Shut the Fuck Up
Lexa was lazing about on the couch. Clarke had just left after… their bath. The brunette was scrolling through her Instagram in her cuffed track suit pants and hoodie. Anya told her that she had to keep up her media appearance to stay relevant in Hollywood. She was gaining more and more followers, likes and views every day. When Lexa first released her album, she didn’t know that it would be so popular. Arkadia was a small town so most people already knew her, but she found that people started to look at her differently.
She and Clarke had decided that they would keep their relationship on the low. The blonde wanted to start her carrier and become successful without others being influenced by Lexas newfound popularity.
After Lexa dropped ‘Lost in the Concrete Jungle’ she had been verified on all her social media platforms. She found that she only got notifications from other verified users. She saw many people that she loved and looked up to follow her and found it hard to believe that she had made it. It made her realise, this was real and this was her life now. And she liked it. Not the fact that people recognized her on the streets or that she had millions of followers on social media or the money. It was simply that she could do what she loved.
But now that she did have a steady income, she had many more possibilities. She could get away from her parents and start a life with Clarke. She loved her but she hadn’t yet worked up the courage to tell her. They were only very young but whenever she was with Clarke she just felt so much lighter. Clarke made her happy.
Lexas thoughts were interrupted by her mother calling her name.
“I’m here!” Lexa called out.
Both her parents walked into the living room, “Alexandria we need to talk,” her father informed her in a condescending tone. Her mom and dad sat on the couch across from her and she could already tell that it wasn’t going to end up well.
“We were wondering if you have applied to law school yet.” Her mother said.
“I already told you that I do not want to do law. I am pursuing a carrier in music because that’s what I want to do and it makes me happy.” Lexa argued. Her parents kept asking about it and she said the same thing every time.
“Alexandria, I don’t understand. We have done everything for you to get a good education to get into law school but you are just throwing away the opportunity and all the hardwork you put into school.” Her dad continued in a disappointed tone.
“And I appreciate it. But that is not what I want to do. Why can’t you just let me do what makes me happy?”
“Maybe if you had a boyfriend then you would be happier. There are plenty of people your mother and I know that would love to go out with yo- “
“-Why don’t you understand?!” Lexa stood up in rage. She had had enough. “I’m gay. What part of that don’t you understand? I have a girlfriend that I love. Why can’t you just be happy that I am happy?”
“It is just a phase, Alexandria.” Her father told her ignorantly.
“Shut the fuck up. I’m so done with you.”
Lexa stormed out of the house, slamming the door behind her before her parents could get another word in.
As soon as she got out of her house fear clouded her thoughts. Lexa was glad that she had finally got out but she hadn’t thought ahead. What was she going to do? Lexa had no place to stay and she had none of her things apart from her phone, the credit cards in its case and the clothes she was wearing. She didn’t even have a shirt. There was no way in hell that she was going back to her own house though.
Without thinking her feet started carrying her the only place that she ever truly felt safe and accepted.
Lexa rung the bell as she stood on the porch of the Griffin household. The singer heard footsteps getting closer and closer and she wiped the tears that were streaming down her face.
Jake opened the door with a smile which quickly turned into a frown when he saw the state the Lexa was in. “Oh honey,” he said drawing her in for a hug, “Clarke isn’t home now but you can come in.” Clarkes dad pulled back from the embrace and rested his hands on the girl’s shoulders, “you go sit on the couch. I was just making some popcorn; I will bring you some.”
“I can go somewhere else; I don’t want to intrude.” Lexa said honestly. It was a bad idea coming there uninvited, it wasn’t her home. Lexa quickly turned away to walk back down the steps.
“Don’t be silly, Lexa.” Jake offered her a warm smile and led her inside. Jake was one of the most genuinely kind and accepting people Lexa had ever met. He reminded her a lot of Clarke. Ever since she had met him, he had shown nothing but warmth kindness towards her.
The brunette went and sat on the couch and waited for her girlfriend’s dad to come back. It was only about a minute before he returned with two bowls of popcorn.
“Clarke and Abby are out grocery shopping, but they should be home in about an hour.”
“Okay. Thanks for letting me in, Jake.” Lexa said sincerely.
“You are always welcome here, Lexa. Always. Do you want to talk about it?”
Lexa didn’t reply for so long Jake thought that he wasn’t going to get an answer.
Lexa contemplated it for a moment longer before answering, “I walked out on my parents.” Lexa paused, taking a deep breath before continuing, “I tried to tell them that I didn’t want to do law school and that I was doing music but they didn’t listen. And then they started saying that I should get a boyfriend and that me being gay was just a phase. I was already thinking about moving out and getting an apartment but I never got the courage to do it. I guess I just got angry and decided that I had had enough of them so I just walked out.”
“Well you are welcome to stay here for as longs as you like. Are you sure you are okay?” He asked. Most of the time when people asked that question, Lexa could tell that they didn’t care what the answer was. It was usually a meaningless question but Lexa could see the sincerity in the eyes of Jake.
“I’ll be fine.” Lexa tried to say as convincingly and possible. The brunette saw that Jake saw right through her lie but he let it go.
“What do you say to a movie before Abby and Clarke get home?” Jake said warmly.
The doorbell rang and Jake went to answer it. He opened the door and was met by the rest of this family.
“I’ll help you take the shopping in honey. Lexa is in the living room Clarke.”
Clarke excitedly made her way into her living room to find her girlfriend on one end of the couch. “Hey Lex.”
“Hi Clarke.” Lexa greeted with a small smile. Just the site of her favorite blonde made her instantly happier.
Clarke noticed how sad the brunette looked and the dried tears on her cheeks. “Is everything okay?” The blonde asked worriedly as she went and sat next to Lexa and entwined their hands.
“I had a fight with my parents so I came her. Your dad let me in.”
Clarke pulled Lexa in for a hug and soothing stroked her head. “Are you alright?”
“I’m much better now.” Lexa replied as they cuddled on the couch.
“I’m here if you want to talk about it babe,” Clarke kissed the top of Lexas head.
It was only 8:30 but Lexa was tired as fuck. “Can we just go to bed?”
“Of course.” Clarke led her girlfriend by the hand up to her bedroom after biding her parent’s good night.
When the girls got into the blonde’s bedroom, Clarke shut the door behind them. Lexa took her hoodie off leaving her in her Nike sports bra and cuffed track pants. She then got into bed.
Clarke quickly changed into her Pjs before joining the brunette. They cuddled up close and quickly fell asleep.
Lexa would be forever grateful for Clarke. She didn’t know what she would do without her. She never questioned her and was always there was she needed her. She loved her so god damn much.