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Lexa sighed happily as she continued to gaze at the sleeping blonde in the seat next to her. After ‘celebrating’ their engagement long into the night and waking late the next morning both Clarke and Lexa had decided to just enjoy the day in bed, exploring each other’s bodies, before leaving the next day. It took quite a bit of coaxing and a promise of a hot bubble bath when they got home to get Clarke out of bed at six in the morning to arrive on time to their eight o’clock flight.
Almost instantly after boarding the plane Clarke had leaned back in her seat and closed her eyes, falling asleep in seconds. Lexa had shook her head and chuckled lightly before fastening Clarke’s seatbelt as the captain began announcing their departure. Now, almost four hours later, Lexa just rested in her seat, hand loosely gripping Clarke’s, as she watched the sleeping beauty beside her.
Clarke had barely bothered to make herself presentable for their flight home, obviously too tired to care. Her blonde hair was thrown hazardously into a high bun with her baby hairs framing her face, a t-shirt stolen from Lexa clung loosely to her curvy frame, and her hips were clad with a pair of black Nike shorts. As Lexa’s eyes traveled down the length of Clarke’s body she couldn’t help but let her eyes linger on her flat stomach a little longer than normal.
Images of a heavily pregnant Clarke, rubbing her tummy as she whispered sweet comforting words to her unborn child, flittered through Lexa’s mind. As Lexa became lost in the continuing image of Clarke softly caressing her swollen tummy she failed to notice the set of ocean blue eyes that began to flutter open beside her.
“A penny for your thoughts, Lexa?”
Lexa’s eyes snapped away from Clarke’s stomach and shook her head to clear herself of her thoughts before locking eyes with the woman next to her,“Uh, sorry. I just zoned out for a bit. I guess I’m a still a little tired from last two nights.”
“The great ‘Commander Lexa’, worn out from a little…’fun’…with her girlfriend. Who would have thought?”
Lexa threw a playful glare at Clarke, who smirked smugly, as she remembered the woman’s silly drawing,“You and this Commander thing. I’m beginning to regret not tearing up that drawing when I first saw it.”
“Don’t lie. You know you love it,” Clarke leaned over in her seat to place her lips right below Lexa’s ear to whisper into it seductively,“Besides, I think it would be hot to see you like that. Black war paint around your eyes as you kick some ass. That’s something I would love to see.”
“You put a lot of thought into this,” Lexa said, not being able to help the shiver that ran down her spine at the darkening tone in Clarke’s voice.
“Just enough to know that you’re definitely dressing up as ‘Commander Lexa’ for Halloween.”
“As long as you’ll be by my side as my queen.”
“Hmm, I like the sound of that.”
Lexa shifted slightly in her seat to face Clarke before placing a chaste kiss upon her lips. She could feel the corner of the blonde’s lips quirk up in a soft smile before she pulled away. Lifting their still joined hands, Lexa laid a quick kiss to the back of Clarke’s hand before looking down at her empty ring finger.
“We’re going to have to do some ring shopping one we get home. How will people know you’re mine without one?” Lexa teased.
Clarke rolled her eyes,“They’ll know because if anyone tries to make advances towards me ‘Commander Lexa’ will have their ass.”
“Now I’m going to need some war paint to scare off any suitors that may try to swipe you from under my nose,” Lexa said thoughtfully before giving Clarke a fixated gaze,“By the way, why don’t we keep this little ‘Commander’ thing between you and me when we get home?”
“Sure, we can make it our little secret.”
Lexa’s eyes narrowed slightly as she heard the barely contained sarcastic tone roll off Clarke’s lips. As the captain announced their arrival in LA all she could think about was how much she regretted not destroying Clarke’s little drawing when she had the chance.
“‘Commander Lexa’! This is the best thing ever!”
Lexa now sat in the back of Anya’s car, arms crossed over her chest in mock anger, as her eyes sent daggers towards Clarke. Her girlfriend -fiancé- had apparently taken a photo of her drawing and when they met Anya and Raven out in front of the airport she just had to show the two women. Raven had belted out a full blown belly laugh, earning them a handful of curious gazes from everyone around them, and Anya had chuckled deeply before shaking her head with a smirk at the blonde’s drawing.
“Clarke, you sure know exactly to depict my sister. When she’s out in the field you would think she’s our Captain with how commanding she is,” Anya said.
