Chapter 35
"But that's what you asked for, it's what you said you wanted to eat" Joan replied frowning at Vera who was sat across from her at the dining table, the half eaten meal on her plate being pushed around with her fork, Joan's frown deepening, her lip twitching at the scrape of the metal against the china of the plate.
"I know and it's lovely, it really is, you cook the most delicious food" looking up to Joan and giving a half smile and then looking back down at the food again.
What is going on here?
She likes the food but isn't smiling properly.
Says I cook well but has only half eaten the meal.
I cook what she asks for but then doesn't eat it.
I'm confused and slightly worried.
She's been this way for a couple of days now.
I didn't think much of it at first, but now this behaviour is worrying me.
Especially when she's not given much in terms of thoughts away.
Not given much away at all.
"Vera talk to me, what is all this, what's the matter?".
"Nothing Joan...nothing" she replied bluntly, suddenly rising from her chair and carrying the plate over to the sink.
Ok now there's definitely something going on.
She seems tense, a little on edge.
Like something is building.
Bubbling underneath.
Simmering inside of her.
"Vera..." coming behind the smaller woman, her large hands smoothing over small shoulders, down her arms and then around her waist, her head resting against her deputies.
"Tell me, tell me what's wrong, you can tell me anything, anything at all, you know you can" she whispered reassuringly.
Vera sighed, leaning back into the embrace, the embrace that had it all, made her feel safe, by the hell did it make her feel safe, those strong arms wrapped around her, wrapping around her body making her feel secure, that nothing or no one could hurt her.
"It's just...it's..it's a bit..bit embarrassing. I just...I want to" taking a minute to gather herself, trying again. "At the beginning of my treatment I didn't want to...didn't want anyone touching me, or have much interest in sex, but since...since the treatment, the new treatment anyway, lately I've felt myself, felt myself getting more...more.." sighing again in frustration at trying but failing to explain herself to Joan.
"You mean wanting more of this" Joan offered, moving her head and starting to kiss Vera's neck, her hands stroking over Vera's toned stomach, the smaller woman moving her neck to allow Joan more access.
Moving her kisses to the other side of Vera's neck, one of Joan's hands slipped into Vera's lounge pants, cupping her over her knickers, feeling the heat and wetness radiating off of her, the feeling making Joan smile to herself, Vera groaning at the touch.
Saying nothing Joan released her lips from Vera's neck, turning the smaller woman round to be facing her, leaning down once again and capturing her lips, pulling Vera into her, their tongues coming together making both women moan into the kiss. A hand once again left Vera's hip, dragging her lounge pants and knickers down the legs of the other woman, pooling them at her ankles, the older woman breaking the kiss to follow the path of the garments at Vera's feet, suddenly hitching one of the smaller woman's legs over her shoulder, making her legs automatically spread, dark brown eyes looking up into blue.
Silently Joan trailed her tongue over Vera's slit, from the bottom to the top, pausing just before making contact with her clit, the action causing Vera to moan, closing her eyes and gripping onto the work surface behind her, an ache building between her legs. Smiling at the reaction Joan repeated her action, gaining a slightly louder moan this time, the scent of Vera's arousal filling her flared nostrils, this arousal glistening on her tongue.
"J...Joan please, I...I need..y.." her sentence being cut short by the older woman driving her tongue deep inside the woman in front of her, the entrance an easy one given how wet Vera was, something that always pleased Joan to see, pleased her that she was able to elitist this reaction and arousal in Vera from simply kissing her neck and touching her, being close to her, wanting her.
With a leg over her shoulder, Joan palmed Vera's ass, pulling Vera into her mouth even more, upping the pace of her tongue, as she brushed her thumb over the now swollen and sensitive nub that was Vera's clit, the gentle touch enough to entice more louder moans from the deputy, her hips bucking with vigour into the older woman's face, faster with each thrust of Joan's tongue, each brush of her thumb.
How she seems to know what I want.
How from me pushing food around my plate.
To me walking into the kitchen and now this.
By god she knows what to do.
What to do to me.
What I want.
What I like.
What makes me feel good.
And by god does it make me feel good, so good.
I've missed this so much.
This spontaneity.
This passion.
These feelings.
Oh god these feelings.
So so good.
She's so good.
One hand knuckle deep in thick, dark and silver flecked tresses, hips pounding into an eager and skilled tongue, mouth and thumb, Vera's back arching, her opposite hands knuckles white as she gripped the surface behind her trying not to end up on the floor as a powerful orgasm swept over her body, loud moans of satisfaction, calling out Joan's name, definitely satisfaction but also more besides, it was heavenly, that's what it was, being catapulted to a higher plane, a higher plane that Vera had missed very much, a plane that only Joan could take her too, no one else but Joan.
The moans and pleasure of Vera still lingering on her lips and tongue, Joan slowly got to her feet, her arms around a trembling Vera, looking down to see blue eyes full of what were they..tears?
