Turn Away (A Hollstein Fic)

Carmilla (Web Series) Carmilla - J. Sheridan Le Fanu
F/F
G
Turn Away (A Hollstein Fic)
Summary
{AU INSPIRED BY TWENTY ONE PILOTS' "CANCER" (MCR) COVER}Laura: *I didn't plan this. I wasn't supposed to meet anyone. I didn't want to hurt anyone.*Carmilla: "why do I have a feeling you're going to bring chaos to my entire life?"She smiles at me
All Chapters Forward

'It's a Date'

Laura's POV:

"You're doing great Laura, I'm really proud of you for continuing treatment" Doctor Lafontaine says checking my charts, preparing to release me for the day.

"It wasn't exactly my decision." I smirk.

"Ah yes, that infamous father of yours convinced you I assume?"

I nod.

"Well, I'm glad he did." They smile. "It's good to see you again Laura, though I wish it were under better circumstances." They send me a sad smirk. I smile assuring them that I was okay.

Doctor Lafontaine has been my treatment doctor for over 4 years now. They, along with their wife Perry, were kind of close to me and my dad for awhile. I stopped treatment a year ago and didn't ever think to visit them. I felt bad about it but I needed to get away from here.

"It's nice to see you too doctor Lafontaine-"

"Please, call me Laf, I think we've known each other long enough Laura." They smile and sit beside me.

"Of course." I send a friendly smile. Laf was one of my best supporters, other than my father, when I started treatment. They were basically my only friend when I started isolating myself. I didn't mind Laf's company at all. They were very friendly and their wife was supportive as well. My father and I would join them for dinner some days when I didn't have treatment. Although that was a year ago and we had hardly talked since, Laf still welcomed me with open arms and Perry still said hi every time she passed by me in the park walking her dogs. It was nice.

"Well I think that's all we have scheduled for you for today. How are you feeling?" they say putting the chart down.

I grab my jacket.
"It's a little rough getting back on this. Nausea is definitely something I did not miss."

They smirk at me.
"We'll give you some medications to try and help control the symptoms."
I nod.
"And how was the first day?"

"It was.." I pause, "actually pretty okay. I was late due to the usual morning sickness but overall it was nice." I smile causing Laf to cheer up.

"I'm so glad you're going to school Laura, you've got an amazing mind and those writing skills of yours are definitely gonna get you somewhere far in the near future." They say with so much hope in their voice and eyes.

I just manage a smile. Future. How little I knew about it. It was always changing. I never knew if I'd even make it that far, but I admired their enthusiasm for me to get better.

"Thank you Laf." I say genuinely. "I'll see you Wednesday?"

"You got it Frosh" they smile at me and help me grab my bag. "Take it easy Laura, and drive safe."

With a small smile and wave I walked out the door to my car. It was dark out already and I hadn't visited my spot today due to class so I decided to drive by, grab a coffee, and sit there for awhile.

When I got to the park with my coffee in hand I noticed a dark figure sitting on my bench. It was strange to see anyone at this time of day but I considered them to be no harm and went to sit down anyways. Without looking at the person on the bench I sat down and looked straight at the sidewalk before me. It was quiet and it was very cold. My coffee warmed my hands and when the rim of the lid touched my lips it gave me a chill. Fall was always one of my favorite times of year. The scents, the sights, the feeling, was absolutely lovely.

"Evening cupcake" the figure beside me says causing me to jump and bite my tongue.

"How in the... are you following me?" I say thrown off guard. Carmilla laughs loud.

"No actually." She smiles calmly. "Did I startle you, I'm sorry." She says scooting closer to me to observe me.

"I'm fine." I say sitting back against the bench. It was quiet now, which I enjoyed. How did this girl always end up near me. This was really starting to get weird. The silence was calming but I couldn't help speaking.

"Are you sure you're not following me?"

She frowns.

"I'm really not I swear. We just happen to be in the same place at the same time. It's strange but I don't mind." She says putting her hands in the pocket of her jacket. "Besides, your shocked face everytime we meet is quite amusing."

I smile and begin to blush. I quickly snap myself out of it.