Lexa glared evilly in the review mirror at a smirking Anya,“That’s because apparently none of you know how to keep your head’s out of your asses long enough to do your jobs.”
“You know that’s so not true,”Raven protested as she turned in her seat to look at Lexa,“I may not be out actively in the field with you guys but I’ve listened in on communications more than once. You’re just naturally bossy, Lexa. Get over it.”
Lexa huffed loudly in defeat as Raven turned back around without another word. Muffled giggles sounded out next to her and Lexa looked over to see Clarke holding her hand over her mouth to stifle her laughs.
“And just what’s so funny?”
“She’s got a point. You are pretty bossy…especially that one night in bed,” Clarke said as she winked in Lexa’s direction.
Lexa’s mouth dropped open and a deep blush settled over her cheeks as Anya and Raven began laughing once again. Clarke stared at her playfully as the two women in front of them wiped tears from the corners of their eyes and letting their belly laughs fall into the occasional giggle. Lexa snapped her mouth closed as Anya pulled into their apartment parking lot and parked before turning around, eyes landing on Clarke, on giving her a proud smirk.
“And this is why you’re my favorite out of anyone she’s ever dated.”
As Clarke threw her head back with a laugh Lexa rolled her eyes before opening her door and making her way out the car. Anya, Raven, and Clarke climbed out of the car, still holding back bouts of giggles, and followed Lexa to the trunk to help remove the luggage.
As Raven and Clarke climbed the stairs to Clarke’s apartment, Lexa and Anya made their way towards Lexa’s. Unlocking the door, Lexa let it swing open before walking in while dragging her suitcase behind her. Anya walked past Lexa to place the bag filled with the little souvenirs from their vacation on the couch before plopping down onto Lexa’s couch with a sigh.
Lexa quirked an eyebrow before moving over to the couch and sitting next to her sister,“Okay, what’s going on?”
“Raven and I are dating,” Anya said quietly.
“About damn time! You both have been dancing around each other for how long now?”
“Long enough, I guess.”
Emerald eyes narrowed at the older girls response,“Are you not happy about finally dating Raven?”
“No, it’s not that. I just…I’ve never been good at the whole dating thing, Lex. I mean, there’s something different with Raven and I don’t want to mess this up,” Anya said as she met Lexa’s gaze.
“Then just talk to her. Explain to her that you’re not used to dating and it may take some time. If Raven really cares about you she’ll understand and help you work through it.”
Anya searched Lexa’s eyes for a moment before nodding her head positively,“I can’t believe I’m going to say this, but I guess you’re right. Thanks, Lexa.”
“No problem. What are younger sisters for, besides annoying the shit out of you?”
Anya and Lexa chuckled for a moment before the door to Lexa’s apartment was thrown open by a very excited blonde. Clarke came bounding over to the couch and wormed her way into the space between Anya and Lexa before looking up at the older Woods sister.
“So I hear you and Raven are finally dating! Honestly, I was beginning to wonder if you both would just continue to sneak around and pretend like nothing was going on,” Anya looked taken aback at Clarke’s words and the blonde only shrugged,“Well, it was pretty obvious with the way you guys acted around each other. If I can recall I think there was even one time when I saw you grab Raven’s ass at Grounder’s.”
Lexa covered her mouth as she snorted out a laugh at the shocked look on Anya’s face. Clarke sat between them with a devious smirk as she stared Anya, who glared evilly at Clarke, down. Lexa couldn’t contain her laugh any longer at her older sister’s next choice of words.
“I take back what I said in the car. I hate you the most out of everyone Lexa’s dated.”
After the three women finished their little moment on the couch Raven had walked through Lexa’s door announcing to Anya that they had thirty minutes to get to their movie on time. At Clarke and Lexa’s confused facial expressions they had explained their plans for a date night before officially making their way out of Lexa’s apartment.
Clarke and Lexa sat in silence for a moment before Clarke pushed herself off the couch and spun around to smile softly at Lexa,“As much as I would love to stay and cuddle on this couch I really should go up and wash some clothes before tomorrow. I was actually going to talk to you about getting everyone together for a dinner tomorrow night and announcing our engagement. Unless it’s too early. I don’t want you to feel pressured to do anything.”
Lexa stood up quickly and rubbed Clarke’s upper arms to try and calm the rambling blonde,“Hey, it’s okay. I think tomorrow night would be perfect. The faster everyone knows, the faster I get to marry you and call you Mrs. Clarke Woods.”
