Happy memories
5 years earlier.
Lexa stood at the airport waiting for the blonde to appear. She didn't see her girlfriend in ten months. They had three months for themselves before Clarke went on another tour. She knew that Clarke would wanted to go on a second tour. As much as she hated being away from her she didn't want to stay on the way of the blonde dreams. She loved her so much that she knew she could survive them being apart. They called each other minimum three times in week, sometimes more. They texted and skyped. When she couldn't reach to Clarke she was occupied with her work. She recently opened a gym and she run it with Anya. The business went very good so far. She loved to be in shape and work out so she was glad she can connected her work with hobby.
When she saw a flash of the blonde hair behind the glass where the plane's passengers started to appear she grinned like stupid lovesick teenager. And she felt like one too. She couldn't control a joy and happiness fro the sight of her lovely girlfriend. She missed her like crazy and when Clarke claimed her luggage and she saw the brunette waiting patiently for her she run straight to Lexa and jump on her. Arms embraced Lexa's neck and legs her waist. The brunette didn't flinch. She didn't waved. She was strong enough to hold her. Lexa buried her head in blonde's neck. She breathed in her scent.
“I've missed you so much.” Lexa heard the word being whispered in her ear. She smiled widely and kissed the blonde's neck.
“I've missed you too.” She tilted her head to kissed properly Clarke and smiled when the blonde reciprocated sweet kiss.
“Let's go home. I want you only for myself.” When Clarke was on her feet she grabbed Lexa's hand and laced their fingers together. They went to the car. Lexa took the driver seat and Clarke sat next to her. The drive was quiet but it didn't bother Lexa or Clarke. They just let themselves be. They were finally reunited and enjoying each other company.
When the door closed Lexa was pushed against it and she felt Clarke's lips on hers in heated kiss. She was surprised but she didn't complain. Her hands traveled under the blonde's shirt. When cold fingers touched warm skin Clarke's shivered a little. She deepened kiss. She licked Lexa's bottom lip asked for permission which Lexa gladly granted. Their tongues join together in passionately dance. They have time. They didn't need to rush anything. Clarke's hands slipped in brunette's hair. After a while Lexa picked Clarke up and started to go towards their bedroom. She gently lie blonde on the bed and slipped on top of her. The blonde started unbutton Lexa's flannel. The brunette gave her arms back and let the flannel slipped down onto floor. She unhooked her bra and tossed it next to flannel. She found Clarke's lips again and started to play of the hem of Clarke's shirt. She pulled it up and took off over Clarke's head. Her lips traced a way from Clarke's jaw to her breast. She unhooked the blonde's bra and tossed it on the floor. She wanted to cherish Clarke's body the way it deserved to be. And it's exactly what she did that night.
3 weeks after.
“Oh my God.” Clarke sat in bathroom and looked at her hands where she held pregnancy test. Lexa was in work so she was alone, good. There were two red stripes. She was desperately waiting to one disappear but it never happened. She couldn't believe how this happened. They always used protection. And then when it hit her. That night when she came back from her tour. They were together and Lexa didn't use condom. They were so caught up in being with each other that they forgot about protection. How they could be so stupid. But it happened. She was pregnant. She was with Lexa 3 years officially. They talked about their future but neither of them want a kid now. Of course they wanted have one or two but that was supposed to happen when Clarke finished her internship. She have another tour with Doctors without borders to go. She wanted to go but now it wasn't a option. She knew that. She didn't know how to tell Lexa. She didn't know if she will be happy or not. Clarke wasn't too happy about her pregnancy but she wanted to keep this child.
She looked at the time. It was past fife pm. Lexa should have been home soon. She made dinner in case Lexa was in a bad mood. She knew she need to tell Lexa about pregnancy but she was so nervous to do so. When she heard the lock was turning and the door was wide open she froze. Lexa was home and the talk was closer than she wanted it to be. She came out of the kitchen and looked at the brunette. She was smiling which is good. She had a good day.
“Hey babe.” Clarke walked over to Lexa and pecked her lips. “I made dinner for you.” Lexa rose her eyebrow and smirked.
“And the kitchen stand still?” She laughed.
“Ha ha. Very funny.” Clarke rolled her eyes and went back to the kitchen. “If you don't want to you don't have to eat. But I made your favorite.” She said and a few second later she felt an arms clasped around her waist from behind and she smiled to herself when she felt soft lips on her neck.