"Hey now, what's the matter?" Joan said softly, her brown eyes searching the smaller woman's face, freeing one of her hands to cup Vera's cheek for a moment, watching Vera lean into her hand, a couple of tears rolling down the pretty face in front of her. The younger woman saying nothing as she leaned forward and rested her head on Joan's chest, holding onto Joan's t shirt, closing her eyes, letting the tears come. "Shhhh, what's all this eh?" becoming that little bit concerned at Vera getting upset.
"N...Nothing bad, I just....I just feel emotional because, because it's hit me how much...how much I've missed this, missed being this close to you, having you...you touch me, making me feel good" she mumbled into Joan's chest, feeling the soothing hand of the older woman on her back, then a kiss on the top of her head.
"I've missed it too, but given the circumstances and how poorly you've been it didn't feel right to add anymore pressure and worry onto your shoulders in regards to talking about these matters, especially when I had an idea of how you were feeling about it in the beginning. You had enough to worry about and think about in getting better, getting stronger, without this being a worry too. To me it wasn't a worry, not like that because I knew that once things settled down, and you began to feel better that would all follow just like before, and I'm not just with you because of that, quite the opposite, there's so much more than that, so much more to you, much more to...to us, hmm?" feeling a nod against her chest, cries that were more frequent a few minutes ago, now calming and ceasing, Vera moving her head to look up at the Governor.
Vera gave a little nod. "Yes there is" a hand reaching up to stroke Joan's cheek, the older woman smiling at the gesture, feeling her head being tilted down to meet the other woman's lips, Vera also using her fist in Joan's t shirt to pull them together, deepening the kiss. "You are so beautiful, it's not even funny. You're stunning" Vera murmured and smiled against the kiss. "Especially dressed in your house clothes, especially then" her smile being mirrored by the older woman, it's true Joan was stunning, handsome too, Vera could honestly say she'd never seen a more attractive woman in her life, Joan Ferguson was that woman, the pinnacle, the one, the only one.
Parting from the kiss both women gazed at each other, Vera reaching a hand round to touch Joan's ass.
"And you've got a nice bum too, I very nice one" Vera smirked, feeling Joan shiver and blush, no one having said anything about her bum before, let alone a woman she was in love with.
"Joan?".
"Yes Vera?".
"Can we go to bed and have a snuggle, a naked snuggle" catching Joan's eyes as she spoke, just wanting to convey how much she wanted to be close to her girlfriend.
Joan smiled at the suggestion, seeing the look in Vera's eyes. "Of course we can" in one swift movement she'd scooped Vera off her feet and into her arms, making her way out of the kitchen and up the stairs, both women slipping under the covers, Vera resting her head on Joan's shoulder, the older woman led on her back, stroking her hand through Vera's hair, Vera stroking her fingertips down Joan's right arm, her eyes taking in the skin, the different freckles and age spots on there, the way it caught the light from the bedside lamp on Joan's side of the bed, even though Joan was older than she was it didn't take away how good she looked, how fit and well she'd kept herself, how good she looked for her age, not many women could claim to look as good as she could at her age, not like Joan did, no one could like Joan did.
"Joan?".
"Hmm?" her eyes closed, enjoying laying with the woman she loved, just holding her and having Vera close to her.
"We're both on the early shift tomorrow and we've no plans for the afternoon have we".
"Not that I'm aware of Vera no, why?".
"I'd like to take you out, out to dinner, if you'd like that?" Vera pausing her hand on Joan's arm, feeling Joan thinking about her suggestion.
"You don't have to do that Vera".
"I know I don't but I'd like to, because of my illness and me not feeling well we've not been able to go out together for quite a while, now I'm feeling better than I have for a while I'd like us to go out together, for me to take you out, nothing too much just the two of us out for a nice meal, me taking you out, please Joan?" the younger woman's tone projecting how much she wanted to take her out, Joan opening her eyes to gaze down at the hopeful blue eyes looking back up at her. "Let me take you out hmm?" her hand from Joan's arm cupping her cheek.
Joan couldn't help but smile.
How can I not smile at those big blue eyes.
That beautiful face and features looking back at me.
This wondrous creature that's somehow mine.
Who wants to take me out to dinner.
Not anyone else but me.
How could I refuse that.
I can't and I wouldn't.
Not her.
Never her.
My Vera.
Joan nodded at the offer. "Ok then, we'll go out tomorrow after work, thank you" leaning down for another kiss with the woman in her arm, Vera's thumb stroking her cheek as they did so.
"I love you so much" Vera whispered breaking their kiss to look into Joan's eyes again, her thumb now brushing over Joan's bottom lip tenderly. "Thank you for all you do for me" watching the older woman kiss her thumb, then lean down and kiss the tip of her nose.
"Those things I do because I love you too, very much" a kiss then was placed on Vera's forehead, Joan cuddling Vera flush against her body, her arms protectively around her, feeling the woman in her arms rest her head back on her shoulder, Vera's arms tucked in between their bodies, relaxing even more as Joan stroked her hair and temple, a wide smile over Joan's face at the evenings events.