Clarke smiled dreamily as the name slipped off Lexa’s tongue and wrapped her arms around the brunette’s neck and pulling her close.
“Then tomorrow night it is. I’ll make sure my mother is there and we’ll group chat everyone else the plans. Oh, we should invite Indra, Gustus, and Maya too. That way everyone is there.”
Lexa nodded in agreement before covering Clarke’s lips with her own in a sweet kiss. They allowed themselves to get lost in each other for a few moments before pulling away and softly knocking foreheads. Ocean blue eyes clashed with emerald orbs before Clarke slowly pulled away and letting her hands drop to her sides.
“Well, I guess I’m going to go work on those clothes. I’ll see you in the morning, okay?”
“Yeah, maybe I’ll even bring you some breakfast in bed,” Lexa said as she followed Clarke to the door.
Clarke opened the door and stepped out into the hallway before spinning around and gazing happily at Lexa,“I would love that. I’ll admit your cooking may be a little better than mine.”
“Probably,” Lexa said as she leaned against her doorframe,“I’ll see you in the morning. Good night, Clarke.”
Clarke paused for a moment before moving closer to Lexa and placing a warm gentle kiss to her cheek,“Good night, Lexa. I love you.”
“I love you, too, Clarke.”
Clarke’s smile widened momentarily before backing away from Lexa and making her way towards the stairs that lead up to her apartment. After watching the blonde disappear down the hallway Lexa sighed deeply and pushed herself off the doorframe and shutting her door as she stepped back into her apartment. Stopping a few steps into her main living area Lexa glanced down at the large suitcase that sat in front of her.
Grabbing the handle Lexa began to pull the bag behind her as she made her way across the room and down her hallway towards her small laundry closet that held her washer and dryer. After opening the bag and placing some articles of clothing into the washer, Lexa started the machine and began making her way towards her kitchen to make herself a warm cup of tea.
As she placed the water filled kettle on the stove a sudden knocking coming from her front door momentarily startled her. Moving away from the stove and towards her door, Lexa’s eyebrows furrowed in confusion at who was possibly standing at her door. Another knock sounded as Lexa glanced through her peep hole and she couldn’t help the large grin that split over her face. Unlocking the door, Lexa flung the door open and came face to face with a sheepishly smiling Clarke, her suitcase in hand.
Pushing Lexa back, Clarke closed the door and leaned her suitcase against the wall next to the door. Spinning around the doctor quickly closed the space between them and placed her hands on Lexa’s shoulders before hopping up and wrapping her legs around the brunette’s waist. Lexa hurriedly gripped Clarke’s ass to help steady her as she adjusted to the sudden weight change.
“I got back to my apartment and I got lonely. So, I figured why do my laundry up there when I can just do it down here with you. I even brought my own laundry detergent.”
Lexa shook her head at her fiancé’s crazy self before looking up longingly into her ocean blue eyes,“Well, we can’t have you being lonely, now can we?”
Clarke shook her head negatively.
“I guess we’ll just do your laundry here and keep each other company. Sound good?”
“Or we could just skip washing the laundry and do something a little more…dirty,” Clarke whispered huskily into her ear.
Lexa laughed lightly before leaning her head back and sealing her lips with Clarke’s in a passionate kiss. After the detective had moved them over to the couch she placed Clarke on her back and hovered over her and let her hands slip under Clarke’s shirt to graze the silky skin of the blonde’s hip. As Lexa’s hand moved right under Clarke’s breast a sudden screaming coming from the kitchen had them both jumping up and glancing around the apartment for the offending sound.
Lexa let her head dip down and laughed as her eyes caught sight of the steaming kettle still sitting on the stove,“I’ll get it. You stay here.”
Jumping off the couch Lexa walked over to her kitchen and removed the kettle as she turned off the stove’s burner. Lexa placed the now quiet kettle on one of the back burners before quickly making her way back over to the couch and throwing herself back over Clarke.
“Now, where were we?”
“I believe right before that rude ass kettle scared the shit out of us, your hand was right about here,” Clarke breathed out as she guided Lexa’s hand back into it’s previous position under her breast.
Lexa let her fingertips brush lightly against Clarke’s bra covered breast before leaning down and placing her forehead against the blonde’s,“Mhmm, that seems about right. But maybe just a little higher.”
