Chapter 11
Kara stares at her reflection on the mirror yet she sees nothing of herself. She looks at herself and sees the necklace Lena gave her. She stares at it and she sees the image of her mom tucking her into bed every night, reading the Little Prince to her. Kara sees her dad making breakfast for her and her mom. She sees her parents beside her, tickling a little Kara Danvers. She touches her necklace and she feels her parents' love. But she couldn't look at those necklace without reminding her of Lena. It wasn't just her parents that she sees. She also sees Lena, holding her at her mom and dad's grave on her birthday. She sees herself in Lena's arms feeling like she's on the safest place. She sees herself that night, allowing herself to feel all those things she should have felt for Lucy.
Her conscience had been eating her up so she has been spending more and more time with her girlfriend, thinking that whatever feelings she'd brought back up that night would just drown themselves. She has been avoiding Lena too. They've been texting and calling each other on a regular basis but Kara avoided personal contact. She was the worst liar and lately whenever Lena's around, she couldn't act straight even just for a minute. Somehow, Lena's presence make her really anxious. Although she wonders why Lena hasn't even noticed that Kara had been avoiding her. Lena usually notices by now. Maybe LCorp had been occupying her best friend's time.
What Kara didn't know though is that Lena hadn't notice because she herself have been avoiding the blonde as well. She hasn't told Kara about the break up. She was not planning to. As each day passes by, Lena is realizing more and more about her feelings for Kara, falling even more for her. But Lena couldn't jeopardize their friendship or Kara's happiness with Lucy. Lena, this time, is willing to be the one to wait for Kara, no matter how long it takes.
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Kara was not prepared to see Lena on a date night with Lucy. Kara and Lucy enter ALIEN (the bar nearby), holding hands. Kara's smile slowly fades when she sees those beautiful green eyes by the pool table. Lena was laughing with Veronica whose back was on Kara. Just when Kara thought she was finally done with this, a familiar feeling crept on her. She was Jealous. She clenches her fist to stop herself from being more obvious because she had no reason to be jealous. She reminds herself she's here with Lucy.
"Lena." Lucy acknowledges her.
Kara sees Lena slowly turning to face them as her laughter slowly stops. Kara feels a little bit of disappointment with this.
"Lucy." Lena then turns to Kara, surprise in her eyes. And was that panic? "Kara."
The woman who is with Lena turns around. And to Kara's surprise it wasn't Veronica. It was Jess, Lena's secretary. Kara thought she would be relieved that it wasn't Veronica but somehow her Jealousy just got worst. She bites her lip, trying to control her emotions.
"Kara" Jess hugs Kara, giving the blonde a wide smile.
"Oh. Jess,Lucy. Lucy, Jess" Lena introduces her secretary and Lucy. "I'd say she's my secretary but not anymore. We are celebrating her promotion. Care to join us?"
"Oh." Kara says and now regrets because everyone is now looking at her giving her curious looks.
Seeing Kara made lena's heart beat rapidly. She started to panic despite being all proper on the outside. She would have probably acted weird if not for the distraction that Kara's 'OH' gave. Lena wonders what Kara's tone meant. She knows her best friend too well. Although Kara is naturally friendly and probably the kindest person she knows and the most universally liked, Lena knows that was the tone Kara uses when she dislikes someone which is odd. Because Jess had been Lena's secretary for a long time and Kara and Jess are friends. Not that close but friends nonetheless. So Kara using that tone to Jess was a bit of mystery.
"Yeah, sure" Lucy says, saving Kara from the uncomfortable silence and stares. "We just finished our dinner and we're in the mood for some friendly match."
"Oh. Is that a dare, Ms. Lane?" Lena teases, smirking as she turns her head towards Jess. "Jess here got some game. And You haven't seen me in my college years"
Kara kept her mouth shut. She notices how Lena smirked. She was definitely flirting with Jess. How could she do that to Veronica? Kara rolls her eyes. She couldn't believe she was thinking about Veronica's feelings. Oh who was she kidding? Ofcourse it's not about how Veronica would feel. Why did Jess get promoted anyway? A thousand questions were running through Kara's mind and she was struggling so hard to keep a poker face but apparently she couldn't.
"Kara, honey. Don't worry." Lucy puts an arm around Kara, assuring her. "We'll crush them"
"I dont think so" Jess teases. "I'm very good at what I do"
They were interrupted by the waiter who asked them if it was Lucy's car parked outside. It was blocking another parked car so she had to go out to park it in a different space. Jess, Lena and Kara decided to wait for Lucy before starting to play pool so the three of them played darts instead.
