Moving on
This first month of school came and went. Lexa has spent all her free time, since that party the first week, with Costia. She dedicated all her time to making sure her girlfriend was happy. This meant that she has not spent enough time with her cousins or friends. Lexa has not talked to Clarke at all during the past month. If they were in the same space, one of them would always find an excuse to leave. It was just easier this way.
It was now Friday night and Lexa was taking the night away from Costia and was just hanging out in her dorm. She hears her phone keep going off so she grabs it and sees what is happening. The group chat was going crazy.
Raven: Guys whats going on tonight? I’m bored
Octavia: I thought you were going to dinner with Clarke
Monty: Jasper and I are just hanging in our dorm
Raven: She ditched me to go on a date
Bellamy: Woah, she is on a date? With who?
Octavia: Seriously who is she out with?
Raven: Some guy from her bio class. He's been trying to take her out all week
Monty: Good for her
Raven: Can we just have a night in? Pizza and movies? My dorm in about an hour?
Octavia: Lincoln and I will be there
Jasper: We will be there
Bellamy: Sounds good
Anya: I’ll be there
Raven: What about Lexa and Costia?
Lexa: Costia is busy tonight and I won’t be there
Raven: You are next door, you will be there. We haven't seen you in forever.
Lexa really did not want to go. She just wanted to stay in and relax. It had nothing to do with the fact that she would be in Clarke’s dorm while Clarke was on a date. Well she was trying to convince herself of that.
Clarke was happy that she finally had a chance to move on. The handsome boy in her biology class has been trying to get her to go out with him all week. The first time he asked her out, they exchanged phone numbers and have been talking constantly since. She agreed to go out with him tonight and he would pick her up at 7.
Clarke was anxiously waiting for her date to pick her up. She chose to wear black skinny jeans, a flowing white tank top with white vans. Just as the clock hit 7 there was a knock at the door. Looking over at Raven, who was laying on her bed, and said “Bye Rae, I'm going out. Don't wait up” Raven just looked up at her and said “Bye have fun.” Raven was low-key mad that Clarke ditched their plans but she was happy her friend was finally moving on. She decided to text the group to try to make new plans.
Opening and walking out of the door, Clarke see her date standing there looking handsome as always. She walks up to him and hugs him. “Hey Finn” she says to him and smiling he replies “Hey Clarke, you ready to go?”
They leave the dorm building and head to Finn’s car. The head to Grounders for dinner. It’s a burger place and they've both been dying to try it. They both order burgers and fries. After they pay, they decide to walk around the local park before heading to see a movie.
By the time that they reach the theater, all the movies are sold out. “Dammit! I’m sorry Clarke, when I checked earlier none of the movies were even close to being sold out” says Finn with a pout.
“Its okay, Finn” says Clarke with disappointed laced in her voice. “You can just take me home now”
“Aww come on Clarke don't be like that. We can do something else” Finn tries to reason.
Clarke just looks at him with a smile and says “no really it’s okay. I kind of ditched Raven for our date so it would be good to go home a little earlier”
“Alright then, I’ll get you home” says Finn. They both start walking back to his car so they can head back to Clarke’s dorm.
Raven has spent the last 20 minutes trying to clean their dorm room. She also ordered about 6 different pizzas since all her friends will be coming over. She just finishes cleaning when there is a knock at the door. Opening it she sees that Monty, Jasper and Bellamy are the first ones to arrive.
“Hey guys, just make yourself at home. The pizza should be here soon.”
After they sit and start talking, Raven gets a text saying that the pizza guy is outside the dorm building. Grabbing her wallet, she runs out the door. She then literally runs into Anya, almost knocking the girl over. “Where is the fire Reyes?” Asks Anya with a smirk on her face.
“Sorry, the pizza is here. Make yourself at home” says Raven over her shoulder and continues running towards the main door. She makes it downstairs, pays the pizza guy and carries struggles to carry the pizzas back to her dorm.
Making it back to her room, she sees Octavia practically dragging Lexa out of their room, with Lincoln’s help of course. “Guys just let me go” groans Lexa.
“Not a chance in hell Lexa, you’ve barely hung out with us all month” says Octavia as she continues to pull Lexa out of their doorway and towards the door next door.
“Lincoln I’m your cousin, you should be on my damn side” Lexa says while throwing a glare at Lincoln.
“Sorry Lex, but it’s true. you haven't made any time for us”
“Ugh I know that but I’ve been trying to put Cos first for once” Lexa feels bad. She knows she should've spent more time with her friends and cousins but her relationship with Costia needed this past month. “Okay fine, stop pulling me. I’ll willingly continue walking to the door.”
With that, Octavia and Lincoln both release their grip on Lexa’s arms. When they see Raven approaching, Lincoln automatically takes the pizza boxes from Ravens arms. “Here let me help you with that.”
“Thanks Linc” Raven says as she holds the door open for Lincoln. Lincoln puts the pizzas down on the table and says “Pizzas here, everyone dig -“ before he can even finish his sentence, everyone is rushing towards the pizza boxes. “You guys are a bunch of animals when you are hungry” Lincoln says before laughing.