A shuddering gasp slid from Clarke’s lips as Lexa’s hand pushed right under her bra and gently grasping a perky breast in the palm of her hand. Lexa smirked seductively as Clarke’s eyes fluttered closed in pleasure as she continued to knead the soft flesh of her breast. After a few moments of watching the doctor’s flickering facial expressions Lexa removed her hand and grasped the hem of Clarke’s shirt and urged her to sit up so she could remove the cotton fabric from her frame.
Throwing the shirt over her shoulder to land silently somewhere behind her Lexa let her eyes slide hungrily along Clarke’s body,“You may have looked good in my shirt but you look even better out of it.”
Clarke giggled happily before throwing her arms around Lexa’s neck and pulling her back down into a searing kiss. Clothes began to slip off of skin to sink to the floor and hands brushed along heated skin as both women became lost in the passion of each other’s love.
Lexa’s hands gently skimmed along Clarke’s bare back as the blonde, who laid directly on her chest, lazily traced the design of her upper bicep tattoo. Clarke suddenly moved her hand away from her tattoo and placed it on Lexa’s chest so she could rest her chin against it. Smiling, Lexa lifted a hand to run through the golden locks of her fiancé’s hair causing her to let out a contentment filled sigh.
“Is it wrong for me to still wish we were in Orlando?” Clarke asked quietly.
“No, because I’m thinking the same thing. I could have stayed wrapped up with you in that presidential suite for another week, if not longer.”
Clarke chuckled lowly,“Yes, and their spa and pool. It was like heaven there.”
Lexa nodded in agreement before the word pool had registered in her mind. It wasn’t until that very moment that she noticed that Clarke had not only gone in the pool without her chair, but had dived into the ocean to save her those few months ago.
“Hey, I just realized you didn’t use your chair in the pool.”
“Uh, yeah. I sort of don’t need it anymore.”
Lexa stared at Clarke, who looked at everything but her, before hesitantly speaking,“Your mother told me about him. Your dad, I mean.”
“She did?” Clarke’s shocked eyes turned on her.
“Yes. About how you were fifteen and asked your father to teach you to surf…and how he didn’t make it.”
Clarke glumly nodded her head, unshed tears welling up in her eyes. Lexa quickly sat them up and tugged a very naked Clarke into her equally naked lap. Comforting words were whispered from Lexa’s lips and into Clarke’s ears as the blonde allowed a few tears to streak down her cheeks. Pulling back Lexa softly brushed her thumbs across the doctor’s cheeks and wiped away the salty tears.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to bring back painful memories.”
Clarke shook her head slightly before giving her a tiny smile,“It’s okay. It’s not something I enjoy reliving but I do hate not talking about him. Like he never existed.”
“Even if you don’t talk about him, he’s always with you. He’s apart of you just like you’re apart of him.”
“Thanks,” Clarke whispered.
“You’re welcome,” Lexa said as she tucked a loose strand of Clarke’s hair behind her ear,“Now, why all of a sudden do you not need that chair anymore?”
Clarke’s eyes darkened slightly before her gaze shifted away from Lexa’s,“That day, with Fin. When I saw Caleb stab you and push you into the water…when I got away from Fin and finally got to the edge I hesitated. I looked to see if you were okay, swimming back or at least floating, but when I didn’t see you…,” Clarke trailed off sadly.
“Take your time, Clarke.”
“When I didn’t see you all I could think about was my dad. How I wasn’t able to save him and I lost him because of it. I couldn’t lose someone else I loved. I couldn’t. So I just jumped in. My heart pounded in my chest at first but when I saw you struggling to get to the surface everything just disappeared. The only thing that mattered was you. Not Fin, Caleb, or Niylah. Nothing. I just kept swimming and when I finally got you in my arms it was like my fears just washed away.”
Lexa sat silently and felt her heart flutter at Clarke’s words. An unkempt wave of love washed over her as she stayed locked with those ocean blue eyes. Neither women said anything as they searched each other’s eyes for a few moments. Lexa encircled her arms around Clarke’s waist and placed a kiss to her forehead and letting her lips linger there.
“You weren’t ever going to lose me, Clarke. Not then and not now. Yes, I did leave for a bit but you never truly lost me. No matter what happens to me I will always find my way back to you, whether I’m in this life or the next,” Lexa whispered.
