Chapter 2
Liam began nursing more frequently. He'd latch on at almost anytime. From me lounging about on the couch, at meal times, at bedtime and even during pack meetings to which Derek and I had to explain that this was normal behaviour from Liam.
He began mouthing at my chest whimpering in my arms when Scott had to actually stop the pack meeting and give me the "it's ok, we're cool with it" look as I nursed Liam. I helped him lay down more comfortably in my lap as he waited looking up at me with his puppy dog eyes that melted my heart. I started to unbutton my shirt and remove from breast from my bra to which Liam latched on hungrily suckling and soon began to relax as I played with his hair gently running my fingers through his short sand coloured locks.
"Slow down, sweetheart. Mommy's right here. I'm not going anywhere ok? I'm right here", I cooed at him and pressed a soft kiss lightly to his forehead.
"Do you think this will become a regular thing?", asked Derek as he gently stretched Liam's leg over his lap so he'd be more comfortable.
"I think so, I'll have to start lactating properly again since he's starting to feed three maybe four times a day.", I replied focusing on Liam as I stroked his cheek slowly smiling down at him happily nuzzled against my chest feeding. It was at this moment where I felt a warmth feeling in my heart. I was the pack mom. The one that Liam had confided in with everything, the one he's chosen to be his mommy and provide for him regardless. I felt love, warmth and needed. My baby needed me.
A few days passed but the schedule remained the same. Liam would feed after each meal and then once before bed. He'd wake up for school, have breakfast, feed for a while and then I'd drop him off. He even started to come home during lunch to make sure he wouldn't miss out. However I had started to notice that Liam would regress more as after lunch one day during the week he had some spare time before going back so I let him get settled on the couch and watch tv but instead of watching his usual array of shows I had walked back into the living room to find him quite intrigued by the animated show paw patrol. At sat down beside him on the couch and thought whether or not I not I should see what his mindset is like as of now.
"What're you watching, baby?", I playfully asked as I played with his hair.
"Paw patrol" he giggled adorably after imitating the dog's bark smiling up at me with his big beautiful baby blue eyes that were sparkling with delight at the cartoon playing on tv. I scooped him up onto my lap and he turned to watch the tv sitting comfortably whilst continuing to mimic the dog's bark on screen followed by sweet childish laughter.
After a while, I slowly moved Liam off my lap and onto the couch so I could quickly relieve myself heading to go up to the bathroom.
"Mommy...", Liam whimpered holding on to the fabric tugging at the bottom of my shirt.
"I'll be right back, honey. I promise. Count to 10 for me", I told him gently ruffling his hair and quickly got up heading upstairs to the bathroom. When I started heading back downstairs towards the living room, Liam had forgotten about counting and snuggled up against a large wolf plush toy that he had clutched in his hands. I saw Derek sitting beside him with a smile on his face. This was happening a lot lately. Derek was smiling.
"Wow, what've you got there baby?", I cooed at him sitting beside him on the free seat on the couch.
"Wolf", he replied holding out the plush toy to show me. His eyes sparkling with delight and a big grin on his face.
"I stopped by the store to get a few things and saw it, I thought he'd like something like a soft plush toy to help keep him calm when he regresses to a much younger mindset", he explained smiling at how much Liam loved it. The plush toy had beautiful long grey and white fur that Liam would stroke absentmindedly as he watched tv and it had a soft velvet nose as well as two beautiful glass blue eyes that sparkled just like Liam's.
This was the first time I'd seen Liam smile so widely. He hugged the wolf and went back to watching tv snuggling into my side placing his head on my stomach and holding onto his new wolf tightly. I couldn't help but smile and leaned down to place a loving kiss on his crown.
"That's a really great idea", I replied smiling at him, I knew Derek didn't get it to help Liam. He got it for him because he really did care about the little beta.
"It's beautiful, honey. You know you'll have to think of a name for him", I told him lazily playing with his hair. He looked over at the wolf in his hands still stroking it's fur before looking up at me with big hopeful eyes.
"Moon" he smiled.
"Wow, that's a great choice baby!", I replied excitedly pressing another kiss to his head.
"Isn't it a good name, Derek", I ushered him to praise Liam glancing from him to the pup beside me.
"Oh yeah, great job pup", praised Derek. As little effort as it was, it was adorable seeing the hopefulness on Liam's face when he looked at us for acceptance. His eyes sparkled like stars and he had the most adorable and excited childlike smile on his face which made my heart help.
That afternoon, Liam was far too absorbed into such a childlike state and he radiated such happiness that both Derek and I didn't have the heart to force him out of him to go back to school so instead we let him take the afternoon off and stay with us. I had texted Mason to make sure he wasn't worried as why Liam did f return to his classes simply stating we were taking care of "werewolf stuff". Liam passed out shortly after the cartoon finished with his body practically begging for sleep so we let him sleep on the couch for a few hours until the pack arrived later tonight for another weekly pack meeting.
Liam woke up feeling refreshed but looked around the living room too see the pack gathered.
"Morning, sleepy beauty", replied Stiles who laughed ruffling the young betas hair to which Liam didn't take too kindly too pouting adorably as he swatting Stiles' hand away. I walked into the living room with large piping hot mugs of hot cocoa topped with whipped cream and toasted marshmallows accompanied by a plate of colourfully iced sugar cookies for the pack to dig in to which they did, practically diving for the mugs before I even set the tray down.
"Hi honey, did you sleep ok?", I asked sitting beside him at the end of the couch next to the fire place hauling him on to my lap, placing a kiss to his forehead and wrapping my arms around him gently rocking him. We sat like this for a while actually listening to what both Derek and Scott were saying until Liam started to nuzzle at my chest.
"Mommy...can I?", he asked looking up at me with his big blue eyes. I nodded at him and kissed his forehead before unbuttoning my shirt and leaving Liam to latch on by himself which he did feeding slowly.
"Stiles, I can feel your eyes practically burning a hole through my chest", I stated without looking at him instead concentrating on Liam who looked up at me with sweet innocent eyes. I could hear Derek growling under his breath.
"If this is going to bother you all then I'll take him upstairs", I told them.
"No no, it's cool it's just slightly odd..." He trailed off.
"I know but we talked about this. This is what Liam needs to feel safe, secure and loved.", I continued.
"Plus it's hot", replied Scotf smiling and looking at my chest until Derek slapped the side of his head.
"That's my wife", he growled.
"It's ok, we understand and we're here to support Liam no matter so leave him be and let him nurse", defended Lydia.
After 30 minutes, Liam released my breast and sighed contently.
"All done, honey?" I cooed taking a tissue from the box that sat on the coffee table infront of us and wiped his mouth.
"More", he shook his head attempting to put the same nipple back into his mouth and pouted when he didn't.
"Ok but you need to switch sides", I told him helping him up and switch so he could continue to which he did. Liam was especially clingy afternoon as he started nursing twice as much whimpering when I pulled away.
"No baby, you'll get a tummy ache if you have too much. Try and sleep, honey", I told him quickly buttoning up my shirt and grabbing the blanket from the arm of the couch and lightly putting it over Liam as I continued to rock him.
"Sssh, sleepy time now my little one", I cooed at him rocking him in my arms running my fingers through his hair. I began humming a lullaby and soon his eyes drifted shut and he began to fall into a deep sleep with his tummy full of warm milk he smiled contently as he rest in my arms.