replied, brushing hair from her face.
Natasha blushed but said nothing, instead snuggling further into his chest.
After a few more moments of silence, Y/N spoke up again, "I want more." It was a soft whisper spoken into her hair, but she heard it.
"More what?" She knew exactly what he meant, but she played dumb.
"I want us to be more."
Natasha froze. When this started you'd both agreed it was just going to be sex. You'd sneak into eachothers rooms after missions to let off some steam, that's all. No one knew about this, and Nat liked it that way.
"Y/N, we've talked about this. Just sex, nothing more." She sighed, turning to face him.
"You and I both know this is more than sex." He replied. He was right and she knew it. 3 months ago they'd have sex and then whoevers room it wasn't would get dressed and leave right away. Lately they cuddled, and watched sunsets, and spoke about things.
"You're right, this has gotten too intimate." She pulled back from Y/N and reached for her nightgown on the floor.
"Where are you going?" Y/N asked in shock, sitting up in bed and watching her pull her clothes back on.
"Back to my room." Natasha kept her back to him as she pulled her underwear up, then walked to the door and left without saying another word.
"This is for the best." She whispered to herself, tip toeing back to her own room with a heavy heart.
*Present day*
Natasha was sat in the interrogation room, waiting for Y/N to be brought in.
She'd thought about this moment for a long time. What she'd say. What she'd do. Most scenarios ended with her chocking Y/N against a wall.
The sound of the door opening got Natasha's attention, and when she looked over she saw Y/N handcuffed and being lead in to sit opposite her.
When it was just the two of them alone she spoke, "You have 15 minutes before I'm out of that door, don't waste it."
"I've missed you." Y/N said, reaching his hands over to touch Nats, but she moved her own hands before he could.
"How long have you been a super solider?" Natasha asked, keeping a straight face.
Y/N was silent for a moment before answering. "15 years. I was one of the last they made."
Natasha clenched her jaw. "Were you a Hydra Agent before that?"
"Yes. For two years." Y/N kept his eyes locked on Natasha's.
"Why did you become a Shield Agent?"
"Hydra needed more people on the inside. They knew once Fury found out about Project Insight he'd shut it down and if he didn't, Cap sure would. Having me and other Hydra Agents there meant we knew all the moves Shield were going to make, which helped in making sure we were always prepared with a counter attack. There isn't much Fury or Cap can do when we know their every move." Y/N answered, not able to look at Natasha any longer as guilt overwhelmed him.
"Was I part of this plan? Pretend to love me so that I trusted you? You knew Fury listened to me and trusted me, if I told him I trusted you, he would have too!" Natasha jumped for her seat and turned her back on Y/N, unable to stop the anger from consuming her.
Y/N snapped his eyes up at the accusation, "Nat no! I do love you! I've told a lot of lies but that was never one of them!" Y/N stood up too, the noise making Natasha turn and face him, "You have to believe me."
*Flashback*
Natasha knocked softly on Y/N's door before entering.
"Hey." She whispered. They hadn't seen or spoken to eachother in over a week, not since Natasha walked out that night.
Y/N looked up briefly from where he was loading his guns, "Hi."
"Look, I'm not good with feelings and all of this stuff so instead of trying to explain myself I'm just going to come out and say it," she took a deep breath, "I love you."
Y/N stopped mid gun load and stared at her, "What?"
"I thought if I pushed you away and kept saying it was just sex that we could avoid falling for eachother, but truth is I just fell for you harder. I remember once I said love is for children, but I no longer think that. I am in love with you and I don't want to be without you, not for a second." Natasha's eyes brimmed with tears, she'd never been so honest about her feelings before.
Y/N dropped his gun and ran to Natasha, grabbing her face and pulling her into a passionate kiss before pulling back briefly, "I love you too, and you will never, ever be without me." He stared into her eyes while she smiled, before pulling her back into another kiss, her hands clasping his shirt.
*Present day*
"You lied to me," Natasha whispered, "All that time you were a super solider working for a Nazi organisation and I had no idea. I slept with you. I fell in love with you, all the while you were living a double life." Natasha's voice cracked and she feared she might cry.
"I need you to know that while I do love you, I would do it all again. I know you don't see it, but Hydra is the future. I needed to be a double agent, I needed to find out what Shields game was. Falling in love with you was never part of the plan. If anything you distracted me, but in the best possible way." Tears fell freely down Y/N's cheeks as he looked at Natasha.
"Hydra has no future. You're finished. Shield lives on to fight and protect another day, just like I get to walk out of here. You chose the wrong side, and you'll have to live with what you did for the rest of your life." With that Natasha left the room.
Phil met Natasha outside of the room, "Thank you for doing that, I know it was hard. He's going to jail for a very long time now."
"Good. It's where he belongs." Natasha said sternly before walking off.
"I was right all along, love is for children." She muttered to herself as she walked to the quinjet. She straightened out her uniform before she got aboard, telling herself that she wasn't going to cry over him. She didn't cry about anything. She'd get over this. Like she said to him, she was the one that got to leave and go home, not him. She had freedom.