After they were all full, they are trying to decide what movie they should watch and of course none of them could agree on a genre. They finally agreed on a horror movie which happened to be Texas Chainsaw Massacre. They are all so focused on the movie that, about halfway through, they didn't hear the door open. Suddenly the light turned on and they all start screaming.
“WHAT THE FUCK CLARKE” yells Raven after pausing the movie. Looking over to where she just walked into the room. “You just gave us all a damn heart attack.”
Clarke just starts laughing “you guys are the one that decided to watch a movie in the pitch black, not my fault.” Up until this moment she hasn't realized that Lexa is in the room. That is until she looks around the room and her eyes lock to the green ones sitting across from her. Clarke’s eyes go wide. She hasn’t really seen Lexa in a month and she didn't expect her to be in her dorm room.
Raven understands what is going on and she decides she needs to help. “So Clarke, how was the date?”
Clarke rolls her eyes. Of course Raven would ask her this now. When everyone is around to here it. When Lexa is around to hear it. “Uhh it was good.”
“You don't sound confident on that, princess” Bellamy says to Clarke
“Princess?!” says Lexa out of the blue.
Lexa has been sitting there minding her own business. After the awkward eye contact she didn't want to give Clarke an excuse to look at her again so she just sat there. Quiet. She really didn't want to listen to how well Clarke’s date was but she couldn't leave without making it a big deal since she was across the room from the door. Well that was until she heard Bellamy call Clarke princess. It slipped from her mouth before she could even stop it.
“Yeah Lexa, that is her nickname” says Bellamy
Lexa looks at Clarke and their eyes lock again before she says “I know it is, just didn’t know she still went by it” After she says that, she can see sadness in Clarke’s eyes.
“What do you mean still? Octavia asks “Rae I thought she got it in high school?”
“I thought she did, by the time we became friends, she was already being called it” Raven says in reply. “So yeah, what do you mean still Lexa?”
“Why don’t you ask Clarle? I’m sorry I need to go” Lexa is up in a flash and heading to the door.
Clarke finally breaks from her trance and says “Lexa wait!” this gets Lexa to stop. “Guys, Lexa is the person who came up with the nickname. It was on my 10th birthday and she was one of the only people to called me that” Her voice is shaky and laced with emotion by the time she finishes talking.
“Oh I NEED to hear the story behind it, common Lexa tell us” begs Raven.
“Another time guys, I’m sorry. I really need to go” says Lexa as she walks out of the door. She is about to open her door when she hears “Lexa”.
“Why do they all call you ‘princess’ Clarke? asks an angry Lexa. It was always HER nickname for Clarke. The only other person that was allowed to call Clarke that was Wells. He was their best friend (closer to Clarke) and basically like a brother neither of them had.
“They heard Raven call me it and then they just started” explains Clarke.
“Why does Raven even call you it Clarke? What.. since I was gone, your new ‘best friend’ had to fill my place and call you the nickname I created for you?” Lexa is mad and the anger is building in her.
“No Lexa, no that’s not it at all” Clarke manages to get out before she starts sobbing.
Lexa is taken back by Clarke crying but still needs to know why “then what is it?”
“Junior y-year of high s-school, W-Wells got into an a-accident” She says between sobs. “He.. he didn't m-make it. He d-died. He… he left me t-too.” Clarke manages to get out.
Hearing this Lexa automatically hugs Clarke and holds her close. “Shhh Clarke it’s okay.” Lexa is trying to comfort Clarke and stop her sobs.
Gripping onto Lexa like her life depends on it, she manages to tell Lexa the rest. “A-after he died, Raven s-started to call me ‘princess’. She k-knew he a-always called me it. She did it t-to comfort me. S-Since then, it has just stuck. I’m s-sorry”
Lexa’s heart is broken hearing this. “No I'm sorry Clarke, I shouldn’t have freaked out and got mad without knowing the details. I’m sorry you had to go through this and I couldn’t be there for you. I’m truly sorry. I just thought you were trying to replace me” While saying this all she has been rubbing Clarke’s back to help stop her sobs.
“I tried, but you're irreplaceable” Clarke says so low that if Lexa wasn't listening she would've missed it. Hearing this it just makes her hold Clarke closer and tighter.
After a while, Clarke stops sobbing and they just stand there for a few minutes longer. Clarke finally pulls back from Lexa. Being held by Lexa felt nicer than it should have. Looking at Lexa, she says “Thanks Lex”
“You don’t have to thank me Clarke. This talk made me realize a lot has happened in the 5 years I’ve been gone. I think maybe we should talk about it all and catch up.”
“A lot has happened that’s for sure, but yeah I think we should talk about it. Maybe sometime next week?”
The fact that Clarke wants to talk makes Lexa smile. “Sure Clarke next week works. Anytime you’re free let me know” Opening her door, she looks back at Clarke and smiles “goodnight princess”
Clarke smiles at hearing Lexa say that and replies “goodnight commander.”