Kara usually has good aim but apparently her emotions are messing with her. She couldn't hit near the bullseye. Her hits were way too far.
Kara throws another dart and it doesn't even land on the circles. "what's taking Luce so long"
"Ill go check on her" Jess walks out the door, not giving anyone the chance to object.
Kara throws another dart and this time it hits the dart board but still far from the center. Lena laughs as she shakes her head.
"Kara, darling. Honestly, how can your aim with guns be so good when you suck at darts."
Kara just shrugs, not saying a word. Lena is really sure something is wrong right now. This was probably the longest Kara has not spoken a word and everyone knows Kara Danvers is a rambling mess. Lena is pretty sure Her best friend is wearing her annoyed face right now.
"Okay, Kara. What's wrong?" Lena asks with a worried tone.
Kara sighs, throwing another dart, pointing at the dart board. "Nothing. I just can't hit it right"
Lena laughs. She comes closer to Kara, just right behind the blonde. But it was somehow too close for both of them.
"Here, let me show you." Lena whispers, her lips just behind Kara's earlobe.
Lena touches Kara's back, adjusting her posture. She takes Kara's hand with the dart, slowly angling as she aims for the bullseye. They are too close with each other. Lena's heart start to beat rapidly again. She tries to calm herself and focus on what she's trying to teach Kara.
"There." Lena says, pointing at the bullseyes, still holding Kara's hand with the dart. "Focus on what you want to aim and tell yourself you have to get it. That you will"
Lena was whispering in Kara's ear and her touch makes Kara shiver. Thank god she was able to calm the hand Lena is holding but her other hand was shaking. Lena this close to Kara makes her knees tremble and her heart palpitate. It made her feel butterflies in her stomach. Kara releases the dart and it instantly hit the bullseye. Lena and Kara's eyes widen. They both laugh at this.
"See." Lena says, slowly turning to meet Kara's gaze
Their laughter slowly fades, turning it into a smile instead. Lena and Kara, faces with only few inches away from each other, stare at each other's eyes. Their smiles were fixed at each other, their gazes are locked, speaking a thousand words. Kara and Lena are dangerously leaning closer, biting their lips. They were trapped in this moment until reality set in.
"Oh now we can have that pool match!"
They both take a step back from each other as they hear Lucy's voice by the door. They played pool and Kara and Lucy were losing. Apparently, Jess really did have game. Lena, as Kara knows, wasn't bad either. She sees Lena and Jess high five when they finally won. This even made Kara grumpier.
"Aghh" Kara pouts.
Lena is now really concerned with Kara. She has been so focused in controlling her feelings and hiding the fact that it stings that Kara is on a date with Lucy that she almost kissed Kara awhile ago. And she hates herself because maybe that's why Kara looks upset right now. She hates herself because she really wants to do everything right for Kara yet now she had messed it up again.
"Kara" Lucy laughs. "It's just a game, Kar"
But for Kara, it was not. She doesn't bother saying goodbye as she walks out the door of the ALIEN bar. She could hear voices calling for her but she is too tired and her emotions are clearly getting the best out of her.
She arrives in her apartment and quickly takes a shower before going to bed. When she gets out of the bathroom she was startled by the figure in the dark waiting for her.
"Geez Lena. You scared me."
"Sorry?"
"What are you doing here?"
Len sighs. "I just want to make sure you're alright. And I'm really sorry Kara. I-"
Before Lena could speak more, Kara cut her off. "It wasn't something you did Lena. I was just really tired."
Lena knows Kara was lying but she lets it go for now.
"Since you're here.." Kara Walks to the fridge and pulls out a pint of Mint Pistachio Ice cream, giving Lena a wide grin. "Wanna watch a disney movie?"
"Wouldn't miss it!" Lena's smile widens as she raises the paper bag she was holding. "Potstickers. I thought these would cheer you up"
Kara basically squeals as they sit on the couch, Lena eating ice cream while Kara devours her potstickers.
Lena hadn't noticed that Kara had fallen asleep on her lap halfway of the movie. Kara must be really tired. She doesn't want to wake Kara up so she decides she's gonna try to sleep that way even if her position is uncomfortable. She strokes Kara's hair, her gaze lost on Kara's face, her heart flustering at the sight of Kara Danvers sleeping on her lap, holding, her hand unconsciously.
"I... I hope I get the chance to take care of you, Kara" She whispers, wishing that one day, she'd be able to.