Chapter 2
Laura was happy. She was happy with her boyfriend Kirsch. She was happy with her best friend Carmilla. Laura wanted both of them. She knew Carmilla always wanted more, to be more than friends, but Laura had Kirsch who made her feel safe. So she teased Carmilla, so she would stay, and she dated Kirsch so he would too. Kirsch and Carmilla loved Laura, but they didn’t love each other. They were constantly fighting for Laura’s attention and time. Laura loved the banter, and she couldn’t choose between them.
Although, if they had a huge fight...Laura would pick Carmilla because they have known each other since birth. She loved Carmilla and she desperately wanted her attention. But Carmilla was her broody self, and Kirsch was safe, nice, and a good lover. Laura could take Kirsch to meet her overprotective dad, and they would talk about football and bond together. Carmilla already knew Laura’s dad, and they bonded over very little together.
Laura knew she was being selfish, and she knew Carmilla looked away whenever Kirsch and her made out. She use to think Carmilla was selfish for not wanting to be just friends, but that was until Carmilla got a new ‘study buddy’ and started dating her. Laura had become so jealous, kirsch and her got into a huge fight. Kirsch told Laura to pick between him and Carmilla...
And she picked Kirsch, because he was safe. Carmilla was a wild card, she was unpredictable, moody, sexy goddess. Laura couldn’t control herself around Carmilla.
Kirsch always knew Laura loved someone else. In fact, he didn’t expect the relationship to last as long as it did. He would never hurt Laura, and all he wanted was for her to be happy. But he was also incredible jealous of Carmilla, so he got possessive of Laura whenever she was around. It was hard to compete with Carmilla Karnstein.
Love is a very dangerous word. Carmilla was not in love with her teacher, that would be insane. She was infatuated, lustful, and wishful. She never had a chance. But that didn’t stop her from being a horny teenage boy, who smiled every time she saw her calculus teacher. Carmilla had to stop herself from smiling, she was acting foolish. It was a crush, and nothing more. Carmilla could have anyone else in the whole world, except for her calculus teacher. That was inappropriate, disturbing, and weird….well...Ms.Haught was only five years older than her. Fresh out of college Ms. Haught seemed to be the topic of conversation throughout the school. Senior boys gathered around their lockers talking about how ‘hot’ they thought she was.
Carmilla sneered at them, she wasn’t some shallow teenage boy. She thought Ms.Haught was stunning, beautiful, and smart. She didn’t need to brag about how hot Ms. Haught was. Everyone already knew. But for Carmilla it was only a dream.
“Carm, you passed my locker!” Laura stormed down the hallway at her best friend. Carmilla kept walking to Calculus, when she remembered her daily morning routine.
“Sorry cupcake, I totally forgot” Carmilla turned to face her friend. Laura was glaring at Carmilla, and she shrugged her shoulders.
“Were you thinking about the new calculus teacher?” Laura squinted her eyes, and she crossed her arms. Carmilla remembered their conversation from yesterday, and tried to act innocent.
“What? No way, that's gross creampuff” Carmilla shrugged it off and continued to walk to her class. Laura followed but she wasn’t convinced.
“I told you, it will never happen,” Laura sighed. “Maybe you need to find someone your own age,” Carmilla was silent, she had dated plenty of people Laura didn’t approve of.
“Sure, let me just find the next available lesbian in our school,” Carmilla held the door open for Laura, as they entered the classroom together. They both sat in the back row, with Carmilla’s chair closest to the window. After the bell had rang, students had filed into the classroom with Ms. Haught closing the door behind them.
“Good morning class, please open your textbooks to chapter 5” Ms. Haught had already filled the board with various equations. Laura excitedly scribbled down everything she saw on the board, while Carmilla kicked up her feet and enjoyed the ride.
It was no secret Carmilla sucked at math. She made it into calculus, but only because Laura tutored her since freshman year. Laura was good at every subject except history, and Carmilla was good at every subject except math. They both obtained good grades, but Carmilla had to work hard, while Laura just knew the material and didn’t need to study.