Clarke’s eyes shimmered yet again as they welled up with tears,“I love you, Lexa. From the moment I met you I knew there was something different about you. When I finally admitted to myself that I loved you I knew I would never be able to stop. Even when you left me, without any word, I couldn’t stop myself from loving you. When I did try to stop it just hurt, like there was just a black void in my chest. Nothing compared to the pain of trying to stop my love for you, not even a gunshot wound.”
Lexa took in a shuddering breath and swallowed past the lump that had formed in the center of her throat. So many emotions played through her mind as she stared at the woman before her, but nothing stronger than love. Love for the golden halo that she woke up to in the morning. Love for the ocean blue eyes that pulled her into their depths with each passing glance. Love for the delightful sound of bells that was her laugh. Nothing but love.
Lexa tugged Clarke closer to her and placed an emotion filled kiss to her lips. As their lips cascaded over each other the spark of heat, not one caused by lust but the one caused by pure emotion, jolted through them as they pulled each other impossibly closer. Like they were trying to become one. Mind, body, and soul. Hands caressed the smooth skin of each other’s bodies as they allowed themselves to fall deeper into their passion.
Soft gasps and whispered moans filled the dimly lit apartment and it wasn’t long before Lexa was shifting Clarke’s legs to tangle around her hips so she could stand up and begin carrying her off towards her bedroom. As they reached the room Lexa allowed them to fall into the bed, never putting more than a centimeter of space between their skin. A quiet gasp left Clarke’s throat as Lexa pinned her hands against the mattress and ran her nose along the edge of her jaw before placing a feather soft kiss below her ear.
“I don’t think it’ll ever be possible, but I’m going to show you just how much love, for you, floats around in here,”Lexa said as she placed one of Clarke’s hands against her beating chest.
Clarke’s eyes glazed over as she felt the steady beating of Lexa’s heart against her chest,“Then show me. Right now.”
Lexa pinned Clarke’s hand back above her head once again before trailing a fire of open mouthed kisses along her neck. Loosening her grip on Clarke’s wrists Lexa began ghosting her fingers down her arms and following the path to her shoulders and down her chest to grasp onto the soft mounds of flesh that were her breasts. An unrepressed moan left Clarke’s throat as Lexa began to massage the perky breasts while still kissing along her neck and over her collarbone.
A few minutes of massaging and kissing passed before Lexa allowed one hand to trail down to the apex of Clarke’s thighs and finding the hidden pearl that rested between her folds. Clarke threw her head back against the bed, causing her back to arch off the bed, as Lexa applied a steady amount of pressure to the most sensitive area of her body. As Lexa began to rub the little bundle of nerves Clarke’s hands searched for something to latch onto before suddenly finding purchase in Lexa’s loose brunette curls.
Lexa felt a small twinge of pain as Clarke continued to tighten her hold on her hair and only ignored it as she sped up her ministrations on her hidden pearl. Clarke’s legs wrapped around her hips and pulled her body in closer, leaving just enough room for Lexa to continue to move her hand, and let her mouth close over her shoulder. Lexa could feel Clarke’s legs begin to quiver around her as she brought her closer to the edge.
Without warning Lexa suddenly pushed two fingers into Clarke while allowing her thumb to continue to rubbing quickly over her bundle of nerves. Pumping once, twice, it didn’t take long for Clarke’s body to begin quaking with the force of her orgasm. Lexa felt Clarke’s teeth firmly bite down against her shoulder, more than positive it would leave a mark, and was thrown over the edge of her own release without any warning. Lexa’s chest heaved as she came down from her unexpected high and locked eyes with an equally out of breath Clarke.
“Did you just?” Clarke wheezed out.
Not able to form words at the moment Lexa could only nod hastily at the blonde below her. A happy giggle came from Clarke before Lexa suddenly found her self being flipped onto her back with Clarke straddling her hips. Finally catching her breath Lexa placed her hands on Clarke’s hips and let her thumbs rub firm soothing circles along the flesh. Lexa let her eyes flutter close as Clarke began running her hands along the planes of her stomach, slowly making their way up to her chest.
Clarke leaned down and ran her lips along the shell of Lexa’s ear,“I hope you’re ready for round two because now it’s time for me to show you how much love for you is in my heart.”
Lexa’s mind lost all train of thought as Clarke suddenly shifted down and captured one of her breasts in her mouth and proceeded to suck and swirl her tongue around the duty pink nipple. Unrepressed heat filled the air around them and Lexa’s gasps and moans filled the room as Clarke continued to have her way with her body long into the night.