Beyond The Past

Beyond The Past

Chapter 11 – Revaling Truth Never Hurted Like This Before, Girls Having Night Together

A/N: I dont own Resident Evil. I own Kira. May contains curse words, and sassy gayness, from another incest pairing, lol.

I can't get out Claire's face from my mind.

How she looked at me. Like she's about to kill me, while she's crying her soul out, for mercy. Like a controlled puppet, who makes fool of herself. But it wasn't about controlling, or any shit thing to talk. Maybe she noticed me, during having this flashback, or even something worster.

She just looked at me. Trying to have the challange, not to look into my eyes. All the way, she sat like that, I guessed, I might said something bad…

„What's the matter?" I asked.

„You ask?" Her voice scared me. I was afraid, she might get under control, but no. Her eyes were still deep blue. How beautiful blue eyes have caught me, the way before. „How do you explain this to me?" She held out my phone to show me, my lockscreen.

It was nothing other, than my first picture with my father, after we becamed a couple. I wished she could saw my wallaper. It was normal. Again, a picture with my father, buti t was taken at my sixteenth birthday, with my cake. Yes, that picture is taken after we've started dating, but you know how I meant it. I guess so…

I saw it in her eyes, how mad she is. Still. Couldn't handle the fact we've dated. And it ended almost like a year ago, because we've broked up when I've hitted seventeen. And I'm hitting eighteen next month. We can say, it was almost two years ago, and yes, my feelings totally changed about my father, after that affair.

„It's over, Claire. Get over it" I crossed my arms, turning to face her. She still faced the wall, after putting down my phone.

„How long it taked to realise it's disgusting as hell?" She asked, not facing me. I would love to see her face, when she's talking about things like this. It's simply not fair.

„As long as you're not facing me, I'm not answering any of your questions, auntie" I told her. You want a game where everything is fair, you need to be rude.

„I don't ask where you've learned this" She faced me. Her arms were crossed, like mine. I just don't understand, why are she's like this? Those arms hugged me like two hour ago, now protecting herself, from me.

„I was fifteen" I started. „Sixteen when we got together, seventeen when we've broked up. Happy now?" I've puted up my hands, while asking. Breaking free my crossed hands.

„Better, not happy" She answered, as she lighted up a cigarette.

I wish I could ask for one, but I didn't did. I watched as she takes her breaths, and takes it deep. Killing something inside of her. Making her feel better.

I looked at my shoe, and I looked at her. When our eyes met, she rolled hers, then she turned to her cigarette box, and held it out to me, for taking one. I smiled, as she lighted up mine, and breathed a big one, then letting it out.

„I thought you don't even want me anymore" I breaked the silence.

„Not wanting you, Kira?" She laughed. „You're everything I want in my life"

„As I said, please don't make me remember to anything from my past. It's beyond it, now" I begged for her. Her answer was her smile. And it meant the world for me.

Later that day

I kept the memories, run in my head.

Even thought, I was with my girlfriend, who've accepted my dirty little secret, and promised me, not making remember to any shitty thing from the past. But I know, sometimes it would be a great thing, to fuck the shit out of my past. I just wanna be a normal girl, with a normal life.

„I haven't noticed your hair being full blonde again, not that ombre style" Claire said, while lighting up a cigarette. It was late night. Maybe around one AM. We were up. Reason: We couldn't get out head to sleep.

„I've taked the Virus into my body, because to protect myself from the Red Queen's words, to kill you" I answered.

„You just kicked away two year, because of me?" Claire asked, with suprise in her voice.

„I've couldn't do it for my father, but you, Claire… I did it in the first secound, just to be clear"

„No one ever did something brave for me, like this. Just to be something what they don't want to be, because protecting me"

She amazed, by me. She was only in a long white tshirt. Her hair was out, and messy. I got one of her long „catpant", then a tshirt, what got Let Me Live behind it. I guess it was one of her sweetest, because I saw it, I've fallen in love with it, and she didn't let me take it, so I begged for it, then she gived her back to the tshirt.

„Sometimes we gotta feel the pain, to taste the sweetness" I smiled at her. The way she taked those breaths from the cigarette, maked me wanting it more.

„I got that tshirt from my brother. I mean, your dad. This is the reason I was really nerveous about giving it to you" She explained.

„I can give it back, and I find something to sleep in"

„After all, you can take it off, and don't find any tshirt. I don't mind that option either" An evil grin appeard on her lips. I just laughed, then pushed a pillow to her. „You evil Wesker!" She shouted.

„Evil Weskerfield" I corrected her.

„Weskerfield?"

„Wesker + Redfield. After all, I have these in me, it would be unfair to use only Wesker. Also, the Red Queen told me this, so?" I laughed.

„I like it. Also, the Red Queen said it, because Wesker combined it. Back, when they were only teenagers. Oh god, those years" She fallen back, while she laughed. „I was only nineteen when I met you, so I was a teenager"

„Oh yeah? Different situation, I'm going to be eighteen, still a teenager" I hited the karma back.

„I saw your lockscreen, time for you to see mine" Claire grabbed her phone. Unlocked it, and showed it to me.

I didn't get the picture. It was behind something, but I saw her, holding a baby, to a cake, and pepoles behind her. I was confused.

„I still don't get it" I breaked the five minute long break. It was for taking long breaths, as I heard.

„It was on your third birthday. You couldn't keep your mouth shout, if I won't take you to the cake. Your parents weren't really happy about it, but it was your birthday, so they let me take you" She started. „And before you ask, this photo was taken by one of your father's old friend. She's not here, I mean, she's alive, but we haven't saw her since your birthday, and that was strange"

„I hope I can remember you, taking me to my birthday cake, then I can tell you with my eyes" I smiled at her. She leaned to me, and kiss me. This kiss, wasn't like any. Sweet, slow, and taking me over, by her charm…

Sometimes, I've tasted happiness before pain…