4th date
Laura was not freaking out. Laura was definitely, one hundred percent not freaking out about her date with Carmilla this Wednesday. She could plan a date, how hard can it be? People do it all the time; hell Carmilla did it 3 times already. And she knows Carmilla, so this should be easy.
Laura was wrong; it’s not easy at all. What if she messes up, what if Carmilla hates whatever she plans, she took Laura to 3 incredible dates it almost seems wrong to not return that kind of sentiment. Laura paced trough her living room thinking, listing pros and cons of simple dinner at an Italian restaurant, or a movie, or a walk. It all seemed too simple, too common. Not worthy of Carmilla.
Laura reflected on her dates with Danny, somehow they always ended up going to see a movie or a game, not that Laura complained then, but now, now she doesn’t want to be that kind of couple with Carmilla. She wants to show brunette beauty how much she cares.
“Damn it Hollis, think!”, Laura said to herself. And then it hit her, perfect, low key but incredible idea for a “middle of the work week date”.
WEDNESDAY
Laura got stuck in the office following up on an article she wrote that morning. She was not going to be able to go home before her date with Carmilla. Journalist texted the brunette to pick her up at work around 7pm apologizing in advance that she won’t be picking Carmilla up from her home.
“Hey cutie”, Carmilla greeted visibly grumpy blonde.
Laura just launched herself towards the other girl, pulling her into a tight hug. “Sorry”, Laura mumbled, “I read somewhere that hugs are a great way to relieve stress”.
Brunette kissed her temple and just squeezed her tighter, “you don’t need a reason to hug me”.
After a few minutes in Carmilla’s arms, Laura was stress free and ready for their date. She grabbed the brunette’s hand and dragged her into a car. They drove to a park on the rim of the city. Paths in the park were lighted by low neon lights that barely reached to people’s knees, creating almost a perfect darkness. The night was warm and bright, perfect for the things Laura had in mind.
They slowly walked hand in hand, just talking, being with each other, and when they reached a pasture Laura pulled blanket, sky charts and a pair of binoculars out of her backpack.
“I researched stargazing”, the blonde admitted, giving the other girl a sky chart, “those articles said that we don’t need a telescope if the sky is crystal clear”.
Carmilla hummed in agreement, pulling Laura down to sit on a blanket, between her legs. They sat like that for some time, Laura absorbed everything that’s Carmilla – her voice, the way her hands feel, the way her lips feel. It was a perfect night after a horrible day at work. She could get used to this, to this feeling of serenity and she was finally not afraid of it.
It was almost 11pm when they reached Laura’s front door and Carmilla said she is leaving, making Laura feel gloomy again. She hoped that the brunette would stay, so they could finally spend the night together and not just cuddled up on the couch watching TV.
Laura tried not to dwell on a fact that Carmilla left, but the thought kept on bugging her so she texted the other girl needing to know the answer to many questions that popped in her mind.
Laura (00:23): Do you not find me attractive?
She didn’t expect a reply this quick; she thought that Carmilla fell asleep.
Carm (00:24): What?
Laura (00:24): You left…
INCOMING CALL: Carm
Carm (00:25): Laura pick up
Laura (00:26): it’s easier not to hear your voice now Carm…
Carm (00:27): okay
Talk to me
Laura (00:29): you left
Carm (00:30): you got work tomorrow cupcake
Laura (00:30): I know
Carm (00:31): tell me what’s wrong
Laura (00:33): we haven’t had sex yet
Carmilla stared at her phone, she tried typing something, but she didn’t know what, what should she say…
Carm (00:41): okay…
I don’t get it
Laura (00:43): you don’t find me attractive
Carm (00:43): Stop saying that!
Laura (00:44): I know how “dating thing” goes
Laura started typing next sentence when Carmilla answered quickly.
Carm (00:44): NO YOU DON’T!
You’ve been in a 7 year long relationship straight out of high school
You haven’t dated after that, not until now
So cupcake you don’t know how the “dating thing” goes
May I call you? Please, I just want to say something to you, you don’t have to talk
Laura (00:52): okay
INCOMING CALL: Carm
“Cupcake, this is a good step in our communication, you are not drinking in some bar that’s too punk for you”, Carmilla’s voice was light, she was trying to calm herself not wanting to freak out Laura even more than she already was, “listen, I really didn’t want to do this over a phone, but Laura, every relationship is different, we all have our own pace. You and I, we are transiting from friends to something different, I don’t want to mess that up by going way too fast”, she was quiet for a moment, trying to form a next sentence, it was hard talking like this, being cautious of someone’s feelings, in all her life Carmilla never really cared enough to do that. “And do I find you attractive? Jesus, Laura!” She huffed and decided to give a poor girl something to think about, “just kissing you makes me wetter than ever”. She heard Laura gasp and chuckled. “Are we good? Have you stopped freaking out?”
“Yes. I’m sorry”, the blonde said softly.
“You don’t have to be sorry for talking to me cupcake. I’ll always be there to listen to you.”
Laura had tears in her eyes, she was overwhelmed by the feelings she had for Carmilla, and by the way the other girl is talking to her, like she is the only thing that matters. “Thanks Carm, I needed to hear that”, she admitted, and yawned. “We should go to sleep or you’ll be grumpy all day tomorrow”, Laura said, now with a light voice.
“Good night cupcake.”