Chapter eleven
3 months later
Kelley pov
Christie and Carli left about a month ago. I can acutally say things are going good for me and Ashlyn. I have been getting back on a good eating and workout schedule, while being able to have time for myself.
Ashlyn decided to get Cujo licence as a therapy dog for herself, because after going to the doctor, she found out that her and Cujo had separation anxiety from eachother. But all of that was besides the point. I was excited because tonight was my first night back at camp since shit hit the fan with my health. Jill had also agreed to let Ashlyn come and practice with us.
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We were all sitting around the lobby just talking and joking around when Ashlyn said something that I wish she didn't say. "Whats been going on with Alyssa? I haven't seen or heard from her since I got back to the states."
Everyone looked at me like I should explain to Ashlyn. All of a sudden my hands started to get sweaty, and then I just couldn't be there anymore. I stood up and just left the room.
Ashlyn PoV.
I just sat there confused at everyones faces and the reason why Kelley just left.
Julie let out a sigh and stood up. "Ashlyn bring Cujo and follow me," she stated getting up fast. I got up quickly and followed her to the elevator. Before I knew it me and JJ were standing in front of Jill's room.
"Why are-" "please don't ask any questions yet," JJ practically pleaded as she knocked on the door.
Jill opened up the door and saw me and Julie standing at the there and let us in. Jill and Julie immediately started to exchange some words. The only phrase I really heard was, " she asked about HER, and Kelley walked out so I thought I would tell her." "Tell me what?!" I asked still completely confused.
Jill looked at me and then back at Julie, and then slowly said, "We need to talk to you about Alyssa." " What's wrong with the silent assassin?!" I asked slowly started to panic. Julie came over and wrapped her arms around me to try and get me to calm down.
Jill came down and sat on the bed with me, and then she started to speak. "Alyssa has been in the hospital the last 4 months." "What do you mean? She is in the hospitalz and no one decided to tell me!" I said. Julie looked at Jill who nodded.
Julie looked at me and began to speak. "please do not say anything until I get done because this is a really hard story to tell. One reason why we think Kelley went off the deep end so hard is because she found Alyssa almost dead a week before you came home."
I gasped trying to hold back tears. Wanting to know what happended. I nodded at JJ to continue.
"We came back from dinner, Alyssa didn't go because she said she didn't feel good. We believed her and well that is besides the point. Like I said we got back and we all decided to hang out in mine and HAOs room until curfew. Kelley said she had to go to her room for something and to also check on Alyssa. It was less than 2 mintues since I stepped into my room when I heard a scream from Alyssa and Kelley's room. I ran into their room thinking it might be a spider, but what I saw was completely different."
Julie had to pause for a second trying to regain her composure. I slowly rubbed her leg as she continued.
"I just saw Alyssa just laying there in her own pool of blood. I yelled for Jill and called 911 as Kelley stood there in shock. After Alyssa got transported to the ambulance is when I saw the note laying right next to the bathroom."
I looked up at Julie, and then to Jill who was silently crying. I looked at them with pleading eyes to please read the note. I needed to know what was said on it. Jill nodded and then told Julie it was in the drawer. Julie got up and got the note and sat back down. She then started to read the note.
Everyone, Expecally whoever found me. I am so sorry that you have found me like this. Maybe you found me on time maybe you didn't. I wanted to tell you that I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't deal with all this pain anymore. I was tired of not feeling like I should be here at camp. That I didn't belong with any group. I have also been struggling with my sexuality. I know anyone of you guys would be like " you can talk to me if you want to. You know I will listen." I know you guys would listen, but the person I have been wanting to talk to is all the way in Iraq. I know she will be back in 3 months, but I can't do it anymore. Hopefully this time being the silent assassin will finally pay off. I love you guys from the bottom of my heart, and please tell Ashlyn I am so sorry.
Alyssa.
Julie slowly finished. I just sat there shocked not quite sure what I should say or do. I looked at Jill and said " I need to see her. I want to see her!"
Jill nodded and then said " tomorrow I can take you. I will tell Becky and Carli to run practice for the most part. They will understand."
I nodded at Jill, and then told the both of them goodnight. I walked out of Jill's door stright into the stair well. As soon I hit the stairs I collapsed and started to cry.