Though Laura had an advantage over Carmilla in calculus, but Carmilla couldn’t concentrate on the lesson. She was staring off into space, and Laura wondered what Carmilla was thinking about.
Laura grew with rage, and she whispered at Carmilla.
“Can’t you pay attention?” Laura nudged Carmilla with her foot. And Carmilla shook her head, her eyes never left the teacher. Laura held back a growl, and turned to write some more notes.
After class, Kirsch met up with Laura and Carmilla. Kirsch didn’t exchange words with Carmilla, but whispered to Laura about things. He knew that it annoyed the crap out of Carmilla, to be left out and forgotten. Laura giggled as Kirsch wrapped his arms around her, and whispered into her ears.
Carmilla tightened her grip on her calculus book, and tried to walk ahead of the couple.
“I think I’m going to go home creampuff,” Carmilla turned to face them. Laura pushed Kirsch away, and looked concerned.
“Are we not going to hang out tonight?” Laura’s eyebrows rose. “It is a Friday Carm…” Laura and Carmilla always hung out Friday nights. Sometimes Kirsch was invited, and sometimes he wasn’t. Tonight he was invited.
“I think I’ll pass on tonight, I have a lot of homework,” Carmilla shifted her weight and looked at the ground. She was lying so she didn’t have to see Laura and Kirsch together. It hurt sometimes.
“Whatever Carm,” Laura looked down too, she was hurt whenever they canceled Friday nights.
“I’ll see you Monday,” Carmilla turned around to leave. Kirsch went to comfort his girlfriend, while Carmilla walked fast.
Friday nights were a sacred tradition for Carmilla and Laura. A month ago, when she started inviting Kirsch, things became different. Carmilla had canceled two times, because Kirsch would be there. Laura knew the reason, but that didn’t stop her from inviting Kirsch. Kirsch had requested to be there, and Laura couldn’t say no to him.
So Kirsch was on the couch with Laura in his arms. They would probably make out, then cuddle for the rest of the night. Laura didn’t want to have sex with Kirsch, until they were more serious. Plus, somewhere inside of her, she knew she wanted the right person to be there with her.
She pictured Carmilla and wondered where she was. Maybe she went out with Laf and Perry, or maybe she’s at home, or she’s out with another ‘study buddy’. Laura grew silently furious at the thought of someone else touching Carmilla.
“Babe, you okay?” Kirsch’s strong arms wrapped around Laura. Laura just shook her head and cuddled into Kirsch. This night was going by so slowly.
Carmilla, on the other hand, was at home watching a movie with her cat. The same movie Laura would have picked out if they hung out together. Sometimes it was better for them to be separated, and isolated from each other. Laura was poison, and Carmilla was slowly dying from overdose.
She also couldn’t stop thinking about her teacher, but that’s another fantasy that would never come true. It was only a few weeks into the school year, and she hadn’t exchanged five words with the new teacher. She just adored from a distance, it would be her dirty little secret.
Except Laura knew every secret of hers. Laura was her best friend and secret crush. But it would never happen because she’s dating Kirsch. She doesn’t want Carmilla when she has Kirsch. So here she was… alone on a friday night...crying onto her cat.
A few weeks later, Carmilla rushes into her calculus room. She was late again, and it was mostly her fault. Ms. Haught stopped in the middle of her teaching, and with a small sigh she wrote on a little slip of paper and gave it to Carmilla.
“Detention,” Ms. Haught shrugged, and Carmilla took it and went to her seat. Laura had barely noticed Carmilla sat down, she was too busy writing down the equations. Carmilla slumped into her seat, her face red from the stern words, she got a detention from her favorite teacher. She was embarrassed, and humiliated, and…
“Carm?” Laura looked up at her. “What are you doing here?” Laura noticed the yellow slip.
“I get to spend detention with Ms. Haught” Carmilla sighed for show, and tried not to smile.