Beyond The Past

Beyond The Past

Chapter 2 - What's Hurts The Most?

A/N: I dont own Resident Evil. I own Kira.

The ride, on the motorbike with Claire was amazing. I've never been out to the real world. I mean, I went outside of the facility, but never moved around to the city or anything. When I was nine, I used to go out to the closer cities, but as soon my dad got bored of it, I got bored of it too, and it went to zero.

Holding Claire, is really maked me feel comfortable, and… safe.

„When was the last time you have seen a human from the outside?" Claire asked, breaking the silence, breaking me away from my thoughts.

„I was nine" I answered. She laughed. I wanted to question this sudden voice, but I didn't did.

„When I was nine, I had to fight with the thought, that my brother is taken. Sadly, I didn't knowed about one of that Wesker's dirty plan" Claire explained.

I tried to get a picture in myself, who she talks about, but I didn't get it. I thinked of my father… But that's stupid. How could my father and Claire's brother would be that type of endless love. And why do she talks more, when I start to talk about my past…? Maybe she knows the truth, or something what leads to the truth.

„So, you were nine when you realised the only boy in your life is taken? Were you jealous of your brother or something?" I asked with a little laugh in my sarcasm. I didn't saw her face. I thought she made a disgusted face, but no. Silence. „Did I said something bad…?" I asked.

„It's not a funny joke. I was only nine… How could I be jealous of my brother? I don't love him the way someone other has to do, and that other one is just simply fucking played with him. And it's not right" She answered. Her voice was angry. She sounded like someone, who's trying to get revenge, for someone, who she loved.

I never had a brother, or even a sister. I had my aunt, that was all. I had a niece too, but we never kept contact. I just knowed about her, and she knowed about me. Maybe we even met, but I can't remember.

„I'm sorry, Claire… I didn't meant to…" I pushed my face to her back. She pulled her hand to hold mine, for a secound.

„You didn't knowed, and it's all right"

After this long ride, we finally arrived. It was away from Raccoon City. Really it was. Now it was about to open a new page in my book. She looked at me. Like she would say something, what would blow my mind. But she didn't told me, what she would loved to. Just a smile appeard on her lips, looking straight into my eyes. My smile showed my teeth, a little. I couldn't keep, but smile at her smile. I really like the way she smiles…

„So, you're taking me with you on your meeting with your brother, what should beetwhen you two, not me, as a third person" I said.

„It's not a choice, that you chose, first person, or third person. I hope you don't mind, after all" Claire smiled at me, again. „We only have eachother. After fifteen years of the accident, I losed my niece, he losed her daughter…"

„What happenned…?" I asked. She looked down. Maybe a tear fell down. I tried to hold myself back, from holding her close to me, and let her do the job, of letting go the pain, what she could hold back since she got her mind back, after all.

„A fight started it all… And I only comed home for the ending. My niece saw all of it. My brother had losed it all. And I realised, it was for something, what I never realised. I kept that I will have my revenge, but I let it go, as I said" She explained, looking at me. „My niece had the same eyes… You have…"

„It's a mix of blue and yellow now. Almost back to the original, finally" I laughed a little.

Our little „fun" have ended in minutes, when someone breaked it. And as I guessed it was her brother, Chris.

„So, the girl we have here?" he asked.

„Kira. I've just met her, and I know it's crazy, but… It's kindda like I know her before meeting her" Claire explained.

„Kira… How beautiful… I always wanted to have a daughter, and her name would be Kira…" Chris looked into my eyes, deeply. Like he would read something out of my eyes. I gasped, couldn't even forced myself to take a breath. „Shit…"

„What's wrong?" Claire asked.

„You bringed her here. You know her and you just don't even tell me?! God damn it, Claire! I've thought I lost her, and I will never see her again, but here she is!" Chris shouted. I was confused. I didn't knowed what's going on. I need some answers. I need something to hold on…

„Well… I don't know a thing about what my father have done in the past, because it's way beyond it, so I don't bother him about it" I speaked up, breaking the sudden shouts.

„You don't even remember to us?" Chris asked.

„I don't remember anything, in my childhood. I only remember when my family got seperated. And it's still in blur… I don't want to remember, if I can say this" I answered.

„Family got seperated… You mean to the fight, right?" Claire asked.

„Yes, I meant it" I answered.

As the words slipped out of my mouth, my head started to pound. I held my face, and tried to stop the pain, but it didn't stopped. I fell down to my knees, and fell down to the earth, covering the ground.

I didn't understand at all. Why it hurted me? Why did the memories kept hurting me? Did Umbrella behind all of this? Taking me down everytime I remember something I don't remember?

I don't care.

I want to remember.