the visit
Its been weeks since Erin had been discharged, the were celebrating a bust down at their favorite bar having a blast well, except for erin. She's starring off into space reliving the night holtzmann had her date, whatever her name was, even though holtzmann was sitting next to her laughing at Abby's joke she couldn't help but feel pain in her chest, she use to love it here but now all she could think about was holtz and that girl, how it was disgusting that they were practically fucking on the dance floor, how the girl was one of holtz's friends with benefits, how she was forced to see the girl every other night since Erin had recovered, how that girl wasn't her. She was pulled out of her thoughts by a hand waving in front of her face, her eyes landed on holtzmann who was looking concerned.
"Earth to Erin" Erin forced a smile easily, something she found herself doing a lot.
"Erin to Earth what's up" holtz shook her head laughing, Erin wasn't sure why her line wasn't funny.
"Want another beer?"
"Um no thank you holtz, I think I'm going to head home anyways" Erin began to gather her things when holtz layer a hand on her shoulder
"Walk you home?" Erin wasn't sure why but anger bubbled inside of her, she could see the pity behind holtz's blue eyes and she hated it, it's all she ever saw anymore pity. Holtz didn't flirt with her anymore not since that night in the hospital, she was always out with a different girl each night she felt...replaced. She shrugged the blonde's hand away and quickly made a bee-line to the exit not seeing the hurt look cross holtz face.
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True to Erin's word she didn't come back to the firehouse, only when there was a bust. She emailed her finding to Abby and rarely left her apartment she couldn't handle being around holtzman. Every night before bed she stared at the angry red scars contrasting against her skin she wondered briefly about plastic surgery but quickly wrote it off. She traced her hand lightly over the jagged scar just a few inches below her collorbone.
She cried herself to sleep that night, one of the many nights spent like this.
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Erin awoke to a rustling in the kitchen, she panicked and grabbed the closest thing to her, a candle, and stalked quietly into the kitchen she noticed it was just Abby and relaxed lowering the candle. Abby turned just in time to see her.
"Were you going to hit me with....a candle?" She started cackling wiping tears from her eyes. "Oh my god thats some funny shit"
"What are you doing here?!" Erin pouted crossing her arms.
"I am under strict orders to 'drag your tall ass' out of the apartment." Erin thought for a moment there are a few people who called her that, she furrowed her brow it couldn't be..her eyes widened and her face practically glowed like a Christmas tree.
"Is it beca??" Abby looked shocked, how did she guess so fast? Abby's face only excited Erin further she quickly shot of to her room to get dressed.
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Beca was one of the few famy members that she got along with, beca was her younger cousin on her fathers side being roughly ten years apart from each other. Beca and her sister were the only ones to believe her when she said she saw a ghost, beca and Stacie both beluved her and stood up for her whenever she was picked on, often times beca would help her skip therapy and they would go hang out in a park. Beca was barely 5'2 while her twin sister was around 5'8 they were the only ones who really loved Erin.
"I'm ready!" Erin called out as she walked into the living room.
"Let's go you know how irritated she gets when your late" Abby hailed a cab and off they were, unknownst to Erin beca wasn't visiting on a happy occasion.