No dying.
‘What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? What did I do?’ Meredith whispered to herself. Her hand was on a bomb. She had no choice it was hand on a bomb or hospital explodes and she chose hand on a bomb. Maybe she did have a choice but she didn’t have time to make it. Hannah’s hand was out and hers was in. It was all split second reactions and stupid decisions and now she didn’t know what to do. Meanwhile the hospital was in chaos, doctors and nurses working as fast as they could trying to do anything to help.
‘Is this the strangest thing to happen in your OR?’ Meredith asked trying not to sound terrified. ‘I'd have to say that it is.’ Dr Burke replied trying equally as hard. He let out a breath. ‘Good, because I'm very competitive.’ Meredith said with a hint of a laugh. ‘All the best surgeons are.’ Burke smiled nervously at Meredith. They fell into silence after that, both just waiting for some answers.
Addison’s day had been long and she was so tired but she kept working because people needed help and there was a girl upstairs with her hand on a bomb. Little did she know that it was Meredith. ‘Did you hear?’ Alex said as he ran into the ER and grabbed a chart. ‘About hand on a bomb girl? Yeah, poor kid.’ Addison mumbled. ‘Hand on a bomb girl is Meredith.’ Addison’s head shot up instantly. ‘What?’ She turned to face Alex. ‘Yeah, the paramedic got scared and ran away so Meredith being Meredith put her hand around the bomb.’ Addison handed Alex her chart as she ran out of the ER, looking for somewhere to be alone for a while. She ran into Derek on her way up the stairs, she was sobbing by this point. Derek grabbed her arm and pulled her to him. ‘Hey, what’s going on? Talk to me.’ He whispered. ‘I can’t.’ Addison sobbed, she couldn’t tell Derek she was crying because of Meredith. ‘It’s Meredith isn’t it?’ Addison nodded against his shoulder. ‘Addie, I know you still care about her so this, it’s okay. Go ahead, freak out if you need too.’ She nodded again. ‘She’s always been crazy and impulsive and done stupid things but I never thought she’d be stupid enough to get herself into a situation that could leave her dead.’ Derek nodded. ‘She’ll be fine…the bomb squad are up there, they’ll get her out.’ Addison smiled and wiped her eyes a little. ‘Yeah, maybe. I’m gonna go sit in my office for a while.’ Derek smiled. ‘Page me if you need anything.’ Addison nodded. ‘I will.’ She kissed his cheek quickly before making her way to her office.
The bomb went off. Meredith was fine, a little shaken but fine. Addison was not fine. She walked into Meredith’s room. Bailey insisted she stayed for observation. ‘Out. Everybody out.’ She said. Everyone looked at Meredith who nodded. When they were all gone Addison sat down beside Meredith’s bed. ‘I hate you. Never do anything like that again. You could have died, Meredith. And I know it’s selfish because I chose Derek but you can’t die. You can’t because it’d kill me. So, no dying, okay?’ Meredith laughed. ‘No dying. Addie, I’m fine. Just some cuts and bruises. I’ll heal. I promise, you don’t have to worry.’ Addison nodded and took Meredith’s hand in both of hers and pressed her mouth to Meredith’s fingers. They didn’t talk for a few minutes and then Meredith spoke. ‘You know I was in that OR with my hand on a bomb, knowing I might die and I couldn’t stop thinking about you? I can’t remember the last time we kissed and it was killing me. I was gonna die and not know that.’ Addison chuckled lightly. ‘It was a rainy Seattle night. You were just about to start a night shift. You had came to the hospital in sweats and your Dartmouth shirt. I found you changing in my office because someone had locked the intern locker room. You heard me come in and just took my hand and pulled me close to you and kissed me. Your hair smelled like lavender and you kissed me in that way that’s not special but that’s so special you know? Gentle and like we’d be doing it for the rest of our lives.’ Meredith was smiling when Addison finished. ‘Lavender, like my conditioner. You remember how my hair smelled?’ Addison nodded. ‘I didn’t initially but when I realised that was our last kiss, I wanted to remember every detail so I relived it in my head until I knew.’ Addison gave Meredith a sad smile. Meredith returned it and sighed. ‘You better go, this is getting pretty emotional and I don’t wanna think about it all right now.’ Addison nodded and stood up, letting Meredith’s hand fall back onto the bed. ‘I’ll see you around.’ She said as she walked out of the door. ‘Yeah, I’ll see you around.’ Meredith sighed and let a few tears fall down her face.