Chapter 1
Erin wasn't jealous, nope not even the smallest bit. She definitely wasn't glaring hole into the back of a certain blonde's head while she made out with some random girl on the dance floor of April's pub. She felt a soft nudge from Abby who was looking at her with concern written all over her face
"Are you alright?"
"Huh? Oh yeah I'm fine, I'm just gunna" Erin geastured to the bathroom before drinking the last bit of her beer. She stood, a little wobbly but that's what seven beers will do to you, she stumbled into the bathroom locking it behind her. She didn't understand, and there wasn't much that Erin gilbert didn't understand but she couldn't just wrap her head around why holtz would flirt with her all day only to make out with strangers on a dancefloor. Maybe she was just stupid and was reading to much into holtz's playful flirting. Of course holtz didn't like her nobody did not even Phil he only wanted her for sex and the occasion meal.
Erin's thoughts were interrupted by a loud knocking at the bathroom door.
"Sorry I'll be out in a minute!" She wiped the tears from her face and checked the mirror, nothing a little make up couldn't fix but she left her purse with Abby. Screw it shell just leave and text Abby to bring her her purse tomorrow. Another loud knock sounded and she groaned to herself whoever was on the other side wasn't very patient. Erin opened the door and was met with a frazzled blonde and her stranger, great could her night get any better?? She pushed past the blonde ignoring the fresh tears pouring out of her eyes, she couldn't let Abby and patty see her face so she slipped out the back exit and started her walk home
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Erin slammed the door to her apartment and finally allowed herself to cry, not just tears but full out heart wrenching, body racking sobs. She shouldn't being crying she was used to this but this time it somehow seems worse then Phil and the others this was holtzmann. She forced herself into her room, sight blurred by tears, she flopped down on her neatly made bed and cried herself to sleep for the first time in a while.
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Abby and patty were beyond worried at this point, they had figured Erin was just in the bathroom or had gone out for fresh air but holtzmann had just informed them that Erin had left almost twenty minutes ago, it wasn't like Erin to leave without saying goodbye or at least leave without her purse, something was wrong and Abby had a sinking feeling that holtzmann played a large part in it. Abby signaled to patty that they should go look for her when her phone vibrated on her pocket.
Text from Erin: hey, sorry I went home without saying bye I was really tired I even forgot my purse could you just leave it at my desk in the fire station? Thanks xx" Abby read the text over and over and she wasn't fooled, this made her even more suspicious of her best friend but she decided to drop it for now at least they knew she was safe.
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the next day Erin, surprisingly, was the last one to show up even with holtz walking like the living dead. None of them had drunk as many beers as holtzmann but they were all nursing slight hang overs. Instead of talking to Abby and thinking her for keeping her purse she just picked up a stack of papers claiming she was going to work from home and to call her if they needed her. She had not seen holtz yet and she didn't plan on seeing her until she was ready. She quickly packed her things into her bag but wasn't quick enough
"Hey hot stuff" holtzmann was wearing her signature smirk despite the bags under her eyes. She couldn't speak to holtz not after last night and opted to ignore the blonde instead packing her things a little more quickly and more forcibly than necessary. "Erin?" Nothing. "Did I do something wrong?" Erin scoffed at that but still refused to speak. "Seriously? What did I do?"
" do you wanna know what you did Jillian? Huh? Do you really? Here I'll tell you. You sit here and flirt with me all freaking day making me fall harder and harder and.. And the night I plan on acting on my feelings you fuck some girl in the bathroom of my favorite bar! I can't ever go back to that bar now holtzman and then to make things even worse you come in here hung over practically the walking dead and still have the audacity to flirt with me! Fuck you." Erin rose her voice loud enough to make holtzmann flinch and hold her head groaning. She packed the last of her papers and stormed out of the firehouse leaving a shell shocked holtzmann and a gaping abby behind calling over her shoulder.
" I won't be back I'll email my work to Abby." And she was gone. Holtzmann's mouth was gaping as was abby's, Abby knew of Erin's crush but had no idea it was this bad. Patty walked in a few minutes later.
"What did I miss?"