Chapter 1
Lena Luthor wasn't sure if she knew what love was. She had parents that said they loved her, but their constant coldness made her realize their words were never true. She had Lex, whom she loved and thought loved her in return, but the recent attacks on her life these past months were proof of the contrary.
So maybe it wasn't that she didn't know what love was; she just didn't know what it was like to be loved.
So when Kara Danvers came into her life, Lena didn't know what to think. She didn't realize that Kara was falling for her when her interviews turned into daily visits, which turned into daily lunches, which lead to movie nights at Kara's. She didn't know that Kara was falling for her when she would show up at L-corp when Lena was the only one in the building, to make sure she had dinner and company until she went home. She didn't know that the butterflies that entered her stomach when Kara invited her to her apartment to watch movies were present in Kara's as well. She never could have guessed that someone could fall for her, especially not someone as pure, as beautiful, as perfect , as Kara Danvers.
And since Lena never even considered it possible for Kara to fall for her as she had fallen for Kara (and she had fallen hard for the ball of sunshine that lit up her life, with her ability to see the good in anything, to make her laugh at anything, to accept her despite her last name) she flirts. Shamelessly. Because why not when you don't have a chance with the person you're flirting with.
Since she was convinced that she unlovable, Lena doesn't notice how Kara looks at her; like Lena is the center of her universe. How, after awhile, Kara's touch lingers longer than any friend's should. How on movie nights she spends more time watching Lena than the movie itself. How she does everything she can to make Lena happy. How she shares the same feeling for Lena that Lena feels for her.
Today was no different. Lena didn't notice (or maybe thought nothing of) how Kara was looking at her with more intensity than normal. She also didn't think anything of it when Kara slowly shifted closer and closer to her on the couch in Lena's office as they shared they're daily lunch, making idle conversation. And after Lena flirted the whole time and Kara got embarrassed and talked too much, Lena announced that she better get back to work. So Kara quickly picked up all her things and made for the door, until she jerked to a stop in the doorway.
"Is everything alright Kara?", Lena asked, slightly concerned with how tense Kara seemed. Lena watched as Kara slowly made her way back to her desk, fiddling with her glassed, an apprehensive look on her face.
"I-I was wondering if maybe you wanted to go out to dinner with me tonight?", Kara's voice went up an octave near the end and her eyes were everywhere but on Lena, " I mean, I completely understand if you aren't free though!", she barked out before Lena could even open her mouth, "You are a very busy woman I'm sure, with being the CEO of a huge company, I'm sure you have a whole bunch of work! And it's Friday night, I'm guessing you have plans and, you know, this was a stupid question, I'll just be-"
"Kara!" Lena nearly shouted, staring wide eyed at the rambling woman in front of her.
"Yea?" Kara asked quietly, flushed with embarrassment and looking down at her fidgeting hands.
"Are you asking me out on a date?" Lena asked quietly, trying to hide her smile and failing to keep the hope out of her voice.
"Y-yes, if that's what you want. Which, I mean, I completely understand if that's not what you want! It's-"
"Kara," Lena interrupts, smiling at Kara's dear-in headlights look, "I would love to go out to dinner with you."
Kara's signature mega-watt smile comes back full force, and Lena wonders if anyone else notices the sunshine that radiates from her when she smiles.
"Really!?"
"Yes really," Lena chuckled happily.
"Great! Perfect! I'll, umm, we can, umm,"
"Kara,"
"Yes?" Kara whispered, embarrassed.
"How about I meet you at your place at eight and we can go wherever you have planned in my car," Lena said, a smile gracing her lips and growing by the second.
"Yes! That's a perfect idea!"
"Good, I'm glad," Lena chuckled, enjoying Kara's happiness far too much.
"So I'll just be going now, and, yea, I'll see you at eight, tonight. For our date. Tonight," Kara rambles as she slowly backs out of Lena's office.
" I'm looking forward to it," Lena's voice drops a few octaves and her smile widens as Kara backs into the door frame on her way out.
As Kara leaves, and the butterflies that Lena feels in her stomach whenever she is with Kara lessen, a sense of reserved sadness washes over her.
Don't get her wrong, she's overjoyed that Kara wants to go on a date with her, she's dreamed of it for as long as she has known the reporter. But she knows that once Kara gets to know her for her she really is, an unlovable Luthor, she will move on and crush her heart. And Lena would be damned if she didn't enjoy every second with Kara Danvers before that happened.