"It's just weird I guess." I say playing with the coffee holder wrapped around my cup.

"I can leave if you'd like?" She says beginning to stand.

"No it's okay." I shake my head. "I really don't mind." I give her a small awkward smile. It was a public bench after all.

"I should actually be going. I've got some things to take care of." She takes a sip of her coffee. "Still free for tomorrow though?"

I give her a confused 'I'm not sure' kind of look.

I had almost forgotten she asked to hang out tomorrow. I really shouldn't be allowing myself to hang out with her. Hanging out meant getting close and getting close was not ideal for me. I didn't plan this. I wasn't supposed to meet anyone. I didn't want to hurt anyone. I see her staring at me as if she were lost in thought. She finally opens her mouth to speak,

"Why do I have the feeling you're about to bring chaos to my entire life?"
She smiles at me.

Her smile brings warmth to me oddly. The way her lips curl when she's preparing to smile makes me feel some sort of way that I couldn't explain. I hadn't felt this attraction for someone in a long while. I never allowed myself to. The pain it could cause later was always a haunting image in my mind but somehow, she managed to break that wall inside me, forcing me to actually want to give in to her.

"I suppose... I could do tomorrow." I shrug my shoulders and look at her as her smile begins to glow more radiant than before.

Oh dear. Maybe I shouldn't have, I instantly begin to regret my decision.

She puts her hand out for mine and I place it in hers. Her touch was warm and my hands were extremely cold, I hope she didn't mind. To my surprise, she places a gentle kiss on the back of my hand causing me to blush and look down.

"It's a date then creampuff," she winks at me. My head instantly snaps back up to her in confusion

"W-what I didn't.. I mean I.." She laughs at my struggle again.

"Calm down Laura, I'm just teasing you." She laughs letting my hand go. I relax and feel the cold rush back to my hand so I place it around my coffee.
"I'll see you tomorrow." I nod and she waves walking away.

As painful as this could end, what harm could having at least one friend do. I can't help feel regret for this.

- - - - -

Carmilla's POV:

 

Well that was adorable. I think to myself walking to my apartment. I was late to go hunting with Mattie, and I knew she'd kill me for that. Oh well. I had a reasonable explanation and didn't regret a thing.

When I got to my apartment Mattie was there to greet me at the door.

"Where have you been!?" She says angrily.

"Cool it Mattie, I was occupied." I say opening my door and allowing her to step in first.

"Well it better have been worth it, I'm starving." She says walking into my kitchen.

"Well help yourself to a blood bag, we can hunt tomorrow night." I place my keys on the table and sit down, relaxing into my sofa with a big smile on my face.

Mattie walks to the living room and looks at me observingly.

"What?" I say annoyed.

"Oh no. No no no, Mircalla you did not meet someone did you?" She says crossing her arms.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I turn the TV on to a movie.

"You know better Mircalla. We swore we'd never get too involved with humans. We both know how hard it is to-"

"Mattie I know okay? I'm not getting involved." I say angrily. "So I made a friend, where's the harm in that? Chances are I won't be around long enough to 'be involved' with her anyways." I roll my eyes. It was true. Me and Mattie didn't like staying in the same location for too long so getting involved wasn't an option. "You need to lighten up. I'm just trying to have some fun okay."

"Don't play too long with your food Mircalla" she says standing and walking around the sofa. She bends behind it and whispers in my ear, "because if you play with it for too long, you might grow attatched." She runs her fingertips across my neck causing my back to tense up a bit at her cold touch but I keep a straight face as she stops and stands up fully, smoothing out her clothes.

"See you tomorrow night hun. Don't be late." She says rushing out the door leaving nothing but a gust of wind behind her.

I sigh and relax into the sofa again. I don't plan on getting involved. I knew it would be a bad idea either way, but I had no intentions of harming her. Mattie was wrong. She wasn't my snack or food, she was a friend. A beautiful adorable friend. I shake my head trying to shake the thoughts. Maybe it was time I was off to bed. I turn the TV off and go to lay in my room.

Mattie needs to lighten up. This really was just for fun.. I mean.. I'm sure it was?

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