“Of course I eat. Thank you.” The brunette said and placed another soft kiss on the blonde neck. She washed her hands and they started to eat dinner. Lexa looked at Clarke and frowned her eyebrows. The blonde seemed tense and nervous. “Is everything okay?”
“Hm? Yeah… of course. Why wouldn't be?”
“You seem nervous. So… is everything okay?” She watched Clarke took a deep breath.
“Actually no. We need to talk.”
Lexa had been taken aback by this statement but nodded her head. She washed dirty plates after dinner and when they sat on the couch she looked Clarke in the eyes. She waited patiently for her to start. With every passing minute she became more and more tense. She waited for Clarke to tell her that she going back to Africa. That she got call and she was needed on another continent. She didn't know if she could deal with another year being away from the blonde especially when the latter was here such a short time. They had been together again only couple of weeks. She took Clarke's hand and squeezed gently.
“Clarke?”
“I'm pregnant.” Her voice was barely a whisper but she knew that Lexa could hear it.
“Uff… I was afraid you have to… Wait. What?” The brunette looked at her in confusion. Did she just… Did she just tell her that she was pregnant. No… It's not possible. They use protection.
“I'm pregnant Lexa.” She told more confident. Lexa was speechless. She could told from the look on her face that she tried to process the blonde's words. She waited for some reaction, for reassurance she would be here with her. That she helped her raise their child.
“Are you sure?” Maybe Clarke was mistaken. Maybe she wasn't pregnant after all.
“I took three different pregnancy tests. I'm one hundred percent sure.” Lexa took loud breath. She sighed. So Clarke was really pregnant. What did they do now? How they handled this? Clarke supposed to go on another tour.
“You want to keep this child?” She asked afraid what she might heard I respond.
“Yes. Do you?” Clarke was sure she wanted to keep this baby.
“Yeah. What about the program?” She knew Clarke wanted to go to another tour but now it wasn't such a good idea. She hoped that the blonde stayed.
“I'm not going obviously. You and this child is more important. I can't go for another year being pregnant. I'm staying.” She was so relieved hearing this. She nodded her head and squeezed Clarke's hand again.
“Okay. So… we're doing this? We will rise this baby together.” Lexa didn't know if she's happy but she was still in shock. She had been told that the chances to have a baby was very low.
“We're doing this.” Clarke smiled softly. She was so happy that Lexa reacted this way. But she knew the brunette wanted to be a better parent for her child than her own parents. Lexa cupped Clarke's cheeks and place a soft kiss on her lips.
“We're gonna have a child.” She smiled widely and took Clarke's in her arms. She was happy now. She had an amazing girlfriend and soon her child would be born. She had a family now. Family she never had.
“Yes we are.” Clarke buried her head in the crock of Lexa's neck. They were gonna be a family. She couldn't be more happier in this moment. She was in Lexa's arms and she felt like home. Lexa was home.
Lexa smiled at this memories. She couldn't believe that Aden would be 5 in two months. She also couldn't believe that Clarke wasn't be there. She knew her son would be very sad that his mommy's gonna miss his birthday. But now she couldn't do anything about it. Lexa really wanted to know why Clarke chose to stay there. What she meant when she said she didn't have a choice. You always had a choice. And this was what confused her the most. She shook her head and knocked on Octavia's door. She was after work and she needed pick up her son. When the younger brunette opened she smiled.
“Hey O! Did he behaved?” She asked because she knew Aden sometimes caused some problems.
“Yeah, but he is a little feverish. He slept a lot today. I gave him something to lower his fever a couple of minutes ago. So everything is under control.” When Lexa heard about her son's fever immediately she went to see him. He slept on the couch and had a little red cheeks.
“Thanks Octavia. Okay… I'm gonna take him home. Thank you again for watching him. I owe you.” She picked him up and exchanged goodbye's with Octavia and drove home.
When she got home she put Aden in her bed. She wanted to have him in her bed for the night in case something happened. In moment like this she wished Clarke was here. Aden wasn't kind of child who was sick much. So when he did he usually was very grumpy. Just like Clarke. She wanted to wait for his fever to lower over the night but in case it didn't she decided she would take him to hospital tomorrow morning.