Chapter fifteen
It's been a couple of months, and I think it is time to tell Kelley. The others have been so supportive of me of keeping it from Kelley, and I am so grateful for it.
We were currently sitting on the couch cuddling watching Spongebob. (Kelley's request.) I decided that it was now or never.
"Kel we need to talk." she muted the show and turned to looked at me with a concerned face. "Is everything okay?"
"Hopefully it is when I tell you. All I request is that you don't say anything when I tell you." she nodded her head never breaking eye contact with me.
"It was hell out there. It honestly was. What you didn't know about me being over there is that I was captured and raped and tortured by four men. I honestly thought that I was never going to see everybody, and expecally you ever again."
I started to slip into a flashback as I continued to talk. "It really did scare me. I lost a ton of weight. They starved me, only gave the what little I needed to survive. They would rape me over and over again, they would hit me and smack me, until I passed out."
"Just stop please!"
When I heard that, I jumped back into reality, and I stopped immediately and looked at Kelley who was a sobbing mess.
"Oh Kelley I am so sorry. I didn't mean to go into it like that. I didn't mean to make you cry."
"you were so hurt out there Ashlyn, and I was here playing soccer." Kelley sobbed out. "You were out there getting raped, getting beat, and barley surviving, and I was out on the pitch, just kicking around a soccer ball!"
At this point Kelley was just yelling nonsense, and crying, and it hurt me to see her like that.
I slowly stood up as she was facing a corner and wrapped my arms around her waist and slowly walked back and sat on the couch, and slowly cradled her.
I slowly started singing a song I heard on the radio.
I met you in the dark, you lit me up
You made me feel as though I was enough
We danced the night away, we drank too much
I held your hair back when
You were throwing up
Then you smiled over your shoulder
For a minute, I was stone-cold sober
I pulled you closer to my chest
And you asked me to stay over
I said, I already told ya
I think that you should get some rest
I knew I loved you then
But you'd never know
'Cause I played it cool when I was scared of letting go
I know I needed you
But I never showed
But I wanna stay with you until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go
She looked up at me with red puffy eyes and said, "I'm not giving up on you, and I promise you I won't go.